Julian walked into the room where his best friend was sleeping. He had run to Luigi's to get Tony's favorite pizza for dinner. According to Gibbs getting Tony to eat was a battle most days. When they were kids and Tony would get depressed and stop eating pizza would always bring him around. Julian was hoping that it would have the same effect on him as an adult. He had cut through the back fence to the guest house. So the boys wouldn't see the pizza and get jealous. Gloria had told them not to go bother Tony, because he wasn't feeling well. He saw Gloria sitting on the bed rocking Tony and singing the lullaby she sang to the boys when they were upset.

"I'm home!" Julian called.

"Shh! I just got him to sleep." Gloria whispered.

"Sorry" Julian replied.

"Have you found anything else out?" Gloria asked.

"No but I was going to call Gibbs, after dinner." Julian replied.

"Can you stay with him? I have to get dinner ready for the boys." Gloria asked.

"Oh yeah, sorry I took so long but he has last so much weight and I just want to be able to tell Gibbs that he had a good dinner." Julian apologized.

"It is OK." Gloria assured.

Gibbs was literally burning with rage. Fornell and him had finished processing Tony's apartment and now they were in the now empty bullpen. The evidence was down in Abby's lab being processed by an intern who had worked with Fornell at the FBI earlier this year. The kid had a lot of potential. He even reminded Gibbs a little of a young male Abby. Except Gibbs couldn't see this kid joining a Facebook page calling somebody worse than Hitler.

"Jethro are you OK?" Fornell asked.

"If it were Emily in this situation would you be OK?" Gibbs demanded.

"Hell no." Fornell replied.

"Then why would you think I was?" Gibbs asked.

"Jethro maybe you should go down to the gym and burn off some steam?" Fornell suggested.

"Fine!" Gibbs snapped.

Gibbs slammed his bare fists into gym's punching bag. He could see Senior disgusting face on the bag and he just wanted to beat it into dust. The pain in his hands was only adding to his rage. Finally something inside him snapped and he jumped onto the punching bag sending it crashing to the ground. He threw himself on top of it kicking and punching it, tears were pouring down his face. He hadn't felt this enraged and depressed since he found out that Shannon and Kelly were dead.

"LEAVE MY SON ALONE! YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT!" Gibbs raged as he continued attacking the bag before being interrupted by his ringing phone.

Fifteen minutes Julian had left Tony alone for fifteen minutes. He knew that Tony had been suicidal but he didn't think that he would try anything in a house where children were. After dinner he had come back to the guest house and found Tony rolling around on the floor in a pool of broken glass angrily cutting himself on the arms and stomach. Tony was sobbing like a child and saying that he was going to die and he didn't care. He was just going to die and spare everybody from the burden that he was. Because he pure garbage and had ruined Gibbs's life and was about to ruin Julian and Jimmy's. Julian immediately wrestled the glass away from Tony and pulled him up onto the bed before calling Gibbs.

"Sorry about that Julian, is everything OK?"

"There is a problem with Tony. I need you to get here right away."

"Yeah I will be right there."

"OK bye"

Gibbs rushed down the street he could only imagine what was wrong with Tony now. The way Julian sounded it had to be something serious. Why had he left Tony alone with him? He knew that Julian loved Tony and Tony felt the same about Julian but after what had happened at his apartment. Tony didn't need anymore shake-ups in his routine. His heart dropped when he arrived to Julian's house and saw the flashing lights of an ambulance and Julian standing on the lawn with his arms wrapped around Gloria's waste both were crying. He jumped out of the car and ran towards Julian and the ambulance.

"What happened?" Gibbs wheezed.

"I thought he would be OK. I left him to go eat with Gloria and the boys. I was gone fifteen minutes and he was asleep. When I got back he had broken every glass in the cabinet and was rolling around in the shards and cutting himself with the largest shard." Julian explained.

"Tony" Gibbs whispered.

"Gloria and I don't want to leave the boys. Could you ride in the ambulance with him?" Julian asked.

"Of course." Gibbs replied.

Gibbs left Gloria and Julian on the lawn and hopped in the ambulance with Tony. He couldn't help but let a few tears fall when he saw how cut up Tony's stomach and arms were. With each passing day it was becoming more and more obvious that his son was just too broken. Gibbs composed himself enough to tell the paramedics to take Tony to Bethesda. Seconds later the vehicle was rushing towards the hospital. Gibbs sat on the bench and picked up his son's hand. By now his tears were uncontrollable. Tony was twitching and crying about how he was wasting the ambulance and some innocent was going to die because of him.

"Tony come on you need to relax." Gibbs said.

"I want to die! I want to die!" Tony cried.

"Well I don't want to lose you." Gibbs replied.

"I just gets worse. They say it gets better but my life just gets worse. I just want to die before anything else happens!" Tony sobbed.

"Tony please just hang on a little longer." Gibbs pleaded.

A/N: Poor Tony is really losing it. Dr. Pitt is going to learn what has happened in the next chapter. Will he be able to convince Tony to carry on? New chapter will be up soon. Please review and thanks for reading.