Lorraine fluttered her eyes open slowly. Feeling Nikki's warmth still wrapped around her. They hadn't moved an inch all night and were still in the same position as they'd fallen to sleep in. Lorraine still holding onto Nikki's hands, Nikki's knees still spooned in the crooks of Lorraines. Lorraine turned slowly to face Nikki, Nikki didn't wake up but just tightened her arms around Lorraine, the movement making her instinctively pull her in closer. Their noses now touching, Lorraine just watched her beautiful girlfriend sleep. Her eyes flickering every now and then, dreaming, Lorraine hoped it was about her. She kissed the freckles on Nikki's nose and pulled back again to get a better view of her face. She looked like an angel, smooth milky unblemished skin, long dark eyelashes and perfectly pink lips, parted slightly to reveal her pearl white teeth. She was an angel. Lorraines angel. Sent to help her through what was going to be the hardest time of her life. Lorraine brushed a stray strand of hair from Nikki's face and gently kissed her lips. She wanted to wake her up now, she needed to see her beautiful sparkling eyes.
"Morning babe." Lorraine whispered into Nikki's lips.
Nikki stirred and blinked a few times until Lorraine was completely in focus. "Have you been watching me sleep?" Nikki rubbed her eyes sleepily.
"That depends... do you think that would be weird?" Lorraine scrunched up her nose and Nikki leant forward and kissed it.
"A little bit yes... but also very cute." Nikki smiled into a kiss from Lorraine.
"Then yes... Yes I was." Lorraine smiled right back. Running her fingers through Nikki's messy bed hair and deepening their kiss. Their tongues waking the other up, coming to life and dancing together in perfect rhythm.
Nikki pulled back and held Lorraine's face with both of her hands. Just silently looking at her for a moment. Lorraine could see pity in Nikki's eyes and she didn't like it. She didn't like it at all. She opened her mouth to break the silence.
"So... How did it go last night?" Lorraine held one of Nikki's hands on her face.
"Surprisingly well..." Nikki smiled back. Relief filling her as she remembered breaking up with Lola.
"You didn't tell her about me having... You know... about me being ill." Lorraine stuttered.
"Of course not, darling. But we do need to tell Christine... You need some time off." Nikki stroked Lorraines hair.
"No... My op isn't until next week, Nik. I want to work until then." Lorraine shook her head. Moving away from Nikki slightly. The pity was back in her eyes and it was making Lorraine feel sick.
"No way, Lorraine. You're resting." Nikki got up out of bed and started to get dressed. "I'll speak to Cristine this morning."
"No!" Lorraine snapped then instantly regretted it when she saw the hurt on Nikkis face. "I'm not ready for everyone to look at me the way you just did..." Lorraine looked to the ground.
"Like how?" Nikki frowned.
"Like you pity me." Lorraine bit on her bottom lip trying her hardest not to cry. This was all becoming so real and it was making her stomach churn.
"That isn't pity, Lo. It's care. I care about you. And I love you more than anything. I just want to make sure we're doing all we can to get you better." Nikki moved to Lorraine and snaked her arms around her waist. Looking her directly in the eyes.
"I know. I'm just not ready to tell people yet... and working will take my mind off it. Please? I really need to keep busy... keep things as normal as possible." Lorraine kissed Nikki on the lips.
"Ok. You win. As always..." Nikki giggled "But you do need to tell Sonya." Nikki spoke firmly. She won't compromise on this. Lorraine groaned and looked at the ceiling. She knew Nikki was right. She also knew how her overly dramatic Sister would take the news. Badly.
"Fine." Lorraine sighed. "I'll tell her today."
"That's my girl." Nikki kissed up Lorraines neck until she found her lips. "Now we better get ready... I'll have to discipline you if you're late." Nikki raised her eyebrows.
"Is that so?" Lorraine stroked her hands up Nikki's back seductively with a cheeky grin.
"Yes!" Nikki patted Lorraines backside playfully "Come on... Get ready."
"Tease." Lorraine poked her tongue out.
"Right well I better be going, need to have a quick shower and get changed" Nikki looked around for her shoes.
"Actually. I was thinking..." Lorraine stuttered.
"Uh oh.." Nikki winked cheekily.
"I was thinking that... maybe... I mean you don't have to... but maybe it would be better if... I mean if it's too soon I won't be offended if you say no... Just an idea... but maybe you should... erm..." Lorraine was blushing nervously.
"Spit it out then?" Nikki frowned with a slight giggle. Lorraine looked like a shy little girl and it was really cute.
"Move in with me?" Lorraine spoke quickly as if if she didn't say the words fast, they might never come out. Nikki opened her mouth, she wasn't expecting that. "Stupid ide... You think it's too soon? SOrry... just forget I said anything." Lorraines eyes were quickly on the ground again.
"There's nothing I'd love more, Lo." Nikki walked over and stroked up Lorraines arms. "Let's do it!" A massive smile spread across Nikki's face.
"Really?!" Lorraine beamed back.
"Absolutely. You're gonna have to make some room in that wardrobe for my stuff though..." Nikki nodded towards the ridiculously stuffed wardrobe full of all Lorraines designer clothes.
"Deal." Lorraine kissed Nikki quickly on the lips.
"See you later then." Nikki couldn't help but grin like a cheshire cat and this was reflected on Lorraine's face too as she watched her leave.
Lorraine looked around her bedroom and it instantly looked brighter, happier and much more full of love at the idea of Nikki living there. Waking up next to her every morning, kissing her goodnight, every night. Things were going so perfectly Almost too perfectly. That silently worried Lorraine. But she put the worries to the back of her mind. There was no point worrying about the Cancer. Until she knew what she was dealing with after the operation, she just needed to be strong. For Nikki, for herself, and today for her little Sister, Sonya. She knew it was going to be so hard telling her.