Here is a really long chapter, just for you guys who have decided to stick around.
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, I hope that fact is already known.
Before I could reach Bella, Edward slammed into me and held me back. An inhumane growl roared in my throat and even though I knew it was my thirst speaking and not me I still couldn't understand why I couldn't keep control. I was perfectly fine speaking to her alone just a minute ago.
"Luz, look at me." Demanded Edward, I shifted my crimson eyes to his golden ones and I was envious. "I'll take you to hunt, just hold yourself together long enough for Bella to get away. I know you don't want to hurt her." I looked at him sadly.
"Then why is a part of me telling me that I do?" I gripped his hand tightly.
"I'm afraid that's my fault," he said quietly.
"Shut up, now is not the time to be blaming yourself." I replied sternly "You want to know what? It's my fault; I died. You just saved me by giving me this new life, I might not have really had a choice but I knew the consequences of what was going to happen. I knew once you told me what you were. What you are. And what I am now." He didn't let go of my hand as we ran through the forest. I could almost feel the beats of the hearts vibrate through my body, like when the bass is put up very high through speakers. I was forced to make him release my hand as I attacked the deer; fortunately I was able to hold myself back from mutilating the poor animal. I licked the remaining drops of blood from my lips and my thirst was finally quenched. I looked behind me to see Edward starring at me.
"Were you watching the whole time? You know that makes me feel really self-conscious. Creeper!" I stuck my tongue out at him. He chuckled and didn't bother answering. In, what used to be a flash to my old human eyes, he stood in front of me and pulled me into a hug. I don't know why but I felt so comfortable in his embrace and wrapped my own arms around him, careful of not using my full newborn strength.
"Better?"
"Much." I replied, I closed my eyes as a sign of unwillingness to let go. Was I this bold as a human? Am I really the reason why Edward and Bella were having relationship issues? Alice had said she wasn't coming back but was that still true? And why me? What's so special about me? I thought of my petite yet curvy figure and realized why. Edward let out a throaty laugh.
"You think too much and you're wrong. Its not because of you, its me-"
"Really? The classic "its not you, it's me" spiel. Not what I expected out of you mister." I said as I poked his middle.
"Will you listen?"
"Yes!"
"Anyway, as I was saying. I believe I was desperate for love and I settled for the most interesting person I could find."
"Ah, yes. I have made that mistake countless of times –oops! Sorry!" I covered my mouth in order to stop my interruptions. He only smiled this time.
"But I was wrong," he continued "I fell in love with the wrong person, not that there's anything wrong with Bella. She's just not… the one." He contemplated what he was going to say next "Alice had a vision, the first day you were rushed to the hospital. For some reason that day my judgment was so clouded, I was so upset and worried for a girl that I had met only the day before. I was going to kill Jasper if he was the one who had hurt you, but he managed to explain the situation before things came to that," thank God, I thought. He smiled again, but this one seemed different. It was the same cute crooked smile but the way he looked into my eyes. No! I would not let myself to me entranced by his little spell. But what he had said was very endearing. "You changed my mind, some random little girl who had come into my life and magically befriended my brother, and a coven full of vampires. How did you do that?"
"You act like it was a challenge." I grinned up at him. To my shock he covered my lips with his own, it took me a minute to respond and I did willingly. His lips were soft and his touch was not as cold as it once was. I pressed my lips harder against his, deepening the kiss, and he held me closer to his body. Despite my lack of height we fit perfectly together, even though I was standing on my tippy toes. He nipped at my bottom lip and soon our tongues were teasing each other's. Everything felt perfect and I never wanted it to end, well, before my conscience came into play.
"No!" I said as I detached myself from him. He looked hurt and I actually felt bad, he just practically confessed his love for me.
"I'm sorry-"
"It's just too soon, everything is so wrong right now. I can't do this with all this chaos going on!" I explained interrupting his apology. I ran away from him, unconsciously I ran in the direction of my own house. The smell of the human's…their blood. It was so inviting and delicious. I could imagine myself going on a murderous rampage throughout the town. No! Aubrey's face entered my mind. Just then I knew I had to stay in control of my urges, there was no way that I could actually kill those people. But I couldn't trust myself to be anywhere near home, near Aubrey, near her blood. Now I understand what Jasper felt when he sat in my house the day Aubrey came home bleeding. There was no way I would have been able to control myself in the same situation.
I turned around and journeyed back to the Cullen's home. Before I got too close to the house I decided to call Aubrey. It had been too long since I've heard her voice.
"Luz? My God, are you alright? I miss you so much!" Aubrey's sweet funny voice rang through the phone.
"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm actually better than ever and I really miss you too" I replied, she took a long pause before speaking again.
"Your voice…it's different. Well not different…but different."
"How articulate, that made so much sense." I said sarcastically.
"Bite me vampire girl." She threatened
"Don't tempt me wolf girl." I retorted, "Have you been watching Doctor Who?"
"Maybe…."
"I figured."
"So, you called me for a reason? Or did you just want to hear my amazing voice?"
"Both"
"Awe, you a little sweetie. Now spit it out."
"Well I don't know how to say this…"
"Dimelo!"
"Edward me dio un beso!" I reverted into Spanish to avoid anyone who might be near from understating my conversation.
"... Hizo lo que? ¿cuándo? para quién? y por qué?"
"Me dijo que cometió un error cuando se "enamoró" de Bella." I explained further.
"Así que es hora de que él hizo su movida. era casi doloroso ver que esto continúe. Y, por supuesto, Bella es una…" she looked for the correct Spanish term "spaz"
"¿Qué? No! Está enamorado de Bella, probablemente confundida." There was no way that Aubrey could be right… even though she usually is.
"Luz, el único que uno confundido eres tú. Ël está locamente enamorado de ti. Lo único que está confundido acerca de cómo romper oficialmente con ella." She replied.
"Y ¿Cómo se sabe esto?" I asked curiously.
"Uhm, pues podría haber dicho algo acerca de usted y ... en serio? Es obvio!" she said exasperated.
"Por lo tanto, ustedes dos han estado hablando?"
"Sí, por extraño que parezca."
"Lo que ha venido a este mundo?"
"I have no idea." She laughed, I laughed with her. "So how was the kiss?" She asked after our laughter died out. I rolled my eyes.
"Perfect." She squealed at my answer and I laughed again.
"I'll see you soon Aubrey." I said softly, my laugh dying down into a smile.
"You better!" She demanded, "I miss you too much."
"I love you too, bye."
"Bye."
I hung up and walked into the living room and curled up onto the couch, my knees pulled up to my chest and my head resting on them. I heard someone shuffle down the stairs and immediately knew who it was when they wrapped their arms around my small frame.
"Tell me what's wrong sweetheart." Cooed Esme as she pulled me closer to her.
"You... you can call me little light if you want to" I said shyly, I could tell from the first day that Jasper came up with the nickname that Esme wanted to try it out herself. She smiled lovingly.
"Little light, would you please tell me what's wrong? You know I'll –we'll always be there for you. Even I know what its like to go through this stage. I do have to add that you have a lot more self control than the rest of us." She commented.
"Yeah but it's not enough!" I said bitterly
"Are you upset with us for changing you?" She asked quietly.
"No! Well kind of… but I'm not ungrateful. It's just a little hard to take in." I said hurriedly.
"It's alright to feel that way, it's perfectly normal, just let it out."
"I feel like… everything is going to be all new, again. And it was already hard to do that the first time. But… this time it's different. I was running away before and I knew what I was running to. Now I just feel like I have a new slate, like I'm running blindly to an unknown destination." I explained awkwardly.
"You're not running blindly, you have us. We're here for a reason, do you really think we would just turn you and set you loose to the world to figure out everything by yourself?" She smiled as if she was stifling a laugh; she thought my insecurities were a joke. Then again seeing this from her point of view must have been funny.
"I- I just…" I struggled to find the words to say; with all of these conflicting emotions I couldn't choose which topic to tell her about. For some reason I wanted to tell her everything. All of the secrets I had been hiding from everyone I had met in Forks.
"Your son kissed me!" I cried, I heard something break upstairs.
"Who did what?" Screamed Rosalie who now stood in front of us.
"Please lower your voices girls, the whole world doesn't need to know our business," said Esme calmly, though the confusion and curiosity was written on her face.
"Edward…kissed me." I mumbled, I regretted telling them that because knowing Rosie she wouldn't hide her thoughts from him at all.
"So you're telling me, after all the shit-"
"Rose!"
"Sorry, stuff he put us through after finding out that his one true love was a human," She seemed to spit that word out "he makes us move because of the danger he puts her in, he tries to commit suicide because he thought she had died, he pulls us back here and starts a war for her and then a day before it begins, he kisses you?"
"Yeah I think you got all that pretty much down." By now she was fuming and pacing.
"I am going to kill him, I'm going to beat some sense into that brooding face of his, and I'm going to make him wish that the Volturi killed him that day."
"Luz, how do you feel about the kiss?" Esme asked me. I shook my head.
"It's just all too much right now, I mean I liked it because I like-" I cut myself off, do I really like Edward Cullen? I remembered the first day I met him in the office on the first day of school, the way he was so protective of me whenever I planned on doing something stupid, illegal, dangerous or a mixture of all three. Yep, I like Edward Cullen.
"Well I still like you more than Bella, at least you had pure intentions when you joined the Cullen clan." Said Rosie, her arms were crossed in a defensive position but the smirk on her lips said otherwise.
"I can't be with Edward though!"
"And why not?"
"Because he's just confused, he does love Bella. And we all know that." I said bitterly. Esme's gaze softened as she looked down at me.
"Well what he does now is his choice, he either leaves with us, stays here in Forks with Bella or he changes her." She said, after stating his first option it seemed as though she couldn't bear to imagine him leaving the family again. I hugged her and she pulled me into her lap, it made me feel like a little girl again.
"Well you still have Jasper," she said smiling happily. I grinned back.
"I do think you need a little Jazz in your life right now," said Rosalie smiling "I don't think I can deal with you the way he does." And there was the bitch we all know and love. I exited the house and climbed on of the tallest trees in the forest, I could almost feel the hot sun on my back the way I used to on those summer visits to Puerto Rico. No, not the time to be nostalgic, I told myself.
"Jasper!" I called out, not necessarily loud but good enough for his senses to pick up my voice. Soon enough he was beside me on the large tree branch that I perched myself upon.
"You called madam?" His southern accent managed to melt my undead heart.
"I love you, you know that right?" I said as I bumped my shoulder to…well his bicep.
"Miss!" He exclaimed putting a hand to his chest "I am a married man I'll have you know!" I decided to play along and slid my hand onto his thigh.
"Oh I know," I looked at him with half lidded eyes "what Alice doesn't know cant hurt her."
"I HEARD THAT" Alice's voice rang through the forest; for such a small girl she had some lungs.
"Gosh darn it, I guess I'll just have to keep my unrequited love to myself." I said as though someone had popped my balloon, I crossed my arms. Jasper laughed and put his arm around my shoulders.
"I love you too little light," He said looking down at me, I smiled sheepishly "now what is it that you want from me?" He asked accusingly. I scoffed in reply.
"Cant I just enjoy the presence of my best friend? Must I always have hidden intentions?"
"Yes." He replied quickly. I was aghast, what does he think of me?
"I take that personally you know, it hurts, right here." I poked the area where my heart is.
"Sweetie, your heart is on the other side," he said stifling a laugh. I, other the other hand, laughed loudly.
"You see! What would I do without you?" I said through my laughter, thankfully as a vampire I didn't actually have to breath.
"I don't even want to imagine my world without you little light," he said sweetly and poked my nose. I grunted and smacked his chest.
"Will you stop being the cutest thing in the entire WORLD? I need some of that cute, how else am I supposed to… do things." I proclaimed throwing my hands up in the air, doing this knocked me off of balance and probably would have sent me straight to the forest floor if Jasper wouldn't have grabbed my waist and kept me next to him.
"Trust me Luz, you have more than enough cute." He said reassuringly, a smile was plastered onto his face.
"Why are you smiling so much Jazz? We're about to go into battle with more than two dozen newborns and you're sitting with me grinning like an idiot."
"You think I look like an idiot?"
"It was just an expression."
"Oh good."
"So you wanna explain the smile?" I asked poking his cheek. He playfully tried to bite my finger.
"It's all your fault." He said.
"You're welcome, now would you please elaborate?"
"Well you know I'm an empath, so I can feel your emotions. Because of our close relationship I can feel them even when I'm not trying and now that you're a newborn your emotions have been amplified by about 150%" he explained "and it seems like your default emotion is now: happy, so now I'm happy."
"It seems like I can manipulate you without even trying now." I said smiling.
"Well at least it's in a good way now, I'm not really into the dark brooding moods of Edward." His smile mirrored my own and I giggled, if he only knew what Edward was feeling for me now. No, remember he's just confused.
"Sólo necesitas de una sonrisa, que pueda tu carga aligerar, Y con la frente en alto caminar" I sang. My voice hadn't necessarily changed but became…more than what I expected it to sound like. There were no words to describe it except maybe, enchanting? Intoxicating? Like people were attracted to it but couldn't even understand why. It's because of my power; my voice is made for some major manipulation. It's not like I would actually use it for that though; I just love to sing. Jasper gave me an expecting look so I sat there with him until the morning sun rose, just singing. He actually joined in on a few songs that he knew too.
"It's time little light," said Jasper tentatively, he picked me up bridal style and jumped down from the branch.
"You know I am capable of getting down on my own, no more weak ankles remember?" I said with a hint of annoyance.
"I know you can do it on your own, I just prefer to do it for you." He said looking down at me. I rolled my eyes, the perfect gentlemen.
"Race you," I said smirking.
"You're so on," he answered as I zoomed off into the forest. I, being a newborn, won this race and yes, I had to throw it in his face for the rest of the day.
I hope that was a sufficient...almost fluff scene for you guys. And sufficient explanation of her 'gift,' I didn't want to make her some 'all powerful' vampire just...enhance the seduction powers that all vampires naturally have, considering she was a bit manipulative while she was human, not bad manipulative but she still was able to get people to do what she wanted if you didn't notice. I'm also sorry for the large amount of Spanish in this chapter. I felt it was overdue though.
Translation:
"Edward me dio un beso" means "Edward kissed me"
"... Hizo lo que? ¿cuándo? para quién? y por qué?" means "He did what? when? to who? why?"
"Me dijo que cometió un error cuando se "enamoró" de Bella." means "He told me he made a mistake when he 'fell in love' with Bella"
"Así que es hora de que él hizo su movida. era casi doloroso ver que esto continúe. Y, por supuesto, Bella es una…" "spaz" means "So it's time that he made his move. It was almost painful to see it continue. And, of course, Bella is a ...spaz"
"¿Qué? No! Está enamorado de Bella, probablemente confundida." means "What? No! He's still in love with Bella, he's probably confused"
"Luz, el único que uno confundido eres tú. Ël está locamente enamorado de ti. Lo único que está confundido acerca de cómo romper oficialmente con ella." means "Luz, the only one confused here is you. He's madly in love with you. The only thing he's probably confused about is how to officially break up with her."
"Y ¿Cómo se sabe esto?" means "And how do you know this?"
"Uhm, pues podría haber dicho algo acerca de usted y ... en serio? Es obvio!" means "Uhm, he could have said something about you and... are you serious? It's obvious!"
"Por lo tanto, ustedes dos han estado hablando?" means "So you two have been talking?"
"Sí, por extraño que parezca." means "Yes, oddly enough."
"Lo que ha venido a este mundo?" means "What has this world come to?"
And then
"Sólo necesitas de una sonrisa, que pueda tu carga aligerar, Y con la frente en alto caminar" is a line from a song by Jessie & Joy (I don't own that either) called Una Sonrisa and it means "You just need a smile that can lighten your load, and walk with heads held high."
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