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'No Ordinary Cinderella' – A Twilight Fanfic
By No Ordinary Cinderella
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Saffron's POV
Chapter Nineteen
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An to musicvamp: Ryan's hand would be warm because she is now a vampire, so they both have cold skin, so, she would feel warmth from his touch.
VERY IMPORTANT: I forgot to mention last chapter, which I added now, that the others were out hunting except of course, Ryan. Also, Alice didn't see what would happen because the decision was sudden.
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Breathing in shakily and closing my eyes, I took a step off the rooftop. I felt the air breeze through my hair, through my clothes, as I fell.
I felt the breeze rush past me and the wind howl in my ear. If my heart was working, it would be pumping at thrice the time. It was almost peaceful whilst falling, as if there was just a small breeze floating by me, on a hot summer's day. In these last few seconds, I felt free.
My lips turned into a smile as I waited to be either dead, or seriously injured.
I was still falling though; the descent was taking longer than I thought. As I opened my eyes, I felt a force slam into me mid-air and take me in their arms. I knew who it was, and I suddenly became angry.
His feet touched the floor and no impact came, it just felt like he had walked down a step on the staircase with me in his arms. He was going to stop me from running, I already knew that.
So when I struggled to get out of his arms, he held me tighter, but what I wasn't expecting him to do was run a hand through my hair and try to soothe me.
In shock, I immediately became still.
He smiled at me and then his eyes became angrier.
"Why did you do that?"
I didn't answer him.
"Why did you try to kill yourself Saffron?!" I felt the ever-present fear creep into my veins as he shouted.
"Please don't."
He began to give a forced laugh. "Do what Saffron? You're the one doing everything! Why do you always have to see everything in a bad light, why do you always have to blame yourself, why do you always seek ways to destroy yourself and why do you not see that you're beautiful?!" His voice was just a whisper at the end.
"Because I'm not." My voice was fragile.
His hands cupped my face making me look up into his golden orbs.
"You may not think that, your father may have not thought that, but you certainly are beautiful Saffron."
"Is this some sort of a…joke?"
"There you go again! Always thinking that you're never good enough, never thinking that you're beautiful, or that no one would ever want you. But I want you Saffron. Aren't I good enough?"
No tears would surface, but I could feel them want to escape.
"Why do you want me? I'm nothing, go find someone who's made for you, who's beautiful and funny and intelligent and everything that I'm not. Just find her; because once you find her you would certainly not want me."
"But I've already found someone."
"Well, go find another girl!"
"I don't want another girl, I want you."
A few seconds of silent followed.
"Why?"
"Your beautiful, inside and out, you have so many scars mentally and you used to bear them physically but you're still beautiful, you would do anything to have your sister back for just a few seconds, your selfless, you blame yourself for everything when it's not even your fault, you're kind, intelligent and you could be funny if you had the chance to be, and most importantly is because…I love you."
I felt the tears want to explode out of me, but they never got that far. "Why would you love me?" I whispered.
"Why would I not?"
I let out a short, manic chuckle. "There are thousands of reasons for you to not love me."
"And there's also millions of reasons why to love you."
"Stop using my words against me."
"Well, just believe my words and I wouldn't have to use them against you, now would I?"
"I want to believe you…but I can't."
"Why can't you see how much I love you?!"
"Because I don't know what love is!" I shouted.
I felt a sob rise to my throat and out of my mouth, and after that one came, a second came, and a third and a fourth…until I was just a sobbing mess. Ryan lifted me into his arms and, once again, his hand brushed through my hair as he tried to calm me.
"I can show you if you want me to." His sweet breath lingered on my ear.
I nodded my head in defeat and my sobbing came to a stop.
I looked up into his eyes and could see his breathtaking smile. My breathing stopped.
He leaned down, slowly but surely, and his eyes trailed from my eyes to my lips.
My eyes were doing the same.
And then, I felt his lips upon mine again.
But this time, I let him do it.
I felt the passion he put into the kiss and I responded this time. His taste was nothing short of incredible, and I was soon becoming addicted.
We both pulled back at the same time.
I stared into his eyes and a smile creeped onto my face.
I could be happy now.
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AN: NOT THE END. Just wanted to say that before anyone asked.
Next Chapter: The others arrive back with a few 'guests' and not everyone is happy that Saffron and Ryan are now together.
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