Never did I think I would end up here. I mean, I got here about twenty minutes ago. Did you ever think I would find myself in a bar at 9 in the morning? Well I'm drunk, but not wasted. So trust me, I'll remember this night. But here is something I don't remember. Why I left in the first place. Why would someone leave a place where there was nothing but love? Maybe it was because I didn't feel complete. I don't, to be honest. Having my baby ripped from me, it killed me.

I looked around, I'm sitting in a booth, by myself listening to the girl singing. She looked a little familiar, but I guess it will never come to me.

The waiter came by and got me another few shots. Then the music went from a faster pop to a slower one. A new song I guess.

Do you ever listen to a song and then you remember things from your past? Yeah, that's what happens to me. Like a lot. Like even now.

Twenty-five,
All of these mixed emotions,
Tangled up in pure confusion,
It's hard to let go of the past, but it seems,
Easier as time is moving.

I looked up at the girl singing, I have a small smile on my face as I thought of Cory.

Well you said he makes you laugh,
And he makes you happy,
He sees you smiling back,
It is everlasting,
And so he's tailor made for you,
With stunning golden hues,
And one sweet tone to soothe,
Your persistent beating heart it's just a start.

I looked down at my phone. I had a lot of missed calls and texts from not only Cory, but from my mom and friends.

And I, have seen you everyday,
You've never been like this before,
He's tailor made, tailor, tailor made,

It hit me. I knew this song, I sang along to it in the car one day with Cory. I was making a fool out of myself because I was practically screeching in a playful way. Tailor Made by Colbie Caillat. I looked up at her and softly sang along.

So let go all of these mixed emotions,
Forget all your hesitations,
Together entwined inside this feeling,
Feet off the ground, head hits ceiling,
Then he whispered in your ear,
He's absolutely falling,
The words he said are clear,

So don't insist on stalling
Because he's tailor made for you,
With stunning golden hues,
And one sweet tone to soothe,
Your persistent beating heart it's just a start,
And I, have seen you everyday,
You've never been like this before,
He's tailor made,

I stopped drinking the drink in my hands and got a glass of water to sober down a little as I still sang along.

Oh sister, don't be troubled,
Oh sister, please be calm,
Cause this isn't, what you're used to, at all,
He's tailor made for you,
With stunning golden hues,
And one sweet tone to soothe,
Your persistent beating heart it's just a start,
And I, have seen you everyday,
You've never been like this before,
He's tailor made, tailor, tailor made

I clapped along with the few other people in the bar. Then I sighed and walked right out of the place. I wasn't too happy with myself when I realized I had the car and that I was sorta drunk. So I took the easy way out of the situation, I walked instead of driving and possibly crashing.

As I walked I held onto my phone. Looked at the messages and typed fast.

Baby, I know you are going to kill me because I walked out. But I love you and im on my way home.

It took a total of maybe three seconds for him to respond.

Do you know how much you scared me? Lea. Im on my way home. I will be waiting.

He always had said he loved me, but this time he didn't. I of course started to worry.

Do you still love me?

Of course I do. You just scared me.

I'm almost home.

And I was. I was just walking up the stairs to our apartment, and he was right. He was standing outside of the door pacing; waiting for me.

He saw me and practically ran to me and wrapped his arms around me and held me tight. "I thought I lost you. I thought you-" He stopped.

I looked up at him. "You thought what?"

"I thought you went back to Theo." He whispered. I stepped back a little.

"What? I would never." I was shocked and shook my head. "I was stressed. Stressed about New York, about my dad, about the-" That was when I stopped. He saw my look, he knew what I was going to say.

"About the baby." He sighed, and wrapped his arms around me again.

"Don't you get that I was already starting to love that baby?" I whispered.

"I know, I was too." He sighed. "Baby lets not talk about that right now.." I nodded. He was right. Plus I don't think that thinking about the baby and the stress would help either of us.

That night we made love and he made me feel so special. He made me forget about everything. And to be honest, I was the happiest I had been in a long time.

im back bitches. okay love you

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jackie