Chapter 21

A/N: Here you go guys, the latest chapter. Not a lot to say about it so start reading! Shout out to Hollywoodlove09 for letting me know how much you like the story!

Izzie didn't know what to think. She was angry but didn't know why. She knew there was something going on with Alex and Meredith so she wasn't sure why this was hitting her so hard. Maybe it was because she was finally witnessing it firsthand or if it was because she still loved him. Either way, she knew that she needed to talk to him.

She planned on talking to him the next morning, but couldn't when he walked into the locker room with Meredith by his side. This wasn't anything new but it was the fact that they were holding hands that made her change her mind. It seemed that almost everyone's eyes were glued to their hands. Without meaning to, Izzie accidentally said something she shouldn't have.

"Looks like the rumors are true." She muttered, hopefully not loud enough for anyone to hear. Unfortunately, she said it louder than she thought and all eyes turned to her – including Alex and Meredith.

She was going to apologize but decided against it. Instead, she just quickly getting her things and sped out of the room.

Throughout the day, she tried to convince herself against talking to Alex. As much as she wanted to, she knew that she shouldn't. It was obvious that they were together and that probably wasn't going to change. But despite that, there was a nagging feeling in the back of her mind that told her she should talk to him anyway.

So when they bumped in to each other at the end of the day, she listened to that voice in her head.

"Hey, Alex. Can we talk? Please? I'm sorry about what I said this morning and I really need to talk to you."

Alex looked at her skeptically and then glanced around. She figured he was looking for Meredith.

"I swear I won't say anything about us, I just need to talk to you."

Alex thought about it quickly and decided to hear her out. He figured he owed her that much after hurting her the way he did. thinking things could get out of hand easily, Izzie wanted to do things at the house. Meredith was in a surgery so she wasn't concerned about her walking in on their conversation. Though she didn't expect it, Alex agreed.

So they drove back to Izzie's house in their own cars, preparing for what the other would say.

They were both silent for a while when they got to the house. Alex wasn't going to start this because he had no idea what she wanted to talk about. She said it wasn't about them and he didn't know what else it could be so he waited for her to speak up. She knew he was doing that but didn't know where to start.

She decided to just say what was on her mind rather than try and explain things a different way.

"I know that I don't have a right to say anything about this, especially after what I've done. But you should know that I saw you guys last night, outside the hospital. And I also know that I shouldn't have been watching you, but once I saw you I couldn't peel my eyes away. I told you that I still love you- "

"Izzie…"

"No, don't. I need to say this. I love you still, and seeing you and Meredith only confirmed that you don't love me anymore. But in my mind that doesn't matter, because all I can think about is how we missed our chance. And if there was anything I could do, it would be to turn back time and have forgiven you sooner. Because as much as I want you to be happy, I wish that it was me you were happy with."

Alex stared at her, not sure what he was supposed to say. He wasn't sure if Izzie even wanted him to say anything. But he couldn't think about any of this because suddenly Izzie's lips were on his. It wasn't a kiss that spoke of love or desperation, it was just a kiss.

He didn't do anything. He didn't even pull away. He froze. He knew that the kiss only lasted a few seconds but it felt like longer. Especially when he heard a sudden gasp come from the doorway.

Izzie pulled away from him with lightning speed and both their heads whipped towards the sound. And just because he was the luckiest person on the planet – oh wait, no he wasn't – Meredith was standing there.

He stepped towards her and she had tears in her eyes. "Meredith, I – "

Before he could say anything else, Meredith was gone. Alex turned and grunted. With a raging look in his eyes he swung his hand at the wall. Luckily, he didn't leave a hole or a dent, but he did shake his hand out, obviously in pain.

"Dammit, Izzie!" he shouted, not attempting to hide the anger in his voice.

Izzie's mouth was wide open and she looked like she was in pain. "Alex, I am so sorry. I don't know why I did that I wasn't going to do that it just happened. I swear I- "

"Stop Izzie. Please, just stop."

With that, Alex left Izzie alone in the house with the memory of her mistake haunting her.

A/N: Sorry that this was a shorter chapter. I promise to update soon in return. Love you! Xx-S