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Chapter 21 Black eyes.
The night before D-day.
The hell is going on with the world? Was a question floating in the minds of the resting soldiers still weary from their excursion. That and the failed capture plan. Bad enough that the plan backfired. All they brought home are bloody hands and broken bones to nurse along with a cartload of heart ache( as usual). The worst of it was no fallen commrades were recovered. All was lost in that pitiful brush up. There was nothing to keep their spirits burning but their rage, dreams and hatred.
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And the plan to attack a titan in the walls.
(Eric's POV)
What is . .this? This blackness . . Its freakin' cold . .where . . .am I? Oh.. . . Its. . .just another dream. So God, what is it this time? Fluttering my eyes open I look around. We were in some kind of town ruins on open plains. An open city within wall Maria? My garb was still a scout uniform but there was a mission band on my arm. It read "33rd Recon Mission. 33rd? That's really early. I look around and I realise I was surrounded by scouts whose faces I couldn't identify. Then someone called out to me. "Its time to move out son." That voice! My head snaps to the right faster than a bullet could travel an inch. Dad? There he was, my father. A lean built man of average height. He had grey hair lighter than mine and he looks much younger than I remember, watching me with a pair of dark brown eyes. I was rooted to the spot. After seeing him in all these years, you really can't help but be shaken up. "What are you gawking at move!" He shouted again. I stagger to my senses shouting out "yes sir" instinctively. We were travelling on horseback and then suddenly a swarm of titans jumped the entire squad. I can't remember when but I was already on my gears. I clicked the button on my trigger and launched a cable to a titan's nape. Reeling in I slash it effortlessly. Then with the same momentum leaped high into the air. This gave me full view of the battleground. The scout soldiers were dying left and right. I didn't feel a thing. Its unknown to me whether I was too used to it or it was just another dream effect. After killing another half dozen titans I land on the ground. My dad came running to me. "Come on son. What are you waiting for? Do it." He shouted to me. "Huh? What are you talking about? I'm fighting right?" I replied yelling. "Hurry up already son please! Use it. Unlease the power . .and save us all." Our conversation was cut short when a titan dived at us. I react at lightning speeds and push dad away but grabbed in the process. It started to lift me off the ground. Realistically I should've been able to break free by sheer force. But all of that was gone as I felt bones crunching under the pressure and heat from the hand.
Shit, I can't do any thing. . . What do I do? I keep trying to force my hand to move and break free but I had no strength in them. Then from what I saw was that a cable was fired at the titan's nape. The hissing of gas pumping and the tings from blades cutting through the air was combined with the sight of a shadowy figure flying in from above. In my state the sun was in front of me so I couldn't see who moved in and instantly severed the entire nape off the body. I hear a shout as the person attacked. "HHHAAAIIIIYAAHH." it was female and too painfully familiar. Who is it? The titan died and my strength returned. I stretch out my hands and break free. Gracefully landing on my feet it I move away from it. Who saved me? It was definately someone I know. The other titans around us have seemed to disappear. I extend my field of view and look for my saviour. A few hundred yards away someone back turned was examining her swords and wiping the blood off it with a cloth. With no danger present I move in closer to her. I open my mouth and "Thank you" was the word that rolled off my tongue. "Oh, don't mention it. I'm glad you are safe." She replied, again that voice. I felt so ashamed to not be able to identify it despite the closeness. The tone she spoke in was warm and soothing. She lifted her hood and turned to face me.
No way.
No way.
No way.
And . . . . .wow. I wanted to dropkick myself for not realising it sooner. That jet black hair, those cerulean eyes. That strong yet gentle look in her eyes. But the fact that she was here and clad in full survey corps uniform.
Mom?
Yes it was her. "Mom? Wha . .what are . ." I stuttered to find a word but my voice was taken away and all I could do was just stand there as she approached me. She looked mesmerising. I always remember her having an old uniform tucked neatly in the closet of our house but to see it on her was an entirely new thing. She was beautiful. Her hair was short but still reached to her nape . 'Nape' definately not the best word in my language right now. It was tied with the same band that was around my wrist. Five interconnecting bangs were in hanging in front if her face. Hmm. So that's where I got my fringes. I've always seen her as the gentle, caring and strict mother. But to see her on a battlefield holding a pair of steaming bloodstained swords gave off an entirely new aura. It almost made me space out which I had to keep myself in focus. I feel numbness in my arms and trip over as we walk toward one another. I fall face first as everything begins to go white. I keep hearing voices in my head. Two in fact. My mom and dad.
"Its going to be alright."
"Its time for action son."
"Wake up dear. Prepare for battle."
"You had your father's eyes but now you have mine."
"Show the full extent of your power."
But then only one question that seemed so irrational it felt normal. "Who are you?" "Who are you?" "Who are you?" This keeps repeating in my void reality in voices of my father and mother alternating back and forth. Who am I?
That was the last thing I remember as I wake up from another restless dream. What was that? I feel dizzy. That dream. What do they mean by who are you? My name is Eric Langford. I'm 15 years old, probably human. I mean I do look and act like one. Though some have said I have a titan like presence. And like Eren Yeager's titan shifting ability I have something that allows me to kill titans far more effectively. It is almost opposite to titans as I lose heat instead of generate it. I even have the painful ability to destroy titan flesh of course it hurts like hell. Well I suppose that's me. Now what day is it today. Oh yes, its D day. Female titan.
Fast foreward to the confrontation.(narrator)
As the plan to capture the female titan without casualty seemed successful. Annie still had an ace in the hole. She snapped open a hidden spike in her ring on her index finger. "Shiiit." Eric croaked as he grabbed Eren and dived into the tunnel. "Hey what are you . .!? Annie is . ." Eren was cut off. "We are royally fucked man. We go to plan B." Then Annie did it. She cut her finger roughly on the spike and splattered a lot of blood for a single finger. Then with a huge towering lightning bolt of yellow and green her body glowed and blasted everyone off with the shockwaves. They caused earthquakes all over Stohess district. The yellow light formed a beacon that sucked in attention like a black hole. The scouts remain calm but the MPs were already wetting their panties. Those at the scene personally witness the formation of the flesh and bone around Annie as she takes on her feared and we agile titan form. The sizzling sound of hot flesh fusing together. That sent sent waves of excitement through Eric's spine. "Armin you blind rock(he's being a hypocrite). I knew something was off about that ring. Who would've thought it smelled of blood. Certainly a more sophisticated way that biting your hand to the bone. I should've just grabbed her and dragged her into the passage" Eric shouted half grinning and half scowling, The duo take a glance backwards and see a bony skinless hand reach into the opening to grab Eren if at all possible. "Crap. Stop fooling around. what do we do now?" Eren barked. "Let's see. Alright. We rendezvous with squad 3 and get our asses out of here. Like I said things went south, we switch to plan B. Its all yours Eren." Eric said calmly. "Hey over here." A soldier called out. "What haopened? Is plan A a bust?"
"Clear as day man. We are cur. . . Shit move." Eric extended his hand out to warn them but it was too late. The celing came crashing down and killed the soldiers. "Fucking bitch." Eric cursed. "Damn it. I thought you said she wants to catch me not kill me." Eren was visibly scared. "I guess she also threw the rules out the window too. I see. She's gambling to make you change or halt. Then beat you, capture you and bolt for it. A desperate move but a clever one. That's Annie alright." Eric then grabbed Eren and ran the opposite direction. Meanwhile Annie tried to smoke Eren out but felt very uneasy. There was no fighting going on. All the scouts present was watching her but no one moved in. Armin and Mikasa were watching. "Eren, Eric, are they gonns be alright?" Mikasa said worriedly but held her ground. "Hey that's Them we're talking about. They won't die so easily." Armin tried to stay calm with words of encouragement. "Come on Eren give the signal." He said to himself. Back in the tunnel. "Darn. We are almost trapped. If we stay here the celing is likely to fall on us. And at this level our or at least you won't have enough speed to move." Eric said. "Screw it. I know what I have to do. I'll transform and stop her." "Then do it" Eric gave him a mental kicking. He brings his hands to his mouth while Eric walked several spaces ahead to give him some room and was doing something mysterious with his belt. Eren bit down hard on his hand. The sickening sound of teeth tearing through flesh and blood splattering echoed in the tunnel. Eric expected a shockwave but nothing happened. Eren began yelping and fell to his knees, kept biting hard groaning. "Damn it not again. Why now? Just work damn you. ." Eric saw his condition and gave a disappointed sigh then put his hand up. Eren saw a flare gun in his hand as he aimed at the opening Annie created and fired a blue smoke flare. He dropped the gun and approached him. "Hey there is no point forcing it? Calm down and focus on your goal." Eric said softly and gently that reminded himself of his mother. "Both of us witnessed it ourselves. She is the titan that slaughtered so many of our commrades without remorse. There is no room for doubt but still you just can't let it go." Eric then turned on his heel and pulled out his swords. "Huh? What . . What are you doing?" Eren looked up with a bloodied mouth. "Relax, don't bother transforming. I'll take care of her myself." Eric said without looking at him. "Hey wait!" Eren shouted out. "If you guys fight it'll only cause more deaths!"
"No it won't. Nobody has to fight or die. I'll do it alone. I and only I will fight her." Eric replied.
"No but then . . You you. What about. ." He stammered.
"Listen Eren. The scout veterans are too battle weary to fight. The MPs are scared shitless and I will not put any of my friend's lives at stake. Even corporal Levi is injured. The only one who stands a chance at this is me. That signal was for the that specific purpose. The scouts are probably doing the evac. already." Eric said with a shaky voice.
"No it. . .no way. You planned this? But then you'll die." Eren was shocked.
"Yeah I did plan it but I hoped you would've been able to transform. But you failed and it comes down this again. You head out of the exit. I'll distract her from that opening. Hey relax I've been through worse. I'll find a way. And even if something does happen . ." He hesitated for secon as another portion of the cave collapsed. "Well I won't be the first good soldier to fall and neither the last. Just another meaningless pile of bones and a forgotten name. Who cares?" He said darkly.
"What the hell is wrong with you ? Why are you being like this? I care. You aren't alone, you have friends that care. Comrades that care. You never act like this. You always throw orders and caution out the window. You do things your way and get the job done. Then just . . .just please don't up and die." Eren screamed at him. Eric turned and smiled at him. But it was so fake it was heartbreaking. "I guess I have become a little more submissive. Hey Eren I wanted to tell you something. I actually have a nice little dream I was hoping for, that is to actually build a clinic. Simple but the location I want to build it is outside wall Maria. The first clinic beyond the walls. Wanted to name it after my mom and dad. Heh relax. I have no intention of dying here. Listen Eren, 'Utskushiki zankoku na Sekai'. It means a beautiful cruel world. Think about what makes it that and I'm sure you'll find your answer. And if you want me to live then transform" Eric said softly as he walked away. "ERIC. DON'T YOU DARE DIE ON ME! YOU HAVE A PROMISE TO KEEP!" Eren shouted. "I can't protect everyone. So buck up make your choice and move ahead." Eren looked at the steaming figure disappearing into the sunlight feeling like he was the biggest scum of the earth for being so indecisive.
Eric heard yelling coming from Eren as he reached the opening and jumped out.
Damn, maybe I made it a little too dramatic. Well, Time for plan C.
Flashback to two days ago
"You think its Annie. But how? What's your evidence?" Eren said in disbelief. Others sat silently while Eric closed his eyes and crossed his hands in deep thought. "Well obviously the titan knew what you looked like when she attacked but it narrowed to our classmates when she reacted to my use of your suicidal maniac nickname. But the real proof I suspect her is that I have strong reason to believe she was the one who killed the titan specimens." Armin began to explain. "Where are you taking this?" Eren asked. "Think. killing two titans at the same time without touching the ground requires immense skill and precision. Its obvious the killer would use the gear they were most familiar with right?" Armin added. "Right but there was that whole equipment inspection. She completely comes clean." Eren said in disbelief. "The thing is the gear she presented wasn't hers. It was Marco's." Armin's voice huffed. "I don't get it what does Marco have to do with anything?" "I'll explain that." The attention turned to Jean who was in the room. "During the clean up job back in Trost. I was the one who found his corpse. It was trivial at first but I remember now he didn't have any ODM gear on him. Nor any fragments nearby. I doubt a titan took the time to rip it off and take it so somebody had to have it." "All that aside this is just circumstancial evidence. Don't we have anything else on her like any concrete proof." Levi unfazed spoke up. "No sir. Not at the moment." Armin said dejectedly. "So basically we're going in without proof."
"There is the fact that she looks like the female titan." Mikasa said raising her hand emotionlessly. "Hey what kind of evidence is that!" Eren flustered barked out. "Wait up." Eric finally joined the conversation. "Aw come on, not you too." Eren turned to him. "Shut up! Listen to me. I've been wondering for a while and now something just hit me." he said. "Which is . ." Levi urged. "Eren and Annie. Both of you . . . smell alike." Those words left a very awkward atmosphere following the silence. Eric decided to continue nevertheless. "I never shared this with anyone but my sense of smell was a real pain in the ass. I didn't want anyone to think I'm some dog nose weirdo so I didn't share this with anyone. But Annie had the same titan odour like you. I always dismissed it because you two often sparred with each other and thought they got mixed with all the grappling you guys did. But even after the showers you guys smell alike. Who would've thought that was the smell of a titan. Either that or you guys spent a lot more time together than we thought." Eric said smirking. Everyone was left speechless till Ervin broke the silence. "I see. You have a sharper nose than Mike does." Eren slumped back to his seat red and black faced. "Even so. Eren you spent the most time in contact with her. Don't tell us that you didn't pick up anything from your fight with the titan." Eric nailed him with a cold blue stare as his recollection stirred up everything. He began to piece everything together. He angrily slammed his fists to the table. "Damn it, why did it have to be her!?" He shouted.
Present time.
Eren was silently wimpering in the tunnel till the celing finally crashed down upon him. But she sensed the danger and jumped backwards to save her neck. She dodged the blade but the razorwinds themselves were strong enough to break the skin of her neck. "Yo Annie, been a while since I saw you like this." Eric stood firmly on the chimney of the highest point in the area. His swords gleaming with bloodlust and his deep blue eyes impaling her with frozen spears. The temperature in the area began to drop. He jumped off the chimney and the force from his feet caused it to crumble. She raised her hands as a guard and step back. The soldiers watched dumbstruck, the fact that the movement of a single soldier was drilling so much fear into a titan that she had to step back to his advance. He went for the uncanny approach and attacked from above. She barely saved her head from being split in half as she dropped to the ground and rolled away to the right. But she couldn't make it fully as he used a puff of gas to alter his motion and also fall to the right and landed a severely deep cut on her shoulder blade. She quickly began to regenerate and steam began emitting off the cut as she jumped to her feet and counter attacked with a kick. He in the meantime ran foreward jumped up and used gas to propel him did an elegant backflip in mid air then fired two cables simultaniously to the joint between her thigh and hip. Jerking upwards he initiated a rotational attack circling her extended leg and slashing all around it like back in the forest with Levi. This time however she was prepared. She generated a ring of crystallis to in a thin band around her thigh. His rage had to stop short as he was halted. The impact of the blade with the crystallis shattered both of them. Annie then followed it up with a grab attempt. Eric however used the oncoming hand like a springboard and jump backwards while breaking the her hand with the sheer force of his kick off.
"Damn these buildings are too short. I can't move freely like back in the forest. Oh well if I can't strike from above I'll just have to blitz her from below." He thought as he fired two cables directly in front of her to each of her thighs. And charged head on. She gritted her teeth pissed at how he underestimates her. Annie attempts to turn around but it was too late as he released the cable and reeled it back in after gaining his momentum. Her smart move became her worst course of action as she was turned with a monster charging towards her. She resorted to the trump card and tried to crystallise a portion of her hamstrings. But again it was countered. Eric puffed gas and descended. He tried to copy Levi's technique and launched a spinning attack and roughly and messyly slashed her right calf. She staggered at the loss of muscle control. Eric passed between her legs and turned 180 to fire another cable at her. With no skin on the calf. She couldn't react and Eric charged in. Roaring. The impact of steel on bones smashed and severed her entire right calf in half. She shrieked and fell to an all fours state. Eric grinned demonically and jumped to a rooftop. There he used all the footpower he had to jump again as high as possible. In the distance the soldiers saw his ascent. He spread his arms wide and his cloak over shadowed the sun. Making him look like the silhouette of an angel. But the bloodstained blades defiled that picture and made him more of a Grim reaper. He screamed again as he came charging down. "This time I got you" he yelled confidently. She was panicing and focused all energy to her nape and tried to make the thickest crystal she could possibly make. The green spear and the blue shield came in at blinding speeds and collided. The shockwaves rattled the entire city. A visible band escaped and tore down the nearby buildings.
It caused an explosion so massive that the nearby glass windows shattered at the energy released. The blast threw huge chunks of crystal and steel everywhere with a large dust cloud everywhere. The hot and cold equally hit nearby soldiers. During the time Ervin was being blocked from reaching his met by a bunch of cowards who are too indecisive. "You feel that Nile? That is that bloodlust that comes out of Frost when he gets down to business." Levi said crossing his arms. "No way. First you say a titan is inside wall Sina and now you're telling me a human is causing thay ruckus." Nile shouted in disbelief. "Idiot, to think you are as thick headed as you look. The MPs sure are incompetent weaklings. That kid is out there risking his life by taking on the titan by himself while you are arguing about what to do." Levi added more insults. "Commander!" A soldier charged in. "Tell me what is the situation on the battlefield." Ervin said calmly. "The blue signal was fired and Frost has engaged the female titan sir. So far things are under control but the damage is still unknown." He replied. "Damage to what? The titan or the city?" Ervin asked. "Both sir. Here is your gear." He opened a box with ODM gear neatly placed into it. "Hey wait. Hey listen." Nile yelled but Ervin ignored him. "Stop. The hell I'm letting you go." Nile finally pointed a rifle at Ervin as others followed. "Damn it stop being such a wet blanket." Levi said unfazed. Ervin stopped and gestured the soldier to him then wispered something into his ear. "Yes sir." Was all the soldier said as he left. "What did you just say to him?" Nile barked.
Back in the field Eric stood on the edge of a rooftop that barely survived and was chafing some frozen sweatdrops off his forehead. Some titan blood was also frozen on his cheeks and elbows. He looked at Annie attempting to get up from kissing the road below her. She reacted in time to set up a shield to save herself the impact itself smashed her head into the ground. She also lost her right leg or more accurately feet and was unable to stand up and was on all fours puking the broken teeth in her scrambled up mouth. Steam still however only came from her leg still. 'So not only can she harden parts to protect her she can also control which parts to regenerate first' he thought. He swung his blade around to create a pang to scare her and she shuddered at the sound. He was just about to jump before being interrupted. "Sir!" A soldier called out to him. He slammed on his brakes and turned to the soldier. "Huh? Sir? What happened to my name." Eric asked surprised. "Congratulations. You just got promoted." The soldier said to him. His jaw dropped. "Fuck the sarcasm and get to the point." Eric yelled. "Yes. Both Commander Ervin and corporal Levi are unable to arrive on the battlefield to handle it, so as the only remaining member of special ops. Squad you are hereby permitted full authority on the situation as captain."
"The hell? Who am I supposed to lead? I though this was a solo mission. Even so what happened to th pe section commanders? Where the fuck is Hange?!" Eric returned. Several scouts then came into view. "All of them dead or absent form here and Hange is busy for a work. You are already tired captain, and you can't bypass her defences without help. Don't worry we won't get in your way." He replied. "Bah, its not that, I'm worried you guys are gonna get killed." Eric said with a half smile. The soldier openly laughed. "Don't worry sir. We were prepared for this ever since we signed up for the scouts. But I'm glad you look out for us." He then pulled out his swords as well as others followed. "Oh well. FINE, YOU WANT A LEADER LEVI, WELL YOU FUCKING GOT ONE! Just remember, I ain't taking responsibility for the damages whatsoever!" Eric yelled at the top of his voice. Annie's leg regenerated and she attempted a sneak attack on Eric who realised and evaded in the nick of time. "Talk to me who do we have on scene?" Eric shouted in mid air. "Squads 2, 7, 15 and 9." The soldier shouted back. "Alright, SQUAD 2 and 15 strike from above and 7 take out her legs. 9 scramble those arms of hers." He ordered. "ROGER!" The soldiers shouted as they attacked according to their position. Three soldiers quickly slashed up her arms and another landed some hits on her face. Another squad swung in from below attempting to cut up her legs. This syncronised a opera of blades were cutting up her from several directions at the same time as well as the energy loss from that desperate defence move left her nearly defenceless to the soldiers swarming her. Eric also approached and went for her throat. She manuvered and turned around. Knocking many soldiers away and disorienting his movement. The fact Eric barely uses his cables in an arms reach from Annie keeps him safe from being yanked. This is something he learned back in the excursion mission.
In the distance Jean finally decided to approach the battlefield. He got to a rooftop along with some young MPs watching. "Wow. They really aren't holding back. At this rate that part of the city is gonna go upside down in no time." He said calmly. The MP soldiers who were also watching tore their attention to him. "Who? How the hell are you so damn calm? That is complete carnage over there." One of them said with his voice trembling. Jean for once feeling proud of his decision to join the scouts pinned him with a stare. "Carnage? That isn't even the half of it. We scouts live with this day in and day out. Heck I know people who could probably eat their breakfast while watching this. To think I wanted to be with you guys at a time like this. I can't believe I feel glad I joined the scouts." He jumped off that building to directly approach the scene. There was someting about that fight that didn't seem right. She isn't even trying to fight back. Annie was just forming a crystal on her hands and nape then just enduring the repeated hits by Eric and the scouts.
'I don't get this. Outside the walls she was all business. She attacked and massacred everyone outside the walls. But this time she just attacked before and only tried careful moves. Like she completely withdrawn. Was the whole thing about being afraid of me true. No way, with power like that I feel startled to approach her. What is she planning. To find an opening and run or an opportunity to get us all at at the same time.' Eric though deeply. Mikasa in the meantime joined the fray. "Mikasa! Her neck!" He ordered another attack. Mikasa obediently complied and landed another of the hundreds of slashes on her body. Eric dived in and made another attempt to sever the arms. She sensed that and acted differently this time. Then that cartoon moment activated where senses become zoned and time seems to slow down. All the soldiers were swinging outwardly so none were attacking as he moved in. She raised her bleeding face and the white in her eyes killed the colour of the surroundings. Eric's face paniced as he knew what was coming but this time his momentum backfired, he tried to twist in mid air only to make it worse. She swiftly moved from an all fours stance to a one legged kneeling position to support her. She then hardened her entire right hand to her forearms and moved at lightning speeds to the most
POWERFUL,
DANGEROUS,
DESPERATE
AND DEVASTATING
UPPERCUT of her life. Timed to his movement to perfection. That fist moved right before everyones eyes it slowly moved and made contact with Eric's back and left side. The collapsing of his gas propellant, releasing all the gas in his tanks, the rupturing of his wire launcher was visible to all. Every inch of his wire spilled out and scattered in messy fashion, and his sheaths also tore off and his blades completely lost. He couldn't even gasp at the speed of the impact. His equipment was destroyed completely for the third time in his life. The uppercut was indeed the best choice of attack here. He was then immediately sent rocketing upwards limply. Though he couldn't. Everyone gasped at the impact for him. She shrieked in her dirty titan voice again.
(Eric's POV)
Sly wench, she was waiting for that opportunity. She took all those hits to make us lower her guard and knew when I went for the fatal blow that would be the break she needs. The searing pain that shot up my chest as her fist along with the broken pieces of my metal gear plunging into me felt like someone was intentionally carefully cutting my skin off and stabbing me with tiny knives very slowly. Things were slowing to a blur. I feel a weight had lifted off me as my gear crumbled off me. However it was replaced with a burst of power pushing me from belown and the air resistance smash on my face. I feel like crap as I see the whole city move back and get smaller and smaller. I'm moving closer and closer to the sky, leaving the wall behind.
wow its almost like I'm being freed from something. But I was slowing down as the pressure from both above and below me lessened and lessened. I go above the wall and was greeted with the most beautiful shimmering sunset if ever seen. The golden light washing over me and the warmth it gives you. Maybe I've never noticed it or its just my zoned out senses. Is this the final view of something. They say you see the full beauty if something at the last moment, is this mine. How high am I going? Or . .am . . .I already dead. Mom, dad. Their faces flash before me. Then well over twenty meters above the wall I come to a stop. But that split second i was suspended in the air felt like an eternity. Of perfect bliss floating in the clouds.
Its strange, ever since joining the cadets I've been in so many countless near death situations. In training corps, in the trost invasion, and as a scout. I felt so many emotions through them. Sorrow over failures, pain in injuries and losing comrades. Pride when stopping titans. Joy in a real victory. But one thing always felt weird to me. I have never felt fear since shiganshina. Even with a titan upon me I was never afraid. Always giving my all and never giving in, always fighting. That image of standing with a sword over my head and a titan behind me crying in accomplishment was the happiest I've ever been. Even better to have done it with people around me. Commrades who I respected and respected me back. Friends I love and loved me back. Who didn't treat me like a monster within. I weakly reach out with my right hand towards that sunlight. That's right, as long as that light reached us and a new day goes by, I always remember you guys, mom and dad. I guess that's what kept you going huh. Please just a few more seconds, please. But time ran out. I begin to plummet, the sun got hidden away in the shadow of the wall. The loose ends of my band kept fluttering in the wind. Strange, in the air its like you have all the time in the world but the moment you reach out for something you run out of time. Did yours go out the same way dad? Am I gonna die from this fall?
Mom. Now that I think about it, there was nothing bad about you. You were like the ideal mother. Hang on no. No no. There was something I really hated about you. Just
One
Single
Thing
You never scolded me or reprimanded. You never said anything bad to me. But in exchange why did you always. . .everytime I do something stupid. Give me a smile. . .
clench your fist and square me in the jaw! No wonder I had such solid cheekbones that didn't break while training with Levi. Is it true your whole live flashes before you in your dying moments? Well I suppose. . . I didn't have much of a life anyway. Just a crazy boy endowed with superpowers running around looking for answers to the world. Look where that ambition got me. A solid uppercut to the side, some broken bones and falling like a rock in the sky.
Eren you jackass
In the end
You couldn't transform in time.
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Well I have no regrets. I'm sure you'll find some way to do figure out the secrets to them. I see water droplets as I fall back wards. Fuck who am I kidding. I hate myself. I couldn't accomplish to find a single good secret. Crying in my supposed last moments. I really feel retarded. Armin keep up the good work sniffing things out. Mikasa good luck and take care of that crazy bastard you love and Eren, now I see it. Now I see the sun. You should too. You have a lot of good things around you that you can't see. If I can by some miracle make it alive. . . Hell I'll be the same old crazy frost blades. The ground kept commng closer and closer. I see Annie directly below me watching stoicly. Others were staring at me with horror in their faces. but my gaze was at the clear blue sky as I still kept reaching out to it.
Well this is it.
I hope this isn't an ending but . . . what I see . .is
I Eric Langford . . .
. fucking teary eyed. . .
. . .and regretfully
. .on the
.. .crumbling . . city of Stohess . . . .
.. .FALL.
.. . .
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But God had other plans . . .
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TBC . . . . . .