Lena
Today is my first appointment and i'm dreading it. Nothing like two hours, starters appointment is two the rest is only one, of talking about how i feel with a perfect stranger. Sounds awful but i know i need it if nothing else to get them off my back. Stef agreed to take me, maybe too make sure i will go, which i'm thankful for.
"Do we have to go?" i asked and she laughed.
"Yes we have too" she said. "You will be fine"
We got there and sat in the waiting room.
"I'm gonna run a few errands and come back when you're done if thats ok with you?" she asked and i sighed.
"Yeah go ahead ditch me" i said.
"I won't if you don't want me too" she said.
"I'm kidding i will be fine, it's not like you're doing me any good in the waiting room" i said.
"Ok i'll be here when you get out… i'll be fine" she said.
"Lena Adams" the woman said and i got up.
"Youll be fine" she said and i followed the woman.
"It's nice too meet you. I'm Grace Jameson" she said and i shook her hand.
"Nice too meet you to" i said.
"So we will talk about what's going on for the first hour or so and then discuss how we will go about treating it" she said pointing for the chair and i sat down.
"Ok" i said and she sat in the seat across from me.
"So would you like to tell me why you're here?" she asked smiling politely.
"Um well…" i started.
"Anything you tell me is confidential and will stay between me and you" she promised.
"I know… i was in an abusive relationship" i started.
"That had to have been hard on you" she said sympathetic.
"Yeah it was… a month or so ago i told her i wanted to break up…" i said. What is with me and pausing?
"How did she react to that?" she asked.
"She stabbed me" i said and she looked at me shocked.
"Oh god are you ok?" she asked concerned.
"Yeah i'm almost back too 100% the doctors say" i said.
"Wow thats an impressive recovery"
"Yeah the cops got her and she's serving life" i said and she smiled.
"Thats good" she said not phased by me being with a girl. Guess it's her job not too react to that type of stuff. She can't go around offending her patients.
"Have you been having nightmares about it?" she asked.
"Pretty much every night since i woke up from surgery" I admitted.
"Alright well what happens in these nightmares" she asked.
"Uh she comes back either she stalks me through town or i'm back with her at the house" i said feeling like i'm confessing some terrible secret.
Stef
I sat down and she stared at me.
"What are you doing here?" she asked as the cop walked over to stand on the corner.
"Listen i need you too stop calling her" i said. While Lena was asleep after getting tipsy on the beach she got a call from the local prison i know who it was.
"What are you talking about?" she said leaning forward like she was going too hit me. I'm not afraid of her.
"You calling Lena the other night it needs to stop, now" i said not backing down.
"And i need you too stop screwing my girlfriend but i don't see that happening" she said and i wanted to punch her so bad.
"She isn't your girlfriend…. you screwed up majorly and now you need to leave her the hell alone. Do you understand me?" i shouted being a cop i actually was allowed to have her in the room we use to investigate people in so we are alone minus the cop.
"No i don't officer. You need to understand me. She was mine first and now she's just confused. Once she realizes i didn't do this too her she will come back too me and you will be history" she said.
"Shut the fuck up" i yelled and the cop bit his lip not too laugh.
"Alright she was yours and then you went and beat her and stabbed her leaving her for dead do you really think for a second she would even humor the idea of ever being with you again" i said.
"I didn't do any of that" she said simply.
"You're delusional" i said.
'No i'm not you cops have the wrong person and then go and brainwash my girlfriend" she said and the cop gave me a look of 'Just walk away, Stef'. How can i just walk away i have never hated someone so much in my life. For the first time in my life i really wish someone would die.
"She's not you're fucking girlfriend and we didn't brainwash her." i yelled and she started laughing. What a sick bitch does she really think this is funny.
"Wow you actually love her" she said laughing.
"Yes i love her" i said.
"She isn't who you think she is. She's a whore" she said and i snapped.
"Don't call her that you fucking bitch" i said getting ready too hit her when he pulled me back.
"Walk away officer" he said walking me too the door. He locked it and then followed me out.
"You ok?" he asked.
"I could fucking kill her" i yelled.
"I know which is why i got you out of there. She's not worth it ok so walk away" he said.
"She's harassing Lena, after everything she's been through because of her." i said.
"And i will take away her phone rights as for you take a deep breath and recover from the dose of testosterone your body just gave you" he said and i leaned against the wall taking a deep breath.
"Feel a little better" he asked.
"Yeah thanks" i said going to walk away but turned around.
"Can you do me one more quick favor?" i asked.
"Yeah sure" he said.
"Tell her i am having sex with Lena and better than she ever could" i said and he laughed.
"Got it officer… maybe you should sit for a while before driving" he said concerned and i started laughing.
"Yeah i wouldn't have said that if i wasn't still on testosterone" i said and he laughed.
"I won't tell anyone" he said.
"Thanks" i said sitting for a bit before leaving to go be back in time for Lena.
Lena
"Do you ever find yourself triggered into one of these panic attacks when around something that would remind you of Alisha?" she asked.
"I had a panic attack when walking down main street a while back. Where i thought she was stalking me and it was the same road she actually followed me down the one time" i said.
"Ok well what i think is happening is that you have a moderate form of PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, which is normal after going through what you have been through." she said. PTSD?
"What does that mean?" i said.
"It means that you are triggered too have these panic attacks when something that reminds you of it happens" she said.
"I know i mean what are we going to do about that?" i asked.
"Well in therapy we are going to have you talk more about what happened then and how it's affecting you now and how we can get you back to where you need to be. Also we will start talking about how to handle those anxiety attacks and bring yourself down from them and hopefully get these nightmares too lessen significantly until you aren't having them anymore. But it's going to take a lot of work on your part too" she said and i nodded.
"Who are you living with now?" she asked.
"Um my friends Jenna and Kelly and i spend a lot of nights at Stefs house" i said.
"Ok i think your next appointment which is next week we need to have them all come so we can all sit down and talk about how they can help you when i can't" i nodded.
"Uh yeah i'll make sure thats ok with them" i said. We left the room and went back out too the waiting room.
"Is that Stef?" she asked.
"Yeah thats her." i said.
"Hello i'm Grace Jameson her therapist" she said holding her hand out for Stef too shake.
"Stephanie Elkin it's nice too meet you" she said.
"Like wise… i was wondering if her next appointment if you and Jenna and Kelly could come so we can talk about how you guys can help her" she said.
"Oh yeah of course we'll be there, no problem" she said.
"Good i'll see you all next week then" she said smiling and heading back to her office.
"How did it go?" Stef asked as we went to leave.
"Not as bad as expected" i answered quickly.
"So what did she say?" she asked.
"Oh um" i said as we left the room and got into an empty elevator.
"It's ok you can tell me… nothing too be embarrassed about" she said and i smiled.
"She thinks it's a moderate form of PTSD" i said so quietly that she probably could barely hear me.
"Hey it's ok we will figure it out together" she said rubbing my back.
"Yeah thanks" i said. "So how was running errands?"
"Ok took care of some business" she said. It was something about how she said it that made me worried. Like she did something she doesn't want me to know about.
Forcing a smile i said,"Thats good" Great the one person i was really starting to actually believe i could count on is now lying to me.
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