Ana
It's been two days since dinnergate at Elliot's and here I am in my living room sitting on the sofa with Grace while Chrissie and little Elliot are playing together on the floor with some of the toy cars he had in his little backpack.
To say that Christian and I been surprised to see Carrick and Grace arrive with little Elliot earlier would be an understatement. Apparently neither of them couldn't resists to finally meet their grandson and when they went to Elliot's this morning they made their peace with Kate and offered to take little Elliot for the day, so Elliot and Kate could spend some time alone.
"They are both simply adorable." Grace gushes and I nod in agreement.
"So, do you think you'll get along with Kate?" I ask and Grace sighs.
"I was very angry when I found out that Kate didn't tell Elliot that he has a son right away, but the more I thought about it, the clearer it became to me that she was in a very bad position herself and she was still very young and impulsive. I don't know if we will ever be as close as you and I, Ana, but I hope that one day we'll get there. Until then I am just hoping that we'll get along fine."
"Sounds good to me." I mutter in agreement and stare at my hands.
"Are you nervous about tomorrow?" Grace asks and I nod.
"Darling, Christian needs to get closure, this is not him trying to get back in touch with this terrible person."
"I know Grace and that is not what I am worried about, what I am worried about is that I'm going to lose it once I see her. She took him from me... she could have done the right thing and just drop him off at the next hospital, but kidnapped him and convinced him that there is no one looking for him, she has stolen so much time from all of us and I just want to shred her to pieces." I confess and Grace give me a sympathetic smile.
"I know sweetheart, but what's important is that we got Christian back and no matter what she is going to say or do, it won't change that it is you Christian wants to spent the rest of his life with."
"I couldn't have said it better, Mom." We both hear Christian behind us and leans down to kiss me.
"Yours." He whispers against my lips and it makes me smile. Yes, he mine!
"I'm going to get something to drink for the kids, do you want something too?"
"That would be great, baby... can you get a beer for my Dad and I, he'll be back in a moment."
"Sure, what do you want, Grace?"
"Just a water, sweetheart." She says and I leave to get into the kitchen, still dreading our trip to Alabama tomorrow morning. As I walk out of the living room I hear the voices of Jason and Luke from the security office and it sounds as if they were in a heated discussion.
I step closer to listen and hear Luke. "Fuck, I'm not going to hand this to Ana. She doesn't need to see that shit, T."
"I know, but we can't just throw it away... I'd say let's give it to Grey and he can decide what to with it."
"What to do with what?" I ask and step into the office where both try to hide a box from me, which isn't successful.
"Do I have to repeat myself?" I snap and both know that I mean business, I rarely snap at them, but with the trip to Alabama coming up, I just don't have the time to ask nicely a second time.
"This box was delivered for you today Ana."
"Okay, who has sent it?"
"A woman called Janet Kirkpatrick."
"Never heard of her, what is in the box?" I ask and both of them start to shift from foot to foot while looking anywhere but at me.
"Okay, that's enough." I grab the box, open it and stare at the contents.
"Ana, that bitch did this on purpose..."
"Please don't." I whisper and the pictures of Christian and Kelsey together. Happy and smiling... he was happy with her... can I make him happy? Happy like he looks in this pictures?
"Ana don't let that bitch get into your head, she is playing mind games with you." Jason says.
"I need some fresh air, ask Christian what he wants to do with the pictures." I murmur and leave the security offices. Stepping out of the house I walk over to the meadow and sit down.
The rational part of me knows that Kelsey had some sent them to me on purpose just to rile me up, but the emotional part of me is just seeing the pictures thinking that there must be a part of Christian who misses the easy life he had with her and that being here back in his old will never be enough for him to be happy.
"There you are... I was worried." I hear Christian's voice as he sits down next to me.
"Have you... ?"
"Yes, Taylor showed me the pictures. Baby, they mean nothing." He says.
"You were happy."
"Ana, I can show you tons of pictures with my family when I was a teenager in which I am looking happy when I wasn't... when I thought about ending my life." He says and I gasp.
"I didn't feel worthy of my family and thought that my life would be never but never ending misery... but I couldn't do it because I knew it would break Grace's heart. What you have seen in this pictures wasn't me being happy with her... it was me trying to be happy."
"You said you liked the easy life you had before your memories returned." I point out.
"Yes, I did... but it doesn't mean that I was happy, I was angry... sad even because I thought there was not one single person in this world who cared enough about to me to look for me. You make me happy, Ana. Our daughter makes me happy. Hell, even my idiot brother makes me fucking happy these days. Don't allow her to mess with you, baby. It's over she is in jail and that's where she belongs... all I need is to say that to her face... but if it is too much for you we'll stay here."
"No, you deserve to get closure, this is not about me... it's just you know even though I'm a lot better at hiding it these days I'm still self conscious and sometimes I'm just wondering if I will be enough for you... to make you happy."
He pulls me in his lap and holds me close. "You make me happy, Ana. Just waking up next to you in the morning makes me happy, holding you like this makes me happy and knowing that I get to spend the rest of my life with you makes me the happiest son of bitch on the planet."
"I love you, Christian, more than you'll ever know."
Christian
"You can wait in the car if this is too much for you." I say to Ana went Jason stops the car in front of the women's prison where Kelsey is waiting for her trial. Ana is all over the place and I know it's because she fears that I am still in love with Kelsey or that the bitch could give me something Ana couldn't.
I know I shouldn't be happy about some of the side effects of Ana feeling the way she does, but man did I enjoy some of them. This morning I woke up to her giving me a blowjob and ten minutes later she was riding my cock so hard, I'm pretty sure me screaming her name could be heard all over town and at least in one neighboring state.
After that Ana freaked out a little because the condom was leaking, but I'm pretty sure nothing happened as she told me that she had her period just a week ago... and if something happens even better, because I don't want our children to have a huge age gap. Wisely though I didn't bring that up, because I'm not sure Ana wants to have a second baby right away.
"No, I want to go with you." She says and so we leave the car.
After a lot of annoying security checks we are finally led into a visitors room and are asked to sit at a table. A few moments later the door opens and Kelsey is led into the room by one of the female prison wards.
She looks a lot older without her make up in place and I wonder if I have ever seen her without before, because if I did I have no idea why I didn't run for the hills screaming.
"Why is she here?" She whines when she sees Ana.
"Ana is here because we don't have secrets and as the woman in my life she has every right to hear this conversation." I say coldly and Kelsey flinches.
"I am the woman in your life, I am your wife!" She says and I lean back and stare at her.
"No, you are not my wife, you are the bitch who kidnapped me and lied to me for years! You drugged me and you did everything within your power to keep me from my family... and now I want to know why."
"I had to protect Elizabeth... and I saved your life!"
"No you didn't you fucking stole my life... do you have any idea what kind of hell you have put my family through? You had so many chances to do the right thing but you never did and now look where you are! Was it worth it?" I sneer and she stares at me for a moment.
"It wasn't supposed to end like this... I... I thought you love me too, but it was also her... even with no memory you never fully forgot about her." She yells at us and I frown.
"What do you mean?"
"You talk in your sleep and whenever that happened you would murmur her name... hers not mine! She ruined everything... I mean why couldn't she just fucking move on! All the waiting and drugging you it was just to wait for her to find someone else, so we could go back and get everything back that is yours!"
Fuck, I knew it. It was all about my fucking money...
"So this this was the plan all along, to keep me drugged and one day get my money?" I ask and Kelsey stares at me with disdain.
"Yes, once I had you cleaned up, I knew exactly who you are and I thought, this is my chance, my one chance to the life I deserve. My plan was perfect, I wanted us to have kids by the time your memory returned, that would have insured you wouldn't leave me, but you just couldn't get the job done, now could you?" She huffs bitterly and I snort.
"Well, as you may know I have a beautiful daughter, so maybe you're the problem." I reply coldly and she gasps.
"Oh you arrogant son of a bitch, how I wish I would have let you die instead of wasting four years of my life with you!" She yells at me and before I can say anything Ana speaks up.
"You had four years with him and all you care about is his money? Seriously you are one fucked up bitch." Ana hisses and when I look at her she shaking with anger. I take her hand in mine and give it a squeeze, but she isn't finished yet.
"Did you ever even one second feel bad about what you were doing? To him, to his family and his daughter?" She snaps and Kelsey shrugs.
"No, why. I had to take care of him which wasn't exactly pleasant in the beginning all the while all of you could enjoy life thanks to his money... I deserve the life you have!" Kelsey hisses at Ana and I'm shocked that I never saw what a natural born bitch she is.
"And that's the problem... all you see is the money. What you don't see is the constant security, threats and paparazzi. Oh and the work of course... you see Kelsey if you thought that shoving horse shit is hard work then try a walk a mile in his shoes. Because let me tell you, he didn't get anything handed on a silver platter, he has worked day and night for everything he has... maybe you should have tried that too instead of kidnapping a severely injured man, not giving a damn if he makes it to Alabama and lying to him for your years!"
"Oh you have to talk, all you've ever done was to open your legs for a rich guy." Kelsey snaps and I have had enough.
"Enough! Do you hear me Kelsey? You will never ever disrespect my wife again! Ana has put herself through college, managed to get a good job fresh out of college and while I was gone she not just raised our daughter alone, but she also stepped in at GEH. And what's more so she doesn't want anything from me other than my love and time. Maybe if you had been that way you wouldn't be sitting here but somewhere in your own home with a nice husband... you know what's funny, I thought I needed this, to come here to get closure... but I don't. You are nothing but a bitter bitch and I'll make sure you and everyone else who was involved in my kidnapping will get what they deserve."
I get up and hold out my hand to Ana, she takes it and we leave the prison ignoring Kelsey who is screaming profanities until we are out of earshot.
Back in the car I notice that Ana is very silent. "Are you alright, baby?"
"Yes, it's just what you said." She murmurs.
"What exactly do you mean?"
"When Kelsey said all I ever did was to open my legs for you and you yelled at her... you called me your wife." She says without looking at me and I smile, she did notice it!
"Look at me, baby." I ask and when she does I smile at her.
"To me you are and I hope that one day in the not so far future you will be just that... Mrs. Grey. After all I have proof that you've agreed to marry." I fish the keychain she has given me from my pants pocket and show it to her. It stopped working only minutes after she gave it to me, but Taylor was able to fix it for me and since then I have it on me every day.
"I didn't think you would keep it." She admits.
"Why?"
"I don't know... maybe when I gave it to you I hoped for more of an reaction... but I would like to be Mrs. Grey one day."
"One day soon." I add and I hope once the trials are over and the dust has settled a bit I can finally make her my wife...