What Happens In the room Of Requirement
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Chapter 21:
The next morning I needed to take an extra long shower, to clear mind with everything that has been going on. I may seem like a pretty sane and together person, but I was scared, hurt, confused, and over whelmed. I just closed my eyes, and stood under the warm water as I let it hit my face. I tried to re-play everything in my mind. Ron, my best friend for 7 years had said he loves me and I cant face him, and I want to run , but some one who had been not only my enemy but had hated me for just as many years tell me he loves me as well and I don't run… but he does? I stepped back from the water and pushed the wet hair out of my face. I opened my eyes and turned the water off. I wanted to cry, but fought back the tears, I couldn't lose it, I had bigger things going on. As I stepped of the shower , I walked over to the mirror with a white towel wrapped around me ,and stared at my reflection and just sighed.
" Why cant things just be simple for once, and have one year where I'm not trying to fight evil?" I said to myself. But then got dressed in my school robes to head down to breakfast. Was I meeting Draco for lessons today? I had not idea after what happened last night in the room of requirement.
I made my way into the Great Hall ,and spotted Harry sitting alone. I smiled to myself and walked over to him. I was relieved to see a face that I didn't have to feel awkward around.
" Hey Hermione" Harry smiled over at me, but then wouldn't look away when I sat down. I noticed him staring at me funny.
" What is it?" He grinned
"Don't take this the wrong way , but is everything ok with you? You look like you haven't been sleeping." The funny part was I have been sleeping, but having way too intense dreams about Draco, Ron, helping the resistance take down the Death Eaters, and Bring Mary back together with her mate. I grinned but couldn't really hide anything from Harry , not really. Do I really want to tell him about Draco? I was afraid of how he might take it. I knew Harry looked at everyone differently since the war had ended, and how a lot of the people who we had once hated switched sides was a good change, it was still weird to think about falling in love with Draco Malfoy. The same Draco Malfoy who had tortured us for years, called me a Mudblood in vain, and once supported the dark lord ,but you can't help who you love right?
" Come on Hermione, you can tell me anything" I was snapped out of my internal battle when Harry gave me a concerning stare.
" It's just I just have these feelings for someone but" I smiled " It's complicated in so many ways" Harry nodded and put his hand on mine.
" I get it, It's not Ron, and that scared you because you think that it should have been him?" I let a single tear slide down my cheek. Harry didn't know how right he was. I really did want it to be Ron, the one that I fall in love with in the end. It was how it was always supposed to be. I couldn't look at Harry in the eye, I don't know if I wanted to tell him who it was I was really falling for, because he would be able to read me like a book.
" I'm so sorry , I cant hurt him, and I have no idea how to tell him. I have been avoiding him Harry. I don't know how to tell some one who you have loved so long as your friend that you cant love them back as more." he wrapped his arms around me as I laid my head in his shoulder to just cry. I started to get weird stares of concern and worry from the fellow Gryffindors at the table. They couldn't hear the story , nor did they know it, but that was ok. I didn't care. I just focused on this particular moment.
" It's ok" He patted my arm, to comfort me. " It's ok to choose" I looked up at him and wiped my tears away. " Your just going to have to tell him eventually" I nodded in agreement. I knew this was going to be the hardest part. The part I couldn't do just yet.
" I know Harry, Just please don't say anything to him, until I do" He nodded reassuring me that he would give me my piece of mind.
I turned to grab an apple from the center of the table. I took a bite and sighed because I did feel a little relief talking to my best friend.
" Hey, If you don't mind me asking" I looked over at him again. " Who is it that you think you may have fallin' for?" I froze again. I thought about telling him, but I panicked, instead I looked around the room until my eyes landed on the Slytherin table. I saw him sitting there talking with Blaise Zambini. They were laughing and smiling. They looked to be enjoying each others company. I really did love Draco's smile. When he wasn't being cocky, or vain it was sweet ,and genuine. He looked up and our eyes met for a moment. In that moment I could feel the world stand still and thought he could almost read my mind. I saw him smile back at me. Just then I turned back to face Harry, and noticed he was looking at me. This was different stared it wasn't concern ,or worry, or even approval. It was the stare of disappointment. Maybe I was imagining things. I never actually said it was Draco, but I just knew that at that moment he knew, I didn't have to tell him. I felt awkward enough, so I excused my self from the table, and started to walk toward the entrance still carrying my apple. I took one more look over at his table, but he was gone. I felt my heart sink, like I was disappointed. I don't know what I expected , but I felt actually sad when I didn't see him. I turned back around slowly before I could actually leave the Great Hall and walked straight into Ron's chest.
" Oh, Ron" I tripped but he caught my arm. " I'm sorry I wasn't watching where I was going" He just held onto my arm with out letting go and I started to panic. I tried not to let on that I wanted to run. So I smiled as best as I could.
" 'Mione, have you gotten my letters that I had sent you?" oh no. I bit my lip and nodded.
" Ron, I have received your letters, I've just been really busy with, ya know everything" I was so nervous right now, and I couldn't look him in the eye. He started to rub my arm with his thumb. This was getting even harder and I dint know how I was going to stand it any longer.
" I know you have been busy, that's why I haven't pressured you ,but I was wondering if you had time to come talk with me before class?" I was cornered and I had to confront him now ,even though I wasn't ready.
" Ron, I'd love to talk with you now.."
" But she cant , sorry" I looked to my left and saw Draco standing there with his books in his hands. " She has to help me organize the patrol schedule for the month, and organize the Prefects meeting." I felt an internally sigh of relief Draco was coming to my rescue. I looked over at him to see if this was really a save or if he just had pure dumb luck.
" Why does she have to do it now?" Ron snapped at Draco, with a sour expression. He was some one who couldn't let go of his prejudices over the years, and this was one thing that really bothered me. How could he be so …
" Because we don't have to answer to you Weasel" He looked at me, and grabbed me other arm and let me out of the Great Hall with Ron just staring at both of us dumb founded.
We kept walking until we came to an empty class room. We both walked inside ,and shut the door behind us. I finally let our that breath that I had been holding since Ron had come out of no where and wanted an explanation at that moment.
" Thank you" I leaned against a table in the corner. I looked up at Draco with tears wanting to stream down my face but forced to stay inside to stay strong. He walked over toward me, and put his arms around me ,and I just started to bawl in his chest as he held me tight.
" I saw you from across the Hall. I saw you watching me ,and I knew it wasn't fair of me to just spring my confession on you like that. I was going to come over to apologize, but saw how trapped you looked with Weasley." I laughed and tried to fight back tears.
" So, do you really need my help with organizing the meeting ,and the prefect schedule?" He smirked at me, and wiped a tear from my cheek.
" No, I had that done last week, I just need you to sign off on it as well" I nodded. " And your welcome"
" Draco, please just give me time" He understood what I meant, and everything that I was going through.
" Of course take as long as you need" He bent down and kissed my forehead. " Though just because we had one awkward moment , don't think your skipping out on training tonight." He smiled at me and I just laughed.
" Of course not, I want what's best for the Resistance , and my training is everything" Draco rolled his eyes at my sarcasm. We just stood there for a matter of minutes just staring at each other, with so much passion burning inside, not saying a word, or moving an inch. It was time for class and we both slowly made our way to potions walking inches apart, with a our hands just barley touching as we walked through the halls, but inching to do and say more.