Can't Fight this Feeling
A/N: Ahehehe I heard this song on the radio on my ride home after watching Spiderman 3… I think this was from the 80's the lyrics just reminded me of my fave bleach couple so I decided to write a fic well the thing is I watched the movie probably less than a month ago but never had the chance to actually write it and finish it. So here it is finally. The lyrics would be in BOLD Italics.
Disclaimer: I do not own Bleach although I wish I did. The song CAN'T FIGHT THIS FEELING is by Reo Speedwagon. I don't know how old this song is only that it's from the 80's I think.
It was a regular afternoon and Ichigo got back from school. He and Rukia were as usual walking together. He was quiet the whole trip back home. He had been like that for days. He had been acting really strange lately. It wasn't that he wanted to but for some reason he just did. Maybe it was because of their closeness. It could also be their bond and friendship. Ichigo was going through some inner struggle that somehow did not include his inner hollow.
I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.
I tell myself that I can't hold OUT forever.
He and Rukia had grown closer. Who would have thought that they have only known each other for only a year? Clearly if anyone had seen them they would think that they have known each other for ages. Yes, they have grown familiar with each other. She may no longer stay in his closet but she did reside in the room next to his with his sisters. She did not just share a bond with him. She also forged a strong connection with his family who easily fell for her whole heartedly and it was safe to say that she had also fallen deeply for his family. So their friendship had grown deeper and the bantering and quarrels were still present but sometimes he knew it was just for the sake of keeping an unspoken tradition between them because at the end of the day one of them would apologize. Yes, they were mature enough to apologize to each other. So why was he too scared to admit his feelings for her? He kept asking himself the same question. They had been close friends so it wasn't surprising if their relationship moved into a different direction. They have proven how important they were to each other so what did he have to lose? He figured he might lose everything even her friendship. So he decided to keep it to himself.
I said there is no reason for my fear,
'cause I feel so secure when we're together.
You give my life direction, you make everything so clear.
And even as I WANDER, I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window, On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever THOUGHT I MIGHT.
How that day was any different from any day they walked together was beyond him. The only thing he could think of was the girl that was walking in front of him. Her hands clasp behind her, her raven hair slightly longer than before. She looked so fragile in her petite school Uniform. She was humming a sweet tune. Life was a little more laid back. Hollows barely appeared and when they did He knew well enough to take care of it before any harm could be fall her. He knew that he shouldn't feel worried at all because it was Rukia after all but it was that same fact that made it more difficult not to worry. She was someone he could only admire from up far. She gave her powers the first time they met. She was the reason why he wanted to be stronger and why he worked so hard and learned his bankai in only three days. She kept him focus. She always showed him the right way. Even during times when he searched for more power. He knew that he did it all so he could protect her. So even during times when he had to train with the Vizards he had her in mind. He knew he had to endure everything for her because she would want to fight with him and he knew that if she wasn't strong enough to fight he would be strong so he could fight for both of them.
"Why are you so quiet? You're starting to worry me?" Rukia said as she glanced back at her companion who was still deep in thought.
"Wow, what did I do to deserve the great Kuchiki Rukia to fret over me?" Ichigo joked. "Nothing, but the mere fact that it's you just makes me worried. You have this great talent of inflicting pain to yourself not to mention an on going internal struggle," she replied must be because of his hollow.
"You make it sound like I'm a nut case. It's just that sometimes you get overwhelmed with feelings and sometimes you just have to hold it in and not let it out because it would just complicate things," why he said those things out loud he had no idea but somehow the look on Rukia's face showed a serious understanding. He knew that she had her share of secrets and of things she could not tell him out right about her past and he had accepted it but wanted to know about them none the less.
And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.
"Then why not say it. Why keep it inside? If it bothers you so much to hide it maybe it's high time you let it out. Say what you have to say. I know you're not big with words but what if it's the only way for you to feel better? What if just saying it out can help?" she said nonchalantly. She started walking again. They would be home in a few minutes and Ichigo was contemplating what she just said.
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crashing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.
"I wish it's that easy," he said as he followed behind her. If she only knew what he felt for her?
"Maybe you can tell me then we'll figure it out together. Honestly Ichigo when did you ever figure out anything without my help," she said with a smirk.
"This problem is more difficult than you think. And no it's not something we can solve together," he said. 'Because you're my problem. My feelings for you, how can I tell you when it's you that I'm having issues with,' he thought to himself.
"Stop holding it in. Just say it you ass!" She blurted out. She was definitely frustrated. She stopped and stormed back at him. She didn't like it when Ichigo held back things from her and it has been like that for days and she could no longer put up with it. She knew that he was anti-social prick but he shouldn't be acting that way with her. Their relationship was different from the rest at least that was what she thought. So when he looked at her with those deep amber orbs she somehow knew what that look meant and she was no longer surprised when his lips crashed into hers. She waited for it for the longest time and she knew that it was worth the wait. She kissed him back with matching passion. Neither cared that they were in the middle of the street.
My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I've been running round in circles in my mind.
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl,
Cause you take me to the places,
That alone I'd never find.
Ichigo finally broke the kiss because of much needed air. He smiled at the sight in front of him. Rukia still had her eyes closed. She looked so delicate and vulnerable in his arms. He smirked. He knew that his life was completely changed because of her. She was the reason why he wanted to continue living. She was the reason he was actually able to smile again. Before he kissed her he was all nerves and frightened but as soon as their lips touched he knew that she felt the same.
"Well, I didn't expect you to kiss me but it wasn't so bad," Rukia said.
"That's coming from someone who was still savoring my kiss with her eyes closed," Ichigo coaxed. This earned him a very hard kick on the shin.
"As much as I love you wonder boy I can still kick your ass," she replied at the poor orange head who was nursing a sore shin. He smiled at what she said because she admitted that she loved him. He on the other hand must have loved her even long before he realized it. It must have been love that brought him to soul society to find her and save her. It must have been his love her that got him searching the whole of Hueco Mundo when they were about come back and he found out that she was not with them. It must have been his love her that made him do things that he could have only imagined. It must have been his love for her that caused him to long for her everytime she was away. He had never felt that strongly for anyone else and somehow he was glad that it was her that held that place in his heart.
And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the wind,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.
"Come on I can't let people see that I have a weakling for a boyfriend. That would just be too embarrassing," Rukia said as she reached out a hand to him. He took her hand and pulled her close to him for another kiss. Rukia's knees were all wobbly that Ichigo had to hold her still.
"Who's the weakling now?" he asked her. "Now that you're finally mine I'll make sure to keep my eyes on you. And you have to promise me that no matter what you'll let me fight my battles and that you'll stay safe. I love you too much to let anything happen to you," he said when he released her from his embrace.
And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.
"I'll let you fight your battles if you let me handle mine. I don't want to burden you. I want to be strong so I can fight beside you. I want to be able to cover your back when you need help. We're partners Ichigo. I want to protect you as much as you want to protect me so I can't promise you to stay away from trouble if you're involved in the mess," she said stubbornly.
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crashing through your door, Baby,
I can't fight this feeling anymore.
"Touché. I won't get killed as long as you won't too," he said. "Oh and just for formality I forgot to say I love you."
"Well, like I said I know you're a man of actions so I somehow read that bit between the lines," she said with a smile. Her phone rang. "We've got company.
"Okay hop on my back. We'll get there faster," Ichigo said and Rukia did as she was told. The two disappeared out of sight.
Maybe falling in love wasn't as difficult as it seemed especially for two people who first started out as complete strangers and then good friends. But then again, it could be a whole different story all the same, after all Ichigo and Rukia would never fall under a typical couple category. Seriously you could never find a dating couple who does hollow slaying for kicks.
The END
A/N: I finally got a little free time to write so I wrote this small bit… I'll probably beta this at work later. Anyway... I'll try to update my other fics when I have more writing time. So please read and review guys… your reviews are my stress relievers… thanks again…