Chapter 20: Desperate - Renesmee

As he continuously hurt Jacob, crushing his bones and throwing him onto the ground, I screamed with desperation and urgency in my heart. I could not say anything, how much I wanted to. Then it came to the point that he was pushing me, trying to break my boundaries. He was holding him by the neck, and Jacob just stayed caught in his grip, dangling above the ground, limp. My heart fell to little tiny bits and pieces, watching the torture. I couldn't take it anymore; I couldn't just stand there to watch while my Jacob was being knocked about recklessly and painfully.

"Please, please! Just stop." I paused, not being able to think. "Take me; kill me, anything you want from me. Just don't hurt any others! And please, don't hurt him!" By then, I was already too desperate to save him, I chose sacrifice.

Tears just started to well up in my eyes, and roll down continuously. I couldn't control it. Seeing me crying, sacrificing myself for him, Caius smiled an awfully devilish grin. His fingers adjusted along Jacob's neck, and I could hear the crackling sound of the neck bone. He picked him up again, and thrust him back onto the ground again. This time, Jacob just remained motionless on the ground, limp. I heard Edward saying something like "Oh my god…" behind me, and I knew things were bad.

My knees buckled naturally, and I fell to the ground. "Please!" I screamed, with an obvious, tired strain in my voice. I couldn't take in anymore cruel sights; watching him being tortured was too painful. I begged him, at his feet, to let all of them go, and just take me.

"I can't. I swore to kill every one of you today. A single person sacrifice just isn't worth it." Caius rejected.

Jacob was already limping away reluctantly with growls. I was so glad he woke up. I loved him too much for him to leave me.

"Then again, maybe I'll give them a chance, since you," His finger stroked my face. "decided to play hero." He laughed.

He signalled everyone to let the rest of my family go. He warned me that if any of them tried to attack them again, he wouldn't give them a chance, and just kill every single one of them. Edward and Bella hissed in hesitation. I looked into Bella's sorrow eyes, full of fear, and hate. I mouthed "No, don't." to her, because knowing her, she would try and get me back.

As I was being taken away by Caius, Jacob and Sam and the rest of the wolf pack started to charge towards the army of guards surrounding me. This time everything was different. I had never seen them fight like that before. It was like the anger and hate clouded their senses, and they could only react to the adrenaline in their blood. They were stronger, faster, and bolder. They took the guards down one by one really quickly, and soon they aimed for Caius. Jane managed to escape though, and when they were taking Caius and Marcus apart, with help from the other vampires, I called for Abigail and Alec to follow me.

I intended to catch Jane, and also to find my perfect dress right after that. However, Jane had just mysteriously disappeared. I could not catch her scent wherever I went.

"So, what now?" I asked Alec and Abigail. Alec turned to Abigail.

"Hmm, that blonde disappears, the fight ends. We should get you your dress!" Abigail squealed. She had a thing for dresses since forever. She would be able to find me my perfect dress.

We were walking the streets of Italy at night when we passed by a shop. Abigail pulled me into the shop and grabbed a dress of the shelf. She told me to try it.

"Oh my gosh…" Her eyebrows lifted.

"What? Do I look funny?"

"N-No! You look… You look perfect!" Abigail turned to Alec and he nodded.

Abigail bought me the dress as my future wedding gift, and hugged me so tightly she did not realise it had hurt. We were running through the forest before anyone realised we went missing for 2 days, when we met Jane.

"You killed my master. How could you Alec. You are my bro-" Jane screamed.

"I'm not your brother! I'm no brother to a killer! To think I cared about you." Alec hissed.

"ALL OF YOU ARE KILLERS!" She snapped.

"Go home Jane." Alec warned.

"No. I have a message for the half-human." She smiled and turned to me. "What do you have to live for? Why would people kill my master for you to survive? You don't love him do you? You're willing to die for your family, but all this while you wanted to escape from him, that wolf."

"I love him! I will never want to try and escape from him." What was she saying?

"YOU'RE AFRAID!" She appeared right in front of me. "COWARD!"

"I'm not afraid. I LOVE HIM. What do you not understand?" I hissed at her.

"Or maybe you love him, but he doesn't love you. He loves your mom, Bella."

"Impossible!" I snapped back immediately.

"Oh really?" Alec held onto her arms tightly when she started to take something.

"Let go!" She commanded. "Read this." She handed me a letter. "I found this among his clothes. Clearly it was written by him."

Inside the letter was a piece of paper, and after I read it, I was heartbroken. I was torn into pieces. Then everything changed. Alec and Abigail read the letter, and were really shocked too. Tears formed in my eyes, and now I could only feel betrayal, and hate. Betrayed, by him, it felt the worst. I couldn't think anymore, I was too shocked. The hate and betrayal and anger started to eat me alive, with the fear and the sadness. I couldn't take it.

"Kill me, now."

This was what I read on the letter:

I stayed on just to love her, even though she's stolen. I'll still continue to love her, try and get her back, no matter what it takes. I love her, it's the truth, but that bloodsucker loved her too. Now they're married, but I won't stop. I'll never stop. Bella, I'm coming back for you.

Now, I really wanted to die, remembering those words one by one. It was full of betrayal. I wanted her to kill me, to kill me at that moment, to stop the agonizing pain in my heart.