"Do you have to go?"
"Yea, I'll be back tonight ok?" I hear him sigh then nod and hug me to him tightly as we waited for my plane to arrive. I waived good bye to him and kissed him hard and heard pictures being taken. I walked with my body guards to the terminal and walked to the first class part of the plane. I've had so much to prepare for. I put my headphones in and smiled at the surprise songs I was singing tonight. I didn't tell him I was performing songs I wrote 5 days ago. I almost didn't, but I want to thank Seth and show him how much he means to me. He's been so good to me. So thoughtful. I sigh and see L.A. coming into view and prepare myself for the media. I sighed as we landed and then got out with my shades on and fixed my clothes. I had on some skinny jeans with white flats and a white half shirt. I climbed out of the plane and as soon as we reached baggage claim the cameras were following me.
"Miken! Over here!"
"Miken are you back with your cheater ex boyfriend?"
"Are you going to get back with Drake?"
"Are you the two timer?" I brushed them off and got in the SUV and sighed as we made our way to the hotel.
"You ok M?"
"Yea, Frank, just tired." I sighed and stretched as we reached the hotel. Him and Zo got me in quick and I saw Rich and Ano in the hotel room with the Make up artist and the stylist.
"Hey guys!" I smiled and hugged them.
"How are you?"
"Good, just ready to get this over with." I said with a smile as I went into the bathroom and took a shower. I came out in a nude bra and thong set. I blow dried my hair and they sat me in the chair and gave my hair a slick look with a neat bun. I had a red lip with eyeliner and mascara and my skin looked flawless. I went to wardrobe and slid on a red dress that clung to me like a second skin and then some red hills. I had on a pearl necklace and bracelet and then saw it was 5pm.
"Lo we have to go, we can't be late." I nodded at Rich and headed out with him and Ano and we made our way to the limo. I felt butterflies and tired to calm myself down. I didn't want to see Drake, but of course it was bound to happen. I was at the BET Awards. I felt my nerves build up as we pulled up and took a deep breathe and got out and smiled as they all took pictures of me and tried to get my attention. I hooked onto Ano's arm and smiled as Rich walked behind us.
"Miken! Are yu with Ano Hualapi now?"
"No we're just friends." I say with a forced smile and rush us inside and see Ke$ha. I frown as she smirks at me and finish talking to the VJ. I make my way inside and we sit in our front row seats. I stretch and see Drake and young money there in the back and look straight and try not to notice them. I see the lights get dim and laugh at Kevin Hart as he hosts and after 3 performances, and 5 awards, they call me back. I walk back and pass them and look straight when they get quiet. I rush into the back and they curl my hair and I slide on a white diamond glittered corset with some white spankys and white pumps. I have a nude lip and my eyes are dramatic. I put on a white shaul that wrapped around me and went to the stage and got lifted to th top of a podium and check to make sure my mic was ready. I heard Trey Songz announce me and take a deep breath as the music starts and the lights go on me.
1+1 by Beyonce
If I ain't got nothing
I got you
If I ain't got something (I don't give a damn)
'Cause I got it with you
I don't know much about algebra (but I know)
One plus one equals two
And it's me and you
That's all we'll have when the world is through ('cause baby)
The podium went down as I sang and pictures of me and Seth at the beach were flashing on the screen.
We ain't got nothing without love Make love to me Make love to me (me,me,me,me) oh, oh
Darling you got enough for the both of us (so come on baby)
When my days look low
Pull me in close and don't let me go
Make love to me
So when the world's at war
That our love will heal us all (right now baby)
Make love to me
I get to the ground and the lights dim and then flash and the shaul is ripped off and I walk to the front of the stage as the next song starts and everyone clapps and my background ancers get behind me in the same outfit as me but black that didn't have diamonds.
Countdown by Beyonce
Boy! Oh, killing me softly and I'm still falling My baby is a 10 There's ups and downs in this love Still love the way he talk, still love the way I sing Me and my boo in my boo coupe riding
Still the one I need, I will always be with you
Oh, you got me all gone, don't ever let me go
Say it real loud if you fly
If you leave me you're out of your mind
We dressing through the 9
He pick me up with 8
Make me feel so lucky 7
He kiss me in his 6
We be making love in 5
Still the one I do this 4
I'm trying to make us 3
From that 2
He still the 1
Got a lot to learn and it's love
Through the good and the bad, still got love
Dedicated to the one of love, hey
Still love the way he rock them black diamonds in that chain
Still all up on each other, ain't a damn thing change
My girls can't tell me nothing, I'm gone in the brain
I'm all up under him like it's cold, winter time
All up in the kitchen in my heels, dinner time
Do whatever that it takes, he got a winner's mind
Give it all to him, meet him at the finish line
All up in that black with his chick right beside him
Ladies, if you love your man show him you the fliest
Grind up on it, girl, show him how you ride it
Me and my boo in my boo coupe riding
All up in that black with his chick right beside him
Ladies, if you love your man show him you the fliest
Grind up on it, girl, show him how you ride it
I grind the air and rub on my sides and make a riding motion before standing straight.
Oh, killing me softly and I'm still falling My baby is a 10 Yup, I put it on him, it ain't nothing that I can't do Ooh ooh ooh ooh Me and my boo in my boo coupe riding
Still the one I need, I will always be with you
Oh, you got me all gone, don't ever let me go
Say it real loud if you fly
If you leave me you're out of your mind
We dressing through the 9
He pick me up with 8
Make me feel so lucky 7
He kiss me in his 6
We be making love in 5
Still the one I do this 4
I'm trying to make us 3
From that 2
He still the 1
Yup, I buy my own, if he deserve it, buy his shit too
All up in the store, shorty, tricking if I want to
All up in the store, shorty, fly as we want to
Damn I think I love that boy
Do anything for that boy
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Now I'll never be the same
You and me until the end
All up in that black with his chick right beside him
Ladies, if you love your man show him you the fliest
Grind up on it, girl, show him how you ride it
Me and my boo and my boo lip locking
All up in the back because the chicks keep blocking
All that gossip in 10 years stopping
London speed it up, Houston rock it
I mean mugged Ke$ha and turned my back to her and finished the song.
Oh, killing me softly and I'm still falling My baby is a 10
Still the one I need, I will always be with you
Oh, you got me all gone, don't ever let me go
Say it real loud if you proud
If you leave me you're out of your mind
We dressing through the 9
He pick me up with 8
Make me feel so lucky 7
He kiss me in his 6
We be making love in 5
Still the one I do this 4
I'm trying to make us 3
From that 2
He still the 1
I stood in the middle breathing hard with my hand in the air with a one showing. I heard the crowd go crazy and smiled and bowed as I walked off the stage and changed into a pale green dress that was long and flowing and white pumps. I had on the pearls again and I walked back to my seat. I nodded at everyone thanks as they congratulated me and then sat with Ano and Rich. I laughed some more at the awards and was shocked when I won an award for newest voice. I smiled and went to the stage and accepted it and turned to the mic.
"Thank you so much, I don't know what to say because I didn't know I was getting this. I'd like to thank God, my family, my friends, and my boyfriend because he is the inspiration for my new CD." I waived and smiled and walked away. I heard the applause and left the awards because it was about to be over anyways. I sighed and slid on my flip flops and we got to the hotel and I changed my clothes to some suites and walked with my duffle bag back to the car and drove to the airport. I sighed and saw I had a message.
'You looked beautiful I'm glad you sang that.' Seth
I smiled and texted him back a heart and hoped out the SUV and walked to my terminal. I got on the plane and sighed and felt myself relax as I looked out the window. I rubbed my eyes and stretched and put my head phones in. It was 1am. I sighed as we pulled into Seattle two hours later and felt my stomach turn with excitement. I got off the plane and rushed to find Seth and saw him standing smiling. I smiled and ran to him and jumped him and kissed him hard. He laughed and held me and I heard cameras, I just didn't care. I smiled and laughed when he looked at me dreamy. I kiss him again as Zo hands him my bag and walks us out and then we get in Seth's car.
"Did you have fun?"
"Yea, but at the end of the day it's just work. I like concerts way more." I smile and hold his hand.
MSMSMSMSMSMSMSMSMSMSMSMS
No, this isn't happening. I sit there in shock as the nurse smiles at me sadly.
"We have multiple options. Here are the pamplets and after you read them, let us know what you choose." She walks me out and I walk to the park and feel tears come to my eyes. I sit down in my car and cry after looking at my paper work. What the fuck? I cry harder and shake and see some plants dieing. I'm pregnant? Why? I ask myself and see my phone go off again and text Seth back saying I'm on my way back. I can't deal with this right now. I can't see him right now. He'll leave me. He won't want me anymore. I cry harder and pick up my phone.
"Hey honey!"
"Mom can you come to Porte Angles park please?" I whisper sadly and here the other side go from load to quiet.
"What's wrong?"
"Mom please, I just need to talk to you." I cry and hear shuffling.
"I'm on my way."
"Ok, I'm parked by the playground." I cry and hang up and let my head fall on the steering wheel and cry. Why was my life always a huge shit whole? I saw some kids playing around outside and looked back at the paper. Do I call Aubry? How do you tell someone things like this? I felt myself shaking more and saw no one around and got out the car. I walked to the bench across from the playground and watched the kids. I can't have this baby. It's not Seth's, I just can't. I sigh and feel myself about to break down and see mom pull up next to me. I see her find me and walk over worried.
"Honey what's wrong?"
"I'm pregnant." I see her looks shocked.
"Oh my! Seth loves you honey, I don't think-"
"That's the thing, Seth isn't the dad!" I cried hard and hugged myself and felt her hug me to her.
"Who?"
"Aubrey."
"But you said-"
"He raped me." I whispered sadly and felt her tense.
"He what? Why didn't you tell anyone?"
"I didn't want drama and you know the media would have loved this! I didn't even think this was possible. I don't know what to do, but I know I can't have this baby. I cant."
"Miken, before I met your father, I got pregnant by someone. I regretted everything and ended up having a abortion. This is very serious thing ok honey. You have tot hink about the problems that can occur and the concequences. You need to tell Seth."
"No, he won't want me."
"Yes he will, that boy loves you so much." I sigh and cry and see her smile sadly before helping me to the car. She follows me home and I see a wolf runnig along side us halfway there. Julian looked at me with confused wolf eyes and I shook my head. I pulled into the drive way and see Seth run from the tree line and look at me worriedly. I cry and feel him hold onto me as I broke down again. He helped me inside and I saw mom pull dad into their room. I saw Lo and Chu sitting with Moka and Amelia looking at me concerned. I led Seth upstairs and took a deep breathe. I heard dad throw something and mom tell him to calm down. I sat on the bed and felt him hug me.
"What's wrong?"
"I'm pregnant." I whispered and felt him tense.
"Look Mimi, it's ok. We'll-"
"Aubrey raped me Seth." I felt him tense further then start shaking.
"What!" I flinched and hugged myself and felt myself crying again and moved away from him. I sobbed and heard him sigh and then hug me. I cried harder and felt him shhing me.
"I don't know what I'm gunna do, I can't keep this baby Seth, I can't. It's not yours and I'm not bringing a child into this world like this. I refuse. I can't." I sobbed and felt him rub circles in my back.
"So an abortion?"
"Yea, I don't want you to not want me anymore, but if you don't I'll under-"
"Nothing will make me not want you. Nothing." I looked into his eyes and cried while I laid my head on his shoulder. I heard the door open and saw my dad standing there with tears in his eyes.
"My baby." He whispered and hugged me to him and I shook and cried more. This wasn't happening. This couldn't be happening. He cried with me and I heard Seth leave and cried harder and heard Chu and Moka ask him what was wrong and the door slam open and heard foot steps I blacked out and could still hear sobs.
MSMSMSMSMSMSMSMS
"Seth calm down!" I heard Chua yell as I felt tears in my eyes as I walked into the woods and phased. I howled in pain and whined as I ran and ran. I heard everyone in my head and they were silent as I told them everything. I heard Amelia phase out, probably to tell Amoka.
Seth, relax-
No Jared! How would you feel if this was Kim!
Don't take it out on him. She isn't going to keep it.
I know, I just want to kill him. HE RAPED HER, THAT MUTHER FUCKER RAPED HER! I yelled as I ran and felt myself leave the treaty line and collapse. I whined and cried and shook.
Seth it will be ok.
No Jake, it won't.
Seth, you need to get it together and go back to Miken. I heard Amelia say as she phased. I saw Mimi in her bed shaking and crying and whimpering. I whined and stood up and made my way back. I saw Amoka shaking and growling before he got in his car.
Where did he go?
He went to Aubrey. I growled and heard Jake my head alpha ordering me to stay away from him. I phased and went back into her house and saw Barret drinking some scotch and Kaili cooking with BJ sitting in his high chair. I walked passed Lo and saw her yelling at Chu and trying to get in her car. I went upstairs and held Miken and felt her sink into me.
"Are you gunna leave me?" She whispered and I felt my heartbreak.
"No, never." She sniffeled and clung to me as she went back to sleep.