A/N: So I'm meant to be packing, however as this is my second update in 12 hours clearly I'm procrastinating. I've already written another chapter too, but you all will have to wait till I find time to edit and post it. Moving day is Friday so I may go into radio silence for a few days. So go on send me reviews!

Chapter 21

(Tobias)

I looked at my watch again as I approached Tris' front door, it was 8 on the dot so I lift my hand and knock a few times. I adjust the collar on my navy blue polo shirt and try to displace the butterflies that have settled in my stomach. It takes a few moments for the door to rattle and it opens and she's standing in front of me. My mouth dropped open a little as I take her in. She looked amazing, the tight black top she had on plunged down low enough to show a fair bit of cleavage, which I could defiantly get used to. I promptly closed my mouth and flashed her the biggest smile I can muster, which is pretty easy to given the way she was looking at me.

"You look, amazing" I said.

"Thanks" She replied as she gave me the once over, her eyes lingered on my wrist watch for a moment.

"I didn't know you owned a watch" she mused.

"I'm full of surprises" I countered. I offered her my arm, an old abnegation tradition. "Shall we?"

She nodded and laughed a little but placed her arm around mine.

I lead her down the hallway and to the elevator and pushed the button for the doors to open.

"So where are we going?" Tris asked her arm still wrapped warmly around mine as we both stepped into the elevator.

"Up" Is all I said as I pushed the button on the elevator to the 10th floor, which I knew had roof access. Tris looked at me surprised but didn't say anything.

(Tris)

Tobias pushed the button to the 10th floor and I was completely surprised, I didn't know there was anything up there. Last I knew it was being used as storage because there were no windows or ventilation up there.

We were both quiet on the short ride up and the furrow of Tobias' brow reminded about his fear of confined spaces. It amazed me how he managed to go in and out of this elevator as much as he did. I squeezed onto his arm a little harder to let him know he was okay.

As the doors opened he smiled at me and we both stepped out. I hadn't been wrong about the storage situation. The floor was covered with boxes and a tick layer of dust coated everything. I sneeze a few times as Tobias guided me though the dark dodging boxes until we reached a door marked 'Roof Access'. I'm still confused as he pushed the door open and leads me though it.

As I stepped though the door it was almost like I was transported to another world. The roof top was covered in green plants and colourful flowers. They were in huge pots on the ground and in planter baskets hanging from a long wire that surrounded the entire roof top permitter. The wire had tiny fairy lights strung around it lighting up the entire roof top. In the centre of all of plants a large mat had been spread out, and it was covered in huge colourful cushions. A large basket sits in the middle. I was in awe, and the smile on my face proved it.

"You like it?" Tobias asked cautiously.

"Like it? I love it! How did you do all this?" I asked marvelling at the scene before me, my fingers lightly touching over the petal of a nearby rose.

"I had a little help, called in a few favours."

"It's amazing" I couldn't help but lean up and place a soft kiss on his lips. "Thank you"

"The nights not over, don't thank me yet" He winked and I laughed.

Tobias guided me over to the cushions on the mat and we both sat down. He opened the basket in front of us and I could see it as full of foods and drinks I had never seen before.

"Have you been flirting with the kitchen staff?" I asked giving him a suspicious look.

He chuckled "Maybe". I just shook my head at him.

Tobias spread out a few different foods and handed me a paper plate.

"I thought as we are trying something new, why not try some new foods together. Learn each others likes and dislikes."

"Okay" I said a little shyly. I always thought I knew Tobias, I knew his fears, I knew his beliefs, I knew how his tattoo wrapped around his rib cage. It wasn't until now I realize I didn't know his favourite food, his favourite colour and I guessed he didn't know that about me either.

Tobias poured out a few different drinks into a few different plastic cups and sat them in front of me. I scrunched up my nose, my most recent hangover still very fresh in my mind.

"Non-alcoholic, I promise" He supplied as he took in my face.

"Good, I'm not in a hurry to repeat that any time soon… if ever"

He laughed at me again and I realize that I was seeing a different side of him, the one I got a glimpse of that time we were held up in Marcus' house in Abnegation with Factionless. This was who Tobias was underneath his outer Dauntless soldier shell. This was the man I fell in love with.

We loaded up our plates full of different foods and proceed to taste each one at the same time, giving each other feed back on how we thought it tasted and if we wanted more. Tobias loved the dark chocolate, and I figured out he had a bit of a sweet tooth. I enjoyed the stuffed pitted olives so much that I ate half the jar on my own. We both decided the sodas were far too sweet, both of us growing up with just water and tea.

We finished all the food and dinks and packed it all back up into the basket again. Tobias pulled out a small lantern from the basket and I wondered why we needed it because the roof was lit up by the fairy lights.

"You're not scared of the dark, so this should be okay" He said and he clicked a remote he's retrieved from his jeans pocket and the lights suddenly went out. For a moment we were surrounded in darkness until Tobias flicked on the small lantern and it offered a soft glow.

Tobias pulled the cushions around us a bit more and placed two large ones directly behind us.

"Lie down" he said softly and for a moment my heart beat sped up. "And look up" He finished. I shot him a look before I slowly laid myself down, with my back and head on the cushion and I found myself looking directly up.

It was a clear night and the stars from this hight were so clear and bright, it was breathtaking.

"Wow, I've never seen them so bright before, it's beautiful." I said as Tobias mimics my movements and laid down next to me. We were close enough to each other that his hand skimmed over mine. I took his hand and lace our fingers together. Tobias turned his head and looked at me looking at the sky, I could see him out of my peripheral vision.

"I agree, very beautiful" he said still looking at me. I turned my head so I could look at him. He looked relaxed, it was such a rare sight I wanted to take advantage of it. I leant my forehead against his and we stayed close like that for a moment.

"Thank you, this is perfect"

"You're perfect" He replied. I shook my head at him.

"I'm hardly perfect Tobias"

"To me, you are" and his lips found mine. It was a soft kiss but full of emotion. We broke apart and he looked up again to the sky.

"See those three stars over there?" He pointed and I tried to line up where he was pointing. It took me a few moments but I saw the three stars he meant, they were in a sort of horizontal pattern.

"That's call Orion's Belt, and the group of stars there is called Phoenix. According to legend the birds burn to ashes and then rise again in a new age" He said while pointing to another group of stars.

"Like the city did" I mused looking at him.

"Like we have, like we will" the look of hope on his face wasn't missed by me, but I was still worried.

I sat up, afraid that he would see the uncertainty in my eyes.

"Tris?" He asked and sat up also. "What is it?" I shook my head. I didn't want to ruin such perfect night. "Tris" He said again his voice gentle, his hand found mine again. I looked down at my small hand in his. "We can't do this trust thing if you won't talk to me. Tell me what's wrong. Did I do something, say something?" I looked up at him.

"No, no Tobias this is all, I love it" I reassured him.

"Then what is it?" I sighed. I knew he was right. If I wanted him to trust me to talk to me about things, I couldn't keep them bottled up myself.

"We haven't talked much about what I told you the other day." I said it quietly because I was afraid if I talked too loud all of this would melt away.

Tobias didn't let go of my hand, if anything his grip tightened.

"What do you want me to say Tris?"

"I don't know" I said honestly. "I thought you'd be mad, or worried that I was too unstable"

He shook his head at me, confusion evident on his face. "Why would you think that Tris?"

"Because I'm still on some of the meds, I still have to see psychiatrist, I'm still being babied by everyone."

"I don't want to baby you, and I don't care about the meds or any of that." He let out a deep breath and continued. "I won't lie, I've thought about it more than you'd probably like, but I came to the same conclusion each time. If I had been here, things could have been different, worse. I don't want us to keep focusing on the past, I want us to look forward, to the future. I don't care about the past anymore, about any of it. I just care about you, and I won't do anything to jeopardise your health or your safety ever again." I drew in a deep breath and closed my eyes as he continued. "The choices you made weren't smart, and they put your life in danger, more than once, but I understand now why you made them, and it wasn't fair of me to threaten you then. I will never say anything like that again, as long as you promise to talk to me, tell me what's going on, even if you think it's stupid or crazy or that I won't understand. Can you do that?"

Could I do that? I thought about how much I loved him. How much it hurt to have him disappear from my life, what it did to me, how it made me feel when he came back. I nodded at him, opening my eyes and meeting his. "I can do that" and for third time his lips were on mine.

We stayed on the roof a few more hours, Tobias tried to teach me about the constellations and we talked about the changes to our faction and the rest of the city. I tried to stifle my yawn with my hand but it didn't go unnoticed.

"You're tired, come on, let's get you home" Tobias said as he rose from his position on the cushions and offered me his hands. I gladly accepted them and he hurled me up, hard enough I for me to go crashing against him. His arms were quick to circle my waist and his lips were quick to kiss mine again.

"You've got no idea how much I've missed being able to do that" he whispered into my ear and it sent goosebumps down my neck.

"I think I might know a bit about that" I whispered back to him as he placed soft kisses below my ear and along my jaw.

He mumbled "Hmmmmm" against my neck as traced his way back up reaching for my lips again but before he could get there I let out another yawn.

Tobias laughed, his hands left me and as he went to collect the basket before he laced his free hand with mine and within moments we were back in the elevator. We got off on my floor and walked quietly to my front door. I pushed my thumb to the plate and the door unlocked, but before I could make a move to open it Tobias' hand held me in place.

"This is where I say goodnight"

I couldn't help but be a bit disappointed. I knew we are nowhere near that step yet, but I was still reluctant to let him go. My disappointment must shown on my face because Tobias smirked at me. "As much as I'm struggling to say it, that wouldn't be taking it slow"

He leant down into me and kissed me once more, it was the same as all our other kisses we had shared this evening, light and gentle but with promise. I was the first to break it so I could speak.

"Thank you, for tonight, it was amazing" his smile is also amazing.

"You are very welcome, I hope this means I can sweep you off your feet again. Next week maybe? Same day, same time?" He asked, hopeful.

"Defiantly" I nodded.

"Goodnight Beatrice" he said and my real name leaving his lips sounds so good I'm left biting my lower lip as he disappeared down the hall and back into the elevator.