Ryan POV
I've looked at every possible place where I could escape, they ALL have guards. Come on, I have to get out of here! It's been 3 days after I got that dream from my mom. I was looking everywhere to get out. I was starting to get the feeling that she was right, there was just some feeling I had that Rach was in trouble. I was just about to walk to another entrance when I felt someone touch my shoulder.
"Ryan?" I turned around and saw the shrink look at me.
"What?"
"Are you okay?"
"Why does everyone around here ask me that? YES, I'm fine!"
"Well that's good. Look I've been talking with a few social workers, There are a few families interested in you."
"Great, well tell them I'm not going."
"Ryan, this is great news. Some kids haven't left here for a while. You have a lot of wonderful doors opened for you. You should at least look at the possibility that-" "That I will be going home with people that aren't my family and who never will be my family ever! Just, just leave me alone."
"Is there something bugging you?"
"Yeah there is. I shouldn't be here, my sister shouldn't be with that family, we were set up and now our whole family is all screwed to hell and I just want my life back!" At this moment I was yelling at the top of my lungs. She was making me so mad! She stepped back from me and sighed.
"Alright, If you need to talk-"
"Yeah I know where you are." I waved her off and turned on my heels and walked away. Now I was starting to feel bad about yelling at her like that. I shouldn't have done that... maybe I should apologize. Maybe later, when I cool down a bit more.
I had walked back into the Rec. Room and sat down when I saw Veronica walking towards me. She smiled and sat down next to me.
"Haven't found a way out have you?"
"How'd you-"
"Your walking around looking at the exits, it's not rocket science Ryan." I smiled a bit at her answer, I was a little conspicuous.
"So what are you spying on me now?"
"No, I've been... watching you." She shrugged. I raised an eye brow, she's been watching me? This chick is really weird.
"Ryan? Can I tell you something?"
"Yeah sure what is it?" I looked at her concerned, She looked a little nervous.
"I was gunna tell you this before but I-"
"Ryan?" The shrink cut her off. "Ryan? There you are. I need to talk to you." I sighed and stood up.
"Tell me later?"
"Yeah sure..." She smiled weakly. I walked towards the stupid shrink and looked at her.
"I have someone here that wants to talk to you." She smiled, I just rolled my eyes. We started to walk out of the Rec. room when I looked back at where Veronica and I were talking but she wasn't there. I sighed and continued to follow her.
We got to the Meeting area and she stopped. She turned and faced me with a smile.
"After a lot of consideration I think this family could at least be a start. I know you didn't want me to look for one but, this family seems to really want you. The social worker was very persistent in wanting to talk to you with the woman who wants you." I sighed an annoyed sigh and rolled my eyes. "Come on Ryan just- just at least talk to them. You never know, you might actually like her."
"Highly doubt it." I muttered under my breath.
"They're waiting. Just, look at least a bit interested." I sighed yet again then smiled a bit like I wanted a family, like I didn't already have one. She opened the door and I walked in. I looked up and who I saw was not expected it was...
"Hi, I'm Ellen Harvelle."
Ellen POV
It took 3 days but the social worker finally got us in to see Ryan. She worked her butt off I could tell you that right now. It was a hard process but I'm glad we found her.
I called Jo immediately after the boys showed up. I was still in shock and the beer certainly wasn't doing the trick. I guess Jo called soon after that conversation cause the next thing I knew I was walking into the Social Workers Office with Bobby with me and Jo on my other side.
"So why do you want to adopt?" Charlie asked as soon as we sat down.
"We loved how this one here turned out and we just wanted to have another just like her. She was adopted too from the same place and we think were ready for another." I lied. It was a pretty good half-lie if I do say so myself. Thank god Jo still looks like she 18 than 35.
"Have you been the the center before you came here?"
"Yes, and I think we have already found the two we were looking for." I smiled.
"And who would they be?"
"Their names are Ryan and Rachael Winchester."
That's really how the meeting happened, then 2 days later Jo and I are sitting, waiting with Charlie to see Ryan. I was actually really nervous, I haven't seen him for over a month and I missed him. When the door opened I couldn't help but smile. His face, it was so priceless, I could hear Jo have a little scoff when she saw him but when I looked at her for a second she was nothing but smiles.
"Hi, I'm Ellen Harvelle." I said with my hand stretched out for a handshake. He took it and smiled at me.
"I'll just leave you guys to talk for a bit." Charlie said then walked out, closing the door silently.
"Ellen, I- I can't believe your here!" I just pulled him into a hug and wouldn't let go. I hate seeing Ryan like this, in this place of all places. This should never have happened. I pulled away from the hug to look at him.
"Where's your sister?" I asked confused.
"You don't know?" He looked at both Jo and I, we shook our heads. "She's with another family. God knows where."
"No, When?"
"4 days ago. They just took her, and I haven't heard from her since." I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Dean is going to be pissed. "I need out of here, I can't stay here any longer. Can you just take me now?"
"Not yet Ry, Still need to do the paper work." Jo said sadly. He rolled his eyes and fell onto a chair.
"How's dad and Sam?"
"They umm. Long story. You'll see them soon, I hope." I said. I couldn't tell him the whole story, I was stuck.
"Oh okay."
We talked for a little over a half hour then Charlie came back with another woman.
"Ryan, can you wait outside, this will only take a moment." The other woman said. He nodded and reluctantly went out. When he closed the door The 2 women went right to business.
"Now, I've been looking at the conversation you guys were having and it seemed like you really hit it off with him. I think you might be a good family for him. I assume he told you about his father and Uncle?"
"Yes he has."
"And would you be prepared to help him in anyway he needs."
"of course."
"I have been talking to Charlie and if you still want, I think we can get the paper work done by friday at the latest and you can take him home on the saturday." I couldn't help but smile. That was really happy news, I couldn't wait to tell Dean. "Now, I know your husband is off on work and will be home tomorrow correct?" I nodded. "If you would like to bring him down, maybe tomorrow or sometime during the week. We just want to make sure he is suited for Ryan."
"Sure, of course, tomorrow would be fine."
"Great, I guess we'll see you both tomorrow then?" The other women said with a smile. I nodded and got up from my seat. We shook hands and Charlie led us out of the building.
"I think that meeting went well." She said as we walked to our cars.
"Yes, It did."
"Great. I'll have the papers by Wensday at the latest." I smiled and said our goodbyes to her then we sped off towards the bar.
We got back to the bar just after 4, I was tired and so was Jo. When we got in we saw Fred, my bartender for the day talking to a few hunters. I waved to him and walked upstairs. I got to Dean's room and knocked before I entered. I saw him sitting on the bed listening to his messages on his phone. When he saw me he turned it off and smiled.
"So how'd it go?" He asked hopeful.
"It went well. We have a good chance at getting Ryan back."
"That's great, What about Rach." That's where my smile dropped from my face. He looked at me waiting for my answer.
"That's where the problem is. You see, Rachael has already been taken into foster care." His eyes went from hopefully happy to the most saddest I've ever seen them. It broke my heart to have to say that too him. I sat next to him on the bed and looked at him.
"It's been 4 days." I said with a soft voice. "In 3 more they'll have a review, take her back and have her assessed then if all goes well, which I hope doesn't happen, they'll give her back. That's what Charlie said to us." He nodded slowly. I hated seeing him like that. I couldn't be there, watching him just fall to pieces. "I have to go back to work, do you want me to make you something?" He shook his head and just looked away. I sighed and got up walking out, slowly closing the door. Damn if only we were 5 days earlier.
Rachael POV
I've been on the goddamn street for 3 days straight. I smelt gross and looked like crap. My arm was looking more nasty and had the most biggest bruise I ever had. I was cold and tired, I haven't slept at all. I was scared that Jack might find me some how. I found a shelter a few blocks from where Jordan deals. I walked in and was instantly bombarded by 2 women, in their early 50's.
"Hello welcome to the New york Shelter."
"Hi. Um, I'm not to good at this at all, considering this is my first time without a home..."
"Say no more." One of them lead me to a desk. She asked me to sign my name which was kinda hard with the crapped up arm I had so I had to use my left which, my writing looked worse than my right. She gave me a blanket and shampoo and a toothbrush and everything else I needed just to get clean. I walked to the woman's washroom and walked to the showers. I looked all around me and then turned it on. I slowly slipped off my clothes and got in. I took a really quick shower, not thinking about anything, just the pain of my arm. My life, it's been such crap lately I couldn't do anything without crying. When I was done I got my clothes back on which smelt nasty and I walked out. The lady from the desk greeted me and lead me towards a bed. When I was there she sat down with me.
"So how come you are all by yourself?" She asked with a little smile.
"I ran away from my foster home." I looked down. God, she had to bring up that.
"Why was that?"
"Cause I hated it there. The guy, he was just- he was horrible."
"Couldn't you have just reported him, I'm sure they would have taken you right out of there right away."
"The center was in Virginia, I'm in new york! I don't know where I'm going, I don't know anyone here, He raped me for fuck sakes!" By the end of that sentence I was crying. I couldn't help it, it was a river... no it was like Niagara freakin falls! She watched as I just cried, What could she do right?
"I'm- I'm sorry to here that."
"Yeah well, what can you do now? the asshole is probably on his way home stinkin drunk thinking about his next conquest."
"Was there anyone around? To witness what happened..."
"Is there ever witnesses?" I just showed her my bruised wrists and arm. She was taken aback by them. I just sniffed back some tears and rolled my eyes. "I just need a place to stay till I find money for a bus ticket."
"Where are you going to go?"
"Massachusetts. I have... family friends there." I sighed and settled into the bed. It was comfortable... well kinda. I just needed a rest, I was too tired.
"Well, you just rest there and I'll come check on you in a bit." I nodded and slowly started drifting off to sleep.
All I saw was an image of my dad, uncle and brother, They were slowly drifting from my sight. No matter how hard I ran, I wasn't fast enough to catch up to them.
"Dad, No, don't leave me! not again..." I started to cry. I slowed down and just cried. I looked at my surroundings. Nothing but a dim lit place with nothing but darkness all around. I sat on the ground, I couldn't stand anymore. My legs were giving out and I just wanted to die.
"Having fun?" I jumped a bit. I looked up and saw the stupid Yellow Eyed Demon looking at me.
"What do you want!" He smiled at me.
"I'm the bearer of great news."
"Yeah really cause lately you've just been a pain in the ass. Did you cause all of this? All this pain my family has been put through? are you doing this so I can go with you earlier!?"
"God I wish that were all true. No, I'm not, that goes to someone else, unfortunately."
"Who then?"
"I can't tell you that, you'll just have to find out. I'm here to help you."
"You help me? how? You've only caused pain and now you decide to help?" I scoffed and got up brushing my hands against my jeans.
"You know, in all this pain... you for got what time of the month it is." He said with a smile. I looked at him for a bit trying to find out what he was getting at. "Get a calendar kid!" He said then he snapped his fingers and then he was gone.
I instantly woke up. I jutted out of the bed and looked around. What did he mean get a calendar, of course I knew what time of the month it was... okay maybe I didn't. The lady from before looked at me with a concerned look in her eyes, I walked over to her.
"Do you have a calendar here by any chance?" She nodded and took me to the desk She gave me her calendar and I studied it. It was October 6th... october- shit. How could I have been that stupid! I missed it my date, and not the, going out with some one kind I'm talking, MY BLEEPING PERIOD! It's been a month. A month since I was with Jensen, A month since my last date, How could I have been that stupid.
"Umm thanks." I started to walk out. "Damn it. Do you by any chance know where the pharmacy is?"
"Just a few blocks down on 43rd. You can't miss it."
"Great thanks." and with that I ran out of there. It was 3 in the afternoon which meant that Jordan was still dealing for another hour. I ran towards his normal spot. I could see all the guys there that I dealed to 4 days ago. They all had smirks on their faces. I looked down and walked quickly. I got to his spot in a matter of minutes. I could see he was just finishing up with a "client" When he saw me.
"Rachael?" He walked towards me worried and pissed. "where have you been!?"
"Gone."
"I've been looking for you everywhere, Why did you just take off?"
"You wouldn't believe me if I tried." I sighed and rolled my eyes.
"I can believe a lot of things."
"Your father, the prize that he is... never mind. It's not important anymore. I just need a couple of bucks.. like $20."
"Why?"
"cause I'm hungry." I lied. I put out my hand so he could give me the money but he wasn't gunna led up.
"Why don't I take you to lunch then."
"NO! look I just want the money, Please." I said with a few tears in my eyes. It was one thing after another, I just need to find out and figure out how to get out of New york and get to Ellen's. This- this demon, whatever yellow eyes was talking about that's causing all of this... I'm gunna kill it. It's gunna experience the same pain I felt for a month now.
"Rach, is something going on?" He asked worriedly.
"Yeah somethings going on! I may be freaking pregnant, your father raped me, my arm is broken and the pain is so unbearable I can't take it anymore!" My temper had risen to the highest it's ever been.
"Broken! How, when. Oh god." He stammered.
"It doesn't matter I'll get it fixed later."
"No we gotta go now, let me see." He grabbed my arm, which hurt by the way, and looked at it. "WOW. Jesus, okay let's go." He started to walk.
"No! look, I've had bones broken for months at a time. Some probably haven't even healed properly. I'll get it checked out later okay." He just looked at me then sighed.
"Fine." He fished into his pocket and pulled out $100. He gave it too me and smile a bit.
"Where are you going to go?"
"Well after I see if I really am pregnant I'm going home. To my real home, for good." I said softly. He nodded with a sad look in his eyes. "You can come visit, if you want. I mean, it's not like you don't have the money to come." He laughed a bit.
"Yeah, I think I might."
"Call me later." I smiled a bit.
"I don't have your number."
"think again. Check your cell." He checked. I put my number into his cell one time when he was dealing. "Call me." And with that I left. I walked down to 43rd. She was right, You couldn't miss it. When I walked in I didn't know where to go, It was huge. I didn't want to ask someone cause then I would just get stares and laughs. I walked around for a long time. I finally found the pregnancy tests. Here they were, about a thousand different ones, It was so confusing I couldn't choose.
"Confusing I know." Someone said from behind me. I turned to look who it was. Some girl that worked there looked back at me. She looked about my age with blond hair and green eyes that reminded me of my dad's.
"Umm yeah, I was just um-" I stumbled trying to find something to say.
"I know what your going through. I was in the same boat about a year ago." She looked at a few. "Here." She gave me one. I sighed and looked down nervously. "You know, you don't have to be nervous. I'm sure you'll be fine, no matter what." I nodded and started to walk away.
"Thanks." was all I could muster up. I walked to the cashier and payed for it. I had about $75 left, just enough for a bus ticket home. I walked out quickly and didn't stop. I just walked to the bus station and got a ticket. I should wait, till at least Ellen was there with me. I needed someone there.
Dean POV
I can't stand here anymore. I can't be here knowing somewhere my daughter is with some other family and I don't know if she is okay! I got up and walked out to Sam's room. He was absorbed in one of Ellen's old books so talking to him was out of the question, so I stared at him till he gave in.
"What?" He finally said after 10 minutes of nothing but staring at him. The bump on his head went down, and he has to shave, and I never noticed before but he's got huge scar on his forehead.
"Did you hear about the twins?"
"Yeah I did."
"And your just sitting here acting as if their fine?"
"What else can we do Dean? If we get found, the police, their gunna have a field day with us. Probably blame us for the fire too." He said going back to the book.
"I just need to know their okay." Sam nodded.
"Their going to be fine, they are Winchester's after all."
"Your talking about the twins, the 'super accident prone, almost killed themselves over a hundred times' Winchester twins. You see where I'm coming from." He looked at me for a second then nodded again.
"Yeah I got it. But come on, they know how to kick ass if something happened."
"Rachael is off god knows where, probably some place she's never been and Ryan is in a center for foster kids. Rachael could get murdered and Ryan could potentially kill himself!"
"Dean, I got it! We know that Ryan won't kill himself cause he's going home with Ellen, Rachael, who knows but if she could kick Ryan's ass when she was 5, when Ryan was about 7 inches taller than her, then she can kick a full grown guys ass at 17. She did kick your ass, my ass, and basically ever hunter's ass that has challenged her! Dean, stop worrying so much. They are going to be fine and back in our sight soon." I sighed. Sam did make sense, they could handle themselves but, I just- I still couldn't just stop worrying.
"Dean!"
"What?"
"Stop."
"Stop what?"
"Worrying, I can see it in your face."
"No I'm not." I cleared my throat and shifted my position crossing my arms.
"Mm-hmm." He looked back to his book and I ended up walking back to my room. I closed my door and heaved a stressed sigh. I trekked to my bed and laid down closing my eyes and instantly fell sleep.
It was my 38th birthday and Rachael was no where to be found for the past few hours and I was starting to freak. They said they were just going to the park and now it's 7 at night and there was no sign of them.
"Jake, have you heard anything about Rach?" I asked one of her friends. How could she just up and leave.
"No, Why?"
"Cause she said she was going to the park with you at 12, it is now 7 and I don't know where she is!" I said freaking out a bit.
"Oh. Well I haven't seen her. Sorry Mr. Winchester." I sighed aloud.
"Just tell you mom to call me if she goes over to your house."
"Okay. Bye." I hung up and tossed the phone on the couch.
"We'll find her." Sam said coming into the room.
"How do you know? She's never done this before. What if... Hendrickson got her."
"Doubt it. He would have come for us by now." He slumped down on the couch. "She had to go to the park today."
"I'll call the hospital again." I threw him the phone and he walked away. Ryan had walked downstairs still wondering what was going on. We told him that she was with Jake, I mean that's what we thought, but why would we want him to worry too.
"Is Rachael home yet?" I shook my head. "Is she still mad at me?"
"Why would she be mad at you?" He sat next to me.
"Cause I didn't want to go to the park with her."
"Why didn't you want to go to the park?"
"Cause I was busy."
"Doing what exactly?" I looked down and him. He got up without a word and came back a few minutes later with something wrapped in news paper comics.
"Here." He gave the package to me and smiled. "Happy Birthday." I smiled back.
"maybe I should wait for Rachael."
"She went to the park, who knows when she'll come back."
"Right. But you know, We should wait till she gets back, so she can see it too." He shrugged.
"Okay."
"Dean, She's not at the hospital but- oh hey Ryan."
"Who's not at the hospital?" He looked confused. I mentally was smacking Sam upside the head.
"One of our friends. She got hurt and we were checking to see if she was still there."
"Oh okay."
"You know what Ry, I'll be right back." I got up and walked to the kitchen with Sam.
"So you were gunna say something else."
"Yeah, Mason said he saw her in town."
"What the hell would she be doing in town?"
"I don't know but Mason is bringing her back."
"Thank god for Mason." He's been a family friend for years. His father Caleb was my dad Ammo supplier and now since Caleb's death Mason took over that job.
We waited for only a few minutes before we heard the door open. We walked quickly to the foyer.
"Rachael, God." I breathed walking towards her and enveloped her in a tight hug.
"Hi to you too."
"Where were you!?"
"At the park..."
"For 7 hours?" She shrugged. I looked up at Mason and he shook his head.
"I should go. and Rachael, don't be doing anymore stupid things." He looked down at her then smiled.
"Yeah, yeah." He started to walk away.
"Oh yeah and Happy Birthday dude."
"Thanks Man." He nodded and walked out. I turned back to my daughter and looked at her. "So where were you really?" She sighed and put her hand into her pocket and pulled out a wrapped package.
"I made it. I had to go to town to get something for it. Missouri had something I needed for it and so I went to go see her." I sighed taking the gift and hugging her tight. I got up and we walked to the couch. Ryan was still sitting there watching TV. It looked like the old school Bugs Bunny. He looked up and saw Rachael and then went back to watching TV not wanting to make eye contact with her.
"Hi Ryan." She said sitting next to him.
"Hi." He returned quietly. It was really cute, and really weird.
"I'm sorry."... wait I think I need a replay. She actually said sorry first. "I didn't mean to yell at you."
"It's okay." There was some awkward silence.
"OKay so um, how about I open up the gifts." I smiled then sat down on the couch with my kids. Sam sat on the chair on the opposite side. I picked up Ryan's gift and opened it. Inside was a necklace, It was a hand with a weird design on it and an all seeing eye in the middle. It was pretty cool. "Thanks Ryan." I smiled then put it on.
"Bobby helped me. He said that it will keep the demons from getting up inside you." I laughed a bit.
"Thanks Buddy." He smiled shyly and looked down. I picked up Rachael's gift and opened it. It was a leather bracelet. It had a protection spell carved into it. It said: "Servo mihi per totus vestri vires , Dea propitius dies quod nox noctis." In Latin it means: "To preserve me very whole your force, Goddess gracious day and night." It was amazing.
"Rach, this is great." She smiled and shrugged.
"I thought it was cool to make."
"How did you make it?"
"Missouri helped me with the translation and Mason helped carve the words." I hugged her and Ryan. I was so happy they were here safe in my arms where I can feel them around me...
I woke up with a smile but as soon as I returned to reality, realizing that was only a dream, a distant memory, it pissed me off knowing that.
"Dean. Wake up, The Social worker called. She said we can get Ryan faster than she thought." Sam said bursting into my room, I looked at him in disbelief. "The only thing is we gotta get out of here for a few hours. She's coming over, we can't be here." I nodded still confused about what he was talking about but oh well. I got up from my bed and got changed. One almost home, maybe things are looking up...