Chapter 20: The Dream turned to Nightmare

Author's Note:

So I realized that I'm just going to have to split up some of these chapters because there's just too much going on. After these chapters are posted I won't have things so scattered out and unorganized. Things will fall into place soon.

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She quietly rested in her hospital bed thinking of no one other than Jason Morgan. Her dreams had been filled with him ever since she first met him and always thought of what could be when they weren't together. Now they were together and it had all turned into one big nightmare rather than the dream she had pictured when she crashed her car on a snowy night so many months ago. She really thought Jason loved her, she really thought they could be a perfect family; raise their two boys and perhaps have more children, but that dream seemed so far away from the one she was stuck in now.

She had said things that couldn't be taken back. She had told him she hated him that she wanted him out of her life and Jason was the kind of guy that got the hint once you told him. He didn't fight for anything or never really fought for her or their relationship, he took her word for it whenever she said it was over. She always wondered if he would ever fight for her like he fought for Courtney and Sam, she wanted to know what if felt like to have someone truly fight for her to have someone who wouldn't take no for answer, to have someone to step up to the plate and say "I can't live without you…" Lucky had done all these things, but what she really wanted was for Jason to do all those things for her. She wanted to see him not give up on them, she wanted to see him believe they have something worth fighting for and she wanted to hear Jason say those magic words and actually mean them. She knew Jason all too well for he would never do that with her, Jason was never good with his feelings and knew he never would be at least not with her and that saddened her, no it deeply troubled her.

"Jason…" she stirred until she realized she was not in the studio with him, she was in the hospital.

She was awake now, lying in the hospital bed where Dr. Lee would momentarily be in to check up on her. She thought back to everything that had happened in the past couple of hours with her argument with Jason still fresh in her mind.

Hearing him plea again with her as he walked towards her with his hands out wanting to hold her, "Please Elizabeth give me another chance…let me show you that you're the one I want."

"Don't push me away!" he tried to say to her as he got close to hugging her.

She broke down for a second and he was able to hold her until she felt his arms around her too long, she pushed him again and harder than she had before, "I hate you!"

He stopped cold and Elizabeth was shocked to see that he had stopped. She looked up at him and saw the hurt in his eyes, "You…you don't mean that!"

She wished she hadn't said it, but she had thought about it once or twice while thinking about him and how bad he hurt her, "I do. I hate the fact that you keep saying you want me and yet you kissed her last night that you wanted to run away with her, that you had another test done like you didn't trust me when I said you were the father. That you haven't forgiven me until two seconds ago and that you don't love me! Well you've broken my heart for the last time Jason Morgan!"

She put her hands over her mouth; she couldn't believe that she told Jason that she hated him because to be honest she could never hate him. She was angry with him and hurt by him, but she could never hate him for everything he's done for her in the past seven years. He was the shoulder she could cry on and he was there when no one else would hear her. He was her voice of reason, but for right now she was going to have to use her gut, her heart and her head to figure out what she was going to do next.

"Elizabeth?" Dr. Lee asked as she walked in.

"Hey…" she softly said.

"How are you feeling?" Dr. Lee walked over to the monitors.

"Better…how long have I been…" she wondered how long she had been out.

"Just an hour…maybe more…" Dr. Lee said as she was anticipating Elizabeth's next question.

"Oh Kelly please tell me everything is ok." Elizabeth said hoping that nothing was wrong.

"You and the baby are going to be ok…" she assured her.

A sigh of relief hit over her, thank god.

"You were experiencing cramps from dehydration and you were tired and Elizabeth I know what caused this…you can not push Jason…that's too much stress on your body…" she seriously told her.

"I know, I should have known better…" she tried to say seriously but it wasn't sounding like it.

She sat down at her bedside having to be the serious scary doctor now with a stern tough look, "That's right you should have and not to mention arguing with him?" she nodded in disappointment, "that's something you definitely don't need to do especially with him, I know how much he stresses you out and anymore of it will hurt you and the baby."

"Is that what caused the bleeding?" Elizabeth asked seriously now.

"Possibly…" Dr. Lee tried to give an answer, but she really had just explained it.

"But everything is ok right? The baby is fine?" Elizabeth asked again just to make sure that this had not hurt the baby.

"The baby is fine, but although a little bleeding is common in most pregnancies I think we need to pay more attention to it in yours." Dr. Lee pointed to something more serious.

"What do you mean?" Elizabeth asked not really sure what she was getting at.

She started to lecture her, "You were shot just a month ago and although you fully recovered you need to stop whatever it is that is stressing you out. You were doing fine a few days ago, but something has gotten you very upset and has stressed you to the point where if you continue like this through the rest of your pregnancy it will hurt the baby. Now I'm not going to intervene anymore about what you and Jason were talking about or what you two were really doing, but whatever it is you need to just calm down and relax and avoid it."

"Ok." She said calmly smiling.

"Do you want me to send Emily and Nicholas in?" Dr. Lee asked for they were eager to see her.

"Yeah…" she said in relief still that she and the baby were ok.

"Ok and take it easy Elizabeth, you only have a few weeks to go…" she smiled at her before she left.

Elizabeth slumped back into her bed trying to figure out what to do next. She wondered if Jason was outside waiting for news, she wondered is Jason even cared, she lost all faith in them which was why she believed they were better off apart for the rest of her pregnancy.