A/N Writing this on holiday! Woo! Thank you for the nice reviews, well the ones I had a chance to read before we set off! On with the chapter! ^^

Bella's P.O.V

Alice tastes like strawberry lip gloss. How do I know this? BECAUSE SHE KISSED ME!! And do you know who she kissed me in front of? EDWARD! Oh, Jasper was there as well.

"So Alice, now that Edward thinks I'm a lesbian, can I draw out my dress idea?" I asked impatiently as Alice tried to stop laughing.

"Of course Bella, where's all your stuff?"

"Edward's room. I'll go get it." I opened the door a crack and peeked out to make sure the guys weren't waiting on the other side. They weren't so I ran full pelt to Edward's room and grabbed my sketch book and pencil case. I spun round, about to run back to Alice and Jasper's room, when I ran straight into Edward's chest.

"Look what we have here." He wrapped his arms around me in a vice like grip. Not that I really minded.

"Hey Edward." Yeah, crappy come back I know, but he was dazzling me. Therefore I cannot be blamed.

"Hey. So..... Are you planning to spend the night with Alice?"

"Well she is incredibly sexy so I think I may start to bat for that team if you know what I mean. Although...... I do have REALLY hot boy friend so I just don't know!" I shook my head as if I was really faced with a hard decision.

"Hmm, well maybe that hot boy friend will have to convince you to keep to your original team."

He leant down and kissed the side of my mouth softly, before taking my sketch book and pencils and throwing them on the dresser. He leant down and kissed me again, this time on my lower lip. I knew he was teasing me on purpose but I couldn't speak.

He lifted me up and sat me on the desk, pushing the books and papers onto the floor. We were now at the same height and he kissed the sensitive skin just under my ear, trailing kisses down my jaw line, then eventually to my very eager mouth.

We kissed and teased for about an hour before he pulled back and smirked at me.

"So, are you staying with me tonight?" He thought he had me beat, but I had regained my long fought for confidence.

"Well......... I still really like Alice, she is an amazing kisser you know." I sighed. "Although, she doesn't have such a well toned chest as you. Yeah, I guess I could spend the night with you." He grinned and started to kiss me again when Alice came through the door.

"Ok, enough. Am I not good enough for you now Bella? I was plenty the other night." She winked at me and I winked back.

"I know baby, I just need my Eddie sometimes too. Although would you mind being my mistress?" She scratched her head before shrugging.

"Sure, as long as I get a slice of Bella pie every now and again." She purred at me and I blew her a kiss. "Now get your sexy little ass to my room so you can design me a sexy ass dress!" We both laughed as I jumped of the desk. I turned round to give Edward a goodbye kiss. I saw a whole lot of love in his eyes, as well as a little lust and a tiny speck of jealousy.

I knew that Edward and I would get to stage in our relationship where we would be ready to properly be together, to make love. I just didn't know if I was ready yet. After all the bad experiences I had had, I was just scared. I knew Edward would never force me to do anything I didn't want to and to be with him would be nothing like all those other times. Still, I couldn't help the thought terrifying me senseless.

I ignored the lust as best I could though and kissed him gently, trying to show him how much I loved him.

"See you when I get tired." I said before following a bubbling Alice down the hall to her room, now called Alice's torture chamber.

Edward's P.O.V

I was ashamed of myself for even thinking those thoughts about Bella. Especially after all she had been through. The guilt was overwhelming as I thought about how hard it would be for Bella to even think about being intimate with anyone ever again. All the memories would come rushing back and she may even become suicidal again. I could never ask her to go through that. Or expect it.

"I know." Said Jasper as he walked in the room.

"Know what?" I asked.

"I'm an sense emotions, remember?" I nodded. "Look, it's natural to feel lustful of Bella, you'd be a fool not to. The only reason you should begin to feel all this guilt is if you try to force Bella into doing something she doesn't want to do. If you did I would have to kick your ass. You know that right?" I nodded.

"Thanks."

"Oh, and for the record, Bella feels the same as you do." With that he left. Well, this new revelation did leave me in a little bit of a predicament.

An hour later Bella knocked on my door before peeping round the side of the door.

"Can you.... well can you turn around for a sec please?"

"Huh?" I know, such a sophisticated and smooth answer.

"Alice played dress up again." She was blushing now and I realised that Bella's attire must be rather..... revealing.

"Oh, ok." I turned around and heard her run at vampire speed to her normal clothes and then run back out again.

"Back in a minute!" She yelled before the bathroom door slammed shut. Bella was true to her word and walked back in sixty one seconds later, I decided to let her lateness slide just this once.

"You want me to go sort Alice out?" I asked, she smirked.

"I already did it, I yelled at her and then she couldn't stop laughing so I threw her out a window. I opened it first though, no need to make Esme angry." I nodded, Esme would have been pretty upset if Bella had smashed a window by throwing Alice out of it.

"You tired?" I asked.

"Yeah.. No... I want to sleep though." Her eyes became haunted.

"Bella, what's wrong?"

"Nothing!" She chirped brightly, the haunted look vanished from her eyes. She got into bed and turned away from me.

I heard her sobbing and I just didn't know why. She flipped round to face me and flung her arms round my neck.

"Four years today. That was when... when..." She trailed off, her words turning into violent sobs. "Phil." She choked out. "He took my virginity four years today. I thought I could handle it... that I wouldn't breakdown like I usually do... But, it's just so hard!"

Someone tapped on the door. Rose peered around the edge of the door.

"Bella.... I still remember too. You're not alone." Bella flung herself to Rose. I decided that maybe Rose should handle this and I shuffled around the pair.

I'll take care of her Edward, I know what she's going through. Rose's thoughts were loud, obviously meant for me to hear. I nodded and mouthed a quick thank you before going to find Emmett.

A/N So, back from my holidays! Now, do you all want me to write a lemon or will someone else kindly write one for me??? I have no experience so it will be crap and I will be using other peoples material, not copying just putting it into my own words. Up to you.

Lots of love,

Sammy ^^

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