I have got to get myself together. Today I just written up for coming to work late. I need this job but I don't even want this job. I will be starting school in two more weeks, it's not like I will be spending as much time there anyway. I flinch as put on my shirt. Things at home have not gotten much better. Every now and then mom will fly off the handle. I just need to make it through my senior year and get the fuck out of here. I have no idea how the hell I'm going to hide this from Tweek tonight.
I grab everything I need for the night knowing I'm not going back home. I'm looking forward to Jason's party. I will be riding with Token, Tweek, and Clyde. Clyde still hasn't spoken to me. I'm surprised Token doesn't know what is going on but I'm not going to bring it to his attention either. I walk into the living room and I see my mom sitting on the couch drinking. I hold my head down walking quickly out the door glad that she didn't stop me.
As I walk to Token's I can't help but think about how much my life has changed over the past months. I never thought I would hate my mom but I actually do, in fact I despise her. I grit my teeth thinking about how I wish I could hit her as she hits me but as much as I hate her I don't have it in me to do it. I finally arrive to Token's ringing the doorbell. I'm surprised when his father opens the door.
"Hi Craig, it has been too long," he greets. "Come in, come in." I walk into the big entry way and just stand there because I don't know how to react. His parents are rarely here. "How are you? Ready to finish school and head off to college?"
"Something like that," I say nodding slowly. He laughs and I notice the brandy in his hand. Yeah I know brandy when I see it. Not particularly my taste, I'm sure his parents have a good brand though.
"The rest of the guys are already upstairs," he states. "I swear Token can take longer than his mother getting ready some times." I can't help but chuckle. "That's our little secret. You boys have a great time tonight and don't do anything I would." Mr. Black winked at me. I forgot how cool his parents can be. I head up the stairs to Token's room. For the first time in weeks I get to see Clyde. He is sitting on the sofa bed in the corner. I can see the light on to the left of the room which is where Token's walk in closet is. Clyde looks at me and immediately looks away. I set my eyes on Tweek. He looking at a magazine when he spots me. Tweek smiles. He gets up from Token's desk chair walking over to me.
"Hey," I smile because I can't help it.
"Hey," said Tweek taking my hands. He leans in kissing me and I surprised he would do this in front of Clyde. I break out of the kiss clearing my throat.
"You think everyone is going to be at this party?" I ask.
"It's Jason," stated Token walking out of his closet. "You know everyone is going to be there. I'm just ready to let loose before school starts. I have already started to put in applications."
"You would," I reply following behind Tweek to sit on Token's bed. Token looked nice in dark jeans and some tee shirt with this silver and black design. I can tell he freshly did his hair today.
"I'm picking up Heidi," he states.
"Is she not meeting us here?" asked Tweek.
"God no," he replied. "She is coming back here with me tonight so I know she is going to take longer to get ready."
"Really?" I question. "Your parents are here."
"For now," chuckles Token. "They are going out tonight. Clyde, you're rather quiet."
"I'm just tried," he lied. I know he is bothered by Tweek and I.
"Hopefully this party will lift your spirits!" exclaimed Token adding his wallet to his pocket. He sends out a text before putting up his phone. "I told Heidi we're on the way. Let's get going."
"It doesn't matter if we're late," I tell Token.
"Yes it does," replied Token. "The party started at 10 it's almost 11. I'm sure your little feelings would be hurt to know the booze ran out because we got there too late." I bite my lip knowing Token is right. We all head downstairs climbing into the SUV. Token is telling us what schools he plans to go to and is super excited. He is planning to go to a school out of state. Heidi is applying to the same schools as him. She is a smart girl so it will be interesting to see if they get into the same school.
Tweek grabs my hand and I let him. I could use his touch right now as much as it kills me to admit it. I'm looking forward to staying the night with him. Clyde is sitting beside Tweek looking out the window. Heidi hops into the front seat.
"Hey guys how is it going?"
"Good," smiled Tweek. "Good day at work?"
"Awesome day," she grinned. "My bitch of a manager got fired today." I laugh.
"That is an awesome day," I reply still laughing.
"She was seriously a bitch," said Token pulling off. "Do you know why she got fired?"
"Get this," said Heidi. "She was all up our asses about thief and she was the thief! She was stealing clothes, accessories and reselling the shit online. Like just ridiculous." Heidi works in one of those trendy female clothing stores. She seems to like it but I already know no kind of job dealing with the public is good for me. At the convenience store I spend most of my time stalking and unloading the trucks. I only get on the register when they are backed up.
We pull up to Jason's house and it looks like plenty of people actually showed up on time. Shit, I hope there is still some booze left.
"Craig," said Tweek. "Please don't get trashed tonight."
"I won't," I reply. "I just want to feel a little something."
"I know but since you're staying with me I don't need my parents seeing that,"
"I promise I won't get trashed,"
"Thank you," Tweek kisses my cheek quickly before we climb out the car. Our friends are already at the front door. Token reaches back to cut on his SUV alarm locking the doors. We walk into the house and there are people everywhere. I head to the kitchen knowing that is where the drinks are. I'm happy to see my brother, yes I called Stan my brother. He is super cool. I have stayed the night over his house a few times. I laugh when I think back to how our father is shitting bricks every time I'm there, asshole.
"Hey," said Stan. "I was wondering when you would get here. I didn't want you to miss all of this." Stan motions to all the different types of alcohol.
"Where the hell did all of this come from?" asked Tweek.
"Different kids actually pitching in believe it or not," said Kyle. I can tell he doesn't want Stan drinking. I shake my head at the thought as I fix my own cup. I take sip as I look into the living room and I see Kenny dancing with Annie. They are officially a couple now according to Facebook. I wonder how long this is gone to last, Kenny is known for sleeping around.
"Tweek you want any?" I ask.
"Sure," he replied. I fix Tweek a drink and hand him a cup. He takes a sip before looking around. I start towards the living room glad to see a seat open up on the sofa. Tweek and I sit down and watch our classmates around us get trashed. Some time passes and I wonder where Stan is. I know Token is off with Heidi, Clyde is well…he could be anywhere. I inform Tweek I'm going to get another drink.
I head towards the kitchen when I see a familiar patch of red hair in the corner. I walk closer seeing Ruby turn around. Her smile disappears when she spots me.
"Ruby what the fuck are you doing here?" I asked.
"I needed some um release," she laughs. I tilt my head realizing she is fucked up and high. I see Karen standing behind her.
"Does your brother know you're here?"
"Not yet," she replied. "I have been managing to avoid him which is easy to do now that he is dating Annie."
"Tell me about it," I said walking over to fix my drink. Ruby follows me. "Are you staying with Karen tonight?"
"You know it!" she exclaimed. "Want to fix your baby sister a drink?"
"I shouldn't be giving you anything," I note. "I will fix you something."
"Yes!" she exclaims. "I have always wanted to try one of our drinks."
"Really? Why?"
"Kenny," explains Karen. "He says you got good taste." I smirk as I finish making both of their drinks. I head back to the sofa sitting next to Tweek. I can tell Tweek is feeling the drink already.
"You okay babe?" I ask. I didn't mean to call him babe but he looks so cute. He nods as smiles at me. I continue to sip my drink as I watch the kids around me act stupid. After some time I'm ready for round 3.
I get up and fix my drink and decide to visit the bathroom. I rack my brain trying to remember where the bathroom is in this place. I refuse to leave my cup anywhere so I carry it with me. I run into Stan.
"Hey,"
"Sup," I say before sipping my drink.
"Not a damn thing," he replied. "You enjoying the party?"
"I'm enjoying my drinking options sure. I am ready to go back and be underneath my boyfriend." Stan laughs.
"Whoa, seriously," he chuckles.
"You know want to fuck Kyle when you get drunk," I snort. "Don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about."
"You know I do," he chuckled. "Have you seen Kyle?"
"Not since earlier," I inform him.
"What are you up to?"
"I was going to the bathroom not that it is any of your business," Stan laughs. He doesn't take anything I say personal anymore, it sucks.
"Alright then," he said. "I will go with you. I could use the bathroom myself." I shrug and proceed to the bathroom. Stan and I get close and we hear voices coming from one of the rooms. I proceed to open the bathroom door when I hear Stan say "Is that Kyle?" I walk over to him as we both get close to the door the voices are coming from.
"Dude seriously, I need to get back to the party," said Kyle. I can hear Clyde crying. Oh god.
"I'm sorry man," he cries. "I didn't mean dump all of this on you. I just don't understand why no one wants to be with me. Not you, not Craig."
"I told you I'm in love with Stan and I am with Stan. I know we had our first time together and was somewhat dating but you have got to let that go. Have you not been talking to Token about this?"
"I can't burden him with this?"
"I'm worried," said Kyle softly. "You sound like you could be getting depressed again."
"No!" barked Clyde. "I'm not depressed, I'm just fucking sad and pissed off." Kyle sighs.
"Come here," says Kyle comfortingly. I watch as Stan's nostrils flares as he swings the door open. The door hits the door stopper causing Kyle and Clyde to look up. Clyde eyes are red which gives away he was certainly crying. Kyle looks like a deer in highlights.
"Stan!" he exclaims jumping up from the hug he was in with Clyde. They were sitting on the bed. Clyde suddenly sees me with Stan looking like things haven't hit him yet.
"You fucked my boyfriend!" screams Stan.
"Stan listen this was before we got together..."
"You told me you were a virgin!" screamed Stan. I can see he is losing it but I don't know what to say as it dawns on me that Clyde had sex with Kyle, with Kyle! I look at Clyde and he is looking at me and Stan. He wipes his face with his right hand.
"You would have known if you weren't too busy fucking Wendy," Clyde stated. Stan rushes Clyde tackling him to the floor.
"Whoa!" I exclaim. I have been on receiving end of his fist and I almost feel for Clyde.
"You son of a bitch!" growled Stan as he punches Clyde in the face. I run and start to pull Stan off of Clyde.
"Stan stop it!" Kyle cries. "Please stop!" I can hear footsteps behind me and I can assume some people heard what was going on and came to see the show. Stan is certainly strong as I'm struggling.
"Kyle, help me," I request. Kyle starts to help me and together we pull Stan off of Clyde.
"Get the fuck off of me," he screams shaking out of grasp.
"Stan please calm down," begs Kyle. He reaches to touch Stan's face.
"Don't you touch me!" he snaps. He walks to leave the room. "Get the fuck out of my way!" He pushes his way through the crowd. I look at Kyle not knowing what to say. He has tears running down his face as he follows behind Stan but not too quickly. I go over and help Clyde off of the floor. Once on his feet he snatched away from me. His left eye is starting to swell and his lip is bleeding.
"I don't need any help," he snaps.
"Yes you do," I reply. I grab Clyde hand and he allows me to drag him through the crowd. I head into the bathroom locking the door. Clyde sits on the toilet lid looking down. He didn't even bother looking at his face in the mirror. He might want to skip that right now. I grab some tissue to try and clean him up. I get on my knees in front of him and start dabbing lightly at his lip. "Kyle huh?"
"Whatever," muttered Clyde.
"I'm just saying that is fucked up you would screw your team mates friend, best friend at that."
"They weren't dating so it doesn't matter," snapped Clyde. "I'm sure you know all about that don't you."
"I said I was sorry," I apologized. "I can't help it that I feel in love with Tweek." This is the first time I said this out loud. I haven't even told Tweek that I love him yet. I watch as Clyde face turns into a frown. He stands up pushing me away.
"I'm so sick of no one loving me!" he screams. Clyde pushes me on my ass before he opens the bathroom door walking out into the hall. God damn it. I pick myself up off the floor grabbing my cup and went into the hall and someone goes into the bathroom behind me. I head down the steps running into Kenny.
"Dude what happened?" he asked with Annie standing close behind him.
"Why don't you ask Stan?" I reply.
"I would have but he ran out of here taking off down the street," replied Kenny. "In fact, I need to find Kyle."
"I think he started walking home," said Annie. "He looked really upset." He should be upset. I feel like Stan is willing to breakup with Kyle over this shit. I spot Heidi pushing her way through the crowd. I take a sip from my cup embracing myself for the bullshit.
"Craig thank god!" she said. "Token and Tweek are looking for you."
"Why?"
"It's Clyde," she said. "Token is thinking he might have a fracture." Damn, did Stan hit him that hard, wait, what!
"He was the one fighting, right?" asked Annie.
"Clyde is with him! With Tweek!" I exclaim ignoring Annie.
"Yeah, why?" asked Heidi confused.
"Where are they?" I demand. I drink from my cup before pushing the reminder of the drink into Kenny's arms.
"Outside by Token's SUV," said Heidi. I take off in that direct not waiting for her but I feel her close behind me. I get to the vehicle in time to see Token holding Clyde back.