**Sorry this is so late. I got to the end, and when I went to save it, my Word froze and I lost all 7 pages. ALL 7 pages! Grrr! SO, here we go again. Hopefully this one will be better and I'll be saving OFTEN. Happy Holidays to everyone! My goal is to have a couple chapters up this week, so stay tuned and PLEASE read and review! **
By the time John got to the highway, he knew damn well he was in the wrong. What made him snap like that? Well, he had been bottling up his frustration knowing that Randy and Melody had made out, and as much as he tried to act like it wasn't bugging him, it kind of did. Then to walk in and find her on stage making out with Meat was too much. He knew it was her job. He knew it was a possibility…he just never thought it would happen. Then it did and instead of acting mature, he completely lost his cool…and possibly lost the woman he loved. And it didn't help that he didn't just lose it in front of Melody…but he did it with Jimmy and Meat nearby…STUPID STUPID STUPID.
John whipped a u-turn and flew back to the arena. He flew into the parking lot and went running into the backstage area. He started knocking on Melody's dressing room door like a mad man. "Melody, please, will you open the door? I'm sorry Melody. I didn't mean to lose my temper. I'm so sorry."
Jimmy came walking up behind John and cleared his throat. John flinched and turned around and came face to face with a very pissed off looking girlfriend's father. "Sir, I am so sorr…" Was all he could get out before Jimmy interrupted him.
Jimmy held up his hand, "Don't say another fucking word. How dare you come storming back here screaming at my daughter like she's some piece of shit? Accusing her of incest and enjoying making out with older, married men? You need to learn some self-control. Don't EVER let me hear you calling her a WHORE ever, and I MEAN EVER again. You're on strike two, and I pretty much stayed out of the first fight where you slept with your ex, but when you personally attack my daughter like you did, I'm getting involved. Now you need to make a decision right here and right now if you can handle her life or not. It's not perfect and it's not very defined, but I swear to you on EVERYTHING holy, if I find out you've acted like a monster with her again…you're going to regret every minute of the rest of your life."
"Jim, I never meant to hurt her. I didn't mean what I said. Yes I totally over-reacted and I am so sorry. I love her with all of my heart and I only want to be with her." John began to apologize.
"Right now your words mean absolutely dick to me." Jimmy said as he started to walk away. "And by the way, in case you forgot, Melody's deaf. Knocking on the door and begging for forgiveness is only giving us a show. You have to walk in." And he continued walking out the back door.
Suddenly Melody's door whipped open and she walked right into John. She took a step back with a surprised look on her face, "What are you doing here?" She asked. "Did you come up with something else to insult me about?"
John shook his head and began to sign as he spoke, "No. Melody, I'm so sorry for how I reacted. You're absolutely right, I should have been proud of you and I AM very proud of you. I know you would support me in anything that Vince would ask me to do for my career and I should be of yours. I have no right to judge you."
Melody interrupted, "You're damn right you don't. I am a grown woman and I make my own decisions. And yes, I was one hundred and ten percent wrong for getting drunk and making out with Randy. That was completely my fault and I deserve you being upset about it. BUT, you should know damn well by now that I want to be with you, and only you. And most of all, I LOVE YOU. Did you hear me, I LOVE YOU. Why isn't that enough for you?" By this point she had tears streaming down her cheaks. "I think we need a break John. You need to do some soul-searching to figure out if you truly want to be with me or not."
John's eyes filled with tears as he heard her say the words "I think we need a break" and he grabbed her hand so she'd look at him, "PLEASE Melody…don't do this. I love you, it is enough, it's more than enough. I swear to you, I'll change. I'll do anything it takes, PLEASE don't end this. You are my world."
Melody looked him in the eyes, "I'm sorry John. I tucked away all of the red flags and all of my insecurities after what happened with Liz. BUT, you came in here and you not only insulted me and my job, but you insulted my family. And I'm sorry if you can't handle the fact that I'm completely ok with stepping up and filling Patti's shoes while she's sick BUT I am. And thank you for screaming my personal family secrets loud enough for the entire arena to hear. Now people know Jimmy's my dad, people know Meat could have been…AND overall, you called me a WHORE. Not just one time, but many times. You're killing me John…I'm sorry. We need a break. You need to figure out what you truly feel about me. Figure out if I truly mean anything to you or not. I'm sorry. Goodbye John."
John's whole body crumpled as she walked down the hallway. He began to all out cry. How could he have done this?
He ran after her, and grabbed her hand as she was walking onto the bus, "Can I have one more minute?"
Melody sighed and looked at the bus driver, "Can I have one more minute?"
"That's it, we've gotta go." He gruffly replied.
Melody turned around and walked down the stairs. She crossed her arms and looked at him, "What is it John?"
He leaned in and kissed her. As much as Melody wanted to kiss him back and melt and tell him it was ok, she gathered up all of her strength and pulled away. She looked at him, "I'm sorry John, I've gotta go." And before he could say anything, she was on the bus and they were pulling away.
John stood there in the dark, watching the bus drive away. There was nothing he could do…nothing he could say.
Melody made her way to her seat and plopped down. Jimmy sat down next to her, but before he could say anything to her she leaned onto his shoulder and began to sob.
The next day John sent her flowers and text her a few times telling her he loved her and that he was sorry and that they didn't need a break. Maybe they needed more time together?
Melody finally text him back, "How can you tell me you love me when you don't respect me? You can't be proud of me or support me, but I'm supposed to believe you love me? You hurt me deeply, and dammit John, I loved you. I wanted nothing more than to be your one and only girl. But EVERYTIME we get going really good, we wind up taking two steps back. We need this break to figure out where we're at with our lives and if you truly can handle being with me. Now please…let me be."
John re-read the text three times and finally threw his phone in his bag. Just as he did Randy walked in, "What's going on?"
"She just told me to leave her alone. She wants a break. She thinks I can't handle being with her because of her odd background and her being deaf. I mean, I learned sign language, what more does she want from me?"
"Dude, being a good boyfriend to a deaf girl means more than just learning sign language. It means taking the time to really learn about her stuff. Like the TTY or TTD machines, I know they're a pain in the ass, but to her it's the most amazing thing ever because it's the only way she can talk on the phone. Melody loves you very, very much. You just have to show her that you can love her more than that. Melody has an innate fear that you'll get tired of dealing with her deafness and you'll just move on to a pretty girl who can hear." Randy replied.
John looked at Randy with an odd look, "You were almost philosophical…and how do you know so much about her?"
"Because we've gotten to be friends. And when Sophie called her this morning, she let Melody vent a bit about what's going on between the two of you."
John did a double-take, "Sophie called her?"
Randy nodded, "Yeah, she had to bitch her out a bit, and when Melody broke down sobbing Sophie couldn't help but soften up."
"But Melody can't talk on the phone."
Randy rolled his eyes, "Dude, do you listen? Sophie text her and Melody went to the library to use their TTD machine."
"Being with Melody is not just a fad. It's not just something to try. I could find another hearing Melody, but I wouldn't love her. I love Melody for being Melody…all of Melody; her deafness; her kooky family; EVERYTHING."
Randy smiled, "That's what she needs to know. Maybe give her some space and then go drop in."
John nodded, but didn't say anything. Randy actually had some good advice.
The rest of the weekend went by and it was hard on both John and Melody. Which in turn made it hard on everyone around them.
Melody sulked around. She kicked at the ground and was lacking the enthusiasm she normally faced the world with. By the time Sunday night's show was over, she just wanted to go home and crawl into her bed and sob.
She had sat down and had a really great talk with Meat, and then had a very opinionated, anti-John talk with her dad which did her no good. Meat had told Patti, Pearl and Amanda who in turn told Deborah and Leslie. All she did was field texts from everyone telling her what to do about her misery, but yet she didn't know what to do.
Melody arrived home and found a note that her roomie would be coming home with the baby later today. She smiled, she was very happy for Alex and Noah. She looked around the place and realized none of her special equipment had been set up yet. She made a mental note to ask Jimmy to come over and install it…again.
She made her way up to her loft and flopped herself down on the bed. Melody finally had the time to just sit and cry.
Melody cried herself to sleep. When she woke up and went downstairs, Alex and Noah were home with the new baby.
She gasped, "You're home! SO, girl or boy? Name? Tell me everything!"
They both laughed. "Well, this is little Daisy. She was seven pounds, nine ounces and twenty inches long. She was born Friday night at six thirty seven p.m." Alex said to Melody.
"And she has a set of lungs that are amazing." Noah replied.
Melody hugged them both, "May I hold her?"
"Of course!" Alex said happily. She handed her baby Daisy.
Melody sat down and snuggled the baby. Holding the baby reminded her of the break with John. It made her think of the cochlear implant, and how she had hoped it would help enable her hear a baby crying over a monitor. She looked over at Alex and Noah, "Here you go. I'm sorry. John and I are on a break and I'm just still depressed."
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry." Alex said as she took the baby back.
"Are you doing ok?" Noah inquired.
Melody shrugged, "I don't know at times. still depressed."
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry." Alex said as she took the baby back.
"Are you doing ok?" Noah inquired.
Melody shrugged, "I don't know at times. It goes in waves. But I'm going to go back upstairs. Thank you for letting me hold her. My dad is going to come over on Wednesday and install some of my stuff, I hope you don't mind."
"Of course not, you put in whatever you need." Noah said with a smile.
"Thanks." She said quietly. Then she made her way upstairs.
All through Raw, John's head was in the fog. He couldn't think of anything but just how much he missed Melody. All he wanted to do was to text her and apologize more, but he knew that would just make her more angry.
Vince had pulled John aside and asked him what the problem was. He could tell John was in a funk and he didn't want it affecting his performance on the show.
John looked at him, "No matter what's going on in my personal life, I will not let it affect the show sir."
"Good. And tomorrow we need you to go to Walter Reed and visit some of the wounded soldiers."
John nodded, he would never say no to something that involved the armed forces. Let alone the ones that were injured protecting America's freedom. "Yes sir."
And once Vince walked away, John headed off to grab Randy and hit the gym. He needed to work off some steam.
That night Melody laid in her bed and flipped through the channels; when she came across Raw. At the sight of John running down the ramp and sliding into the ring she broke down in tears. Damn she missed him. But, she knew this needed to be done. She quickly turned the channel to E! so she could get herself lost in someone else's drama and try to forget about her own.
Tuesday John arrived at the Walter Reed Medical Center and was ready to get started. He was going to finish later in the afternoon or early evening and then fly into New York. He was going to crash at a hotel and then head over to Melody's new house.
John put on a smile and began his visit. They were definitely helping to keep his mind off of everything that was going on.
On his way to the airport, he had a better idea. Instead of showing up at her house tomorrow, he was going to surprise her on her birthday…maybe. Or maybe he should be there earlier? He was so confused…What could he do to win her back?
**What do you guys think? Does John go sooner or later? Will Melody give him another chance, or will she tell him it's too late? PLEASE read and review! Another chapter tonight or tomorrow! I'm on a roll! **