Revi POV

Who knew your two best friends becoming werewolves would make your life easier. I didn't, but it was an amazing feeling. To go running in the woods and not have to hold back felt unbelievably free.

The only part I hated was not having them at school. They weren't sure they were ready to come back so I was alone for now. At least they were still around.

After my birthday and November passed I got anxious to meet Sam. I thought I should be not a part of the pack of course, but around it at least. I thought the boys would be the ones who wouldn't allow it. I was surprised when it was my father who held me back.

It was after New Years when I decided I waited long enough to ask. I had given the boys space, and waited for them to get used to the newest part of their life. Then when I couldn't wait anymore I told my dad I was going to Sam's house to see the boys. He was on guard in a second.

"Revi, I don't want you going over there. Embry and Quil can come here anytime, but I don't want you around Sam."

This was weird to me. Sam had been around the house a bunch of times but I suddenly realized not lately. "Why Dad?" The look on his face told me something happened. "What is it?"

"You know what happened to Emily Young right."

I felt sad suddenly. Emily was a nice girl, and was visiting the Clearwater's from another reservation when she was mauled by a bear. She survived but had scars over her face, throat, arm, and hand. Sam Uley had luckily been there and carried her all the way to the hospital. It suddenly clicked with me.

"It wasn't a bear was it?"

"No baby it was Sam."

"But why would he do that Sam's decent you've said so yourself."

"He's still a good guy that's not it. He was just angry and Emily was too close when he phased. It's hard for werewolves to keep in control early on."

"Why did he get angry?"

"Emily was telling him they couldn't be together."

This was news to me. Over the past few months Sam and Emily had been closer than any other couple I'd seen aside from my Aunt and Uncle. I suspected Emily was Sam's imprint. "Why would she do that I thought they loved each other." I got hit with a light bulb again. "Oh Leah."

My dad nodded and I sighed. Leah Clearwater was Emily's cousin and Sam's ex girlfriend. They'd been broken up for a year now, but Leah still loved Sam. She wasn't in on the secret though. "That sucks. I still don't get why I can't go over there though. Sam only phased because his imprint was leaving. That doesn't mean he's unstable."

"It means I don't want my kid around him Reviana. Hell even Embry and Quil could snap that's why I have you guys over here where I'm close by, or you go in public."

"Dad I understand you're protective but you need to understand I'm sixteen now. I have to make my own choices. You have to let me go a little bit."

It was something I had wanted to say for a while. My dad and I would always be extremely close. I just needed him to realize I wasn't a child anymore.

Dad looked thoughtful for a minute. "I know I have to give you your space and let you live your own life. I think I've done that by letting you drive and I think you've always had independence. You're still a kid though, and I have the right to put up certain restrictions. Your safety is my number one concern."

"I understand that but I'm not a normal girl Dad, I can take it. I can run. I have good judgment. They're my friends I want to be a part of this new part in their life."

When he just shook his head and ran his hand through his hair all frustrated I growled a little bit surprising him. I didn't get angry at him often but I was now.

"Dad do you realize what it's been like for me?" I bit my lip knowing it would be hard to talk about, but there were some things I couldn't hold back anymore. "I didn't have a regular childhood. My earliest memory is a man with red eyes talking to me in Louisiana, and you running away with me. I remember Aunt Alice talking you out of moving us. I remember watching kids play in the park and you wouldn't let me because I'd be too fast in front of them. I remember watching my Uncle take down a dear in the backyard because his thirst was too strong."

It was hard to remember these things now.

"I never fit in at school. It's like everyone sensed I was different. I knew it every day. I knew it when I looked at my father who never changed. I knew it when my father taught me to fight off a vampire before I learned how to tie my shoes. Then I met Jake." I stopped for a minute, his name sending a little pain throughout me.

"He was my best friend Dad. I felt normal. I could forget that you could pack us up and run at any time. Then I had to watch him leave." I was crying now but I couldn't stop. I had to get the rest of it out.

"I couldn't go to you about that because I knew how you lost Mom." Dad flinched at that. I knew Teegan was a touchy subject. She was his Jake, and I knew it still hurt him. "I couldn't complain about how much it hurts me that he's gone, when you lost her. So I didn't talk about it. Embry, Quil, and I didn't talk about him either. But we were there for each other. I love them and I need them in my life. I need to be there for them now more than ever. I'm their best friend too. You taught me how to be a good best friend, now you're trying to keep me from it." I was still crying but I kept going. "You've kept me from enough."

He stood up then, his jaw clenching and I knew the fight would get worse. "I have done the best I can Revi. I was twenty years old when you were born, I was a newborn vampire, and I had no family in this world. My best friend was taken from me. I had to learn everything quick, at the same time take care of a baby, make money, find a home, and protect you and Alice and Jasper. If there were things you missed out on, there was for me too. I lost my life. I became a monster and a dad in a matter of weeks. I did what I had to, to keep from losing what I had left. I think you had it pretty good."

"Pretty good, Dad you talk about keeping me safe, you brought a baby into the world knowing what you were and what you were associated with." It was a thought I had all my life. Why was I born to a vampire Dad and a human Mom. "Sure you left the Volturi, but they aren't going to just forget about us. That's a thought I've lived with my whole life wondering if we were going to get attacked one day, or you'd make us leave to prevent it."

"You aren't the only one who has had to live with that fear. I've been terrified since the day you were born that I could lose you. You're all I have in life. I had to give up everything else for you. You think it's bad you didn't have a normal childhood, I didn't either, and now I'm going to have a fucked up future. I have nothing normal. My normal died in Volterra."

I felt like I had been slapped. My dad immediately looked like he regretted what he said but I put my hands up and walked away from him. "I'm the kid Dad. If you're life was hard because of me that was your choice. You could have given me up or left me with the Volturi. You chose not to. I didn't choose this life. I'm just trying to live it and do so the best way I can. I'm tired of trying to make you see that."

I left the room and slammed my door. I didn't think I just grabbed clothes and my car keys. I knew he could read my thoughts if he chose by I didn't care. I just needed to get out. To get away from his words. I jumped out my window and ran to my car. I knew he could catch me in a second, but I was going to try. I started driving and saw him come out the front door, the dogs behind him. I dared to look in my rearview mirror. To my surprise he didn't chase after me. He didn't yell for me to stop. He looked scared and heart broken. It tore at me but I realized he was doing what I asked. He let me go.