~Author's Note"

Guys, I am so sorry for not updating, I've had a bit of writer's block, along with a house full of kids last night. But I wrote in a little treat to make it up to you guys. Enjoy :)

Chapter 21

Tobias POV

I walk into the primary training room with Imara holding my hand. I glance down at her. I don't like this policy change anymore than the next parent, but at least I get to teach her. We are the first ones here, I lean down to her,

"Now sweetie. I can't baby you in here, I have to treat you just like the other kids you know that right?"

"I know daddy…do we get to eat with momma?"

"No honey, we have to stay on this floor all day. It's just like real school." I have worry etch in my voice. Imara puts her hand on my cheek.

"You're a good teacher daddy."

"Thank you sweetheart." I hug her tightly and she wraps her arms around my neck. I sit like this for a few minutes, on my knees in front of her, until I hear more small foot steps. I pull away and stand up, trying my best to put on my instructor mask. I see the 20 kids that Imara has grown up with. Including her best friend….Liam. I sigh to myself as I address them,

"Hopefully all of you know who I am….I'm not entirely sure what to teach you…so…how about you guys just punch around on the bags for a while?"

All of the kids start punching away as I walk out, calling to them over my shoulder to behave. I go and find Max, hoping he can help.

"Do you have any idea what I'm supposed to teach them?"

"Basic hand to hand combat."

"Until they are nine?"

"You only work with them for 30 minutes a day."

"Then how come I'm supposed to be in there all day?"

"You work with the small children in the morning, then you work with the second years on more advanced hand to hand for an hour and a half, third years are knife throwing for a hour and a half and fourth years are shooting for an hour and a half. At the end of the day the first years come in to work a bit longer until school is over. Every Friday you take the kids on the train during their time."

"Um…okay."

Tris POV

Imara slams the door behind her and stomps to her bedroom, slamming the door as Tobias walks him looking ashen. I wrap my arms around him,

"Baby, what happened?"

"I just don't know how to do this…"

"Do what?"

"Teach her and not make her hate me. She's so used to the way I am at home and out in the compound and when we leave, even training new initiates, but she isn't used to being trained by me."

"Should I talk to her?"

"I don't know…"

"C'mon, let's do it together okay?"

"Okay." I pull away and hold his hand, leading him to her room. She throws a pillow at him hitting him square in the face.

"Go away!"

"Imara! Don't talk to your father that way!"

"But mommy! Daddy is mean!"

I hear Tobias take in a sharp breath and he puts his arm around me.

"Daddy is not mean. Apologize to him and then tell us whats wrong."

"Me and Liam were just playing around after lunch…."

"Near the Chasm Imara! You two left the floor we were supposed to stay on! You could have fallen in!" Tobias's voice is close to a shout. I put my hand on the small of his back, leading him to sit on the bed with Imara between us.

"Honey is this true?"

"Yes mommy…."

"Well you can't do that. Why are you mad at your father for pulling you away?"

"Cause he yelled at me and Liam…"

"He's just trying to protect you sweetie. He cares too much about you to let you get hurt. Please stay away from there."

"We were just plating tag…"

"Either way. Don't go near that again or you will be in trouble. Now how about you play with your toys while I talk to daddy. We're going to Grandma and Grandpa's in an hour."

Tobias closes the door silently behind him and goes to the bathroom without a word. I go with him and strip down, stepping into the shower. He wraps his arms around me and puts his face in my hair. He is blocking all the water but I fee a trickle down the back of my neck…Tobias is crying. I take his face in my hands and kiss him softly, wiping his tears.

"Tobias, honey, talk to me."

"Am I really a bad father?"

"No baby, you did that for her own good…"

"That's what Marcus used to say…"

"Tobias…don't even. Please."

I hear a choked sound from his chest as he starts to cry again. I lean my head against his chest, wrapping my arms around him and pulling him to sit on the floor of the shower. I lean my forehead against his and cry with him, we sit like this for a long time, looking into each others eyes, watching the water wash over our bright red eyes. I put my hand on his cheek and wipe away what I know is a tear. He only cries in the shower. He doesn't like to be vulnerable.

I leave the bathroom before him. I get his clothes and lay them across the bed as I dress and blow-dry my hair.

When we get to my parents house, my mother opens the door before we even knock.

"Hi mom…"

"Hey guys…come on in."

I can't believe how much they try to accommodate us. Every time we come over they have something like steak or hamburgers. Imara runs into the living room and crashes into my father.

"Grampa!" she squeezes his neck hard and he winces.

"Hi sweetie, you're strong…"

She abruptly pulls back.

"Oops, sorry."

He looks over to us.

"What have you been feeding her? She's growing like weed and she has a vice grip."

Tobias grins a little.

"Dauntless kids are like that. She can throw knifes too, wanna see?"

My mother quickly interjects.

"Maybe next week, when we come to see you….you have special rooms for that…."

"Well Yeah but I mean, she can easily hit any grain you point to."

"Not sure I want to take that chance now."

We laugh as we all walk into the kitchen to sit around the table, we eat almost in silence, Imara garbling down everything that is placed on her plate. My father clears his throat and speaks up.

"Have you talked to Caleb?"

"No. Have you?"

"We can't. The Eurdte have cut all ties with Abnegation. It's better that way. Keeps the peace."

"Ever since Eric died they've cut ties with us too."

"I wonder why…."

"Who knows. We don't really care though. I mean, I sorta feel bad for the initiates that come from Eurdite. Nobody ever comes to see them."

"None of them come here either."

"I try not to worry about it…"

When we are at the door my dad shakes Tobias's hand and hugs Imara and me.

"Same time next week at your place?"

"Definitely. You know. If you would take the train you could get there a lot faster."

"I'd rather just leave early. I'm not much for hopping…anything" he laughs as we walk out the door. Imara takes off running out in front of us and the second the train pulls up we hurl ourselves in.

Once Imara is tucked into bed I go back to our room, sitting on the bed to take my shoes off. Tobias comes up behind me, sitting on his knees and pushing my hair back. I can feel his breath on my neck and I smile to myself as I stand, going into the closet. I quickly take off my clothes and put on a basque that is long line and crafted in super sheer nude tulle decorated with tattoo-style red floral embroidery. The bra is a padded, red silk quarter cup, while my bones and waistband are silk bound. A scalloped red bow and smooth silk straps are the last touch. I blush as I look in the mirror. Cristina gave this to me. I've been looking for the right time to wear it. I put on a pair of heels that match my basque and apply some red lipstick. I slowly walk out of the closet, grinning at Tobias who is laying on the bed waiting for me. He sits up and look at me, standing up, he comes to me and looks me in the eyes for what feels like eternity. Then, without warning, he sweeps me up and takes me to the bed, laying me on my back.

He gets over me and plants a long, lustful kiss on my lips. He works his way down to my neck. "You are so….beautiful" He murmurs against my skin. I sigh as he works his way down my body. Kissing, nipping, even pausing sometimes. He gets down to my panties, un-straps the silk, ad pulls them down slowly, taking my shoes with them. He kisses up my legs and stops in between my legs. This is new. He looks at me intently, waiting for my approval. I nod at him as he plants a single tender kiss on me, I feel electricity run through me. He moves back up to my face, kissing me softly. I just now realize he is naked. He unties the front of my basque and pulls it out from under me. I am now laying under him, completely exposed. He looks into my eyes questioningly. I nod as he wraps his arms around me, crushing me to him. He puts his face in my neck and slowly slides into me, carefully, letting me adjust to him. We don't get to do this often anymore, so every time is so special, every time is like the first time with us, new, explorative, hungry. I highly recommend it.

I run my hands down his back as he thrusts forward, carefully picking up speed and establishing a rhythm. My body yields to him as I start to climb, scratching at him. He pulls his head up and kisses me sharply, making me moan against his mouth.

"I love you Tobias."

"I love you too Tris."

And that is our undoing, making us let go together. I clutch to him as he empties himself in me, he rolls over, pulling out and holding me tightly against him. I fall asleep to the sound of his soft breath and his finger sliding up and down my spine.

Okay guys that's it for the night. Don't forget to review! Peace!

~Love,

Leigh XOXO