Chapter 21
(Once again I do not own anything. Please Read and Review.) FYI Joshua is a made up character.
Bella slides over the files she wanted to get to first. Dean and Bobby flip through them. Dean shrugs.
"Sounds good to me."
Bella nods and continues to scribble down some notes.
"Thought we'd leave first thing tomorrow morning."
"Bells…"
"Knock it off Dean I'm good to go."
Everyone else looks to one another then back to Bella. She's still got her head down writing.
"So where's your side kick?" Dean says looking around the kitchen.
Bella shrugs.
"France? Mexico? Hell if I know."
Bella winces realizing how that came out. She clears her throat. She didn't expect Cas to be by her side 24/7. She just wished he'd consider telling her he was leaving. That's just not how Cas did things. But she was letting it go, knowing he'd be back soon. Besides she was sure he had better things to do then to play guardian all day.
Dean narrows his eyes as his sister writes her notes.
"Um Bells? Have you been playing with cats or something?"
She looks up from what she's doing.
"What are you talking about?"
Bobby see's what Dean's talking about and he grabs her arm.
"Jesus Bella you're all scratched to hell."
She looks upon her arms seeing the marks go from her wrist up to her elbow. Bella also remembered the nightmares she'd been having. It had to be coincidence. She must've scratched herself during her sleep. Bella shrugs.
"I didn't even notice."
"How could you not?" Dean questions.
"Sorry D not as vain as you are. I don't check myself out as I get dressed in the mornings."
Jo laughs.
"She has a point there."
"Yeah yeah laugh it up. You're both just jealous."
Bella and Jo cut him a look.
"We don't have to work as hard as you D we're naturally attractive. It's not our faults you have to work so hard to achieve that."
Bobby chuckles.
"Hell idjit the girls got you there."
"Don't touch the hair." Dean scolds as Jo rustles her fingers through it.
"Just proving my point D."
"So how do we manage these cases and our little side mission… you know the one that's at God's request. Whatever it was your angel was babbling on about."
Bella slides over a map.
" I figured we'd just take the cases that are on the way."
"Overseas! You're screwing with me right?"
"Nope it's where we'll mainly find these things."
"I'm not going back to Italy either so you and Cas can just scratch that one off the menu."
"These are just idea's D it's not set in stone."
"So who came up with the grand scheme idea?"
"Me."
"You?"
Bella nods.
"How about you let me go back to taking the reins baby sis? You just sit back and chill." He winks and starts moving some of the pin drops she'd placed on the map to different locations.
"D!"
"Here this is better. Nothing overseas and you still get all the traveling to your heart's content. Look we can even go to Maine. Who knows maybe we'll run into the King of creeps!"
Bella rolls her eyes and smacks his hand as he tries to move another pin.
"We don't have time to run cases and play tomb raider to the side! We're hunters Bells not Indiana Jones."
"So you never once wanted to be Harrison Ford? Come on D this is your chance to get all the Han Solo itches out of your system."
"But that was Star Wars."
"Even so."
"They are two different things, so no not even so. There's a huge difference between Han and Indiana."
"Yeah one carries a whip the other a big glow stick."
"It's a laser."
"I was always more of a Space Balls fan. Luke Skywalker was just nothing to gawk at."
Ellen starts laughing.
"You two are complete nerds."
They both shrug.
"OK now that's just creepy." Jo adds taking notice.
"What?" They both chorus and eye one another.
"Adopted my ass." Bobby mutters.
Dean beams at this.
"Lookie there ole Bobby's accusing you of having full on Winchester blood!"
"I put up with you don't I?"
"I think it's the other way around."
"Either way we're going overseas."
"Nope… Not me."
"Then stay your happy ass back here eat Doritos, pie and burgers to your heart's content. Cas, Jo and I will be off enjoying what else the world has to offer."
"What's wrong with good ole American food?"
"Look we'll find a way to make this work. We can manage both we just got to be wise about it."
"I don't honestly see how."
Bella looks to Dean as the reminder hits…
"Hey D?"
"Yep?"
"Did you know my mom was pregnant?"
Dean rears back in wonder.
"She what?" Bobby says placing his stack of cards down.
"Um yeah… apparently you and I have a lot more in common than I ever truly knew."
"Jesus… How'd you find out about this anyhow?"
Bella shrugs she didn't want to get into the entire details.
"Just did a bit of investigating that's all."
"Wait when you do this?"
"When you and Jo dropped me off in Forks."
"Bells tell me you didn't go back into that house."
"He was a boy too."
Dean closes his eyes for a moment.
"Did dad ever see the bullet hole by the play pen?"
His eyes open again.
"Bullet hole… what bullet hole?"
"Honestly what kind of cops did my parents murder investigation? Aren't they supposed to search for that kind of thing?"
"I doubt John even thought to look." Dean admits.
"Are you saying that you shouldn't have survived as well?" Bobby questions.
"Exactly."
"Think they knew your mother was preggers sugar bug?"
"I'm not sure."
"Sounds like it wouldn't have mattered either way. They wanted you all dead." Dean says looking ill on the idea.
"Well thank God they missed." Ellen pats Bella on the head.
"Yeah…" Bella agrees but looks as though her mind was elsewhere.
Bella rises from her seat then scoots her chair back in. She grabs her jacket and keys.
"Where you off to?"
"The library."
"What's at the library?"
She shrugs.
"Want me to come with?"
"Nah… I'll be back."
Once she arrives at the library Bella begins to pull up some old archives from the year her family was murdered. She'd found the clipping of the event but no mention of the unborn child. It also was very vague on what took place. She even found their obituaries, other than that nothing. Bella leans back and rubs her face.
"Boo!"
Bella jumps in her chair and looks around. The other people in the library were staring at her. Bella runs her fingers through her hair apprehending that she must have dozed off. One of the librarians makes their way over.
"I think you should leave."
Bella narrows her eyes.
"Um excuse me?"
"Lady you either need Jesus or counseling but either way. You cannot stay here."
"What the hell is your problem?"
"What's yours?!"
The older gray haired librarian pointed to the exit.
"Do not make me call security."
Bella laughs.
"Um yeah ok." Bella grabs her jacket and heads out.
Once she gets in the truck she glances in the rearview mirror. Her eyes widen seeing the scratches along her cheeks and neck. She looked back to her arms and they too had more now, Bella rushes back to the house and heads straight to the bathroom. She starts to scrub her face and hands but it burns as the water hits.
"Damn." She growls trying to shake it off.
She then cleanses it with some peroxide and puts some antibiotic cream on. Dean's at the door as she steps out.
"What the crap?" Dean grabs her chin and checking out the marks.
"What the hell is going on Bells?"
"Nothing D."
"The hell that's nothing! First your arms now your freaking face?"
He drops his hand.
"Are you harming yourself Bells?"
Her eyes widen.
"What the fuck kind of question is that?"
"It's the kind you ask with the marks look self-induced!"
"Well they're not ok! I just wake up and they're there!"
"I thought you went to the library."
"I did!"
"So you fell asleep at the library and now you look like Edward Scissorshands bride?!"
"I don't know what to tell you D!"
"How about the truth!?"
"Jesus D they're just dreams."
"What is?"
"I just have these dreams of something I'm not sure what."
"Last I knew dreams can't actually hurt you."
"They can't."
"Then what the hell Bells?"
"Jesus D let it go already."
"What happened to you kid?"
Bella rolls her eyes trying to ignore everyone's stares.
"Nothing."
"Sure doesn't look like nothing. Looks like you piss off the wrong librarian."
"Funny Bobby."
"You should get those doctored up."
"I already did Ellen."
Bella looks around.
"Where's Jo?"
"At her last day of work." Ellen says looking to Dean bitterly.
Dean sighs shaking his head.
Later that night Cas still a no show as Bella lays back in bed. With one last glance around the room she cuts off the lamp. Once again the hooded figure visits her, his bony fingers scraping against her as chases after her. He laughs and picks her up his wings flapping away as he drops her into the fiery pit.
"NO!"
"PLEASE!"
Bella's in waist deep as they begin to drag her under.
"You weren't quite done baking." He says standing before her.
"He shouldn't have come for you."
Bella shoots up in a gasp. Her sheets soaked with perspiration. She staggers out of bed rushing to the bathroom. She looks in the mirror seeing how a little blood of blood was drawn this time, along her neck and wrists. Bella starts the shower her heart racing. Her eyes widen as she looks upon her fingernails and they've got blood residue beneath them.
"No…" She hisses and grabs the soap.
Vigorously she scrubs her hands and nails, then her entire body. It burns like hell but she wanted to rid of any dried blood. After she's done she hurriedly jumps into her robe. Bella heads to the room and puts on a tan turtle neck with long sleeves and pants. She brushes her hair leaving it down. She paced the room a bit trying to think. She'd never witnessed something like this and wasn't sure what to do. The salt she'd about the room didn't seem to be working. Whatever this is was able to break through the barrier. But she thought about the blood under her fingernails. She remembered what Dean asked her yesterday.
She makes her a cup of coffee determined she wasn't going back to sleep. They had to hit the road in a couple hours anyhow. She packed up her things to kill sometime. She looked towards the sky as the stars were still out but soon the sun would be rising. Bella wondered about Cas and what he was doing. Part of her felt bitter towards him. For that bitterness she felt like a jerk though. Last thing he needed was her acting all clingy and ridiculous. She hated girls like that. Bella also kept in mind she wasn't dating your typical man. No this was an angel and one who wasn't fully accustomed to human's feelings.
On her third cup of coffee, Bella puts on her headphones; deciding to fix some breakfast for everyone before they hit the road. Jo pops her in the butt as she sneaks up behind her.
"JO!" Bella yells aiming a spatula at her.
"Nice vocals by the way. You know if this hunting career doesn't pan out…" Jo teases.
Bella laughs.
"Shut up."
"Hmmm is that bacon?" Dean says coming up behind them snagging a piece.
"I've been achin' for some bacon." He grunts as he chows down.
"Since when do you wear turtlenecks?" Dean questions as he takes a seat at the table.
"Actually I was wondering the same thing. I didn't even think you ever owned one."
Bella shrugs.
"It's cold."
"Even on the coldest days Bella you hardly even wear sweaters." He looks to her suspiciously.
Dean raises back up as Bella flips a pancake over. He grabs her arm and raises the sleeve.
"Son of a bitch!"
Bella yanks her arm back.
"Are you losing your fucking mind?"
She shoves the sleeve back down.
"What's going on?"
"I'm figuring it out D ok!"
"Nah that's not figuring it out, that's like a lot worse than yesterday. You actually broke skin! I get that you've been through some literal Hell Bella but don't be an idiot."
Bella looks around noticing everyone in the room is looking the way Dean does right now.
"You're kidding right? You all honestly believe I'm doing this to myself!"
"I talked to the librarian yesterday Bells!"
"You did what?"
"Yep!"
"She thinks you're ten kinds of crazy."
Dean slams down a video tape.
"Wanna see what I saw?"
"Oh come on D!"
"Yes let's come on!"
Dean makes his way over and pops in the video. He cuts on the TV and pushes play. Everyone's jaw drops as they watch Bella asleep at the computer chair. She's talking in her sleep but clawing at herself as well.
"That's bullshit!" Bella says hopping out of her chair.
"Nah that there is real! Trust me I get that vacationing in Hell has its downfalls. But damn it Bells we just got you back!"
Bella grabs her jacket and keys.
"Enjoy breakfast I'm heading on out."
"Bells!"
"I don't need this shit! You're right I have been to Hell and back. So why the fuck would I take advantage of that! Why the hell would…" She shakes her head at the pitiful glances she's getting.
"Sugar bug there is nothing wrong with needing help. Everyone goes through…"
Bella starts laughing.
"Great. Just great. I get it. Trust me. You all think I've lost my fucking mind."
She storms out of the house.
"You had better before too long son." Bobby hints out of concern.
"Little shit didn't even tell us bye." Ellen mutters.
Dean pinches the bridge of his nose.
"I'll start packing up."
"Keep an eye on her Dean." Ellen says with a pleading voice.
"Both of them." She hints towards Jo.
That was a big fight between her and Jo. Ellen had demanded that she not go. Jo however stood her ground and confessed her feelings for Dean. Ellen had tried to convince Jo that she could still have a relationship with him and not join in on the hunts. Jo let her know she wasn't about to do that. She knew in order to be with Dean and give him her 100 percent that would mean accepting who he was fully. She couldn't think of a better way other than this. Jo was also very much made aware by Dean the risk she was taking.
Bella sighs as the guilt hits. She didn't even give a proper goodbye to Ellen or Bobby. She knew that would hurt their feelings. But she just couldn't go back to that house. To have them look at her the way they were. Her hands gripped the stirring wheel tight and she hit popped in one of her Metallica CD's. She bobbed her head to the music and drummed against the stirring wheel. She fought the urge to shut her eyes. Bella rolled down the windows taking in a breath of fresh air.
A couple hours in and she's about to pull over and get another cup of coffee, her eyes bat a bit as she continues to fight. Bella's eyes close for a moment and her truck veers for a moment. Just enough to cause her to jump awake and slam on the brakes. She hears the sound of her tire going flat.
"You've got to be kidding!" She puts the truck in park.
She gets out and sure enough her right rear tire was flat. Not only that but some of the tread had already come off. Bella was surprised she didn't have a full on blow out. She throws her jacket into the back of her truck and grabs her spare tire.
"Hey baby you need some help?"
Bella rolls her eyes as she's bent down taking out the bolts.
"I got it thanks." She says turning to the men that clearly looked drunk.
"Are you sure you know what you're doing chicka?"
Bella wanted to snap at them. Yell at them that she probably knows more about cars than they do. But she knew that would just egg them on more.
"Not my first rodeo."
They laugh and start making sexual references to that. Bella sighs and tosses the jacked up tire into the back of the truck. One of the guys starts to get out of the car. Bella smiles and grabs her gun moving it towards the front of her pants so they'd see it. He shut the door and tipped his hat.
"Ya'll have a good day now." Bella says waving them off.
"Jackasses."
She mutters and goes back to changing out the tire.
It's a wonder she makes it to the hotel without further incident. She wanted to shower and eat. But her eyes felt heavier and heavier as she walked about the hotel room. Bella lay on the bed telling herself that she was just resting her eyes for a moment.
Dean pulls up not long after.
"Stay in the car babe. I'll go find out if Bella's already got us a room or not."
Jo nods as he goes to knock on Bella's hotel door. Bella doesn't answer so he looks around. Dean and Bella had certain places they hid keys just in case. He found the key and let himself in. His eyes widen and he rushes over to the bed. Bella's wrists were slit blood was everywhere.
"BELLS! HEY GOD DAMN IT WAKE UP!"
"COME ON YOU'RE NOT DOING THIS TO ME! BELLA!"
Dean takes off his shirt ripping it in half trying to stop the bleeding. Bella's lips are blue. Dean feels for a pulse put it's weak. He goes to call 911 but the damn hotel phone isn't working right he can't get it to dial out and his phone was in the car. He had no idea where Bella's was.
"CAS! COME ON CAS! YOU'RE HER FUCKING GUARDIAN RIGHT? SLACKING ON THE JOB!"
Dean starts rocking her in his lap.
"CASTIEL!"
He hears the fluttering of wings and Castiel appears by his side. Immediately he puts his hand upon Bella. Castiel closes his eyes as he heals her. Once he opens them he looks furious.
"You should leave."
"Excuse me?"
"Bella and I will have matters to discuss."
"She just almost died and you're telling me to leave my sister's side."
"Do not test me Dean. I'm not in the right disposition."
He sends Dean flying out of the room and the door slams shut and locks.
Castiel paces the room waiting for Bella to awake, his fury growing. He never thought it possible to be livid at Bella. After a couple hours Bella rolls over.
"Cas?"
He nods but continues to pace.
"What's wrong?"
"Why would you do that?"
"Do what?"
"Bella!"
"What are you talking about? Why are you so mad?"
"Do you truly wish to perish?"
"Cas?! Why would you even say that to me?"
Bella raises and looks around. Bella covers her mouth seeing all the blood surrounding her.
"Cas?!" She says in panic jumping off the bed.
He watches her more closely picking up her body language.
"What happened?" She backs into a corner looking upon herself and the bed sheets.
"CAS!" She says as she begins to freak out.
"You mean you didn't do this to yourself?" Cas asks only more softly.
"OF COURSE NOT!"
He appears directly in front of her. Cas runs a gentle hand along her cheek. He closes his eyes temporarily. Castiel wraps his arms around her.
"I am sorry. I heard Dean calling to me. I saw your wrists were slit… You've every reason to be hurt by my retort. Suicide isn't taken blithely."
"My wrists were what?! You know I wouldn't do that!"
Cas flinches a bit knowing he'd hurt her by such an accusation.
"Why would I kill myself Cas? What reason would I have?!"
"Normal humans couldn't withstand what you have. That was my concern when I appeared. I've failed you again. Not only by not protecting you but for the added grief I've just caused you. I never heard you call to me. Why didn't you call to me Bella?"
Bella looks confused.
"Call to you?"
"Yes like Dean did."
"I didn't know I could."
"Always call to me when you need my aid. I cannot protect you properly if you do not call to me."
"But Cas… this thing. It's not real. It's in my dreams." She shakes her head feeling lost.
"It's real enough if it can cause you impairment. I almost didn't get to you in time Bella. You lost significant among of blood."
Cas steps back dropping his hold. He looked like a wounded pup. Bella saw it in his face. Yet again he blamed himself. Bella began to quickly dispose of the bloody sheets in fear a maid could come in and see the mess. She's rolling them up into a ball when Cas puts his hand against hers.
"Allow me please. Just take care of yourself." Bella nods without argument she turns her back towards him and begins to step out of the bloody clothing. Cas takes a minute to appreciate her bare back. He shakes his head once he realizes he's staring. He goes back to ridding of the bloody show.
By the time Bella returns he has it all cleaned up and fresh sheets are about the bed.
"How'd?" She says and stops herself.
"Right…Looks like you got that part covered."
"What did this to you?"
"I'm not even sure Cas. He just keeps dropping me back in the pit or chasing me. His hands are like bones and his face. I'm not even sure he has one honestly. All I see is smoke and topaz eyes. He wears a black hood and has massive wings."
"This sounds like an angel but not own of our own, has to be one of the underground."
"I thought only Heaven had angels."
"There are many different kinds of angels. Many seem to forget that Lucifer was an angel himself when he was cast away." Cas turns to Bella in thought.
"We may even be dealing with a fallen angel."
"What's that exactly?"
"An angel that's fallen from grace, they can become quite vengeful."
"And what would that have to do with me?"
They both turn as Dean enters the room with Jo. He gives Cas a go to hell look. Cas ignores this but steps aside so they can visit with Bella. Meanwhile he tried to come up with something in order to help her. There was only one option but it could prove to be a danger to them both.
Cas overhears Dean ripping into Bella about self-harm.
"She didn't cause this."
"What are you trying to say Cas?"
"Something else did something Bella cannot physically touch or defend herself against. Something powerful enough to leave proof of their existence even after she's awaken."
"How do we stop it?"
"Neither you or Jo can do this. I'm the only one."
"How so?"
"I must enter Bella's dreams and hunt whatever this is down."
"How the hell are you going to manage that?"
"I've my ways but Bella and myself will be at great risk. If this creature can do this amount of damage on the outside it'll be ten times worse in the dream phase. It also goes by whatever Bella fears it feeds from it."
"This is starting to sound like some Freddy Krueger bullshit."
"I have never met him."
"Um yeah… let's hope ya don't."
"Ok."
Castiel takes off his trench coat.
"I will need you both to leave for your own safety and for my own attentiveness towards Bella."
Dean sighs not liking this. Jo takes his hand and drags him out of the room. Cas loosens his tie and Bella grins.
"I've never seen you do that."
Cos nods.
"Lay down Bella." There were too many offhand sexual remarks Bella could make at the moment. But she refrained and lay down.
"I'm going to put you to sleep and then I myself shall go to sleep."
"You sleep?"
"No… but I will however for this. That's what makes this rather perilous."
Cas lays next to her and rolls over facing her and has her face him.
"Are you ready?"
"You're coming back right?"
"Yes Bella I'll always come back." She swallows back nervously.
"Ok."
Cas leans in kissing her. Bella's eyes soon close. He takes her hands and he too closes his eyes.
Castiel looks around and sees himself on a beach. He knew this was one of Bella's dreams. That was another thing he knew as well. Dreams were very unpredictable and always switching from one thing to the next.
"Okay kiddo it's your turn to catch the Frisbee."
He sees a little girl running up to what looked to be John Winchester. He kept a safe distance and watched.
"Great job Bella. You're throwing like Dean now."
She smiles to an older boy next to her. Cas liked this side of her. Bella was no more than maybe 6 or 7 yrs old running up and down the beach playing with John and knew by the way the clouds were moving in the dream it was about to switch to something else.
"Cas!" He freezes at first not expecting this.
He hears her laughing and sees the two of them in some sort of hotel. They're both smiling and laughing about something. Cas watches curiously as he pushes Bella against a bed in the dream. He begins to disrobe her and is kissing her. Bella's legs wrap around his waist and she's unbuttoning his shirt.
"Cas…" She says a certain way and arches her back.
This dream made him feel odd but Cas wanted to see more. However the room started to morph. Bella's moans became screams. He saw her running down a dirt road. She was barefoot and in her tank top Pajama set.
"Leave me alone!" He makes out the massive wing sound and looks up.
The hooded creature grabs her and starts dragging off with her. It laughs as it lifts off with her and he's scrapping her up with his bony fingers.
Her feet kick about as she's dangling beneath him. Castiel flares out his own wings and takes off after her. He yanks her away from his hold.
"Cas?"
He nods burring her within his chest. He brings her back down. However he sees the other individual diving after them.
"Run Bella!"
She looks to him confused.
"Run!"
She nods and takes off.
The creature stops before Cas.
"Castiel?"
Cas narrows his eyes. The man lowers his hood. Just as he suspected he was a fallen angel only more demonic than your usual. He could not get to Bella physically so he used her nightmares to feed his energy. Her fear was his ammunition.
"What brings you to my world?"
"This is not your world. It is hers. You do not belong here."
"You do not remember me do you?"
Cas tilts his head looking upon him.
"Time has not done me justice brother, especially when served in hell."
"No brother of mine would ever intentionally harm an innocent human."
"She hasn't finished serving her time. I was just trying to collect."
"Bella has done her time. She will not be further tormented. The girl wasn't meant to be there in the first place."
The dark angel laughs.
"Relax it's only a dream dear Castiel. We'd many interesting times together. Oh how I do wish you'd remember."
"That is not what I'm here for… And you think I wouldn't remember your voice Joshua?"
What used to be one of god's many beautiful angels was now merely nothing more than a rotting corpse with no face only the topaz eyes stood out and his smoky breath.
"Why her?"
"Hmmm why not? I like her spirit. She's feisty makes it a bit more challenging. I must say it was rather pleasurable watching the bitch burn. She's so pathetic crying out to this Cas person over and over." Cas's hands ball up into fists.
"Wait…" Joshua rears back.
"You're the one she cries to!"
"I see you've not altered. All the more reason they were accurate to cast you away."
"Don't you ever get tired of it? I mean it's depraved enough we don't ever actually see or talk to God ourselves. How are we supposed to believe in him ourselves if we continue to serve an empty seat?"
"The seat is far from empty and its that reason alone you were cast aside. You were no better than Lucifer himself. Like he you betrayed God."
"GOD IS DEAD! AND SO'S YOUR NEW PET!"
Castiel spreads his wings once more. He eyes Joshua. He then plummets after him and takes off with him. The dark angel struggles within his grasp. He continues to hold on.
"WAKE UP BELLA!"
"BELLA TIME TO WAKE UP!"
Bella comes to and her body automatically shots up. She rolls out of the bed seeing the fallen angel about the room. What she didn't see was Castiel behind him. Bella continues to scoot back trying to get to her gun. A flash of golden light breaks along the castaway his entire body begins to crack. He crumbles right before her eyes and all that's left standing is Castiel. His eyes lock with hers.
"How'd you do that?!" She asked amazed.
"I get that you're an angel but I'm still human Cas! Our feelings… well we're probably a bit needier than you angels are shamefully enough. I don't care where you go just let me know you're leaving! So I don't turn around and worry about you! And I'm yelling at you? Why am I yelling?!" She covers her mouth.
He says nothing Castiel slowly approaches her. He kisses her only this time he picks her up her legs going around his waist. Cas remembers the dream and pens her against the wall. Only this time he's not near as reserved. He rubs himself against her appreciating the way it made him feel. Bella's arms go around his neck. His hands are along her hips as he takes it upon himself to move her along him. Castiel argued within himself. He knew this was wrong. It was sinful. It was a human need and desire. He wanted to blame his vessel. But deep down he knew it wasn't Jimmy Novak. This was all Castiel this was what he wanted.
That was why he couldn't fight it no matter how hard he tried. He'd taken on demons, fallen angels, leviathans and many other supernatural creatures. But this fight he wasn't winning. He wasn't sure he wanted to win. This would be new territory for them both he found himself thinking. Both were virgins, both never had been in a loving relationship. However Castiel also knew something else, something that lifted him more than he ever knew, this was his soul mate. He never knew he even had one or that it was possible.
Like her dream Castiel laid her down on the bed. Bella shared the same nervous expression he had. Her knees shook a bit. Cas ran his hands along her legs soothingly they were warm to the touch.
He took what he knew from her dream and the pizza man. He slid off her shirt, his hand a bit shaky as he undid her bra. Her body reacted in strange ways but he found himself liking it. He kept thinking about how beautiful she was. A trembling hand ran along her breast. He felt a harder twinge below one that made him want to get friction of some sort. He brushed himself against her with longing. She let out a sound like he'd heard in her dream. This made him ache more.
Bella unbuttoned his shirt and undid his tie. She tossed both about the room. Her hands ran about his bare chest. He loved the way that felt. In fact he loved it every time Bella touched him. Cas takes off her pants and just stares for a moment. She lay there in a set of white satin bikini panties. His hands and her legs seemed to shake even more now. He knew she was just as uneasy as he. Cas feels a tug at his pants and looks down to see Bella undoing them. He closed his eyes for a moment with sensory overload. When he opens them he sees Bella smiling and biting her lower lip. Gently he pulls down her panties. Curiously he ran a hand along her private. He liked the way it felt but even more so when she reacted to this as well. He spread her about gently wanting to see curiously. He let a single finger run along the inside. Bella squirmed at this her hips moving along with his finger.
He wasn't quite sure how to go about it from here. That's where Bella takes over and guides him. Without a word he feels her stroking him. She places him inside her. He couldn't believe how warm it felt. He began to literally throb.
"Just remember slow at first…" She hints softly and he nods.
He moves about like the pizza man did but only slow as Bella requested. He makes his way back to her lips and continues this. She whimpers during this and he stops moving period looking upon her.
"It's ok Cas. You're hitting my hymen."
He looked to her confused afraid to move. He'd never want to hurt her. She softly laughs.
"Keep going."
He starts again and feels something strange. He's further in now he notices. But she looks to be in pain yet still she eggs him on. Her arms go around his neck after too long.
"You can go harder now. "
Cas picks up the stride he grips her slightly tighter. A sudden urge within him he'd ever felt before became heavy and made him dizzy. He found himself wanting to move harder and more rapidly. He needed the impulse released now. A sound he'd never made before escapes his mouth followed by Bella's. Once he's done he doesn't move. He focuses on her. Castiel wanted to know how she felt, what she was thinking. Bella scoots back on the bed and he looks down once he's out. His eyes widen in alarm.
"Bella?"
"Cas it's ok. It does that at first."
"I made you bleed?"
She nods but smiles.
"You took my virginity Cas. Women bleed at first."
He nods but still looked worrysome.
"Are you in pain?"
"No Cas it's just a little sore. It'll go away on its own."
"Are you certain of this?"
She laughs a bit.
"Cas I love you but please just shut up and lay down."
Castiel lays next to her and she curls up next to him. Only one more thing catches Bella off guard and she found herself wanting to kill Dean.
"I liked doing the pizza man with you."