A/N: So most, ok well everyone said keep going so voila! Just a warning, this is kinda KINDA a filler chapter, so it's shorter than usual… And not very extrememly flowy… sorry…. But enjoy all the same(:

Disclaimer: Yeah we all know the, Victorious isn't mine blah blah blah :P

Chapter 21: The Search for Happiness

Cat's POV:

Ohmygosh! Beck found Jade! It's like they're telepathic of something! Maybe they are! I giggled to myself, still staring at the phone. Then I realized. Beck hung up on me! How could he! How rude! I can't believe he did that! I frown and pout at the same time. Calling him again.

"The number you're calling is currently unavailable, please try agai-" I slid the phone shut, giggling again. He must have turned off his phone because he didn't want to be disturbed. Because HE'S WITH JADE! I let an elated cry leave my lips, catching the stares of more than one nurse. Why were they staring at me? My mood fell again, and like I always did when my mood fell, I decided to call Jade. But just I tapped in the last number I remembered. OOOH! They're back together now! I shouldn't disturb them… should I? I felt a sly smile creep onto my face as I wondered what they would be doing now… It brought a blush to my cheeks. Oops! Cat! I chastised myself. Stop thinking weird thoughts. But everyone knows we never listen when we're so happy. So like before, a whole gaggle of giggles come chorusing out. This time I walk away before anyone stares, happily skipping down the hospital corridors.

"Cat?" I bump into Doctor Lily. Immediately I stop skipping. This doctor was mean and I didn't like her very much.

"Yes?" I answer hesitantly.

"Do you have any idea where Jade would be?" She asked, a sliver of panic noticeable in her eyes.

The thought of Jade and Beck brought a grin back on my face. "I dunno," I say, then laugh. "Or maaayybe… I do!" I laugh again. "But I won't tell you!"

The panic slowly merged to annoyance as I struggled to not laugh. I bite my lips, looking everywhere but at the doctor's face, starting to hum along to a random tune in my head. Oooh, it was a good tune, maybe I can show it to Andre later and he could write me a song! And then maybe I could perform it! With Jade! That thought sparked back the previous other thoughts, and thus, I began to giggle again, first slowly, as I was still trying to reel it in, but soon, it just all escaped, and I was full out laughing again, stomach aching and everything.

"Cat!" I stiffened up, Doctor Lily did not look amused. I bit my bottom lip again, twisting my body round and round innocently.

"What is so funny?" She asked, stern like my mother after she saw my math grades.

"NOTHING!" I scream immediately.

"Then please tell me where Jade is. Her mental condition is not stable, this could be dangerous for your friend too!"

'I rolled my eyes. "Oh please, she's with Beck! He won't allow anything to-" I gasped. "I didn't say that!" I cried hoping she didn't hear me. Fat chance.

"She's with Beck?" Her eyebrow raised questioningly, almost surprised.

"NO!... Okay, yeah. No wait! Maybe." I bounced nervously. "I can't tell you!" I screamed.

To my surprise, the doctor just sighed. "It's fine then." Then in a voice so soft I wasn't sure I heard correctly, "That boy won't hurt her."

~3~

"Tell me you love me," she said giving the usual demand.

"I love you."

She looked back down at him, surprised, "No magic word?"

"Not today," he answered, his arms crossed beneath his head.

"Oh?"

"You deserved it."

Jade simply smiled. "Right now, I could say it a million times and not be sick of it," he said, stroking her hair.

"Don't be a sap," she said, but the smile on her face just grew warmer still.

"I love you. I love you I love you I love you… I love you so, so much." He said regardless, pulling her so she laid against his chest, and lowering his head to the crook of her neck. She leaned onto him in complete surrender, sighing in total content.

"Shut up," she said regardless, closing her eyes peacefully.

Beck grinned. "You don't mean that," he breathed.

"No," Jade admitted, her voice impossibly soft. "No, I don't" she said, reaching a hand behind her to caress his face. She turned so they faced each other. "I love you too."

With a moan, Beck reached for her, one hand on the small of her back, the other at the back of her head, pushing their lips together in sweet, sweet relief.

"I missed you," she whispered between breaths.

"Oh Jade, you have no idea what it was like for me." They kissed again.

~3~

Beck's POV:

She laid against me, our breaths in perfect synchrony. She'd fallen asleep hours ago, while I'd held her and slowly watched as she ascended in to the world of dreams. The sun would rise soon.

"Beck," she mumbled softly, her face nuzzled into his shirt.

My hand moved instinctively, pushing the strands of her hair back, tucking them behind her ear.

I closed my eyes, just relishing the feel of her, her warmth, the fact that she was still mine, the fact that she still loved me.

"Beck?" Jade said, slowly waking up.

"Shhh, there's still time, go back to sleep." I told her.

"No," she protested, sitting up and stretching like a cat again. My arms immediately felt cold without her to wrap around. She turned to look at the morning sun rising, and when the light hit her face I was struck once again by how beautiful she was.

"What?" she asked when she caught me staring.

I could already imagine her reaction if I told her. I smiled. "Nothing, I just wish we could be like this forever," I sighed, pulling her to me again, kissing her hair. She was silent for a moment, then her next line startled me.

"Why can't we?" her voice seemed desperate, almost sad even.

"Because Jade," I answered her, leaning her back so I could face her.

"Why can't we? We don't have to stay and deal with this shit! We could," she looked around as if a sign would suddenly pop out, giving her all the right answers. "We could go to Hollywood, we could be stars! We'd show everyone that we were good enough! We could make a living out of it and…" she clasped my hands suddenly. "We could be happy!"

"What do you mean Jade? We are happy!" I exclaimed, something was still wrong.

"Today! Today we are! But what about tomorrow? What about in a months time, when my Dad's in one of his moods again, something happens, I'll come running to you and,-"

"And I'll make you feel better!"

"But that's all that's ever going to happen! We're stuck in this ridiculous cycle! And just look what happened when you tried to get us out." She motioned to herself. "Tomorrow, I'll go home, I'll finish my homework, I'll eat my dinner while my mother fusses over my brother and pretends not to notice me." Word by word I can feel my own walls climb higher and higher. I don't want to hear this and she knows it. "While my dad just sits in his office and I hope, I pray that he won't let out a frustrating cry and head for the fridge where all the alcohol is." Jade finishes. There is a long silence.

"You never told me it was that bad." I accused. "You told me most days everything went normal, that sometimes your family's actually a happy one." She slowly shook her head, "You lied?" I asked in disbelief.

Jade gave me one of her sad smiles. "I never lied. 5 days of the week is 'most days' isn't it?"

I could almost feel the tears springing to my eyes. "Twice a week?" She never came crying twice a week. My fist clenched.

"Give or take."

"Give or take?" I repeated incredulously. "All this time you were suffering alone?"

"Beck, it wasn't always that bad," she said, my reaction obviously surprising her. "Most days he never even touched me! He only screamed, or sometimes it was just a slap and he'd just pass out from all that poison inside him," she said 'reassuringly' as if it could be reassuring. If this was a messed up attempt to comfort me there was no way in hell it was working.

"I'm going to kill him."

"Don't! Don't even try Beck, it won't work! I came to you whenever I needed to, I got used to him for the most part! His words just fly by me, and his hits aren't actually that hard."

"Do you realize the incredulity of what you're saying? You got used to it? No! Do you even realize how unfair this is? How accepting you are of your situation?" I yelled at her.

She seemed a bit shaken up as well. "You don't get it! I deserve this!"

I scoffed, how could she even think so? "Why? Because you 'killed' 2 people?" She flinched, I regretted my harsh words. "Jade! You were what? 5?" I asked in a gentler tone. You were a kid! You couldn't possibly have known the consequences of your actions! It was not your fault! It was not your fault!" I repeated, letting the words sink in. "It was an accident."

She bit her lip, so I knew she was trying her best not to cry.

"Why else then? Why else would they hate me?" she screamed.

"That Jade, is one of the world's greatest mysteries. You're beautiful, confident, brilliant, you have passion! You shine on stage! Why anyone could hate you is incomprehensible."

She just glared at me, "You're just biased because you love me," she retorted, pulling away to lie down again.

I sighed, adjusting her so her head was in my lap, and then, because it really is irresistible, especially with the sunlight streaming down, I started to braid her hair.

"Beck," she protested.

"Hmm?" I played dumb.

She looked at my face. "What are we going to do?"

"Don't worry Jade, he won't hurt you again." Jade rolled her eyes, "Doctor Lily might not seem that nice, but she's on our side."

"I don't want a stupid lawsuit or any of that shit! Didn't I already tell you that?"

"Then what do you want Jade? Tell me and I'll do it! I get it!"

She looked into my eyes like she was searching for an answer there.

"I don't know," she whispered, "I just want you, so don't ever leave me again, and don't try anything stupid." She reached up and tangled her hand in my hair, "And don't ever cut your hair."

I grinned at her last comment. "For you? Never."

A/N: So to clear up any doubts: Beck wants Jade to go to trial and stop her father. Jade doesn't want it because of publicity and partly because she thinks she kinda deserves it, though that doesn't mean she doesn't want the abusing to end. All she wants is for both of them to live in happiness really.

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