BPOV

I woke up in our bed, but I didn't remember how I got there. So much had happened in the last few days…Charlie, Carlisle, Esme, Alice and Edward. Maybe it was all a dream. Had we even gone to Forks? I rolled on to my side and immediately felt my sore ribs. Yes, we had gone to Forks. I awoke alone, which was very rare. On Jasper's pillow was a pink rose and a note:

Darlin',

If you are reading this, then I didn't get back in time to see you open your beautiful eyes. I am sorry. I went to hunt, and not just for me. I'm at the supermarket.

Love,

Jasper

I smiled as I picked up the rose and inhaled. Was he not the most perfect man? I got up, showered and dressed in a pair of fresh sweats. I was hoping that we could take it easy today. I was still in pain, and yesterday's long car ride didn't help much. I was glad to be home and wanted to spend some much needed alone time with Jasper.

When I stepped out of the bathroom, my extremely hot vampire was sitting on the sofa waiting for me with my breakfast tray. I looked at him and then the tray. "I don't know what I want to taste first."

He smiled. "Well, I've already eaten, so I think it's only fair that you do the same. Besides, you'll need your strength, since you won't be leaving this house all weekend." He motioned for me to sit next to him.

I did. "You're holding me prisoner?" I asked in mock horror. Of course, the thought of being his hostage made my insides quiver.

He put his arms around me and buried his lips in my neck. "Oh, and the things I will do to you while I have you captive will make your head spin." He kept kissing.

It wasn't just my insides that were quivering now. I could feel the warmth spreading between my legs, and I wanted him to rip my clothes off and bury himself deep within me.

He moved away from my neck. "Bella, the lust I'm getting from you is worse than a locker room full of teenaged boys."

"I can't help it, Jasper; you do crazy things to my body." I blushed.

"Eat your breakfast, naughty girl."

"I'm naughty? You're the one making me think about what you are going to do to me."

"Sorry, I'll behave while you eat." He handed me my napkin.

"Thanks for breakfast. It was very sweet of you. Did you put me to bed last night?"

"Of course. You were out like a light. I carried you up, put your pajama's on, and you never even opened your eyes. You really are a deep sleeper."

"Only when I'm with you. I feel very secure when we're together."

"How are your ribs holding up today?"

"Not as painful, but I am still sore."

"I wish that part of the trip had never happened." He looked away.

"It wasn't your fault. I should have gotten in the car like you asked, but I just couldn't bring myself to leave you."

"You are very lucky, as it could have been so much worse. You have no idea how volatile Edward and I could be, especially when we let our emotions rule us. I should have controlled him, before things got out of hand that way, but I was so caught up in protecting you, that I just couldn't think straight. That will never happen again. I will never let anything hurt you again."

"I really wish you didn't feel so guilty about this. I'm fine and it is over now. Do you want to know what happened between Edward and me? Before I freaked out and tried to attack him?"

"Yes, I do, but only if you are ready to discuss it. You don't have to tell me anything that you feel should stay between the two of you."

"Despite how our trip to Forks ended, I think it accomplished a few things. I made up with Charlie and I feel really good about that. I faced Edward and, while I did eventually fall apart, I got to say some things that he needed to hear. I may not have been able to tell him everything I needed to, but that's okay, because I feel that I have resolved so many of my own internal issues."

"Ah, so you met two of my conditions?" he asked.

"Exactly, and I plan to make amends with Renee next; fulfilling all of your requirements."

"And then when you are ready, I will hold up my end of the deal. I will make you mine forever, if that is what you still want." He took my hand and rubbed small circles over it with his thumb, and no matter how many times he did that, it would always feel like that first time he took my hand in the coffee shop.

"Of course that is what I want. The only place I could ever belong is with you, and I know that now more than ever. Seeing Edward made me realize how much you mean to me. I never doubted us, but a piece of me always wondered what would happen if he came back. What would I do?"

"I didn't realize you were conflicted about that." He slightly tightened his grip on my hand. "I knew you were afraid that I would leave, but I didn't think you had any questions about which one of us you would choose."

"No, never a question, but for two years all I wanted was for him to come back and tell me he was sorry, tell me he didn't mean it and I would forgive him. We would go back to what we had been, but then you found me and those feelings for Edward slowly started to disappear, and they were replaced with the hope and love I feel for you. But, a part of me was afraid to trust that, because without seeing Edward, I would never fully know who my heart was truly with. Am I making sense?"

He thought for a moment. "You wanted Edward to come back to you for such a long time, and that was all your heart knew. I came along and you started to feel for me, but you had those unresolved feelings for him and it wasn't until you saw him, that you realized those feelings for him weren't as strong as you once thought they were."

"How do you always get it? Anyone else would have been freaking out over what I was trying to say, but you listen and figure it out. You weren't the slightest bit worried that I was trying to tell you I was still in love with Edward."

"Bella, I know you love me. I can see it and feel it. If seeing Edward again is what validated it for you, then I am glad we ran into him. Uh, no pun intended."

"Technically, he ran into me." I smiled. "Just so we're clear, I always knew I loved you and wanted you, but seeing him made me understand that, if I were faced with the choice, I know who I would pick. It would always be you, Jasper Whitlock."

"I'm honored, Isabella Swan, and I plan to show you my gratitude all weekend long." He slowly kissed my lips; the cool sensation of his tongue caressing mine sent shock waves from my head to my toes. "Did you have enough to eat?"

"Hmmm…" I pulled him back to my lips. He moved away, took the tray from my lap and gently lowered me to the sofa.

"You are the most beautiful creature I have ever laid eyes on, and you deserve to be worshipped." He unzipped my sweat jacket and slid it off my body. He kissed the inside of my wrist, moving his way up to the crook on my elbow, stopping to press his lips there. I shivered. He continued working upward with his tongue until he reached my collarbone; he softly scraped his teeth against it, as he moved to the base of my throat. "I will worship you always." He gently nibbled on my neck, as he slid my pants down my legs. I kicked them off and they fell to the floor. He lightly brought his hand back up over my body, briefly tracing over my wet center with his fingertips. He grabbed the bottom of my tank top and swiftly pulled it over my head. A look of shock ran over his face, when he saw that I was wearing nothing underneath. "No bra today?" He traced over my hardened nipples with his fingers.

"It hurts my ribs." I managed to breathe out.

"Well, we can't have anything that causes you pain. I'm going to give you nothing but pleasure." He lowered his mouth to my nipple, while he continued to torture the other with his fingers. He took it between his teeth and gently bit down, moving his tongue back and forth, occasionally applying more pressure with his teeth.

"Jasper…" I moaned as I arched my back, offering him more. He slowly worked his way to my other breast and performed the same torturous act to that one as well. My body was on fire for him and he knew it. As he continued his sensual assault on my nipple, he snaked his hand down between my thighs, pressing his finger against my entrance. I pushed myself into his finger. "Please…"

He worked his lips up to meet mine. "I like when you beg…" He licked my bottom lip, as I shivered with anticipation. I thrust myself into his finger again. "Is this what you want?" He asked, as he slipped two fingers underneath my panties and into my waiting entrance. Jackpot! He began to slowly slide them in and out, but the pace wasn't fast enough. I grabbed his hand and showed him how I wanted it. That seemed to excite him, because he pushed his erection into my thigh as he moaned my name.

He was so close to me that I was almost intoxicated by his spicy scent, and the sensation he was creating between my legs was fantastic. I released his hand, but he kept up the pace as he slid his fingers even deeper, hitting that spot that always made me scream. "Jasper!" It occurred to me that I was almost completely naked, and he was still fully clothed. I was so lost in my own ecstasy, that I had ignored him. I reached down and began to unbuckle his belt, while he kept busy with his fingers.

He pushed my hand away as he kissed my neck. "No, no, this is all about you."

"I want to touch you."

"You will, but not yet." He licked my throat and then nibbled on my neck. Oh, that felt incredible.

He kept working me with his hand and I was so close, but I still had the urge to touch him. How could he deny me that? I snaked my hand back down to his pants and tried to unbutton them. "Bella," he warned. "Don't make me tie you up."

Oh, the thought of Jasper restraining me while he… It was too much to handle, and a new wave of desire hit me. He felt it. "Really, Bella? Maybe that is something we should consider later?"

"Yes, Jasper! I'm going to… Oh, God, now." He quickened his pace, and I swear it was that vampire speed that put me over as I poured into his hand. My breathing was ragged. He slowly removed his fingers as he lazily kissed my breasts, working his way down my stomach, stopping to kiss my bruised ribs on his way to the waistband of my panties. I began to quiver again. God, I didn't think I could take anything other than him being inside of me. He hooked his thumbs into my panties and with one smooth tug, they were off. Now, I was completely naked.

He spread my legs as he ran his tongue over my inner thighs, gently sucking the skin there. "For as long as I exist, I will always savor your taste."

"Jasper, please… I need you inside of me. Please…" I tried to pull him up to me, but I couldn't move him. He moved his tongue to my other thigh and began licking and sucking there, too. My legs were shaking. My desire for him was increasing by the second.

"Beg for me," he whispered.

Was he kidding? I would beg all day, every day, if it got him where I wanted him. "Please Jasper, I need you. I want to cum all over your hard…" And then his lips were on mine. I didn't even realize he had moved from between my legs. I felt him pulling off his pants and boxers, freeing his remarkable erection. I felt it against my thigh, and that made me moan… he was so close to where I needed him. Before I knew it, the condom was in place, he was seated on the sofa, and I was straddling him. The speed made me a little light headed. He entered me with one forceful thrust, as he grabbed my hips and moved me up and down his shaft. He guided me, setting the pace and then I took over. The feeling of being in control that way gave me a new confidence, and Jasper picked up on that.

"That's it, sweetheart, let yourself go." He fastened his mouth to my breast, as he slid his hands up and down my back. I threw my head back as I let myself feel the length of him inside me. My climax was starting to build as I wrapped my legs around his waist and rocked faster. He stood up and walked us over to the bed, never leaving me; he placed me on my back at the end of the mattress, while he stood with my legs still securely wrapped around his hips. A few quick, deep thrusts on his part was all it took, and we both were tumbling over the edge. "Oh, Bella…"

He collapsed on top of me, with his ear to my chest. There were no words to describe what had just taken place between us, so we lay there in silence as he listened to the beating of my heart.

After our third round of love making, I lay there sprawled across Jasper's stomach. I was breathing very heavily, and his hands were still tangled in my hair.

"Bella, you exhaust me, and that is not an easy thing to do."

I smiled. "I'll take that as a compliment."

"As you should." He pulled me up, so that I was closer to his face. "Now, I think we should start the relaxing portion of the weekend. Would you like to watch a movie in bed?"

"How much of the movie do you think we will actually watch?"

"Bella, I will not make love to you for the rest of the afternoon." I pouted. He stroked my back. "It is not that I don't find you incredibly sexy and extremely hot, it's just that you're already not going to be able to walk tomorrow, and you're supposed to be resting. You took a pretty hard hit the other day."

"Fine, if you don't want to…"

"I said the rest of the afternoon. We still have all night to play," he smiled.

"Oh, well in that case, let's watch a movie." I knew he wouldn't be able to keep his hands off of me for long, and I wasn't above begging if I had to. "Jasper?"

"Yes, darlin'?"

"When I'm a vampire, we won't have to take breaks, right?"

"No, I suppose not, but I just hope I can handle you," he laughed.

I didn't mean to blurt out my next question, but I was just so happy and content that I couldn't contain it. "When can we do it?"

"Do you really want to have this discussion now? Are you up to it?"

"I want to know your thoughts on the subject."

"I really don't have a specific timetable and I certainly don't want to rush you, but I would like to do it as soon as you are ready." My heart rate picked up, but not from fear. I wanted this, and he was ready to do it. "Bella, if you are not ready for another year or two, then I can wait."

"No, I don't want to wait that long. I want you to do it right now, but I know that is not a reasonable request."

"No, it is not, but not because I don't want to; I just think we need time to prepare, and I would like…" he stopped.

"What would you like?" I asked.

"I, well, I would want you to…" he stopped again and took an unnecessary breath.

If I didn't know any better, I would have sworn he was nervous. "Jasper, I've never seen you struggle for words before." He was always so calm and collected.

"I'm just being silly." He hugged me close to him. "You should call your mom and then, if all goes well, we can schedule a visit. Of course, I'll have to stay indoors for most of that trip."

He just changed the subject. What was he trying to tell me? If there was something he wanted from me, I would surely give it to him. "Renee, I'll call her today." I knew after dealing with Edward, she would be a walk in the park.

"Only if you are up to it. I don't want to push you." He seemed distant.

What was he thinking about? What had changed the mood from just a few minutes ago? "Are you upset with me?"

"Of course not. I'm fine and if you want to call Renee today, I think that is a great idea, but let it be because you want to do it, not because you think it will make me change you faster. We have all the time you need. I just want you to put everything in order before we set the date to turn you."

Wasn't that what I was trying to do? Maybe he sensed something unintentional from me. I could easily deal with Renee now, and Charlie was good, but Edward wasn't completely resolved. Could I leave that alone or would he always haunt me? I knew it was Jasper that I wanted, but what if my unresolved issues with Edward carried over into my new life. Would I want that hanging over me for all of eternity?

He got out of bed and walked over to the sofa to retrieve our clothes. He handed me his cell phone. "I'm going to give you some privacy to call your mother. I'll go pick out some movies and be back in a little while." He kissed my forehead.

"Thanks, I'll miss you."

He leaned down and softly kissed me. My heart skipped a beat. He smiled.

I looked down at the phone in my hand. I would call Renee, but first I saw an opportunity, so I took it. I paged down the contacts in Jasper's phone until I came across the one I needed. I immediately felt guilty, but I needed to suppress that, or Jasper would be up the steps and by my side in an instant.

I pushed send. Why was I doing this? Because, I needed to fix this for all of us.

"Hello," the voice said.

"Hi," I hesitated. "It's Bella."

"Bella?" Hesitation. "How nice to hear from you, but is everything okay? How are you healing?"

"I'm still sore, but I'm on the mend. I was wondering if we could talk."

More hesitation. "Sure, what is it?"

"I was hoping that you could come and see me; if it wouldn't be too much trouble."

"No, of course not, but does Jasper…"

I cut off that question. "No, I don't want to upset him, but I really need to talk to you. Will you come?"

"Yes, I could be in Alaska by Monday morning, if that works for you?"

"Yes, thank you."

"Okay, then I'll see you in a few days."

I flipped the phone shut, as I felt another surge of guilt. I had to pull it together if I was going to do this without Jasper finding out. I would tell him…eventually.

***Oh, Bella what are you doing? You'll find out in the next chapter.

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