Sorry again for not updating (how comes I always write the same stuff here? Sorry, it'll be better in july)…and here we go!

Again there was silence. Shocked, icy silence. Emily felt her self-discipline crumble and break apart, as Reid had broken apart of them.

Reid.

The reason for the team to split up, the reason why they had crossed so many borders – mental and real – today. The one they hadn't been able to help.

All was said, though nothing, in the end, was done. Every question had been asked, and most of them weren't answered – the rest was silence, because there were no answers left.

Through a mist of shock and bewilderment Emily saw Morgan and JJ cry. Rossi seemed to want to kill Hotch with his eyes, from the look in them. Emily herself could not say how she felt, or how she looked like right now.

Hotch had his eyes closed, possibly just to escape the daggers in Rossi's. Possibly because he was losing Reid. Again.

Then suddenly, he looked up, his voice as sharp and flat as always when they had the last run on the profile, "We got to talk to the reception, maybe we can still get him."

"No, he's gone, they saw him running out of the clinic and getting into one of the SUVs. They just didn't think much about it", Will put down his phone, speaking on before Rossi could interrupt him, "I don't know where he wants to go. My guess is the airport, but…"

"Makes sense", Morgan said hoarsely, "Garcia ordered an all-time-all-way-ticket for him. Maybe he…" he stopped dead, helplessly shaking his head. "Don't know."

"Maybe he wants to go home!" It was only as she heard her own voice that Emily realized her lips were moving. "After all, the BAU is his second family."

"Yeah, Prentiss, but the BAU's right here at the moment", Morgan answered softly, not teasing at all – which made a new wave of tears forming down in her throat, but she was determined not to let it wash over her. Morgan at least, though looking directly into her eyes, didn't notice. "And actually, we've not behaved like a family recently."

"That's a word!" Rossi shot a glance at Emily, not aggressive this time, but rather begging. But begging of what? "I mean, none of us behaved like a…like…" he swallowed. It still was new for him that work and family should be so close together, and he still wasn't sure he liked it. He didn't have a choice, though. Rossi knew it as well as the others that they already were a family, and that feeling wouldn't change just because he wanted it to. They were a family, and they always would be – was it already too late for Reid to get that message?

"Damn it, what are we doing here?" Finally, JJ had gone free of the mist. "Derek, Penelope's gotta find out which flight Spencer actually took. We also go back and, Will –" she turned around to her husband, their faces very near. The hatred was gone now as JJ's motherly instinct had taken over. She would not lose Reid. "Will, Hotch and I need the small machine so we're faster." She quickly kissed him and as Will, shocked by the sudden sign of love, didn't react, JJ took it as a yes. "Hotch, let's go!"

The team leader nodded, but stayed still. "Reid could also be with his father."

"His father?" Morgan asked. "I don't think he's really on his way to the man who left his mother years ago, not now." "He still is his father. And he knows…he knew Diane Reid better than we did.", Rossi chipped in. "Garcia has to find out where he lives, and then we go and talk to him. God knows by now we're all used to work separated." He ignored the daggers that now flew from Hotch's eyes. "Has anyone tried yet to just phone Reid?"

"Of course we have, but he's switched off his phone. And I guess he left when we started to fight, so he can be anywhere right now." Hotch suddenly looked very old and tired. "Try his father, and if he's there, talk to Reid but don't force him to do anything. Give him the time he needs. And if he lost faith in us…" He didn't finish the sentence but left, JJ right on his heels.

Will stared at his wife's back, sighing with frustration. "Charlie's gonna kill me!"

Morgan ignored the cop. "Does anybody know where the Reids are buried? Or where they brought Diane? Maybe he just wants to say his good-byes."

"He'd have left a message then" Rossi said, all his superiority gone now. "And as far as I know Dr. Diane Reid wanted her body to be taken to a hospital for examining her brain. Call Garcia!"

"Hello! Here is NOT the meeting point for agents in need, and I am NOT a fairy godmother, so if you're going to tell me now that you're right on your way to nowhere I swear I'm gonna find you, and then I'll stalk your every move on the internet till the day you die, and I won't ever talk to you again!" Penelope's anger quickly got washed away by tears. "Reid is gone!"

"I know it, Babygirl, but we're gonna find him, okay? We'll bring him back home. I promise." Emily turned around to Rossi, sitting in the back row, a tiny smile on both of their faces. It was good to hear Morgan and Garcia talking, no matter if they were bantering or not, it just was good. It helped to keep faith in family. The unequal pair always brought a flash of light onto the dark sky that was called crime. Well, Garcia could do it alone as well but…Emily sharply took a breath as she felt her thoughts swaying away. She needed to be focused.

"Promise?" Garcia obviously did her best to stop the tears, but it didn't seem to work. "But we don't know where he's going to! JJ just called, but he's far too clever! I can see he's taken his ticket, but he didn't say where he wanted to go and he's FBI so nobody asked and I don't even know if he's landed yet, and ever if he does, there's no need for him to tell anybody what he's doing wherever he's actually doing whatever he's doing so…" her voice trailed off as she seemed to realize that Morgan probably would not understand her rambling. "What I want to say is that Reid could be anywhere right now and I won't know it. I can't track him down!" Penelope's voice got higher with every word. "I also checked his credit cards, but of course he first will use the Swiss one, because they have rules even I don't want to break. No, I don't want to. But I'm checking on his bank records in Quantico and Paris, France, so…nothing." Garcia's voice got very quiet as her last source seemed to end. She took a deep breath. And another one. And another one. And Morgan got worried. "Penelope?"

"All I say is that despite our many possibilities, despite my genius in networking and stalking and stuff I won't be able to find Reid till he wants to be found. " She started to cry, and Morgan quickly stopped the loudspeaker. "Babygirl, he'll come back, right? It's Reid. He may need some time, but that's okay. He won't let us down. We're gonna find him. But right now we need to know where exactly his father lives, can you do that?"

"Of course, mon ami!" This time they all smiled, encouraged also by Garcia's efforts to stay brave, but before anyone could say anything, Rossi's mobile rang. "Hotch, what's going on? …No! You're joking, Aaron…damn it!" Her switched it off and threw it onto the floor. Morgan and Emily exchanged alarmed glances.

"Rossi?" Emily was done with not knowing. "Who was that?"

"Hotch, coming from Strauss. Reid has resigned."