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wow I shouldn't drink, my head is pounding I have a massive hangover but nothing that some tablets and a large glass of water couldn't solve. I set at the kitchen table swallowing the tablets and sipping slowly on the glass of water. Last night I had drank way to much but that wasn't to say I didn't remember anything I had remembered everything that had happened last night I just wish the past two years of my life would be something I would remember. My mom walked into the kitchen

''bad night?.. you know the law states your not suppose to get drunk until you are twenty one years old''

'' I wasn't drunk''

''so what's with the pill popping?.. if I ever see you drinking again Caroline you are grounded until you turn twenty one''

''OK''

the door bell rang and I placed my hands up to the side of my head noises weren't so good right now when my head is pounding.

''mom can you get that please''

I shouted and she sighed but still went to the door anyway I heard her talking to someone but I didn't quite hear who it was. She returned to the kitchen

'''it's Tyler.. I'm going down to the station anyway so you two can talk''

great now Tyler was here and I didn't remember my relationship with him surely someone had contacted him telling him because why else would he be here? Elena had told me he left town to escape Klaus and had only returned once to see me when we had broke up. I stood up and walked to the door in the same clothing I was wearing last night which was a pair of pants and a plain v neck shirt, I had slept in my clothes rather than changing.

''hey''

''I'll leave you two to talk''

my mom said and made her way past Tyler giving me an encouraging smile as she looked towards Tyler from behind. Yes of course she would want me to be with Tyler rather than Klaus but honestly the Tyler I knew was a bully. I had only had one flashback of myself with Tyler it was at a dance and I was wearing a twenties flapper dress but it only lasted for a number of seconds it wasn't enough to go on. I looked at where he was standing which was over the door step so I knew he was the real Tyler and not this Silas guy who pretended to be others.

''come in.. I can make you a coffee if you want''

he closed the front door over and made his way inside following me into the kitchen taking a seat at the table. I walked over turning on the coffee machine, it was a little hot already my mom had made herself some before work. I grabbed two cups and filled them turning around I walked to the table setting the cups down and sitting facing him

''how are you holding up?''

''I'm fine.. well everything is really confusing but I have been trying my best to deal with it all''

''Matt called me.. he said you were struggling that you didn't know anything.. you don't remember us? our relationship do you?''

''honestly?...no I don't I don't remember a thing about my love life the last person I remember is Matt''

he looked at me a little hurt but not to the existent Klaus had, maybe it was because we had already broken up but I'm sure he still wanted me to remember everything that happened between us just like I wanted to remember those memories to

''what about Klaus? Elena,Matt everyone seems to think your getting closer to him and why would you Caroline?.. you know what he's done he killed my mom.. he tried to kill Elena and he killed her aunt Jenna he isn't a good guy''

I had heard this a lot of times but what they all failed to mention was the number of family members they were responsible for killing belonging to Klaus and I had also heard that Tyler had tried to kill him but I understood this subject I had to be more careful what I said because Klaus had killed Tyler's mom.

''what about Klaus?...yes I know that all of it but I also know that you and everyone else done things to him and his family and I'm not justifying what he did to your mom.. I know that was wrong''

''wrong! He's lucky I don't kill him.. if I could I would''

I wanted to be of this subject so I thought of something I could tell him

''I have had flashbacks.. not many just a few, one I remembered was a 1920's style dance I was with you''

his face changed and now he was smiling

''what else do you remember?''

I looked down avoiding eye contact and by the heavy sigh that escaped him I knew that he knew I had flashbacks of Klaus and right now I still wasn't sure what me and Klaus had but it still didn't change the fact I was attracted to him and I liked spending time with him needless to say I still wasn't aware of who actually knew I was having some kind of relationship with Klaus. I think maybe no one knew that it was some kind of secret to stop those I cared about getting hurt and also to stop myself from getting hurt. I probably didn't want to make the decision between him and my friends so I had chosen to see him in secret or at least that was what I thought I had done.

''you remembered him didn't you?.. what actually was going on between the pair of you?... were you sleeping with him? Is that why you broke up with me?''

so many questions that I knew some of the answers two of course only because I had been told them by Klaus.

''I remembered him... a few things not many and as for the broke up with you part I don't know''

''what about the sleeping with him part''

''I don't remember Tyler''

I lied partly because I didn't remember but Klaus had told me we had slept together. I figured it was better to lie than to hurt him and also risk him telling my other friends and then I would have a major fight with everyone I cared about, they wouldn't be at all happy and would be greatly disappointed in me.

''I shouldn't have came here.. I came to see how you were and honestly I'm not sure what I believe any more about you and Klaus''

he stood up and so did I walking out into the hallway

''Tyler wait..''

he turned to face me

''I may not remember much of our relationship but from the photographs I have saw.. I know that I was happy with you.. that I once loved you and I hope that one day you and I can be friends because I would really like that''

''I loved you.. I still do but yes I would rather have you in my life as a friend than not at all.. but again I have to leave town to avoid Klaus but when I return..we will be friends''

''thank you''

I smiled at him and he moved closer to me stopping about a foot away before he moved closer placing his arms around me in which I give him the same in return. A friendly hug or what I thought was a friendly hug, when he pulled back and instead of a cheek kiss he kissed my lips. My eyes closed automatically and this felt familiar. He kissed me softly and my lips parted and I kissed him back for a second before my eyes opened and I looked behind him and standing at my door was Klaus he had just witnessed me and Tyler kissing.

''great''

I sighed and he opened the door I moved Tyler behind me

''what is he doing here?''

Tyler asked looking towards Klaus trying to push past me to get to him though he didn't push hard probably due to the fact I was a human and right now I felt like I had to be standing in the middle of these two men to stop them tearing each other apart

''well I could ask you the same question only I saw the answer already.. I think it's best you leave while you still can''

''Tyler just leave please.. I told you we can be friends''

I said to Tyler who just nodded and then left knowing that he would be killed if he didn't and being friends with me was probably better than nothing given the fact he cared about me. I looked at Klaus

''he kissed me''

''I saw you kiss him back.. don't act like you didn't enjoy it''

he said and I shook my head, it wasn't that I enjoyed it or hated it I had felt something familiar like it had happened before in my life which of course it had because I had been in a relationship with Tyler but with that was a memory of what it was like to kiss him so how could I not go along with it when it was to help me.

''I didn't hate it or enjoy it.. I loved him not love I loved as in the past.. I know I did now''

''so what suddenly he kisses you and everything is wonderful?... are you planning on running away with him?''

I could tell he was hurt by this his voice it was filled with emotion and the look in his eyes I had saw it before it was pain caused by me which I hated to see.

''no that's not how it works.. he kissed me and I kissed him back it felt familiar and that's it.. I told him that I wanted to be friends with him'''

''did you do this all along?.. did you pretend you forgot me because you didn't love me and you just wanted him?.. did you want to make a fool out of me?... did you want to hurt me?''

I saw his eyes well up with tears forcing to spill but yet he tried to compose himself and I shook my head

''I would never do that..I know even without my memories that I would never hurt someone like that I know that whatever we had then had to be real and like I said I told him I wanted him in my life as a friend''

he moved towards the door and I knew he was going to leave why wouldn't he? He had just witnessed me kissing another man hadn't I hurt him enough already? But yet I couldn't find it in myself to love him because despite this attraction and liking I had for him I didn't have the memories that told me I loved him and that wasn't fair on him.

''I told you I would wait but I won't be treated like a fool''

he opened the door and left my house in which I felt my heart slightly breaking. I had hurt someone else in fact I had hurt two people and it was only the beginning of this day. Tears ran down my cheek and I my knees give way from under me and I fell to the floor on my knees and began sobbing. I had hurt everyone who loved me I felt like a terrible person