Chapter 21

Tough Decisions

Blade's POV

I was crying when as I let the phone drop out of my hands and onto my bed. I knew this was suicide but I knew it was the right thing to do. I loved Dean so much I was willing to sacrifice myself just to give what little time left he had with his brother, and Bobby.

I slowly made my way back down the stairs to Sam and Bobby. When the saw me they kept asking me if I was okay. I just kept shaking my head no. I was not okay and I wouldn't be okay for a long time. When I finally got up the courage to speak my voice was hoarse from the crying I had been doing.

"I know where Dean is." I said, my voice cracking.

"Where is he Blade? Is he okay?" Sam asked as he sat next to me at the kitchen table.

"He's okay for now. My mother has him." I said not looking at him.

"Wait, what? You're mother's alive?" Sam questioned. I still didn't have the heart to look at him. I was ashamed that I had let it get this far.

"Yes, Sam. My vampire-of-a-mother is alive and she kidnapped him." I whispered.

"Did she say why she took him?"

"She wants me Sam. Nobody else but me. She won't harm him as long as I agree to come home to her, and I have to Sam. I'm going to leave and be with her so she can let Dean go and you can have what time you have left with him." I whispered as the tears fell freely down my face. This was it, she won. I would never be happy or see Dean ever again.

"Blade you can't do that." Sam exclaimed.

"There's no other way." I said looking at him.

"No Blade, there's always another way. You can't just give up so easily, I won't let you, Bobby won't let you! Right Bobby?" Sam turned to Bobby for help.

"Blade what did your mother say?" Bobby asked as he walked over to me.

"She wants me to come home and she will release him as long as I stay with her, if I refuse to she'll kill Dean like she killed Myles. Bobby, I don't want to, but I can't let him die like that." I mumbled as I looked at him. I watched as Bobby looked over at Sam then back at me.

"Blade you mom was the one to kill Myles?" Sam asked, disbelief ringing in his voice.

"Blade you need to tell him." Bobby said gently.

"What does she need to tell me Bobby?" Sam asked in confusion.

I closed my eyes as I recalled every detail of that night. More tears slipped down my face as I watched Myles die. I felt more tears flow down my face as I swallowed my fear away. I knew he needed to know the truth if he was to understand about Myles.

"Sam, he's talking about Myles." I said as I opened my eyes and looked up at him.

Sam still had confusion on his face. "Blade what about Myles?"

"Sam I'm the reason Myles is dead."