Hey Guys. Sorry it took me so long to post a new chapter. This one took me forever to write, and I'm not sure that this is the right decision for the story. Let me know what you think. I want to thank everyone who has read or reviewed my stories. I also want to thank Crazy-for0Goode because without her I probably never would have finished this story. Also thanks to my beta RapunzelInTheSnow. Thank you so much for reading. I'm not sure if Cam is going to keep the baby. Let me know what you think.

"Cam," Macey said soothingly and she patted my shoulder. She was worried about m, and I didn't blame her. I had been staying in her guesthouse for a month. A whole month.

The number of cheesy rom-coms Macey had made me watch: 24

The number of times Louisa had asked me where daddy was: 67

The number of times Macey, Bex, Liz, My mother, Aunt Abby, and Preston had tried to talk to me about the baby: 108

The number of times I responded: 0

The number of times Zach had called, texted or made an ament to contact me:0

I was a mess. I was living in my best friend's house in which everyone constantly tip toed around me. I was a month pregnant and I didn't care. Not about the baby. Not a bout Louisa. Not about Zach. Nothing. Nothing mattered anymore. I am in the bottom of a well and it is a very gray cloudy day and I am looking up at this insurmountable cloudy day and I can't climb out.

"Cam." Macey said again softly. I had forgotten she was there. " Cam I'm worried about you. I know it's hard that Zach's not around, but you are taking this much harder than anyone expected."

"He's gone Mace. He's gone." I continue to stare blankly out the window.

"Do you mean Zach? Do you want me to call him? Just tell me what you need Cammie, and I'll get it." She's shaking me on the shoulder. Trying to get through to me. She sounds desperate. I see the crease between her foreheads. Or was that always there?

"I'm tired Mace, I'm going to bed." I'm already on a couch and my body is functioning enough to pick it's self up and take it to the bedroom.

"Okay Cam, she pats me head and leave the room. I hear her calling someone on the phone in the other room.

"Zach where the hell are you?" I can't hear his response.

"I don't care just get the hell over here." There's a pause.

"She looks awful Zach, honestly I haven't seen her look like this since senior year." There is a much longer pause.

"Look, I don't effing care about your personal problems. The love and light of your live needs you and you're going to tell me you can't come. No, you listen Zach; lord knows we have tried to pull her out of this funk. We've tried to get her to see a doctor. We've tried to talk to her about what she wants to do with the baby. It wasn't like this the last time she was pregnant. She needs you and if you don't get your ass down here soon you are never going to forgive yourself because pretty soon no one's going to be able to reach her. I am going to hang up now."

Did she really think I was that bad? Oh course, I'm hideous, awful, gross, and crazy. I'm tired.

I was putting Louisa to sleep. Ironically one of the few things I was able to do was take care of Louisa. She was quiet. She loves me. Even though I don't deserve it. The only question she keeps asking me is "Where's daddy?" Frankly I agree with her -where the heck is Zach. I placed her down and softly rubbed her hair and placed a light kiss on her chubby cheek. I love my daughter. I really do. I'm just not sure I'm ready for another kid. I thought I was, but maybe Zach's right, maybe I'm not. There's a soft knock on Louisa's door.

"One second I'll be right out I." I sighed. I really didn't want to talk to Macey or Liz right now. I know they were just trying to be supportive, but honestly they had no idea what I going through. They thought I could just get out of this rut by changing my attitude there were wrong. Life is war and I'm on the losing side. I walked out of the room and to my great surprise my father-in-law was standing there.

"Townsend, now really isn't good time. I'm really tired."

"Ms. Morgan where is my son?"

"Not here, that's for sure."

"Abby told me you won't talk to anyone about the baby? Why is that?"

"None of your freaking business, I'm sorry, but I'm very tired so I'm going to insist that you leave and come back tomorrow." I try to usher him out of the room, but he won't bulge.

"Abby was worried you might be depressed and frankly I think she might be right."

"I'm fine." I say in my best cheery voice.

"Really, how have you been feeling? Look Cam I know what your going through I…"

"YOU do not know what I'm going through. My Husband of seven years freaked out when I told him I was pregnant for a second time and even though I left he didn't bother to chase after me, because he doesn't love me!" I scream.

"Zach loves you, he always has and he always will." He replied calmly.

"Then why hasn't he called? Why hasn't he come to find me?"

"Maybe he's scared like you."

"I'm not scared. I'm fighting a war. Every thought is a battle, every breath is a struggle and quite honestly I'm not wining anymore."

"You should see a doctor."

"Why, so that they can judge me for not being able to control my emotions? I don't need or want their pity."

"Cam." Townsend said really softly. " You need help."

"You come into my house, insult me, and insist I need to see a doctor. Who the hell do you think you are?" I yell at him. I'm find I do not need to see someone. I'm just upset that's all. I'll get over it soon. Right?

"You know I'm right. Look Cam, if you just sit here and feel sorry for yourself you have about a Popsicle's chance in hell of getting better. Come with me to the doctor tomorrow. You think this is temporary? It's not it's going to stick around for the rest of your life and you can either learn how to deal with it or not. The choice is yours. Call me when you've made up your mind. Bye Cam, I'll come back tomorrow."

And then he left. Just like that. Am I depressed? Do I need to see a doctor? Suddenly I felt really sleepy and so with out further ado I climbed into bed and waited for the sweet relief of sleep that never came.

Thank you so much for reading. I'm not sure if Cam is going to keep the baby. Let me know what you think. Please review because they are supper helpful.