Soooo next one-shot is dedicated to a guest named BadeCoffee. Song: Back to black by Any Winehouse. To prevent you from getting completely lost I have a summary of the one-shot here cause it might become kinda confusing.

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In a parallel world where Beck and Jade don't end up together (and I say parallel world cause there is no way that Bade won't be together forever in real world) Beck is with Tori and Jade with Andre. Andre used to date Tori when Jade dated Beck (a couple of years before Beck's death). Beck now is dead. Jade still loves him. Andre loves Tori. But in the name of pride no one admits the truth. So Beck is dead. Look what happens…

BadeCoffe this is for you!

Back to black Amy Winehouse

Jade's POV

Death. A theme I always liked to talk about. I used to go to the cemetery at midnight when I was a teenager. I used to look at the graves and talk at the dead people. I didn't admire death. I just thought that although it was a sad event, it was also a part of life. Something we can't avoid. No one ever managed to overcome death. So I was looking at the bright side of death. That maybe the person went to some better place that you have no problems and responsibilities. His spirit would fly free and he would be with the ones he used to love till they join him to death too. I'm not that positive anymore. They say that you can't really understand the pain of death if you don't feel it. I used to look at death like something normal. Of course sometimes a crisis would take up upon me like a video of what I hate videos I had posted on the Slap at high school saying sarcastically that by celebrating our birthday we celebrate the fact that we come one year closer to death… 'Wohoooo here comes death' I had said to the camera. I'm not positive any more. I hate death more now. You ask why? It's because he took away the person I loved the most for my whole life. Beck. He is dead. His eyes won't open again. And with him dead I start dying inside too. Sure we broke up at high school. He married Tori. I stayed with Andre. He was always by my side. I learnt to love him a little bit but never as I used to love Beck. He knew that. And I knew he loved Tori too. He always did. But she was with Beck. I got engaged to Andre some years ago. We've been together for twenty years together but we love other persons. Nice life right? Beck seemed pleased to be with Tori. Nut I know him way better to be sure he loved me too. Now Beck is dead. Tori is alone. I am crushed. Andre is confused. Living with Andre was nice. He made me change my clothes though. He said black made him feel uneasy. So my wardrobe had now some color. Color I won't ever wear again. Now what I have to wear is black. Black. It reminds me of high school. When I used to be with him. When I was completely happy and felt like the most blessed person in the world. Beck. We have spoken such a few times since we broke up. He left no time to regret kept his dick wet with his same old safe bet. Pride killed us both. Made us two strangers. Caused us trouble. Now he's gone. Me and my head high and my tears dry get on without my guy. So I'm alone now. I see as Andre gets inside the house. I'm sure he was to Tori consoling her. I don't look at him. He comes closer and sits next to me.

"You went back to what you knew. Help Tori to any difficulty. Be by her side. The way he never did for me even though he had promised. He was so far removed from all that we went through. And I tread a troubled track, my odds are stacked that I'll go back to black" I say without really knowing what I'm saying. Andre puts one hand on my shoulder.

"Jade" he says but I ignore him.

"We only said goodbye with words" I say. I remember talking to him for the last time one day before his death "I'm not gonna lie to you Andre. I died a hundred times when I was told he's dead. You know that already. And I know that for twenty years you're suffering here by my side"

"Jade don't be stupid" he interrupts but I shake my head.

"It's ok. Andre you're one of the most important persons in my life. You were always by my side. But you know I won't ever love you as I loved him" I see him nod and I continue "So look what we're gonna do. Everything has changed now. So you better go back to her
and I go back to us. I go back to me and Beck of high school. I go back to black" I turn to look at him and he hugs me tightly.

"You have to know I love you Jade" he reassures me and I try to smile a little bit.

"I know. I love you much but it's not enough" I say and he gets up. I do as well "You love her blow and I love you puff. Go Andre. At least you can get your love back now" I say hugging him tightly. He hugs me back and kisses my forehead then my lips.

"These twenty years were the most unexpected ones" he says and I slightly smirk "And by saying that I mean I'm thankful for living them with you" he gives me one last hug and exits the house. I look at him from the window as he starts the car and waves at me before driving away. I return to the living room. Now you're alone Jade. I look at the lilac blouse I'm wearing and sigh. I go to my bedroom and throw away all my colored clothes. I reach my black ones and I change to complete black. That's what I have to do. My man died. I have to mourn. I won't be able to tell him anymore that I miss him. I climb down the stairs and sit on the couch. So Jade no one will ever come here again. You are completely alone. Life is like a pipe and I'm a tiny penny rolling up the walls inside. I'm happy for Andre though. He has lost his friend but he didn't lose the love of his life. I'm the unlucky one. I hold Beck's picture (I've always kept it under my pillow –Andre should have seen it) and look at his pretty face. What about me now Beck? You left me alone. I shiver at his memory. What wouldn't I give to have him back. Here by my side. Holding my hand. My head on his shoulder. Just like we used to be. Beck you are an egocentric pig. You don't care about me. You died. I died a hundred times after you. What will I do knowing you don't live anymore? How am I ever going to get over this pain in my chest? I know. Be strong Jade. Don't hesitate now. I go to the kitchen and take what I need. Did anyone say scissors? No I don't need those anymore. It was a high school obsession. I sit next to the fire to stay warm. I put Beck's photo next to the fireplace and I open all the pill boxes I found in the kitchen. Don't they say that when you die you then see your loved ones? Well I would die to see him one more time. That's what I need the most right now. I take a look at his photo before swallowing all the pills from the boxes. This has to be quick. A tear runs down my cheek and I lay on the floor. I'm coming Beck. Wait for me. From now on we can be together. Pride won't be a problem. We won't have any obstacles in our way anymore. I feel as the dark surrounds me and I smile a little bit. You won't ever get away from me Beck. I promised that remember? The day we became a couple. One of the best days in my life. I look at the fire burning the wood. And then I go back to black. I go back to dark.

Wow ummm I think that was kinda creepy. I hope you like it though. I think I will do one more or two we'll see. Ok umm bye I guess haha I hope I didn't creep you out a lot haha