Summary: Lilli Patterson just moved to Forks after the death of her dad. When she meets Paul how will she react to him imprinting on her when she doesn't even want a boyfriend. Her last relationship didn't go so well and its left her not wanting to date again.

"Lilli, everyone has scars," Emily told her. "Its just some people's aren't as visible as others."

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CHAPTER 20

A few minutes later Paul and Lilli were walking out of his house on their way to Sam's.

"So does your mom know you were telling me about Keaton today?" Paul asked.

"No, I didn't tell her, I was afraid I'd change my mind or she might try to talk me out of it."

"Because she doesn't want me to know what happened?" he asked.

"No because she doesn't want me to get hurt," she told him. "You could have just left me after I told you or told me you never wanted to see me again."

"There is nothing you can say or do that would make me never want to see you again." he told her and she smiled. Lilli moved closer to him and her hand brushed against his. Paul took her hand in his and laced
their fingers together. She still felt a shock like she did the first time she touched him and she wondered if he felt it to or if it was just her.

"Is everything ok?" Paul asked.

"Its fine," she assured him.

When Paul and Lilli go to Sam's everyone was already there and Sam, Embry, Quill and Jacob were outside getting the BBQ grill ready to cook.

"Everything ok?" Sam asked Paul as he glanced at Lilli.

"Its fine," Paul told him.

"Hey Lilli," Sam said.

"Hi Sam," she said softly.

"Emily's inside with Sara," Embry told her. "If you want to go inside." he added. "Or you can always stay with us." he told her smiling.

"I'll go inside," Lilli said.

"I'll walk with you, I should say hello to Emily," Paul said. "I'll be back in a few minutes." he told the guys and walked with Lilli to the house. When the door opened Emily looked over and saw Lilli and Paul.

"Hey you two," Emily said smiling.

"Hey Em," Paul said. "Sara."

"Hey," Sara said waving.

"So I'm going back outside,"

"Ok," she said and Paul turned around and walked back out the door.

"So," Emily said. "How are things with you and Paul?"

"We're just friends," Lilli said as she walked over to stand with Sara.

"He likes you a lot," Emily told her.

"I know," Lilli sighed. "I just really can't date him right now." she added as Sara excused herself to go the restroom.

"Lilli, I don't know what happened to you but I know Paul won't think differently of you because of what happened or because of your scars."

"I know," Lilli said. "I talked to Paul about everything today, what happened with Keaton and he saw my scars."

"Really?" Emily asked surprised.

"Yeah," Lilli told her. "And you're right he doesn't think of me differently, but I just don't know when or if I'll be ready to date anyone again."

"Guys why don't you go get everything for the grill, I have to talk to Paul;" Sam said.

"Ok," Quill said and the guys turned to walk to the house.

"Guys," Sam said and they all turned around.

"Don't listen," he ordered.

"Damn," Embry said that was an Alpha order. They all walked away to the house.

"So you and Lilli talked today?" Sam asked.

"Yes she told me all about Keaton and what he did to her," Paul told him and he looked over at Sam. "Its amazing she survived," Paul said painfully.

"But she did and now you need to tell her about you."

"I know," he sighed. "But not today, it was hard enough for her to tell me everything." he said. "Sam," he sighed and leaned against a tree. "You haven't seen what he did to her."

"What did he do?" Sam asked.

"I don't think she'd want me to tell you," Paul told him. "But he hurt her really bad," he added.

They guys made it back to the house and Emily gave them everything they needed to take to Sam and they all rushed out. Lilli walked outside after them and saw Jacob was still sitting on the porch. She walked
over and sat by him.

"Everything ok?" she asked and he looked over at her.

"Yeah," he answered. "How are things with you and Paul?"

"We're only friends," she told him. "I know he wants more but he knows that's all I can do right now. And he says its ok but I know it really isn't."

"Lilli, if Paul says its ok then it is," Jacob told her. "He wouldn't lie to you."

"That's good to know," she sighed. "Paul….he asked me out on a date," Lilli said.

"What did you say?" Jacob asked.

"Well he didn't actually ask me out."

"What did he say?"

"That when I was ready he'd really like to take me out on a date," she told him.

"And what do you think?" Jacob asked. "You can tell me."

"I think that I really want to go out with him," she admitted.

"Then why don't you tell him that?"

"I'm scared Jake," Lilli said. "Things were not good with my last boyfriend and it ended really badly," she told him and looked away. "But Paul….I feel really connected to him and….never mind," she said and tucked
her hair behind her.

"You can tell me Lilli," Jacob said.

"Its just really weird, I feel connected to him, every time I touch him or he touches me I feel this shock. I trust him, which is not easy for me," she took a deep breath. "And the truth is Paul is the only guy I would consider going out with."

"Then why don't you tell him to take you on that date?" Jake asked.

"Because I probably won't be that much fun on a date right now," she told him and she looked up at him. "I don't want to disappoint him."

"Lilli you couldn't do that," Jacob assured her. "Yes Paul has a bad temper and he's a little hot headed…"

"A little," Lilli said and Jacob smiled.

"Ok he's very hot headed," Jacob said and she smiled. "And its no secret that I wanted to be the one to go out with you…."

"Jake," Lilli said softly and touched his arm.

"But I see know, Paul is better for you in ways that I could never be," he sighed. "I hate to admit it but its true," he told her and she smiled. "Paul will treat you good and you'll have a good time."

"I'm thinking about it," she told him. "But he's built up this idea of a date with me in his head and I know I'll never live up to it."

"Just be you, he already likes you Lilli."

"Thanks Jake," she said. "There's a girl out there for you who is way better for you than I am."

"I know," he sighed.

"Don't get so discouraged, you'll find her." she assured him as she rubbed her hand across his back.

"I've been looking and I haven't found her yet," he sighed.

"Stop looking," Lilli told him.

"What?"

"Stop looking and maybe you'll find her," Lilli told him. "When you least expect it you'll find the perfect girl."

"You think so?" he asked hopefully.

"Well I definitely wasn't looking for Paul," Lilli told him and he smiled. "But I found him anyway." she told him. "And if you want I can set you up with someone," she said.

"I don't know," he sighed.

"Well she may not be your perfect girl but it doesn't mean you can't meet her and see," she told him and he nodded.

"You have someone in mind?"

"Actually I do," she told him.

"Is it that girl you and Bella go to school with that thinks I'm hot?" he asked hopefully.

"No Jake, no way. Not Jessica if she's your perfect girl…no she's all wrong for you."

"Well who do you have in mind?"

"Her name is Angela and I think you two would like each other. She's really sweet and smart and friendly and pretty."

"What have I got to loose," he said.

"I'll talk to her Monday and I'll call you," she told him.

"Ok," Jacob said as Emily and Sara walked out.

"We're going over to where the guys are, you two coming?" Emily asked.

"In a minute," Jacob said.

"Ok," she said and walked down the steps followed by Sara.

"So are you going to tell Paul yes and go on that date with him?" Jacob asked.

"I think so," Lilli sighed. "If I don't at least try I'll never know right?"

"Right," he agreed.

"I have to see what my mom thinks but I'm sure she'll let me go," Lilli told him.

"Of course she will," Jacob assured her.

"Although she was worried that I was to attached to Paul already, I told her I wasn't that I was very unattached."

"That's not the truth is it?"

"Truth is I'm already very attached to Paul and my mom worries," Lilli sighed.

"You can't never date again Lilli," Jacob told her. "You're to sweet and nice and pretty to not date anyone," he told her and she smiled.

"Thanks."

"And you know Paul's really attached to you to," Jacob told her. "He's trying so hard to be what you need him to be and not push you into anything you're not ready for," he sighed. "I've never seen him try so
hard before."

"Really?" she asked. "Because I told him not to wait for me."

"You're the only girl he wants right now. He doesn't see any other girls but you. Well he sees them of course but he doesn't notice them like he does you." he told her. "I've never seen him look at a girl the way
he looks at you."

"And how does he look at me?" she asked curiously.

"A little like the way you look at him." he said and she smiled. "Now lets get over to everyone else before all the food is gone." he said and she smiled and stood up and walked with him. "Do you know anymore about Angela?"

"Jake," she said and he looked over at her. "Well I know she deserves someone like you."

"Why do you say that? Does she have a boyfriend already?"

"No Jake I wouldn't even try to set you up if she did."

"So she likes someone?"

"I think she does but I have no idea why she would even like him. His name is Eric and he's more interested in everything else, he barely notices her because he's worried about the school paper or something
like that," she said. "You would be just what she needs."

"Well I hope you're right," he sighed.

"Me to Jake," she said as they finally got to where everyone else was. Sam was cooking as the other guys were gathered around talking to each other. Paul looked over and saw Lilli walk over with Jacob and
he glared over to them clearing stating they shouldn't be walking over together. He walked quickly over there and stopped in front of them.

"Where have you two been?" he asked upset.

"We were talking Paul," Lilli answered him.

"That's all?" he asked his eyes darting back and forth between the two of them. "I know Jake liked you at one time and you were feeling the same way until I got in the way," he said angrily. "You two weren't
doing anything else?" he asked.

"No Paul," Jacob said. "I can't believe you would think otherwise," he added quietly and walked away. Paul watched him walk away and then turned to Lilli.

"What's wrong with you?" she asked hitting his chest. "I think you hurt his feelings Paul accusing him of something like that." she said shaking her head. "And after everything I told you how could you think I
would either." she told him as tears filed her eyes.

"I'm sorry princess, please don't cry," he pleaded.

"We talked about you in case you want to know." she told him as she wiped her eyes.

"Me?" he asked surprised.

"Yes and I offered to set him up with this girl at school, I think they would be good for each other."

"Maybe you're right," he sighed.

"Do you have time to take a walk with before the food's done?" Lilli asked.

"Yes, a short one, the food will be ready in a little while," Paul told her.

"Come on," she said and grabbed his hand. Paul couldn't keep the smile from appearing on his face as he curled his fingers around hers and walked off with her. They were quiet for the first few minutes.

"Princess," Paul said softly and she turned to look at him. "Did you want to talk about something?"

"Yes I did and I'm kind of nervous about it," she admitted and stopped walking. Paul turned so he was facing.

"Don't be nervous," he said taking her other hand in his. "Tell me."

"Ok," she said and took a deep breath. "You know how earlier today we were talking and you said you'd like to take me out on a date?"

"Yes, I meant that I would like to take you on a date, when you're ready."

"What if I said I want to try that date?" she asked and looked up at him waiting for his reaction.

"Really?" he asked surprised.

"Yes, really," she told him. "I mean I'll never know if I'm ready if I don't try right?"

"Right but don't push yourself because of me either."

"The truth is Paul you're the only guy I'd even consider going out with right now," she told him. "And I trust you and I just hope I won't be disappointing to you."

"You won't Princess I promise," he said.

"Ok how is Friday night?" she asked.

"Like this coming up Friday?" he asked.

"Yeah."

"Sounds great I can pick you up around 7:00 unless you want to leave earlier."

"No 7:00 is good," she told him and he smiled.

"Great, come on lets go back with everyone else,' he said.

When they were almost back Paul looked over at Lilli.

"I'm sorry about what I thought and accused you and Jake of, even if I didn't come out and say it."

"Its ok Paul," she told him. "But I'm not the one you should apologize to." she told him as they joined everyone else.

"You'll really make me do it?" he asked.

"Yes," she said and pulled her hand out of his grasp and he growled. "Did you just growl?" she asked. "Don't growl at me." she said and crossed her arms over her chest. "Go apologize to Jake because you did
hurt him. He would never think of doing something like that he told me he can see how much better you are for me than him," she informed him.

"He said that?" Paul asked quietly.

"Yes, he was the one who helped me decide that I should go out with you," she told him.

"He did," Paul said quietly, Lilli could tell he was starting to feel bad. "I mean I wanted to go out with you and once I actually sat down and talked about it with someone I realized it was what I really wanted.
Jake just gave me the extra push I needed."

"That's Jake," he sighed

"Yes it is, go apologize," she told him.

"Now?"

"Yeah." she said. "He didn't deserve for you to act that way towards him," she told him. "So go apologize." she told him. "Not because I'm asking you to but because it's the right thing to do."

"Ok," he sighed but it was clear he didn't like it.

"Whatever Paul," she sighed and walked away.

"Lilli," Paul said and she turned around. "You know I never meant to hurt him. The truth is I'm closer to Jake than some of the other guys. I mean I think of them all like my brothers but especially Jake. That's why
I acted the way I did and that's why it hurt so much."

"Well Paul then you should know he wouldn't do that to you," she told him.

"He knows how I am, he knows that I'm sorry." Paul told her.

"It means more if you say it Paul." she told him and walked over to join Emily and Sara. Paul looked over at her and walked over to where Jacob was standing with the rest of the guys.

"We were wondering where you got off to," Embry said when Paul walked up.

"Lilli wanted to go for a walk with me," he answered and Jacob looked over at him and quickly looked away.

"Jake," Paul said and he looked over. "Can we talk a minute alone?"

"Sure," Jacob said nodding his head and he walked away with Paul.