A/N: Hello People, guess what? The PROJECT ON YOUTUBE IS OFFICIALLY ON. Sure it's just a really cheesy and cringey intro at the moment, but at least that way I'm committed. Please forgive me if that's more irregular than this is, videos take a lot of time, it's crazy. Not to mention it take half an hour for me to even upload. Thanks YouTube.

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Also I thought my next video would be some Malec fic recs that aren't read much. Anyone fancy that? I've got one in my head right now that is absolutely amazing. It's just great. No spoilers here though, I guess you'll have to watch my future videos

Jem POV

Tessa Gray left an impression on all their minds, but to Jem it was Will's impression that scared him. Jem felt like he was losing Will, every second the two bookworms spent together was another second that Jem felt Will being ripped away from him. They were always discussing books, something that was sacred between Will and Jem. Will would recommend him a book, and they would discuss it as they went along, Will always complaining about how slowly Jem read, and Jem defending himself saying he didn't want the book to end, that the characters breathed so believably that he felt cruel to take the air from their lungs. That he was afraid for it to end. That was how he felt now, afraid that him and Will would end because of Tessa Gray.

Will kept visiting her in the infirmary, Jem still remembered when she woke up.

"Where... Where am I?"The brown haired girl asked, her throat sore and scratchy sounding.

"You're in the London Institute. You're safe Miss Gray. Do you remember me?" Asked Will.

"Yes. You're Mr Herondale. You rescued me."

"Yeah don't get used to him being so noble usually he's a right pain." Interrupted Jem with a smile of reassurance.

"How do you feel?" Jem asked, before Will could retort.

"Tired, but fine. Thank you for taking care of me."

"Our pleasure." The boys both answered.

Back then, Jem hadn't really thought much of their interactions. He thought that it could just be Will letting someone else in through his walls, and really, what was bad about that?

However the next day, when Tessa was gone, Will demanded that they search the Sister's house, and had sounded very determined to find something to help them. Anything.

And indeed they had found something, a clockwork automaton wrapped in human flesh, which made Jem feel like he wanted to gag, until he began coughing into his sleeve.

"Jem?!" Asked Will, alarmed.

"I'm fine." He said, only to be succeeded by a bout of coughing that left him weal and feeling fragile.

"Jem!" Will cried, running quickly to his brother's side and helping him stay upright.

"Will... I can't... I can't see..." He managed, and just like that he felt Will's arms around him, holding him close and carrying him through the streets of London.

"You're gonna be alright Jem. You're gonna be fine." He sounded almost like he was reassuring himself rather than Jem.

Will got them back to the institute in record time, and sprinted carrying him to the infirmary, shouting,

"JEM'S HURT!" All the way.

He laid Jem down and took his hand.

"Will... Why can't I see..." He whispered in fear. Will kissed his hand.

Don't worry Jem. I'm here. Magnus is coming, he'll fix this. Did you have your yin fen before we left?"

Jem hesitated.

"Jem..." Said Will with sickening dread.

"Not as much as I should have." Admitted Jem.

"God damnit Jem you have to stop doing this!"

"I thought... Because of the demon, maybe I could last longer without it." Jem said, and Will could say no more, before a worried looking Alec hurried in, with Magnus in close succession.

"What happened?" Asked Alec.

"We were just at the sisters' and there was this body. An automaton covered in human flesh, Jem looked a bit sick and then just started coughing... I don't know what's wrong." Jem shuddered. Will sounded so lost. So confused and worried. Jem hated himself. This was, at least partly, his fault. He heard approaching footsteps and shied away.

"Jem? What are you doing?" He heard Magnus' voice ask.

"I can't see." Jem told him. He heard a sharp intake of breath and assumed it was Magnus'.

"Can you fix it?" Asked... was that Alec?

"No." Magnus answered. He felt Will tense beside him.

"But you can." Magnus added. Jem was confused now. Who?

"Alec." Whispered Will, answering the unspoken question.