"Desire"

BPOV

I awoke slowly, a sweet scent filling my senses. I opened my eyes, and found the most beautiful sight in the world: Edward was there, lying next to me. His beautiful face was merely inches away from mine, and he was smiling at me. It took me a moment to realize that he was holding my hand, and that –strangely- his touch was warm. I opened my eyes widely, finally understanding what was happening, what I was now.

"Hello, Bella" Edward said to me with his beautiful velvet voice. Thanks to my new vampire hearing, it seemed even more charming to me.

"Edward" I said, sitting on the bed. He became serious, and studied my face intently.

"How do you feel?" he asked, worried. I smiled at him; I've never felt better.

"Great. Is that normal?" I said to him. He chuckled. I looked at my surroundings with my new eyes: it all seemed clearer, more detailed… and the feeling of Edward's hand in mine was certainly much better than before. Suddenly, I remembered the situation we'd been in before my transformation, and gasped.

"Edward! What about Jacob? And Azael? And…?" I said to him, frantic. He put a finger over my mouth –I couldn't believe his touch felt even better than before-.

"It's all fine. Jasper and I set fire to his body. Jacob is recovering from his wounds…" he said, stopping abruptly. I noticed the sadness on his voice; he felt guilty… I couldn't bear that. I caressed his face.

"It was not your fault, Edward. Azael forced you… no one blames you. I love you" I said. He smiled at me, and kissed the hand caressing him.

"Thank you, Bella… for all" he said. I felt like crying; he was there, with me again. But of course, I couldn't cry anymore. The memories of those three days of pain made me remember something: the soft hand touching my wrist, the way the pain lessened constantly… it had not been as horrible as I had thought. I noticed Edward was looking at me, curious.

"What are you thinking, love?" he asked me. I heard a small trace of doubt there.

"Nothing, it's just that… sometimes, I felt as if something or someone was keeping the pain away…" I said. He smiled again.

"We gained a new ally… Caitlin helped you. She came here often, and diminished the pain for you" he said. Caitlin? Of course, she could control pain… I felt grateful.

"I'd like to thank her" I said.

"You'll have time for that… she's still here" he said. He kept staring at me with those beautiful eyes of his –I shuddered slightly at the red tone in them-… and I was glad I couldn't blush anymore.

"What?" I asked finally, and he laughed softly.

"You are so beautiful… I can't believe I'm so lucky" he said. Funny, those were MY thoughts; wait a second: he couldn't read them now, could he?

"Those are my lines! You aren't stealing them from my head, are you?" I asked. He laughed even more.

"No, I still can't read your mind" he said. I sighed in relief. I realized he had a small mirror near his hand. "It's for you… I thought you'll want to see your face" he said. Well, he was right. I took the mirror, and looked with awe.

I was beautiful. I still could recognize my "human" features, but the pale skin made a perfect contrast with my hair, making me look incredibly gorgeous. I felt a little apprehensive when I saw my red eyes, but I calmed down; they would be golden in a short time. I touched my face, amazed by my own beauty… until I saw Edward's angelic face near me. He was still incredibly handsome.

"So… how do I look?" I asked him. He winked at me.

"Incredibly gorgeous" he said. We both laughed softly. I stood up, more quickly than I'd ever been able to, and stretched a little. It felt good, the sensation of power and strength flowing within me… I remembered it was not the only thing flowing inside my body. Edward's venom was inside me, running through my body; finally, I was HIS. Again, I was grateful to be a vampire.

"Something wrong?" he asked. He still could read my face.

"No… just thinking" I said nervously. He seemed to guess.

"I'm sorry, I couldn't keep that promise… we didn't get the chance to try" he said. But as long as he was with me forever, I didn't care. Before I could say that, he approached me and, grabbing my face with his hands, kissed me. It was as if he'd never kissed me before… there was no more caution, no more restrain. I felt his lips pressing hard against mines, his tongue tracing its line; I answered him willingly, kissing him as I'd never been allowed before. Another advantage of being a vampire: I could remain there for hours without air.

"That was… great" I said, breathing heavily.

"I totally agree…" he said.

"Well, we never had a honeymoon after all" I said to him. I wondered if we were alone in the house, but I didn't care anymore. I wanted Edward, here and now. He understood.

"You're right love… but maybe you should wait, aren't you hungry?" he said, and kissed me again.

"No… at least, not like that…" I said between kisses. I realized we had moved towards the bed again. I started unbuttoning his shirt, this time without difficulty thanks to my new strength. He sighed.

"But you've just awoken…" he said, but I could feel he was as anxious as I was.

"I've waited for a long time… I can't wait anymore… I want you" I said, whispering. When I felt his hands undoing the buttons of MY blouse, I knew I'd won.

"Well, we never had a honeymoon, after all…" he murmured in my ear, echoing my words.

I doubted I could describe that moment with justice. It was as if the world had disappeared; all that mattered was Edward, only him. I felt his hands over my body, caressing it when he kissed me… the touch sent shivers to my body. I caressed him too, my new senses filled with his scent. I touched his chest with my hands, tracing his perfect muscles… I realized with pleasure the scar was gone, his skin was as soft and white as always, and I felt happy. I moaned his name in pleasure, and he murmured he loved me each passing second. I cared about nothing, thought about nothing, except him… it was such an extraordinary experience. My enhanced senses allowed me to feel his body, to be more aware of his marble skin touching mine, of his soft lips kissing me, of his hair on my hands or my body… I lost track of time, too dazzled by the moment. I wondered briefly if it was the same for humans, if they felt their skin burn with desire as I did.

Hours later, we were both lying on the bed, just looking into each other's eyes. Edward had his arms around me, while I caressed his face… I still couldn't believe he was mine. He sighed in pleasure at my touch.

"That was… incredible" I said, unable to contain my thoughts.

"Again, love… I totally agree with you" he said, caressing my back. "But I guess we'll have to clean up this mess" he added, chuckling. I looked at the room, confused. It was, as he had put it, a real mess. The couch was totally ragged, the CDs scattered all around the floor, along with our clothes… I noticed even the soft blanket covering us was somewhat… slashed? I laughed nervously.

"We did all this?" I asked, ashamed.

"I'm afraid we did" he said, but he didn't seem to regret it.

"I'm glad I can't blush anymore…" I said. He laughed.

"Yeah… I'm going to miss that" he admitted. Suddenly, something occurred to me.

"Edward… do you think I'll have a gift?" I asked. I felt normal. He shrugged slowly.

"I don't know… only time will tell. I don't care" he answered. I kissed him softly. He answered immediately.

"Not that I mind doing this all day but… are you sure you aren't hungry?" he asked me between kisses.

"Nope" I said. Actually, I felt a strange sensation on my throat, like burning, but I didn't care. As long as I was with Edward, nothing else mattered. I stopped reluctantly when I heard the rest of my family talking downstairs. I was amazed; now I could hear their voices clearly, as if they were next to me. Edward noticed and laughed again… I loved to see him this happy.

"You'll get used to it. We better go down. They want to see you" he said, and stood up. I grimaced at that, but followed him. I was sure my family was anxious to see me. We dressed up quickly, and walked down the stairs hand in hand.

The Cullens were in the living room. I looked at them with my new eyes, and found them beautiful. When they saw me, Alice rushed to my side; for the first time, I could actually see her approach. She hugged me tightly, without caution… now there was no risk.

"Hi, Bella! You look great!" she said to me.

"Hi, Alice" I answered. Jasper approached me and, for the first time since I knew him, hugged me.

"Welcome to the family" he said, smiling. I felt like crying –again-. Emmett and Rosalie approached next, and he gave me a hug so tight he would have broken a human's bones.

"Hey, Bella! Glad to see you again!" he said to me, as effusive as always.

"Thank you, Emmett" I said, but I was looking at Rosalie. She stared at me, but not with hate… with understanding. I approached her, glad to notice I didn't trip anymore. She –surprisingly- hugged me too.

"Rosalie…?" I said, shocked. She smiled at me.

"I didn't know you loved my brother so much… I'm so sorry for being mean to you, but I understand now. You saved him, you were willing to give your life for him… that's real love. I'm glad to have someone as good as you as my sister" she said. I felt so touched; I knew this was hard for her –after all, she'd been against this all along- but she now understood that I couldn't live without Edward, and I had chosen to be with him, forever.

Esme and Carlisle were next, and she hugged me too while he smiled at me.

"Thank you so much, Bella. You've done so much for us" she said.

"No, Esme… it is I who should be thanking you. You always protected me, and love me" I said to her. Carlisle cleared his throat to get our attention; I realized he was now my leader too, but of course I didn't mind that. He was my father-in-law.

"What if we go out and show Bella how to hunt?" he said, smiling at me. The idea sounded scary, but my instinct told me I was hungry too. I nodded, a little unsure; I felt Edward's hand in mine.

"Don't worry, love. It's not so bad. I can hunt for you" he added at the end, wrinkling at me. I laughed softly.

"No… I want to learn. To be as strong as you are" I said. Emmett laughed near us.

"Well, that sounds good… remember you owe me a pulse" he said.

We were still laughing when we went out. Finally, my life was perfect.

More fluff to compensate all the angst :P. I had some troubles with the intimate scene… I wanted something simple, not too obvious, but romantic too; hope it worked.

And my muse is insisting on wolfXCaitlin pairing (who, by the way, is out hunting too… that's why she's not here :P) so weird… Let me know your opinion and ideas (I've been thinking on JakeXLeah too… but I'll have to find a way to ignore the "imprint" thingie…)

And sorry about typos, I didn't get an editor for this one… hope you don't mind!

Thank you all for reading and/or reviewing!!!

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