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CHAPTER 20

PROMISES

Misaki's POV

I was getting light headed… I had to break the kiss… I didn't have much strength in me to push Usagi-san away so I turned my head to the side… each breath that I took burned even more than the last one and my chest felt heavier than before…

I felt Usagi-san's lips against my skin as he placed sweet kisses all over my cheeks, eyes, and neck… he eventually stopped by resting his head on my chest. Moving the hand that had somewhere along the kiss snuck up under my shirt and wrapping both arms around my waist.

I hugged him close while I tried to get my breath to even out, and for my heart to stop its violent pounding against my chest and not hurt so much … I heard his muffled voice call my name after a while and then ask "Promise me that you will stay with me forever…"

I didn't dare answer… not after everything that had happened… there was no such thing as forever... this life made sure to make me understand that concept in the most cruel way possible… my arms tightened around him…

I want to promise him… I want to say it but… but I don't want to have someone I love taken away from me anymore... not after a promise…

I want to stay with you forever… Usagi-san…

My fingers stroke through his silky silver hair and I felt my tears threaten to overflow again and until they actually fell I couldn't say a word… "Misaki…please… promise me…"

"There is no forever Usagi-san… there is no…"

"Misaki…" his voice was a desperate whisper… I will promise…. because it's Usagi-san I will…

"But I promise… as long as I live… I will always stay with you" his arms squeezed tighter around me before he said

"I love you… I will always love you… forever Misaki… I promise you that I will never leave you…forever…"

Forever…

"Usagi-san…? I know it will sound stupid and lame that I'm asking y-…"

"Misaki, what is it?"

I felt my body start shaking before I started "everyone around me says that they would never leave me but they do… so please… promise that you will never break that promise…"

He loosened his grip and raised his head until his face was inches from mine he then whispered "I promise Misaki… I love you" he then placed the gentlest of kisses on my lips and then hugged me again…

We lay on the couch for a while longer enjoying each other's warmth… not feeling lonely anymore was a good feeling, my chest felt lighter whenever he was close… him being there always helped, his words, the love he showed and even the way he cared… I love him

"Misaki, how about you go back to bed… you still need to rest, your fever isn't gone yet…" there was concern in his voice so I just agreed and he got up and I followed, with my feet touching the ground. He was standing in front of me and offered me his hand to help me get up.

As soon as I was on my feet I saw everything around me move although I hadn't moved from the spot I was in…

Usagi's POV

He took my hands and I felt him lean almost completely on them to get to his feet. Once on them he swayed and almost fell I held him and sat him back down before I asked "Misaki… are you ok?"

He took a few deep breathes before he raised a hand to rub his brow and said "I'm fine… a little dizzy…"

I was still worried, it did seem like he was getting better but his fever never completely broke and it really worried me. I kneeled so that I was facing him directly and held both his hands in his lap and then I asked, even though I knew the answer I had to try "Misaki… please, let me take you to the hospital…" I looked at him with pleading eyes hoping that he would agree

"No… please Usagi-san… I hate going there; I don't ever want to go there…" I knew that he was scared… terrified, but he needed help to get better and there was only one place that could offer it…

I had to make him agree. I bowed my head until the back of the hands I was holding, touched my forehead, and with words that came from the bottom of my heart, in an almost begging voice I said "please Misaki…if not for you then do it for me… Misaki, set my heart at ease and let me make sure that you are alright…please"

He seemed to hesitate a moment, his hands tightening around my own and then he said "…I… Usagi-san I…" I could feel him trembling against me before he continued "…i-if it… d-didn't go away b-by morning …I…" he hesitated and then finished with "…t-then…I'll g-go…" he voice was shaking showing me how much he was scared of agreeing to go but he did…

"Thank you…" I said with a sigh

He then added "j-just if I had to… promise t-that you will be there w-with me…p-please"

I raised my head and smiled at him. His tears were falling again in a thin stream down his face; I moved closer "I already told you Misaki… I will never leave; I'll always be with you…" were the words that escaped my mouth before I touch my lips to his brow in a gentle kiss…

I stood up before he said "Usagi-san…?" I looked at him waiting for him to finish what he was trying to say, he turned his head away from me breaking our eye contact and staring out the balcony and said "…I can't get up… c-cant you help me…?"

I was happy that he finally told me how he actually felt I knew how difficult it must be for him to admit it, considering how stubborn he was, but at the same time I'm worried about him not being able to get up on his own. "Will you let me carry you?" I said hoping I would get his usual loud reaction but instead I only got a darker blush… he is so cute when he blushes… I only smiled at him when he shook his head.

I wrapped my arms around him until he was finally able to keep his balance and helped him walk towards the stairs but after a couple of steps his knees weakened and luckily, I was in time to catch him before he fell, then I asked again "now can I carry you?" his heavy breathing worried me, I didn't give him the chance to answer, I just put one arm under his knees and the other was already behind his back and carried him.

He didn't protest, apparently realizing that it was useless for him to try and walk again. He leaned his head on my right shoulder and closed his eyes as I carried him. I took him straight to bed and laid him down. He had fallen asleep again and I was glade because he seemed to be really tired.

I then reclined down next to him not bothering to get out of the clothes I had on and closed my own eyes following him into the dream world.

The next thing I felt was a hand on my chest waking me up from my sleep. I opened my eyes after I heard a pained moan and the heavy breathing from where Misaki was. I turned to see Misaki turned on his left side facing me, his eyes tightly shut and his face was scrunched up into a look of pain. His right hand was on my chest and his other one clenching the fabric of the sweater right over his chest.

"..U-Usa..gi-s..san…i-it…h-hu..rts…" I immediately sat up and tried to figure out what was happening.

"Misaki, what's wrong…? Tell me what hurts. Misaki!" I was freaking out… what do I do… the phone, I needed the phone… but who do I call… Nowaki? An ambulance? He needed a hospital… where?

"…c-can't… brea.." oh god… what do I do …?

"It's going to be ok Misaki. Try taking deep breathes. It's going to be ok…"is it…? First contact on the phone… I opened it and the first number was Nowaki's from the last time he was here he had given it to me in case something happened. I dialed the number and waited for an answer and when I finally got one I said "Kusama-san, I need your help. He is in pain I don't know what to do. I…"

"Usami-san please calm down… what is going on?"

"I'm not sure. Misaki please tell me where does it hurt…" I was really panicking; this wasn't like me but… Misaki…

The hand that wasn't holding the cell phone was brushing through his hair stopping at his forehead every once in a while to check his temperature "…c-chest…m-my chest f-feels…i-it hurts…" a few tears escaped his lids and it sent me into a new sort of panic… was he in that much pain?

"It's his chest… he says it hurts… what do I do…?"

"Please calm down. He needs to be brought to the hospital. Call an ambulance. Go to the SM hospital and I will meet you at the emergency room."

"The ambulance is too slow. I'll bring him there; we will be there in less than 10 minutes." I snapped the phone shut and got up placing the phone in my pocket I carried Misaki in my arms and rushed to the door grabbing both our coats, and make my way to the car.

Once in the car I covered Misaki with both coats, he was shivering and still clenching his chest though he seemed to be able to breathe easier than when he was laying down. I turned the car on and rushed out of the parking lot tying to remember; which was the fastest route to the hospital Nowaki had mentioned and followed it.

I couldn't take the groans of pain that escaped his lips, leaving one hand on the steering wheel I took his right hand into mine and squeezed it gently to let him know that I was right here. I kept babbling whatever words of comfort that came to my mind wanting to ease his pain in anyway.

Once at the hospital I stopped the car in front of the emergency door and turned off the engine hurrying to the passenger door I took Misaki into my arms and rushed him into the ER. After entering the hospital I could see nurses and doctors busy running around patients.

"Please I need help here…" I yelled getting everyone's attention.

Right after a nurse came to us and asked "what's wrong?"

"He is having chest pain… I'm not sure what's wrong" she then asked me to follow her and place him onto one of the stretchers on the right side of the room. A few other nurses had come to assist the first nurse.

After seeing them fussing around him and trying to ask him a few thing and him not being able to answer I remembered Nowaki and said to the nurse closest to me "Dr. Kusama Nowaki, get him here. He'll know what's wrong." She looked at me for a moment and then hurried to the nurses' desk that was near the entrance of the big noisy room.

A few minutes later Nowaki had rushed into the room moving directly towards us. "Usami-san, what happened?"

"When I woke up he was like that. He was saying that his chest hurts and that he couldn't breathe, you have to do something." I was standing at the foot of the bed while nurses and now Nowaki and one other doctor were running around the bed. Misaki had an Oxygen mask on now and an I.V in his left arm. Nowaki was telling the nurses to administer drugs and other things.

I was already lost. My gaze finally settled on Misaki's face. I felt weak, not being able to do anything or help him in anyway. I hated the hospital, the smell, the white plain walls, and the beeping sounds of machines, they signified death and illness. It was the worst place in the world. I buried my hands in my hair as I watched what was happening, waiting for them to tell me that he would be fine

"Sir, would you please accompany me. I need you to fill some forms." I turned to the side to see a nurse holding papers in her hands. Was she really expecting me to do that now?

"I'll do that later…"

"But sir…"

"Not now. I can't do it now."

"Alright let's move him…" I heard Nowaki instruct the others around him, so I turned to him

"Where are you taking him? Is he going to be alright?" I moved out of the way as they started wheeling him out of the room.

"We need to run some tests. I can't tell anything for sure just yet. We need to wait for the test results first." He then turned to the nurse that had asked me to fill the forms and said "it's alright. I'll take care of that."

We both followed Misaki out of the room and were soon riding the elevator to a different floor and I asked him again where we're heading to and he said "we need an MRI of his chest, we already sent a blood sample to the lab and we will be getting the results shortly"

"You will tell me if there was something wrong, alright…"

"Don't worry Usami-san. You will be the first to know, I will make sure of that."

"Thank you…"

At that the doors opened and we were walking again, once we reached the door that said MRI Nowaki said "Usami-san you can't go in there…"

"You can't stop me…" I said frowning at him

"Please, you are not allowed to be in there"

"You don't understand. I promised him that I would be with him…"

"I do understand, but I must ask you to wait out here. It will not take long and I will make sure to update you if anything happens" his voice didn't leave much room to argue so I nodded and stepped back.

Pacing back and forth in the corridor waiting for the door to finally open and for Nowaki to tell me that everything is going to be alright, that Misaki is fine, I waited. The time moved slower than ever, the minutes passed so slow that I thought that time had stopped…Misaki…

A while past and eventually Misaki was transferred to the private room on my request. I was focused on Misaki, waiting for any news on his condition. Nowaki had told me to wait until the results came out and that he would inform me of any news himself.

He looked weak with the mask around his face, filling with viper with every breath he took. The machines beeped in rhythm with his heart beat and I couldn't help listening to every beep and pray that it doesn't change…

"How are you doing Usami-san" I turned to the door once I heard Nowaki's voice, losing concentration of the beeping machines

"I'm more interested on how Misaki is doing…" I was terrified, the whole time that I had been waiting my mind was going in circles deciding to make me think of the most horrific things that might happen and how bad it might be.

At some point I found myself thinking of how I would react to losing him… the one that I would never be able to live without… the one that owns my heart… my Misaki…

I turned back to Misaki and then he said "Of course, well the results finally came back" that caught my attention and I turned back to face him

"So…? Tell me? How is he?"

TBC

AN: Sorry for the short chapter and bad ending, I'll be posting the next one soon... hopefully, but I promise that it will be longer.

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