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Chapter 21: Thank you

BPOV:

"Bella" he sighed. "Really what are you thinking?!" He shook me again gently. Finally I snapped out of it and gazed up into his eyes. The eyes that had always dazzled me when I was human.

As I looked into them once again I became lost; totally immersed in him. Quickly I brought myself to my senses and knew that if I could have flushed I would be doing exactly that.

Time had changed me in many ways but it had no toll on the effects that Edward could have on me. And so I leaned into him. Breathing in his delicious scent that was even more alluring then when I was human.

As I slowly became aware of the things around me again I felt a pain searing in the background. Absently I must have pushed it back as I became focused on Edward. IT was the same pain that I had been suffering from for weeks now, that I was sure of. I rejected the drained feeling that threatened to consume me. I didn't want to be drawn back into the miserable pain so I tried to focus intently on the god before me; speaking to him the only thing I could think of.

"This must be a dream even though that's far from reality now so that means I must be dead." Edward winced slightly at the casual tone in my voice as his iron hands gripped me securely to him.

"You're impossible Bella." He whispered leaning down to my ear. "You're not dead. I'm here, and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was seeing your face in my mind everywhere I 

went, every second that we were apart. It the very blackest kind of blasphemy when I told you I didn't want you.

I shook my head while it was buried in his chest as I tried in vain to stop myself from believing him. But the fact was I couldn't help myself and I all I could do now was bury my head deeper in his marble chest.

"You don't believe me." He retorted his face paler than usual. "Why can you believe the lie and not the truth?"

"It never made sense for you to love me," I explained "I always knew that."

I could feel him stiffen as he focused intently on me, I could feel his gaze piercing me. Suddenly I felt him run his long stone fingers along the exposed side of my cheek tenderly then run down to catch my chin in his hand, his fingers forming an inescapable snare. Slowly he pulled and tilted my face so I could look at him.

His eyes were burning fiercely and his jaw was tightened. "I'll prove you're awake," He promised.

"Please don't." I whispered. Abruptly his face stopped just half an inch from mine. "Why not?" He demanded, his cold luscious breath fluttered along my face.

"Because this isn't real, it's just a sick dream nothing more." He pulled back an inch to stare at my face.

"These last few weeks when you walked around pretending to not know and living under a false name you were so hesitant around me. Even last night in the cemetery when I reached out to catch you, you were in so much pain, you were so cautious and yet still the same. Have I hurt you too much? Am I too late?" He whispered.

Without warning a smile broke out across my face, as if he could do anything that could stop me from loving him. This man was utterly ridiculous and yet everything I wanted. His brow wrinkled in confusion at my sudden change.

"There is no amount of pain you could put me through to stop me from loving you. The way I feel about you will never change!" I shouted without warning.

Steadily his face softened as my words sunk in. "That's all I needed to hear."

His lips were on mine in an instant, and I couldn't fight him. Not because I was weak but because I no longer held the will the second our lips met. This kiss was unlike any other than we have ever shared. Now that I was unbreakable there were no boundaries. I couldn't move I couldn't speak all I could do was feel. And so I kissed him back. Our lips moving together in symphony as his tongue glided over my bottom lip pleading for entry. Gladly I accepted and then his tongue was in my mouth, dancing with mine in perfect bliss. His jagged breathing matched mine as now.

Gradually he began to move back onto the bed and shifted me so that I was laying under him with both of us wrapped in the comforter. Not once did our lips part during this time. And during the brief seconds that his lips were free, he whispered my name.

When we were both gasping for unneeded air he pulled away, only to lay his head on my chest like he used to do when I was human, wrapping his arms around me securely. We lay there silent for a while. He seeming to hear my dead heart beats silent pulses and me trying to comprehend the entire fact that he had only left me for me.

Slowly I began to thread my hands through his hair as we lay there contempt in each other's arms. Still I tried to keep that throbbing pain in the back of my mind, away from this all. But soon my heart began to ache again as I realized that this couldn't last forever and sooner or later Edward would come to his senses and see me for what I really was. I don't think I could survive the next time he decided to leave.

He seemed to feel my apprehension lofting in the silence and broke it with a casual tone lifting his head to look at me.

"I'm not leaving you again. I can't ever let you go again, believe me when I tell you this Bella. I love you! I will love and care for you for the rest of eternity and beyond, never doubt that." He paused to see that I was listening and continued seeing my eyes were absorbed with in his. "Please believe me when I tell you all of this Bella. Everything I speak to you comes from my heart a heart that has always rested with you. Damn it don't you see I love you Isabella!" I stopped breathing when he raised his voice as he said those three words that always sent me into frenzy and slowly bit by bit I was truly beginning to believe him. Maybe a monster could find a happy ending after all; perhaps I wasn't damned as I had led myself to believe for so long.

Yet the fact remained still that I was a monster a creature of blood and it was better for him to know this sooner than later.

"Edward you could mean that now but…" I began hesitantly. "When you learn that this is all I'll ever be and nothing more I know you'll come to the obvious conclusion and leave and…" I was caught off suddenly by Edward placing his slender finger over my lips to shush me. His eyes were blazing as he looked at me now, smoldering with an intense emotion.

"Bella you still don't understand." He whispered softly to me. "I was with Nina and the others while you slept that first night, I know everything about that. I could never leave you for anything! Nothing as small as that could ever drive me away… but if you wished me away that would be quite fair. I wouldn't contest you decision." Again he yelled those words to me which left me with a blank expression on my face. All of my doubt of him had been completely erased all that was left was the fact that Edward was here and he loved me. That was something I didn't think possible but only in a dream.

Again after her repeated his love for me he had also doubted mine for him, something that I couldn't allow.

"Never Edward." I poke tenderly. "I could never want you anywhere but here, with me. I just believe that after everything you've learned of me you still want me… its shocking." He began to open his mouth to protest but I cut him off. "I know now what your saying is true, the look in your eyes when you said it convinced me of that but the fact that this is all happening is just beyond me. To have my one and only love back after so long is… indescribable thank you." My hand reached out to stroke his carved cheek, brushing it lightly with my finger tips. Relief washed over him and he leaned his face further into my 

hand taking mine in his just as I was about to pull away. Slowly his eyes closed as his velvet voice incased me.

"I never truly left you love. My heart and mind were with you every day. There is no changing the permanent hold you have on me Bella." His words touched me so deep that I thought tears would slip down my cheeks.

"Oh Edward." My voice quivered. But before I could finish my sentence his lips were on mine. Cautiously my forgotten wings spread from the folded position on my back and circled around us. Back grounding our love in white. For minutes we laid there kissing, now that I was his equal breathing was left for the humans. I had never gotten used to the feeling of mouth pressed to mine ten years ago and I don't think I could now. The electricity that flowed between us incredible as our lips moved in precision to one another never once failing to meet the other.

Eventually I had to break off the kiss, desperately needing that o so useful oxygen. This didn't stop Edward. Steadily he trained kisses down my neck and over my collarbone, repeating this in a cycle as I tried in vain to catch my breath.

Without warning pain shot through me like a bolt. My entire mind became clouded as I tried in vain to fight against it. Again I was reminded of the cuts that covered my body as all their images were traced with misery over and over again.

This pain though was sharper than the rest, more pronounced in its purpose. Then realization hit me and I froze under Edwards's stone lips with hovered at my neck. It was hunger and it was unlike any other. No it wasn't for human blood it was calling me to Edward; driving me to feed on vampires once again.

"Bella? What's wrong?" my angel's voice called seeing my abrupt change. Hesitantly I looked into his eyes and inwardly gasped. Topaz, his eyes were more golden than I had ever seen them before which meant he had feed extremely well before tonight. The blood that he had taken in and was now his was calling me.

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