SPENCER'S P.O.V
This isn't how I'd planned my day.
"Hey"
When she pulls the door back I can tell she wasn't expecting me.
"Hi..."
"Can I come in?"
"Y-Yer"
When she holds the door back I walk into her room.
"Spencer I didn't mean for you to come and find me..."
I'm making her uncomfortable.
"I just wanted you to know how I feel"
When I don't say anything, she tries to walk past me, but I stop her.
"I really like you Ashley and I'm not sure what any of this means or what's meant to happen next, but when I got your message I just had to come and find you"
I slowly move my hand up her arm.
"Ashley these last few weeks have been crazy and nothing that's happened has been normal"
It's been everything but normal.
"But our lives aren't normal Ashley and everything you've said you're feeling, I'm feeling to"
When I say that she smiles.
"So do you remember those choose your own adventure books?"
"I do"
I used to love them.
"We're at the end of the page Ashley and we've got to decide what happens next"
I know what I want to happen, but I need to hear her say what she wants.
"I want you Spencer..."
"Are you sure because you've been saying all these different things..."
"I want you Spencer and what I said to you the other night was a really dramatic version of what I feel, because I do think you deserve better than me and I do have a habit of ruining everything good that happens in my life, but selfishly I want you to settle for me"
My head's all over the place and there's so much I'm not sure about, but I can't walk away from her.
"I..."
"Spencer what happens now is completely up to you"
When ! don't answer her she tucks a strand of hair behind my ear.
"I'll understand if you want to walk away and leave all this craziness behind"
I can't walk away from her.
"If I was going to walk away Ashley I would have done it already"
I want her.
"You've done something to me Ashley and I'm not sure what it is, but I can't walk away from you"
When my lips touch hers, my heart feels like it's going to beat out of my chest.
But then she kisses me back and I know I'm doing the right thing.
There's something here, I'm not sure what it is, but it's here.
"You make me so nervous"
When she says that I smile.
"How long do we have?"
Her bags are all packed and ready to go.
"I should already be gone..."
"Sorry"
"Spencer you have nothing to apologise for..."
She's smiling.
"You're the best thing that's happened to me in a really long time and signing up for this tour has been the best decision I've made in years"
That's really sweet.
"But I've been letting this tour and everything that's been happening with us distract me from everything that's been happening back home"
When she says that I feel horrible.
I've been so caught up in everything that's been happening with us, that I've let everything that's happening in her life slip to the back of mind.
"I just can't be in this city anymore and it sucks because I didn't think this was going to happen and now it has I don't want to leave this room..."
"You're doing the right thing Ashley"
I really don't want her to leave, but she's doing the right thing.
"When do you get back to LA?"
We're not leaving until tomorrow.
"Tomorrow afternoon..."
"Can you squeeze me into your busy schedule?"
"Ashley I can probably reshuffle a few things..."
"Can I get a rain check on this?"
I quickly lean forward and brush my lips over hers.
"You can"