Chapter 20: Late Nights

Eric's head was spinning. Maybe because he drank a whole bottle of whisky before he left Fangtasia, but the alcohol wouldn't stay more than five minutes in his system. Maybe it was because a certain annoying blonde woman just popped back into his life and scrambled his thoughts. Eric had everything figured out. He was now a new maker once again and it was his goal to make a great vampire out of Lilli and make her behave. He hadn't even thought of Sookie for months now except for the thoughts that came along with searching for Bill Compton's body. All the weird feelings that came with Sookie were brought back into the surface and he was now comparing them to how he feels about his new vampire, Lilli.

Lilli, she was unpredictable and impatient. The girl had trouble expressing all her thoughts and feelings, but will express them out loud when she wanted too or if provoked. She never lets anyone take advantage of her. She's strong, hard-headed and puts everyone in their place, even him. She was annoying and likeable at the same time. He would never pick her for a girl who would throw herself out of the window. For the past few weeks she was everything he thought about, how to get to know her, how to please her, how to make her like him, how to make her stop screaming at him and more. But now Sookie invaded his thoughts and how Lilli looked so interested in her right away. He was sure of what he wanted but now he's not too sure.

He stumbled inside of his house an hour before dawn, hoping Lilli had gone to ground early. He had too much on his mind. He didn't want to lecture her tonight about how impulsively she acted and how he found out that Sookie could have easily ended her if she wanted to. He also didn't like her disobedience and how she seemed to like everyone else but him, even that werewolf Alcide. He just didn't want to deal with anymore tonight. Sighing to himself, he opened the door to his room ready to collapse on his bed. He wasn't supposed to think this much and to his surprise he found the tiny brunette vampire sitting on his bed hugging her knees.

He actually smiled to himself before speaking. She looked so, quiet. But she never is.

"What are you doing in my room?" He asked standing in front of her.

Lilli looked up at him and said, "About earlier tonight, she just smelt so interesting, kind of like candy."

"That's fine," he said running his hand through her hair. He couldn't lecture her now that she looked so guilty and like a lost puppy.

Lilli didn't move from his bed. She hugged her knees to her chest and kept her eyes on her feet.

"Are you ok?" Eric asked sitting next to her. He tucked a strand of her behind her ear.

She spoke finally, "I was eight years old when my father and I moved in with his sister. She was rich had two kids of her own and took in foster kids all the time. At the time she had a sixteen year old boy living with her. During the summer everyone always had to work during the day even my cousins. So I was left alone with him. At first he was like an older brother and yeah maybe I developed a crush on him after spending a lot of alone time with him. Then one day when we were watching TV when he..," she paused and bit her lip, "took advantage of me, and it kept happening almost every day. He threatened to kill me if I told anyone. I was still a kid and it went on for over a year and ended when my father and I moved houses. I still saw him over the years but I just pretended he never existed," she laughed darkly remembering every memory, "the last I heard that guy was actually working for my father. I never told anyone before, for over ten years he and I are the only people that know. Can you believe it? The two men that I hate with everything inside of me working together, I want to burn that place down so bad,"

"Why are you telling me this?" he said, stroking her cheek.

She looked up at him with her big brown eyes and said, "Because you asked, you brought all these memories up."

He asked? I asked about her virginity. He wanted to smash his head against the wall. He had brought it up not knowing what consequences it might bring. He thought she at least had a normal.. you know. He wanted to wrap his arms around her so that no one in this world can hurt her any more and tell her he won't ask anymore stupid questions.

"You never tell me anything," he murmured.

"I know, if I'm going to live forever as a vampire. I have to let things go one day at a time," she replied in a mutter.

"Lilli," he spoke placing a hand of her shoulder.

"Because you made me into this, you are the only one that I can trust with this, learn from your mistakes right, I may still remember every second of it but maybe this time around I can let it go. Sometimes I just wish I wasn't so angry you know," she looked at him with her big brown eyes, pulling him into her gaze. She looked away quickly once she realised he was staring intently at her.

"I'm sorry for bringing it up," he said.

Lilli ignored him and continued talking, "If you wanted to know when I properly first had sex I was 17 it was to my first real boyfriend."

"Here I was going to scream at you for misbehaving and now I can't," he said patting her head and kissing her forehead. He wanted to do more, but it wasn't the time. She just makes him feel so different inside.

"I said I was sorry," she pouted.

"And I said it's alright," he chuckled.

"Why were you going to scream at me?" Lilli asked realising what Eric had just said.

"Uh," Eric was at a loss for words, "it's nothing."

"Anyway I'll go back in my room now. I've been waiting for you for hours," she said getting up from his bed.

"Why don't you sleep here?" Eric said, grabbing her wrist and pulling her back into bed.

"Uh because I have my own room," she answered.

"You know that I can't let you be alone tonight," he said, "stay here. I'll just wash up and we'll rest."

Lilli nodded at him, understanding what he meant.

Eric got up from his bed and went to the bathroom. He took off every piece of clothing he had on and jumped in the shower. He let his dripping wet head against the wall, feeling every drop of water going down his back. She wasn't done surprising him with facts that make him stop at his tracks. He didn't think that a human who only lived twenty years would have so many stories kept inside of them. Stories that were not meant to happen to such a girl like Lilli. He wanted to end every person that had hurt her, every person that made it so hard for him to break her walls. He wanted for her to know that she will always be safe, but she'll never believe him. He was.. he didn't even know who he was to her. At least she was sharing parts of herself slowly. It still doesn't change her past as much as he wanted to.

He got out of the bathroom drying his hair with a towel when he found Lilli lying down on the other side of his bed. Her body was turned away from him. He was surprised that she had followed his orders and didn't run away and locks herself in her room. Maybe she didn't want to be alone tonight. He knows that feeling all too well.

Eric dropped the towel on a chair and climbed into bed. He wanted so badly to touch her again. He knew it was the inappropriate time but he just had to. Lilli didn't flinch or move when he moved closer to her. He wrapped his arms around her waist. That's surprising maybe she's already asleep, he thought. He at least expected a shove or a slap to the face. He shifted closer pulling her in his embrace. She was so small compared to him. He breathed in the scent of her hair.

"She really did smell really delicious," Lilli murmured, "couldn't you tell?"

"You're still awake," Eric spoke surprised but closed his eyes feeling the sun about to rise any minute, "mmm, I believe you," Eric said tightening his embrace.

"You don't believe me," Lilli said flinching as if she was fighting the urge of turning around and facing him.

"I do," he muttered against her ear.

"No you don't," she scoffed.

"Believe me I do, now let's just rest alright," he said burying his face deeper in the mess of her hair.

"Fine," she huffed.

Eric closed his eyes again and let himself fall into slumber. His last thoughts before completely resting consisted of how he was so lucky to have her in his arms without being thrown across the room by her and maybe there was hope for him.

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Slow down, you're thinking way too much
Too close, but maybe it's not enough
I still remember I've been here before

'Late Nights' – Amy Meredith

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