I am having such a hard time deciding whether or not they should stay together. I have people on both sides and honestly I have no clue where to go. I am trying to make everyone happy but I know that it is an impossible task… Here I go.

EPOV

My Bella was gone, that was clear. My Bella would have called me the minute she read that letter. She would have forgiven me because she would have felt how truly sorry I was. But my Bella was gone. I know that now. I knew that when a week had passed and I still hadn't heard a peep from her. That was 3 months ago though. For three months I held on to the hope that she would call, or show up, or anything. But she hasn't because my Bella is gone.

My phone rings and my heard races. Every time my phone rings I hope it is her. I pick my phone up from my desk in the hospital. I pulled another double shift. I was tired and just wanted to go home and go to sleep. At least while I was sleeping it hurt a little less, being away from her. I looked at the unfamiliar number and I moved onto my computer to clock out.

"This is Edward" I answered strongly.

"Edward" A small voice said from the other side.

My heart jumped into my throat and started thumping violently.

"Bella" I said, trying to remain calm. The excitement in my voice was heard easily. "How are you Bella? I've been hoping you would call"

"I have been good. I didn't call to chat Edward. I called so you can meet your daughter. I'm in the hospital. Floor 3 room 205"

"My daughter" I repeated quietly. "I'll be there in a second"

I hung up, clocked out, and darted to the elevator. It felt like an eternity before I was walking up to her room door. I knocked and looked inside. Bella was laying in the bed, Emmett was sitting next to her, and Alice was standing beside him. Alice looked over at me and smiled while Emmett looked over at me and glared. I turned my attention back to Bella, she was staring down at the tightly wrapped baby in her arms. I stepped into the room.

"What is he doing here?" Emmett snapped, standing quickly.

I looked at Bella without reacting to Emmett. She nodded at me and I walked closer.

"Don't you take another step towards my sister!" Emmett hollered

"Emmett enough" Bella snapped. "You're going to wake Renesmee. Edward is her father and he has the right to be here."

"Are you serious?" He said in frustration.

"If you cannot be civil you should probably leave the room"

I looked up at Bella in surprise. She was different from her looks to her attitude. She had never really stood up for anything against Emmett and here she was standing up for me. I didn't deserve it at all, but I was grateful. Emmett stormed out of the room. Alice walked up to me, kissed me on the cheek, and left.

"Her name is Renesmee Carlie Cullen" Bella said softly. "The birth certificate is on that counter by the bathroom, you can sign it if you want"

I moved across the room and signed the papers. I made no move to hold my daughter, Renesmee. I didn't know if that was going to be too much for Bella. I would have to understand if she didn't want me to hold our baby even though my arms ached to.

"Would you like to hold her?" Bella asked much to my relief.

"I would love to" I whispered, ignoring how my voice cracked twice.

I moved to the bed and grabbed Renesmee, cradling her in my arms.

"I love you Bella" I whispered without thinking. "You have made me the happiest man in the world time and time again"

I wasn't surprised when she didn't answer, but what was left of my heart broke.

"Hey Renesmee" I cooed at the sleeping bundle.

She had a head full of hair already. It was dark brown like Bella's with streaks of red and blond when you looked at it in the light. Her nose was tiny, she looked just like Bella's baby pictures.

"She's so beautiful" I said, looking up at Bella.

She was leaned over sleeping in what looked like a very uncomfortable position. Normally I would move her, but I didn't want to wake her up and cause a problem so I left her there. I found myself staring at her as I rocked Renesmee. She had cut her hair into one of Alice's favorite cuts, a pixie. She had also dyed her hair a dirty blond. Her face was a little bit rounder than it had ever been, but she looked great. I don't know how long I sat there staring at her but suddenly there was a piercing cry cracking the air around me. Bella jumped awake and I jumped out of my skin. I looked down at Renesmee's tiny body in shock. How could such a tiny thing be so loud? Her eyes open and I gasp. Her eyes were a shocking shade of green. I stared at them in amazement. They were literally a shade or 2 darker than mine but brighter somehow.

"Pass her to me" Bella said, snapping me out of my trance.

I handed Renesmee off quickly. Bella rocked her for a second before beginning to feed her.

"How have you been?" I asked softly.

"I've been good. I have a new job lined up. I start in January"

"That's great"

She nodded. That gave her 3 months home with the baby.

"Where will Renesmee be while you work?"

"At your parents' house."

I nodded. Bella looked up at me for a second before turning her attention back to Renesmee. I was tense and so was she. I didn't know what to say and was too scared to say the wrong thing to say much. After a few seconds I finally asked the question on my mind.

"Do you think we'll ever work things out? Will we get back together?"

She didn't look up at me but I saw her frown. She lifted Renesmee, fixed her top, and started burping the baby.

"I don't see how we ever could" She said evenly.

"Why? Bella I've changed, I'm better now." She sighs but doesn't answer. "What about Renesmee? Don't you think she deserves to have her father around?"

"I didn't say you couldn't be around. We don't need to be together for you to be involved in your daughter's life" She snapped. My eyes were wide in surprise. "I don't trust you. I will never trust you again Edward."

"Bella" I whispered.

I felt breathless, like I was having a panic attack.

"Don't 'Bella' me" She said softly, rocking Renesmee back to sleep. "Do you see her, do you see your daughter? You almost killed her. Do you see me Edward, do you see me? I was your wife! You almost killed me time and time again. So forgive me for not believing a word that comes out of your mouth or trusting you, but you deserve it"

I blinked back tears staring into her angry eyes. Every word was like a kick to the gut and a slice across my heart. Every word was true. I nodded silently trying not to cry.

"I get to go home in 2 days, then we can work something out so that you can still see her."

I nodded again. Renesmee was now sleeping on Bella's chest, Bella adjusted herself on the bed and let her eyes drift closed. I took that as my cue to go.

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