BPOV

The past two months have been the hardest in all my life, Not only am I living off of my best friend form when I was like seven years old but Jasmine is always crying and I know why. She misses Edward and knows that something has happened for him to not be here any more, and it hurts me to know that she is crying because she misses him.

Every night after I have gotten Jasmine to sleep, I lay on my bed and cry until I fall asleep myself.

Leah and Jacob have been so kind to me, especially with Leah being six months pregnant, they both refused to let me go out and earn money to pay them off, and if i'm perfectly honest I have been to distracted lately with trying to get Jasmine to stop crying.

Jacob and Leah had told me that they were having a few of Leah's old friends round, they hadn't seen them in a really long time so they were coming round after tea time and they said I was free to join them if I so wanted. Even Jacob was nervous about meeting her friends as he had yet to do so.

I sat with Jacob in the front room with Jasmine laid on a blanket on the floor as she would roll over onto her stomach and then back onto her back again. She would giggle at the T.V from time to time, not understanding what was going on but at the colours, seeing as Jacob was a huge Simpsons fan.

It had quickly past six o'clock and Jasmine was now asleep on the blanket. If I picked her up she would start crying and that was terrible because then she wouldn't stay quiet, and on the floor she has enough room to fling her arms and legs around. There was a faint knock on the door and Leah got up as fast as she could to go answer the door. Jacob and I looked at each other and stood waiting to be greeted, Leah walked through first smiling before she started introducing them. I had my head cast downwards and was slightly looking over my shoulder as to make sure Jasmine hadn't rolled over in her sleep.

"Jacob, these are the Cullen's" I didn't lift my head back up but just quietly sat back down in my place on the couch. And watched Jasmine in her sleep.

"It's nice to meet you all, this is-" Jacob began to say before I heard the sqeuling of Alice.

"BELLA!" She rushed forwards towards me and latched herself to me in a hug, a hug in which I did not return. She must have figured it out because she slowly let go and for a second I brought my eyes up and saw everyone in the room looking at me. Jacob and Leah; confused and the Cullen's including Edward looked sad or sympathetic. My eyes lingered on Edward's form for a moment and I saw nothing but sadness in his eyes, they all looked apologetic so I just turned my eyes away.

Jacob and Leah noticed the tense atmosphere.

"Who wants a drink?" Leah asked while Jacob stayed quiet and kept looking from me to the Cullen's. They all nodded their heads and told Leah what drink they would like. "You can sit down" Leah said just before leaving the room to retrieve their drinks. Jacob sat down next to me and lent towards me so his ear was closer to my mouth, I knew he wanted an explanation, so I lent closer and whispered as silently as I could manage;

"It's them, the one with the green eyes and bronze hair is the one who gave me that bruise on the top of my arm, he's Jasmine's dad" A look of recognition crossed his features and It didn't go un noticed the glare Jacob gave to Edward and vice versa. Leah came back with the drinks and passed them all around. My eyes were no longer downcast towards the floor but I kept them either on Jasmine or the T.V .

The night went on with everyone making small talk together, except me and any of the Cullen's. I had seen Jacob whisper something in Leah's ear awhile ago, which made her turn to me and give me an apologetic look, I gave her a lopsided smile/frown to show it was okay and nothing can change what has already happened.

"So Leah, how far along are you?" Esme asked kindly.

"around 6 and a half months, I can't wait to get it out of me...the sooner the back pain is gone the better" She said smiling.

"HEY!, Thats one of the things Bella complained about when she was pregnant" Emmett boomed which ultimately made everybody look towards me, and the sound made Jasmine wake up and start bawling. I sighed and reached down towards the now screaming Jasmine.

"Way to go Emmett, now she wont be quiet for a few hours" Leah joked, I looked at her and gave her a small smile, while Edward and the others minus Jacob looked worried. I sat back in my seat with Jasmine's head rested against my shoulder as I rubbed circles on her back. Nothing quietened her down. I tried her dummy, a bottle, rubbing her back, seeing if she needed to be changed but nothing worked, So I got up from my seat grabbed the blanket form off of the floor and left the room so at least they could all talk without a screaming baby assaulting their ears. I walked through the hallway and into the back room which had the dining room and kitchen attached to it. I stood in the middle of the room rocking her in my arms trying to stop her cries. Her arms and legs were flailing all around the place as she squirmed in my arms, I sighed and changed her into a different position before I felt the tears that had formed in my eyes slowly fall down my cheeks. It hurt knowing that the person she wanted to comfort her was only a couple rooms away but I couldn't even bare to say his name let alone be close to him, especially now that I look weak.

I don't know how long I spent rocking her different ways before I started pacing the back room, kitchen and dining room trying to get her to settle. I had walked up and down a lot with Jasmine as my tears came down in gushes from my eyes, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and my eyes were red and puffy and my lips were a little bit swollen, but they always went like that after crying. I had walked up and down once more before I felt a hand hold onto my elbow, making me stop in my tracks. Jasmine's crying continued as I stood stark still with his hand still holding onto me.

"Bella" He said quietly. "I'm sorry... you weren't meant to see what was happening in there, and if you would listen you would understand why I had to do it" I didn't say anything I just started walking up and down again, I had gotten half way through the kitchen before I was stopped again.

"Please Bella, I love you and it's killing me not being able to see or hold you and Jasmine in my arms and Jasmine has gotten so big since the last time we all saw her, she could barley hold her head up long enough for her to stay rested on your hip and to see her screaming like this and me not helping...It's killing me Bella" I didn't move, I didn't speak. I didn't know what to say. So I broke down.

I held Jasmine against my chest and my cries had now become audible and quiet a bit louder than they were. I felt arms wrap themselves around me and pull me into them.

"Oh Bella Baby" He said, pulling me to his chest. I didn't want to but I broke down crying on Edward's chest and like a switch Jasmine's cries had started to stop. Edward ran his fingers in smooth circles on the bottom of my back, trying to calm me down. My cries quickly turned to sobs and I felt Edward's finger slide beneath my chin and slowly lift it up towards him.

"I love you Bella, can you trust me?" He asked. I just stared into his eyes and gave him no answer. I had no idea if I could trust him ever again. " Please Baby"

"Explain" I said weakly as I started to rock Jasmine in my arms as she tugged on my hair. Edward let his palm rest against Jasmine's cheek as he sighed.

"Phil, your stepfather somehow got someone down here to try and murder you and Jasmine, he had guessed that Jasmine had already been born and we would do anything to keep her safe" He started, I was in shock with my mouth open a little. "He sent someone to threaten that if I didn't do something then he would come and get you and I had to have an affair with another women...but I did it so nobody would get you two and if they had asked me to jump in front of a car moving a hundred MPH, I would still have done it to save you both" He said. He was holding my hands in his and looking intently into my eyes for forgiveness and trust.

"You had sex with her?" I asked in a quiet voice. He shook his head but his eyes were telling something that he wasn't saying.

"What did you do..?"

"She had...She had toys" He said, I didn't understand for a moment until I saw the look he was giving me.

"Oh and you had to-"

"To her, yes" He said, he still had hold of one hand while he brushed a bit of hair away from my face. "I've told you everything now Bella, please...I love you"

I stared intently into his eyes and could see he was telling the truth.

"It's going to take a while for me to trust you properly again but I love you too" I said. He smiled and lent down, pressing our lips together in a way they haven't been in over 2 months. We pulled apart at the sound of Jasmine giggling and when she pulled my hair hard enough that it pulled me away from his lips. We looked down at her on my hip and Edward was smiling as he reached for her.

"Hello princess, oh I missed you so much" He cooed as he pulled her to him and kissed her head. I smiled as Jasmine snuggled closely into his shoulder.

"She's missed you, she didn't understand why you weren't here so she would cry non-stop and the only time she would stop was when she was concentrating on something, sleeping or playing.

"So can she speak yet?" He asked, I shook my head.

"It's a bit too early for that yet" He nodded his head and bounced her a little while she cooed to him, he would just come back with 'really' 'Did you' '*GASP* when'

It was funny to watch.

"She can roll over, which scares the hell out of me when she's asleep, in case she stays on her stomach and stops breathing...and talking about sleep she should be asleep by now"I said taking her back from Edward and holding her against my shoulder.

"Do you mind if I come up with you?"

"No, come on" I said, as I led him to Jacob and Leah's guest bedroom which is where Jasmine and myself had been staying. I opened the door revealing the cream walls and the chocolate and white patterned carpet. I held Jasmine as I lifted up the Moses basket from off of the floor and put it on the bed and moved the changing matt into the centre of the room with my foot. I bent onto my knee's and laid Jasmine across the changing matt, I started to undo the bottom part of her sleep suit so I could take off her nappy and for some reason Edward looked away.

"You know, she wont be angry or upset if you look...you've changed her before, heck even Emmett and Jacob have changed her" I heard what sounded like a growl come from Edward.

"What's wrong?" I asked, as I continued to change Jasmine's nappy.

"Jacob has been looking after my daughter like a father while I haven't been able to" he growled.

"No he hasn't Edward, he helped me with her but not enough for her to think he's her father, she knows who her daddy is that's why when you gave us a hug she stopped crying almost instantly" I said as I picked her up and laid her down in the Moses basket. I put a pillow next to the Moses basket so if it somehow turned over she wouldn't suffocate or anything. I sat next to it and stroked her tiny foot softly as she slowly fell asleep. I felt Edward's hands go around my waist and pull me backwards, I landed lightly with my back against the double bed. He started to trail kisses along my neck and over my jaw line before he headed further down, I pulled back and shook my head.

"Edward, I love you but I don't trust you enough to be back to how we used to be so kissing is alrite but this..No" I said, as I scooted away from him a little.

"Okay, I love you though...always remember that" He said before he pressed his lips to mine in a quick chaste kiss, again and again. I giggled and wrapped my arms around his neck and smiled.

"It feels nice to have you in my arms again" He said, scooting closer so our hips were touching. I moaned in agreement as I rested my head on his shoulder before announcing we should head downstairs to the others. We got up from the bed and before we left I stroked my finger over jasmines cheek and with my finger kissed it and pressed it very softly to her nose, Edward bent down and kissed her forehead as he took hold of my hand and led us both downstairs.