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"As Cassi walked into the Common Room, Lily, Alice and Rebecca were sitting on their usual couch, they had been expecting her to return with Sirius and the other boys, so when she didn't they were…interested to say the least. When she walked absent-mindedly up the stairs to their dorm, all three girls knew something was wrong, and she was going to them.

After exchanging a quick glance they got up and followed their friends up the stairs. They found her sitting on her bed looking out the window.

"Cassi? What's wrong? What happened?" Lily asked softly going to sit beside her. Alice and Becca sat on the bed across from them.

"Huh? Oh, nothing. Nothing happened." Cassi said forcing a smile to her lips, but it didn't reach her eyes, something her friends easily picked up on.

"Cass, come on, just tell us. What's up?" Alice said softly. After a few moments Cassi sighed, and looking up her friends she spoke.

"Oh guys I don't know. I don't know what's going on. Everything's just a mess." Cassi covered her face in her hands and Lily put a hand on her back.

"Does it have to do with Sirius?" Becca asked. All the girls were speaking softly, almost whispering; obviously they were discussing a sensitive subject. Cassi nodded and took a deep breath moving her head from her hands; she began to retell the night's events.

"He kissed you?" Alice asked when Cassi had finished her story; Cassi nodded once and looked down at the floor.

"And then he said it was a mistake? I'm gonna beat the shit out of him." Becca said, the shocking thing was, she wasn't kidding. Cassi smiled at her softly.

"I don't know what I was thinking! I mean he's been here for a week and already he's flirted with pretty much every girl and snogged tons of them! I'm just being an idiot. It didn't even mean anything" When the girls just looked at Cassi with their eyebrows raised she continued, "Well, to him."

She honestly looks defeated, like she was a complete screw-up for being hurt by a complete jerk. Lily thought as her dislike for the Sirius Black went up by like, a thousand notches. How could he do this to her? No one, especially not Black, gets to hurt my friends! Hurt Sev, fine, he's a guy and he'll hex back, but toy with a girl's emotions… Lily's thoughts trailed off bitterly as Cassi spoke.

"I don't know what to do, I don't want to like him, I don't want to care." Cassi looked at all her friends for advice, and it was Alice who came up with an idea.

"Then you're going to have to get over him. And of course the best way to do that is to ignore him. Trust me it'll drive him crazy, all of them actually. I've seen how much they like being around you Cass, what you've got to do is treat him like he's just another stuck up bloke. I know it sounds easier said than done, but you can do it." Alice gave her a supportive nod.

"Yeah, and you'll just hang out with us way more than you have been. We've really missed you." Lily said with a smile.

"And, I'm pretty sure Carter and Rob like you, so they'll be giving tons of attention, doesn't mean you have to date yet, it might be a bit soon, but it can't hurt." Becca added raising her eyebrows suggestively.

"Thanks so much guys, I don't know what I'd do without you."

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The next day, with the support of her friends, Cassi tried to pretend like nothing even happened. She practically ignored Sirius the entire morning, having been with at least one of the girls at all times; it wasn't hard. He couldn't say anything in front of them and it seemed like he couldn't work up the courage to ask to speak to her privately. Mostly because he knew that she would either say 'no' or yell in his face.

With all the other girls he'd snogged so far, he hadn't cared how any of them felt. He hadn't cared if they yelled at him or if they were upset. He simply shrugged it off and told himself it wasn't his fault they were emotionally unstable. So why did he care so much with Cassi?

Was it because she was his friend, kind of-sort of? Or because of James and Remus' threat? If they found out…He didn't even want to go there. Sirius knew what the real answer was; he just didn't want to admit it to himself since he knew that if it was true, he had just lost any shot.

He told himself over and over, that it didn't mean anything, it was a mistake. He didn't care. She would get over it…Oh who the hell was he kidding? Of course he cared! He cared so much. She was his friend, and he cared about her, how she felt. He couldn't stand to see her upset like he had the previous night, let alone know that he was the cause of it. Just that knowledge alone felt unbearable, and seeing her eyes last night, when he had pulled away from her, the hurt in them had stabbed him a thousand times through the heart.

It was just a kiss…except that it wasn't just a kiss, it was so much more. The thought echoed through his mind, as he almost relieved the experience through his memory. The feeling of her soft lips touching his, moving with his. His hand at the back of her neck, tangled in her silky hair, and his other hand on her back, holding her thin frame to his muscular one. The way she seemed to naturally fit with him, like the two were made for each other, like they were meant to be together. It was something Sirius had never felt with anyone else, all the other girls he had snogged (and there was a lot) had never come close to the feeling he got with Cassi.

James and Remus would kill me. Sirius tried to justify his actions. I mean really, of all the idiotic things to do, he left telling her that the kiss was a mistake. Was he really that much of a moron? Did he not consider what those words meant? How she would feel? The truth was, no I didn't think of anyone but myself, I didn't consider her at all, I just left, because that was the easy thing to do. I proved James and Remus right. I was a self-centered git, and I don't deserve her. They were right; I deserve to be beaten to a pulp and left to die.

Sirius had been thinking about for quite a while, almost all morning actually. He hadn't focused on the lessons, but he watched Cassi, the girl he was a right prat to, more than a prat, there wasn't even a word fit to describe him he was so bad.

On the surface it seemed as though nothing had happened. She was just hanging out with the girls. She had made some excuse to James and Remus who asked at breakfast why she wasn't sitting with them, "I'm gonna hang out with the girls a bit, I haven't exactly spent a lot of time with them" She had smiled and shrugged at all the right places, she was damn good at hiding her feelings, and the others accepted it as the truth, they couldn't argue, what she had said was true, though it wasn't the real reason behind her coldness.

She hadn't even looked Sirius in the eye when she was talking, but Sirius saw it in her face, the thing he had so often studied the past week. He knew her face well, and though she covered up her thoughts and forced a smile that didn't look forced (she even managed to get a little sparkle in her eyes, though it was nothing to the usual radiance that could be found there) she couldn't get the little creases around her eyes that she got when she was really smiling perfect. The small things, the tiny, insignificant details that no one would likely notice except those that knew her exceptionally well, were the things that told him just how much he had hurt her.

That's when he knew he needed to talk to her. To tell exactly how he felt. That he loved her…whoa, love? Nuh-uh nope. Sirius Black didn't love, couldn't love, couldn't be loved…But it is love, isn't it? That's what I feel, that's why I care. I, Sirius Black, love Cassidy Maya Taylor. But I don't deserve her, I never will, she deserves someone so much better than me…that said, well thought, she deserves to know that she did nothing wrong. I can not be the reason behind her pain

For the rest of the morning, the last half hour of Potions, the time in between classes (15 minutes) and all of Defence against the Dark Arts, Sirius looked for an opportunity to talk to Cassi. He was hoping she would be alone, for even just a few minutes so they could talk, but one of her friends stayed by her side at all times, and they occasionally threw him disgusted glares.

Great. She told them. I guess I can't really blame her…but how am I going to talk to her now? There's no way I'm going to go ask her to talk with them there, they would just tell me to shove off, although probably less politely (that's what I would do anyways)…Well they can't be with her forever, eventually she will have to be alone…

Luckily for Sirius, none of the boys questioned him on his strange behaviour, they felt it best to just let him tear whatever it was that was bothering him to shreds and then ask about it, they had learned that the hard way…Never again will I ask him about what his mind is bitching at James thought, noticing Sirius' expression and recalling the conversation about Kristie Walker, much of which was debating whether she would be worth Sirius' trouble or not. James shook his head as he continued to copy notes from the board, never again.

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