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Bob.

I grabbed myself a copy and gave the salesman some money and rushed off back to the hotel without any thought of the change. I couldn't get myself to read any of the words before I was back at a "safe place". I was furious, how could they do this to Gerard, or Fray for that matter? When I got back to the room Ray and I shared I made sure that he was still asleep and I looked at my shaking hands. I slowly took some deep breaths and tried to calm me down enough so I could open the paper at page three and read the words. It read:

To be or not to be a fraud?

"Yesterday the lead singer Gerard Way of rock band My Chemical Romance announced to the press that he has a son, Frank Gerard Bryar. A kid he is supposedly to have with the mysterious woman Alexandra Bryar, the sister of drummer Robert "Bob" Bryar. I on one hand never learnt that he had a sister, but there are more surprises where that came from. The long lost soon to be fifteen year old kid appeared and met his father for the fist time a few weeks ago.

"I never met my father before, not until a few weeks ago!" the so called son told the press.

"I ran off with my unborn child when I was sixteen and pregnant because both me and Gerard was a mess. This was for the best." Ways new girlfriend Alexandra said.

Doesn't all of this sound suspicious? Gerard has always been very open about his past alcohol and drug abuse so why not about this? And why did the kid with mother show up now? When the fourth record out and when band are truly successful and not when the lead singer got clean and sober years ago? Sure the kid looks a bit like singer Way but since when are that a proof? The daily mail are suspicious!"- Matthew Gringer.

"Fuckers!" I screamed out loud and Ray woke up, glaring madly at me as he yawned.

"What? Is there something bad in the paper?"

"The fucking daily mail is trying to convince people that Alex and Fray is a fucking fraud!"

"Idiots! We have to tell them… they are going to freak out…!"

"Yeah." I nodded.

Alex.

I was up early to call my boss to talk about what was going to happen to my job. I hadn't been there for weeks.

"Come on, I can't have my employers running around the world and not working, you understand that Alex, don't you?"

"Yeah… but I won't give up on my family, not again…"

"Well if you want to keep your job you have to put out your whole life story in our magazine, exclusive. We can call it My way home to the Way or something!" I stared at the phone for a second and then I took a breath and screamed.

"FUCK OFF! I QUIT!"

"What was that about hun?" Gee came into the room.

"Just my effin boss, ex-boss now. If I wanted to keep my job I had to put my whole life out there, like my hot affair with Gerard Way, together with my whole life story… NO FUCKING WAY!"

"It will be alright, I have money enough for the three of us!" he kissed me.

When Bob came into the room a moment later we looked at each other.

"I have bad news!" we said with one mouth.

"You first!" my brother ordered me.

"I haven't got a job anymore…"

"Sucks! But listen here. Newspapers are accusing you and Fray of being some kind of fraud."

"What the fuck?" he gave me the paper and I was so angry that I was shaking, and tears started to run over my cheeks. But the only thing that was going through my mind was: this was the biggest fucking mistake I ever done…

Everyone had gathered in Gees and mine hotel room to discuss the matter.

"What are we going to do?" Gerard and Fray looked over at me as they just had finished reading the article.

"Ignore it! That's for the best!" Gee said thoughtfully as he made a face.

"Are you sure?" Fray asked.

"No. I'm not sure of anything anymore… I need a smoke…" he walked right out of the room. And I followed him.

"He is yours. You know that do you?"

"Can I be sure?"

"He has your eyes, your forehead; his hair is just the same as yours. Well when you don't dye it and you two move just the same. How could you ask that? How could you question me? Or him? And I actually thought you had changed!"

He dragged the smoke down, thinking of what I just had told him.

"But… why didn't you come back before?" Yeah why hadn't I? Why had I been hiding in New York for so long after I got the news that he in fact was clean and sober? Actually the answer was so easy.

"I was afraid, Gerard. I was afraid to lose him to you, like I lost all of the meaningful people in my life to you. Don't you see that? I lost my brother, Frank, Mikey my friends but the most hurtful was that I lost you Gerard. And I lost you to your misery! I couldn't take that one more time, and if he found out who… who you were… are… then he wouldn't have stayed with me…" he stared at me.

"And I wasn't sure that you could make it, stay clean and sober I mean. And that would have killed him."

"I… I don't know what to say…." Gerard mumbled and looked away from me.

"If you still doubt him, or me, please go upstairs and tell your son that. And then we will leave, because there is no point in staying if you are going to hurt him. Over and over again. I'm sorry Gee."

"ALEX DON'T DO THIS TO ME!" He fell down at his knees and I noticed that people had started to stare at us. It wasn't strange though, with makeup rests from yesterday and messy hair. In fear I looked at him as he turned the cigarette to his wrist and burned the skin. I turned my eyes away; I couldn't get myself to look. Some seconds later, when I could make myself to look he still held it to the skin.

"Oh Gerard…" I sighed and helped him to let go of the burning stick.

"Mum? Dad? What is going on?" I turned around and gave Fray a fade smile.

"Wait a minute baby." I told him and with a look at Gerard I helped him up, as I dragged him close, not even a hug I whispered to him.

"Grow up Gerard. It is not just you, or even me you are hurting anymore…" and as I turned to Fray as I faked a smile. "Gee wanted to take you out for breakfast if that's okay?" he nodded and I walked up to the room. I met Mikey and Frank but I ignored them and walked right into the bathroom. I undressed and let the steaming hot water gentle touch my body, I felt filthy, but it was nothing I could do about it, no water could clean of this dirtiness… Well there was one thing I could do…

"Come on Alex, it will feel so much better if you do it." A voice in my head told me, it talked to me sometimes but never as strong as this...

"No… it won't…!" I was trying to convince myself…

"Yes it will! You will feel the blood pouring out of your pale skin, and you will feel great! Trust me; have I ever been wrong before?"

"Yeah…." Be strong, I remembered what Frank had told me years before…

"No I haven't, come on you want to hurt yourself… you have been a bad bad girl! You kissed another man…"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP WILL YOU!" I screamed out loud to the voice.

"I will shut up… you know what you have to do… cut, I wanna see blood, I want to hear you scream from the pain!" From this moment I couldn't resist it any more, I jumped out of the shower and went through my stuff until I found my sweetest friend, I dragged the razor over my wrist a couple of times, the voice faded away more and more every time I cut

"Alex? Are you okay?" Mikey knocked at the door.

"Yeah… I guess…." I answered, trying to sound normal.

He stood outside the door for a second.

"Alex could open the door please?"

"Give me a second, I'm gonna get dressed first…"

Five minutes later I opened the door, and I found Mikey standing outside, looking at me. I smirked at him. He looked at me, as if he was concerned.

"Alex… you are bleeding…" He simply said after a second.

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