A/N: MELODY-ROSE-20 – The Cullens ain't coming back. It's just Jazz, Em and Rose.
I threw the loose piece of floorboard onto the floor away from me, like it burned me. I stood up slightly and cautiously leaned over the floorboards to look what was underneath the floorboards.
I glared at the items and picked them up by the corner. It was the photos of Fuckward and me, on my birthday. He looked so tense, he didn't look happy or in love. Maybe I was just imagining things that he did love me.
Obviously he didn't love me if he left me the day after. God how could I be so stupid to think a vampire like him would love me? A weak little human I was. I was nothing but a toy to him.
My blood boiled at the thought. Did he drug me into thinking that he loved me or something? Now I come to think of it, did I really love him in the first place? Or was it just a little crush or something? I really don't know.
I stood away from the items he'd sneaked into my floorboards and started throwing things. I needed to get rid of my anger. I was just so fucking pissed off.
He said it would be as if he never existed. Yeah right. Leaving the memories under the floorboards is as if he never existed is it?
I started fuming the more I thought about it. It sickened me. I didn't know what else he might have done to my room without me knowing. It still had a slight sickly sweet stench, I opened my window and grabbed an air freshener and sprayed the room.
I threw things at the walls, but not hard enough to make a dint in the walls. I think Charlie could tell I wasn't to be disturbed while I was throwing a tantrum.
I threw a cushion at the window and heard a low umph and I turned to see Paul glaring at me half-heartedly holding my offended cushion in his hand. I just smiled sheepishly at him.
"What's with the flying cushion Swan? What's up? Fuck what's that stench doing in here? Is the fucker back?" he growled. My anger was forgotten and I just concentrated on calming him down.
"Paul calm down. He's not here. He's not back. That horrible stench is from the floorboards. When he was leaving me, he said it would be as if he never existed. Yet he put the memories over my floorboards. It's kinda creepy, in case he's done something else to my room. But I can't smell him anywhere else but my floorboards. I'm so glad I'm moving out" I giggled.
"You better be glad you're moving out soon. So what's the new house like?" he said changing subject. I didn't mind at all!
"Oh the house is beautiful inside and outside. It's got a pretty patio too. I love it" I squealed with excitement.
"Man that sounds very appealing. I can't wait to see it" he smiled.
"Oh you're gonna love it" I grinned.
I wrapped my arms around his waist and buried my face into his chest. His head rested on the top of my head and ran his hands through my hair. Our heads snapped up when we heard an agonising howl.
Charlie's POV
I heard Bells have a slight tantrum; I didn't know what she was having a tantrum about. But I know that when she has a tantrum, I should stay away from her. She's quite lethal when she has a tantrum.
Then I heard Lahote's voice, I take it he knew that she wasn't happy about something. Maybe it was something to do with their imprinting bond. I wonder if Elena was going to be like that with me. I still feel guilty for leaving her, but I had no choice.
I still have feelings for her, plus she's my imprint too. I guess I won't feel anything to do with the bond until she accepts the imprint. I sighed. Then the phone rang.
"Hello?"
"Hello Mr Swan? This is Officer Chase from the Phoenix Police Department. We were just calling you to inform you that your ex-wife Ms Renee Higginbotham will be flown over to Forks tomorrow. We will have an officer with the body and they will call you when they arrive, just in case. They will be flying at around 900 hours tomorrow; they should arrive at Forks around 1700 hours. We also need you to identify that the body is your ex-wife sir. We are terribly sorry for your loss sir"
"Erm… thank you Officer Chase. What is the officer's name? Will I be meeting them at the airport or will I be meeting them at the Forks morgue?"
"Well sir, you could meet the officer at the airport or the morgue. It is entirely up to you sir. The officer accompanying the body is called Officer Pratt sir. Are there any more questions you would like to ask?"
"No no that will be all thank you Officer Chase. I have to make some calls; I need to do some arrangements. Thank you for your time Officer Chase"
We said our goodbyes and hung up. He once again said he was sorry for our loss. I mean yeah she wasn't my imprint but I still loved her and now she's gone.
It hadn't sunk in when I got the phone call the other day that Renee was gone. But this phone call got me. I didn't realise that I was crying until I felt a tear hit my collarbone. I wiped it away with the back of my hand half-heartedly.
I was on the verge of phasing; I lunged through the front door breaking it completely with the force. The next minute I was on four legs instead of two and let out a long agonizing howl. A howl that would send shivers up your spine, human or wolf.
The pain of losing Renee was too much. I started pacing back and forth in the front garden, oblivious of people staring. That is if they hadn't run away scared. I dug my paws into the dirt as I paced back and forth, growling every now and again.
I wish I could just protect her. She wasn't my wife anymore, but she was my friend. I should have protected her. I knew that there was something wrong with Phil, I never liked the guy. I always had a feeling that something was off about him, but I just couldn't put a finger on it.
I snarled. Why didn't I tell her that I had this hunch that he was bad news? If I told her, she wouldn't be dead right now. I just feel so guilty. Then I felt a tug that brought me out of my thoughts. I whipped my head to the side and my wolf eyes widened. Elena.
As I made eye contact with her, I could feel the change happen. I was sitting there butt naked in front of my house, in front of my imprint. Shit. I looked up at her and she looked confused. I looked down and blushed. Uh oh.
"Charles? What's going on? Why were you a wolf? How is that possible? Wha…" she burrowed her eyebrows. I cleared my throat.
"Well erm… as you can see I can change into a wolf. I'm a shape shifter. I'm actually from the rez but my parents moved out here, my dad was from the rez but my mother was a pale human. I got the wolf gene from my father" I took a deep breath. "Look Elena, I'm sorry about what happened between us. This is why I had to avoid you. I broke your heart. I had to. Not because I wanted to. But because I had no choice. You weren't my imprint" I sighed looking away from her. Not yet you weren't I silently added.
"Look Charles, can we not talk about this? It's in the past. What's done is done. What do you want me to do? Run at you and fall into your arms and kiss you senseless? Is that what you want? It's not going to happen Charles and you know it. No matter what you say will never ease the pain I went through when you broke my heart into pieces. I don't care if you're a wolf. That's not an excuse. It doesn't stop you from being the only man I ever loved. It doesn't stop you from being the only man to hold my heart in your palms and crush it. I just wanted to see if you guys had got anyone to look at the house and see if they were interested in buying this house. But it seems you obviously haven't. So I'll take my leave. Goodbye Charles" she said storming off angrily. I stared after her helplessly.
I couldn't help myself, I broke down into sobs. The death of my ex-wife. My imprint hating me. It was all too much. I phased and chased after her.
I caught up with her and nipped at her heels lightly. She looked startled and then looked confused again. I whined and pulled at her knee-length skirt indicating for her to follow me. She sighed and reluctantly followed. My wolf jumped happily inside.
I led her to the forest and nudged her toward a log. She sat down and looked at me waiting. I phased back to human and knelt in front of her. I took a deep breath.
"I think I owe you an explanation Elena. I never knew about the legends of the pack until I was a wolf. I guess my father did try to tell me but I wouldn't listen, I always thought it was an old scary story. But I was wrong. I was forbidden to see you because I was a new wolf. I had no control over my wolf. I couldn't risk hurting you forever like that. I could phase just like that and hurt you. I couldn't live with that" I sighed. I looked up at her and she was emotionless, so I continued.
"The elders said that I was forbidden to see you. I wanted so much to just see you. I wanted to know if you were my imprint. I just wanted to go over to you and comfort you. To love you. I didn't have a choice but to leave you, it was one of the worst decisions in my life. One of the hardest decisions. My Bells went through the same thing, but she's a wolf now and she's imprinted. I'm happy for her. After I broke up with you, I tried to move on. I found another woman who later divorced me. I've recently found out that she was hit by a car when she ran away from her abusive boyfriend. I feel so guilty, I feel like I should have protected her. I still had feelings for her but I wasn't in love with her anymore. If I protected her, she would still be alive. I'm only in love with one person; I have been and always will be. That's you Elena" I said looking away from her. I knew this was too much for her; I waited for her to register all the information. I couldn't lose her again, not now.
"Charles?" I couldn't look at her, I was too afraid. "Charlie? Look at me, please?" she pleaded. I hesitated but looked up at her. She had tears swarming in her eyes. I looked down knowing that I had upset my imprint.
"Charlie? I'm really sorry about your ex-wife; there was nothing you could do. I guess she had to make her own mistakes, but it was unfortunate that she was too late when she realised it. I'm confused about what I'm feeling right now. A part of me just loves you so much that I want to comfort you. A part of me wants to walk away from you and let you live your own life. I'm so torn. I have a few questions though" my heart soared when she said a part of her loves me so much. I just nodded. She took a deep breath.
"Ok here goes. Why didn't you stay in contact with me? You could have still written a letter to me, just to see how I was. What's an imprint? How long have you been a wolf?" she questioned.
"I couldn't stay in contact with you; the elders said I had to break off contact with the people I cared the most about, especially you. When I had finally got control over my wolf, I could have contacted you. But to tell you the truth, I was too scared. What was I to find? That you had moved on and had a happy family? What if you were my imprint and I couldn't have you? It broke my heart to break off contact with you. I've been a wolf for around 20 odd years give or take" I shrugged. Now to the hard part. I reached forward and held her hand, she didn't flinch away I was thankful for that.
"An imprint is a wolf's other half you could say. They are your gravity. Your centre of the earth. An imprint is the wolf's soul-mate, they are what matters the most. You would do anything to protect them, even sacrificing your own life to save them if you needed to. You would be whatever your imprint wants you to be. Whether it's a sibling, a good friend or a lover. The wolf wouldn't let the imprint go into harm's way, unless they couldn't protect them" I looked away, I just could tell her and look at her at the same time. No matter how much I wanted to, I couldn't.
"So… have you imprinted on anyone?" she whispered.
"Yeah I have Elena" she started to move her hands away from me. I gripped onto her hands and shook my head. "I imprinted on you my beautiful Elena" I breathed. She looked at me with widened eyes.
"Wha…? How? I…" she stuttered.
"It happened when we came to the housing agency. When I looked into your eyes I knew what happened. Please don't hate me. I can't handle it if you hate me. I'm sorry about what I did to you" I sobbed.
She ran a hand through my hair soothing me. Please don't hate me; please don't hate me I chanted over and over inside my head. She cupped my cheek and brushed away my tears. I closed my eyes and leaned into her touch. I looked up at her and she bent her head down towards me staring at me in awe. She leaned down closer and I closed my eyes.
A/N: And that's it. Sorry it's a bit short. Please review. Means a lot thanks!