Ed's heart rate increased as he stared at the silent brunette before him. He shouldn't be this nervous. He practiced for this moment ever since he found Erika. He wasn't just going to let this situation make her fall from his reach. He can do it. This was his chance. He can get her back. That's the single most thing important to him right now. He didn't care for anything else. All he wanted was to get her back.
"…."
She was silent once more and Ed began to get desperate.
"I-I…"
Ed closed his eyes waiting for her answer.
"I…I don't believe you…."
Ed opened his eyes as he looked at the girl in front of him. What?
"I don't believe you…" Erika said as her bangs covered her eyes. "I'm sorry but…I just…I just can't…I can't find the will…to believe you…I-I'm sorry…I just…I just can't…"
Ed bowed his head as his bangs covered his eyes. "I understand." Ed said in only above a whisper. Derek stood up.
"Erika…"
"I-I…I just…" Erika said as her voice dropped to almost inaudible. "Please…Please…get out."
"If that's what you want." Ed said as he walked past her and towards the door. He paused before his hand clasped the door knob. He turned around as he grabbed something out of his bag slowly. "This is for you." Ed said as he left the item on the table. "Goodbye."
Erika turned away as she heard him close the door. Erika put a hand up to her mouth as she tried to muffle something so no one could hear. Derek looked at the door then towards his baby sister.
"Erika…are you sure?" Derek asked.
"I-I can't Derek…I don't know why…I just can't find the…will…to…" Erika said with her voice shaky. Then she ran for the stairs. "I'll be in my room!" Erika shouted as she ran up the stairs.
Derek flinched as he heard her slam the door shut. She was in pain. And he could tell. He knew exactly why. It wasn't because her hero was someone different than she imagined. It wasn't from anger. It was something else. Something much deeper than anyone would have thought…
Her heart was…hurting. Broken.
For a reason, he did not know.
XoXo… Ed's apartment …XoXo
She didn't believe him. All of this effort…and she didn't remember him nor believe him.
Ed's heart shattered. He didn't know why, it just felt as if it was the end of the world. They went through all of that, and now she didn't believe him. He knows her memory was erased but…it just didn't make any sense. At all.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
"So we're off to a new adventure." Amy said.
"So…that's it?" Ed asked.
"This is it." Erika said. "After this, we'll be going our different ways. For good this time."
"Oh…" Ed said.
"Oh yeah!" Erika said and reached into her bag. "This is for you two!" Erika said and handed them a piece of paper.
"Brothers…" Ed said reading the title.
"Yeah. It's a song I made for you two. It's about how you two felt throughout your journey. Read the lyrics." Erika said and then smiled. "I wanted to give it to you as a reminder of what you went through."
"Thank you Erika." Al said.
"Yeah…Thanks." Ed said as he looked at the paper with an expression Erika couldn't read.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Ed walked to his bathroom and looked in the mirror. There was a boy with emerald green eyes with no emotion inside them whatsoever. Ed took out the colored contacts and put them away. He didn't need to look again to see what emotion was overtaking him.
It was sorrow.
He felt it before, but this time…it was a whole lot worse than he could ever imagine.
XoXo… Erika's Room …XoXo
Erika sat in her room with her knees brought up to her chest. She didn't know what was happening. She was alone, secluded, sad, angry, and…scared. She didn't know what to do, say, or even act on. When she had put all of the theories together, she was so sure of herself that he was Edward Elric. But…even after all that, she didn't believe him once her theories were proven correct. She was shocked. Tears streamed down her face and for some reason, she was hurting.
She didn't know why, she just was. Erika blamed herself for all of it. She thought she was being selfish. Which in most parts were true once she put it together in her head. She was right, but at the same time, she didn't want to be. It was real. Not her imagination. It was actual life. She was shocked beyond belief and her heart couldn't find the will to believe him. She wanted too, she just…couldn't.
"Damn it all…" Erika cursed silently as she buried her face in her arms. "Damn it…damn it…damn it…"
"You know cursing at yourself won't solve the problem."
Erika lifted up her head slightly to stare at the person who said that. She found none other than Derek standing in the doorway. Erika buried her face in her arms again to hide her tears. "It may not solve the problem but I deserve it."
"Don't give yourself crap just because of this." Derek said.
"I'm not giving myself crap…I'm just paying my toll for being selfish." Erika said. "I was being so selfish back there."
"Yeah, you were." Derek said. Erika chuckled emptily.
"Thanks for agreeing."
"What are you going to do now?" Derek asked. Erika looked up at him.
"I honestly don't know. Willard…I mean Edward, probably hates me now." Erika said. "Why do I have such a hard time believing him? I accept it in my mind, it makes sense. But…I just…"
"You just can't."
Erika smiled mournfully. "I'm hopeless aren't I?"
"You aren't hopeless." Derek said as he started to close the door. "You just have to follow your heart. Because you never know how strong you are until you have to be."
The door closed and Erika rested her chin on her knees. "I never know how strong I am until I have to be…"
What am I going to do now?
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Oh yeah! Here's some previews that come in little quotes throughout the next chapter:
"Action doesn't act on its own, Erika." -Derek
"Where's Willard?" -Katie
"Y-You're-B-But-H-How...?" -Erika
"Happy to see me?" -?
