I sat on the couch with Clark and the credits were rolling on the tv screen from Once Upon a Time.
"I can't believe we finished season 2." He said with a yawn. I looked at the clock on the wall and realized it was two in the morning.
"Aw shit I didn't know it was so late." I kept squinting at him and the tv screen because my eyes couldn't even handle the dim light radiating throughout the room. I reached over and felt my hands grab the remote and I swung it and happily turned it off. We could hear the soft thud as I dropped it on the ground. The room was pitch black and I laid back into the couch. "Ahhhh so much better."
I heard the quiet words "Aren't you going to go to bed?". And I shook my head.
"I don't want to yet. I kind of need some answers before I can try and sleep." I heard him turn his head towards me.
"What do you want to know?" He seemed scared.
"I know this is like the question of questions I am not supposed to ask but it's been bugging me. Have you been with anyone else?" It was a disability to ask that question in the dark because I couldn't see what his face was saying but the tone of his voice was enough of a verdict for me.
"You know I would never do that." I sighed in frustration.
"Clark you're a twenty-something male with hormones, you didn't even think you were interested in other girls this whole time? It's been months Clark!" I heard a hurt voice echo.
"Were you with someone else?" The tone broke my heart but I shook my head.
"No. I couldn't even try to be with someone else. I was too pissed at relationships to try and even talk to a guy." I crossed my arms and he chuckled.
"I see. Well I would say I'm sorry about that but I'm really not. What did you do while I was gone?" I should be asking that question to him.
"Buried myself in work. I hung out with my girl friends and Cobalt way more than I'd like to admit."
"It shouldn't be embarrassing to hang out with your friends."
"No I meant it was embarrassing how much time I spent with Cobalt." We laughed and it was so nice. I missed his deep chuckle and his very rare belly-laughter. The kind that takes an extremely good joke or incident where he actually had to bend over to hold himself up because he was laughing so hard. It was in those moments that I truly loved him.
"What did you do when I was gone?" I was going to guess: work, work, and save many more people.
"I worked but it was a slow couple of months in the League and I tried to cover as many shifts as I could but they wouldn't let me. So I spent a lot of time at my parents farm."
"How was that?"
"It was good. Sometimes I miss that Kansas air. Plus the miles of golden wheat is just beautiful in the summer, but kind of creepy and sad in the winter."
"I bet. I don't want to admit this at all but I'll tuck my pride away and tell you that I read all of your articles in the paper and even the stories about Superman." He paused.
"You did? I wish I could say the same. I tried looking up any new news about you but I couldn't find anything. Not even Lois would tell me about you. She even shot me dirty looks when I tried." I laughed and I knew he was smiling.
"She's a good friend. I told her not to say anything so I'm glad she didn't. I'm really glad you came groveling back because otherwise it might've been me."
"Hey!" We laughed and he wrapped his arms around me and I turned around and laid my face in his chest and we just cuddled on the couch.
"So here's another question I shouldn't be asking…" I trailed off for affect.
"What." He deadpanned.
"What does our future look like now? Since I know now that you have commitment issues what's our next step?"
"I don't have commitment issues. The reason I did what I did was because I was afraid for you. I don't want to hurt you Jo. And you got hurt because of me. I just am afraid for your future if I stay with you."
"I know you are but what more can they do to me? Plus they know that you've been with me so I will always be a target, whether or not we're together. I love you and we need to do this together. You can't decide what's best for me, only I can do that. I get that you're trying to protect me but the best way to do that is by being with me and respecting my wishes. And I'm not saying that if we want to break up you still have to stay with me because it's best for me. I'm just saying that breaking up with me won't solve my problems."
"If that's what you want, I want to be selfish anyways and just stay with you no matter what. But for as our future, it's up in the air. Whatever happens, happens."
"Marriage? Babies? The whole nine yards? I want to know where you draw the line." He held me tighter.
"Well I have no objection to marriage and as for children, I don't know if I can have any." I listened to his heartbeat as I tried to let that sink in. "Are you okay Jo?"
"Yeah I just didn't think about that. You aren't from this world so it would make sense plus the fact that I might not be able to have kids either. Man, this is going to suck in the morning. I'm too tired for that to sink in now. What do you think of adoption though or foster care?" I felt him shrug underneath me.
"I hadn't really thought about it but I wouldn't have an objection to either. But foster care is something you would want to do?"
"Sure I've always thought about it. Before I wanted to become a zoologist, I actually wanted to be a social worker. I even took some classes. I don't know about you but I want to foster and eventually adopt a teenager." I could tell he was trying to picture that scenario in his head.
"What makes you want a teenager?" I could tell he wasn't rejecting the idea, he was just curious.
"Teenagers are the unloved children. Everyone assumes a teenager in foster care and even in general is going to be a rotten kid. But most teenagers are just misunderstood and everyone needs a stable home, even a teenager with an awful past. I was an awful teenager and I turned out okay. It would be nice to give someone that chance. Plus I can't get the image out of my head that my foster kid, who is usually a boy, finally calls me mom at his graduation ceremony. It will be wonderful and I will bawl like a baby. It's just always something I've wanted."
"You're amazing. I like that picture you just painted for me. I don't have any objections to that idea at all. We'll just have to see what the future brings us. Only time will tell." He kissed the top of my head and laid his head back down on the pillow of the couch. His words didn't sound like a promise but only a hope and I had no objections to that. I didn't want to get my hopes up about a long term future with him. I learned the hard way what happened when I wished for a future with him and the only thing I got was heartbreak. So it was sad to say that even though I hoped for a future I wasn't going to think I was being promised one from him.
"I missed your scent." His words pulled me out of my melancholy thoughts. I scrunched my eyebrows together and had a questioning look on my face even though he couldn't see. What?
"That didn't sound weird at all. What do you mean you missed my scent? What do I even smell like!?" Sweat probably, seeing this whole night had me sweating bullets.
"You smell like coconuts and roses." He said in thought. That was far better than I was expecting.
"That sounds like a weird combination. Do I smell like roses just because you gave me some?" I felt him shaking his head.
"Nope. You've always smelt like that. And it sounds like a weird combination but together it's a remarkable smell." He bent down and started sniffing my neck. I squealed and tried to push him away but he held me in place lightly and was making funny sniffing noises. I was giggling and he was laughing too. He kissed me and it was sweet and slow and everything my heart wanted: nothing too fast. This kiss melted into all the sweet words we had said earlier and spoke nothing but compassion and love. It wasn't requesting anything but time, which I had plenty of. After a while he pushed me down on the couch and for that our lips separated. I was going to protest but I could tell he was leaving. He was hovering over me and I could finally see his face from the sliver of moonlight that slipped into my apartment.
"I have to go." He sounded mournful.
"You can stay the night in my bed. I changed my mind, please don't leave me." I begged. His beautiful smile erupted on his face and I ran my hand through his midnight hair.
"No. I'm doing it right. You wanted it slow; you're going to get it slow. You deserve better than me taking advantage on the first night back together. I'm not in this for the physical aspects and I'm going to show you that. I'm going to cherish you like the precious gift you are to me." He started to move away but I grabbed his arm that was next to my hip.
"Are you sure? Your words just melted me to putty. You can have me if you want; I'm more than willing. I'm always more than willing." He shook his head and smiled again.
"Nope we're waiting. Thanks for tonight. I love you and I will talk to you tomorrow, maybe we could do something Monday after work. I have a League meeting tomorrow. I'll miss you. Sleep well beautiful." He kissed my lips once more and flew away leaving me with only the memory of that last smoldering kiss. I touched my lips and my mouth cracked into a grin. I felt like I had that first night we met. His words melted my heart and even though he turned me down, he was proving to me he was putting extra effort into this relationship. What a crazy day.
Author's Note: The end! Haha just kidding. Their adventure hasn't even really begun yet I have so many plans. I'm so sorry for the wait guys! Finals are coming up and yikes am I not ready at all. Plus I just got a job as a housekeeper at this super fancy resort! I'm so excited for that because they're super nice rooms and this job will be so much better than my last two jobs. Anyways sorry for the personal blab but that's why this chapter was delayed! And just to let you guys know I'm going to start another series based on one-shots of Clark's POV through this whole ordeal. And the chapter I'm going to start with is the break up so you guys get to see what it was like from his side-if anyone's curious. Thank you all for the fave's and follows and as always reviews are always welcome! I love getting feedback! :)