Cas' P.O.V

I look away from Dean, and bite my lip softly. "Okay Dean. I will talk to Gabriel in the morning about helping me with my nightmares."

Dean smiled a little and kissed my head, "Thank you Cas. C'mon let's lay down, you should try to sleep"

I shake my head and look at the clock to see it is about 3 am. "No it's fine. I am going to go to the library and read. You go ahead and sleep Dean I will be fine"

Dean sighs but nods, I get up and go to the library. I grab a book about sirens and sit down at the table. By about 5 am Sam comes into the library talking to Gabe. "My point is Gabe, is that Cas is your little brother and I get that you want to protect him but you cannot protect him from everything. Dean is going to take great care of him and once you get his grace back then he will be fine, Dean can seem like a selfish asshole sometimes but I know you know that isn't true. Unless he asks for you to take the nightmares away you can't just take them away because it isn't your call, it's his."

Gabe sighs softly, "I just, I know I abandoned him when he was a fledgling but, seeing him hurting sucks ass Sam. I heard him having another nightmare last night, I try to keep tabs on all of you guys at night and I could feel that he was having another nightmare and it hurt me."

Sam goes to say more before he spots me sitting at the table, and he puts on a smile, "Morning Cas. Where's Dean?"

I look up from my book, trying to pretend I wasn't listening to their conversation. "Sleeping still I imagine."

Gabe seems to be upset by my response and he looks at Sam and says, "Told you he wouldn't take care of him."

I slammed my book shut, anger filling into my chest. "He went back to sleep after he calmed me down! After I told him to go back to sleep because I didn't want to keep him up while I couldn't sleep. Damn it Gabriel get over yourself! You have no right to be a protective big brother to me! You lost that right the moment you left me alone as a fledgling with Lucifer who was falling apart! Dean can be an ass, and doesn't always get things but that is because of the shit he has been through in life. Dean isn't perfect, but guess what Gabe!? Neither are you so just shut the hell up!"

Sam and Gabe look at me shocked, and I just shake my head and make my way outside. I walk for a while out into the woods that surround the bunker and eventually my emotions take hold and my legs give out with exhaustion causing me to collapse. I start sobbing uncontrollably and curl up into a ball, just wishing that things were different. Soon I can't cry anymore and I stare at the sky as the sun comes up, I don't know how much longer I lay there before I feel Dean's arms wrap around me. Eventually I meet his eyes and his smile makes me feel calm and warm inside, "Hey Cas. Do you want to go inside?"

I shake my head a little, "I don't want to talk to Gabriel or my Father. Honestly I don't want to talk at all I just want to be here with you."

Dean nodded gently and kissed my head. "Okay Cas, we can stay right here."

Two more hours pass before Dean's stomach growls breaking the silence between us and I laugh. "C'mon Dean. You need food so let's go eat okay."

Dean nods, gets up before helping me up and we walk back to the bunker. Once we are inside I look at one of the clocks to see that it is about 9 am. Dean and I walk into the kitchen, make ourselves some breakfast before sitting down at the large island. It only takes about 20 minutes before Chuck comes in, I ignore him and focus on eating my food and looking at Dean. Eventually he says, "You know Castiel, Gabriel does not mean harm. He simply worries."

I bite the inside of my cheek and take a breath before saying, "He lost that right, and in all honesty Chuck so did you. You have been absent for longer than Gabriel has, I have had it with you trying to be a loving protective father."

Chuck looks at me with wide eyes, Dean's eyes are wide as well and he takes my hand, "Cas are you okay. I've never seen you acting like this."

I nod, "I am fine Dean. I am just fed up. If you need me I will be going to my own room. I would like to be alone right now."

I ignore Dean's look and rush into my bedroom, anxiety filling my chest. I can tell something is wrong with me, but I can't figure out what is going on.