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Fifty shades of chiba ch. 21
Mamoru POV
I was highly displeased. First I have these dicks jerk me around halfway across Japan only to be there for a few short hours and to get a phone call from Malachite that Diamond tried to hurt Usako…again. I got back on the jet to leave and the men I came to meet with didn't think it was prudent to go and ensure my new wife was safe. I cared so very little for their callus nature that I told them as politely as possible to piss off.
The jet was fast but it seemed not fast enough to get back to my Usako. I landed on the tarmac and felt even more jetlagged than before. It still I knew wasn't as bad as how Usako had to have been feeling. Though I also wanted to talk to her about going out along with Malachite on letting her leave out knowing what could have and what did happen. It was a tiring drive back to the penthouse, the traffic seemed to want to lag today as the weather seemed to may everyone want to drive like dozens of bad Mr. Mago's.
Finally I reached the penthouse and Usako was nowhere to be found. "She went to work today Mr. Chiba." Malachite greeted. I frowned, work was okay. They had upgraded the security there and Diamond was in a hole right now, "Mind telling me how this happened?" I demanded. I was not in the mood. He stiffened, "Mrs. Chiba went out with Minako – chan and Makoto – chan." He started off.
I was about to cut him off when he put his hand up, "I do understand your orders sir but all three women are capable of handling a man if need be. I didn't see the harm as my wife was with them the whole night. I just…" he sighed. "Continue." I ordered, going to the liquor cabinet. I poured a shot of brandy. "When I was waiting for her to get back I heard a noise. I went to investigate and I was stunned." He looked down in regret.
"I should have reacted faster I know but I wasn't expecting Diamond - san to be so bold. He slipped in through an open window. Sir it is the penthouse, I didn't believe leaving a window unlocked could have or would have resulted in this or else I wouldn't have." he truly felt sorry for what happened. I took a sip, "Continue." I ordered again. I was trying to calm my nerves down by drinking just a little bit. I didn't want to lose any common sense alcohol ensures leaves your body.
"After I was stunned Diamond – san hit me. A knock-out punch. I woke up when I heard Mrs. Chiba scream my name. The panic in her voice was what finally pulled me from my stupor. I raced up stairs, pulled him from her and beat on him until he was unconscious." I could tell Malachite had gotten a bit of satisfaction from that. "Is she harmed?" I asked. "She was a bit jumpy but otherwise no real physical harm happened to her." he affirmed.
I nodded, "Work for her won't be ending for a few more hours, I want to run business through my office here until tomorrow. Once Usako is here I need no interruptions to occur." It wasn't a request and he knew it. "As you wish sir." Malachite knew that while I understood many things I was still upset that Diamond had gotten his hands on her…again. If Malachite hadn't been here and it had been me I could NOT have guaranteed his survival.
Just the thought of him forcing himself on her is enough to make me want to – I smashed the remaining liquor into the wall. The anger welling up within me from the events that transpired was palpable. I needed my Usako. I couldn't get her though until after work so I settled for throwing myself into my work. I took care of many documents I had already before taking a break by going for a run.
The run lasted twice as long as normally. Every time I felt like I was done an image of what happened was formed in my mind and I felt the urge to kill him. It gave me an adrenaline boost and kept me going. I was getting back home when I saw Beryl getting into a Bentley. I was stunned as the driver looked completely wrong for the car. He looked to be rough around the edges and not at all what Beryl normally hangs out with. I couldn't catch up enough to get the license plate number but I knew something was up. I just didn't know what.
Once I got back I did some more paperwork before hearing the bell dinging signaling that Usako was home. She dropped her bags down and I greeted her, "Usako glad your home." I began, I was about to lay into her. I specifically told her NOT to leave this penthouse and the FIRST night I leave she leaves to go dancing. Diamond uses the opportunity to attack her and I nearly lost her already.
"Me to, it was a long day at work." she began after kissing me. I followed after her as she left up the stairs to change into her work out gear. Mentally she was exhausted but physically I knew she could stand to work out a little. Before she could get into motion I stopped her, "We need to talk." I tell her. She sighs, "I was hoping to avoid this." She begrudgingly admits. I fold my arms over my chest.
"Usako you took an unnecessary risk in going out last night. What were you thinking?" I demanded of her. she looked at me nearly appalled. "Excuse me?" she asked, hands on her hips as she defended herself verbally. I hated this as she looked so very sexy to me right now. Trying to be intimidating. "You heard me. You were very careless with your safety and compromised it." I told her.
"I can take care of myself thank you." she snipped back. "That how Diamond almost raped you?" I snapped back. She looked suddenly very still. "He could have done some serious damage Usako. I just want you safety to be a concern to you as well." I tell her trying to quell her emotional state. "You think I don't know what he could have done?" she looked up to me, tears of anger and pain shimmering in their depths.
"Diamond is a cowardice dick. He used a stun gun to take me down because I was to tough for him to beat. What he tried to do was to get even with us both." Her words were the truth. "I know, I've been trying to tell you this." I explain. "You have any idea what its like to be to temporarily powerless? To have no control over your body and to fiercely want it back with a vengeance?" she snarled.
I couldn't say yes, "No." she poked me in the chest, "Then don't presume I don't have the slightest clue as to what happened. He came in here when I was drunk and tried to take advantage of me. He took care of Malachite to get to me." she was starting to whimper and this is definitely NOT any way I want to hear her whimper. She turned her face as she walked to get her work out prepped up.
"All I wanted was a normal night out with my cousin and friend, and what did I get….? I got a slimbag who decided that raping me was his only option to getting even. I got a dickbag that went through all of that trouble just to put me beneath him – and he did!" that got my attention steadfast. Malachite only told me that she had been attack in here by Diamond. My eyes narrowed now as to what ALL he did do. "By the way we're getting a new bed." She sniffed, I could hear it in her voice.
I looked over to where the bed sat. It looked so innocent. If anything it did look a little rumpled and right there is when I saw it. Diamond messed it up trying to force himself on to her. I gripped my fists to the point of having white knuckles as I could only image what happened. "What all did he do to you?" I asked in such a low dangerous tone that Usako turned around and looked at me with shock.
"I was handing him his ass when the stun gun came out. I couldn't react in proper time to deflect it." she began, her head low and eyes averting me. "I fell to the floor from the effects right before he hauled me up on the bed and…" I reached forward to hold her but she backed away. I never wanted to have this effect on her, but it seems Diamond did that for me. I hated him more for having her NOT want my presence.
"He spread me wide so he could climb between. My body was still under the effects of having been stunned so movement was very limited." She tried to talk now like it was a more clinical thing. As if it happened to someone else and not to herself. Disassociation. I held back on what I wanted to say, "It was when he began to unbuckle himself that I felt a surge of adrenaline kick in." she commented.
It was as if she was reliving it from yesteryear and not from the night before. Already her mind was trying to forget what happened, even though she knew it would be integrated into her memory for all time. "I knew it was going to have to do something severe to stop him because he wasn't going to." now her voice held disgust in it. Though disgust in what he did, or in what she felt in those moments I wasn't sure on.
"I managed to get my legs loose from his hold. Slipped them out and wrapped them as tightly as possible around his neck." It was then that her mouth turned upwards. I held a sick notion in my gut on that smile. Especially as she turned from the sardonic smile she held to the now disgust she now had. "I squeezed until I thought he passed out before releasing him. The adrenaline was wearing off when he came back to." I looked over and saw the real fear in her eyes. She blinked and willed the fear away.
"Malachite saved me. He ripped Diamond off of me and nearly beat him to death." She now looked up to me, "Funny thing is I was glad he had been there." Now I felt a surge of jealousy going through me. She preferred to have my body guard there over me? I felt my knuckles turn white again at the jealousy I felt. "Because had it been you Diamond I knew would be dead. You would have killed him." that is true…my knuckles started to turn back to their normal shade of color again.
"I would have hated to see you in cuffs for murder." She tells me. I go up to her and was finally able to hold her. "I do hate, for what he did to you and for what he tried to do to you." I told her affirmatively. Diamond was a scum bag. I wasn't willing to take any more risks. Diamond had money with friends and family, I knew he'd get out somehow. Technicalities and all that. "I want you to stay here when not at work." she got a confused look on her face.
"When you're done at work you come straight home. No going out until Diamond is officially in prison." She looked appalled at me now. "Excuse me?" she snapped, taking a step back from me, "You heard me." I stood firm by my decision. "You will go to work and come back home. I'm sure we can find something to do to occupy our time." I tried to work a little sex in it to sweeten the deal.
She just looked at me like I was insane, "Not that I don't enjoy our sex life because I do…" she told me as if that were up front. "But I'm not not going to enjoy my life, our life outside of these walls because some conniving dick is out there. The world is full of people like him and I've survived out here this long. I'm capable of taking care of myself!" she snapped towards the end of her tirade.
"Not if your drunk!" I snapped back, I had to make her understand that she wasn't invincible. I had to make her see that she was strong but she wasn't super woman. She felt she could take anything on, I loved that about her but she wasn't about limitations other than the punishments, "ONE TIME!" she bellowed at me in rage. But I was right. "And all it took was for ONE TIME to get you on your back, unwillingly but still." She was boiling with rage.
Her eyes were like blue orbs of fire burning at me. "I'll be more guarded in the future and besides he's in police custody. He can't get to me." she stated trying to be reasonable at least. I sighed, "He has friends Usako. I don't want to scare you but police custody has its limitations and I don't what there to be a NEXT time ever!" I exclaim. I needed her to understand why so that she would be more accepting of what I wanted for her. This was for her safety, not mine. I couldn't care less what happened to me, only her.
I could tell I put the fear into her and as much as I wanted to quell it I needed to get her understanding of it, "Beryl is possibly working with him and I don't want to take a chance of her doing anything." I tell her. she scoffs. Not a small one she loudly scoffed, "Nani?" I near demanded. "Beryl? Seriously? Don't get me wrong she's a vicious loud mouthed tool but she's not one for getting her hands dirty." I now looked to her in a scoff.
"You don't believe me?" she demanded. I held up my hands in warning, I didn't want to get into an all-out war on this. "Believe this. The bitch isn't capable of getting her hands dirty. If she sees a spec of it she cringes and the world stops because of it." she snipped dryly. I had to admit Beryl wasn't one for letting herself be unchecked. The woman checked herself in a mirror more times a day than a hairstylist did in check customer's hairs.
"Besides that the bitch isn't brave enough to try to take me on. I wouldn't go for a stupid chick fight hair pull I would knock her on her ass and she knows it. She wouldn't come and do something stupid." She thought she had me. I gave a pause to let her think on it before I said, "And if she pays someone to do it?" I asked her. She took a moment before stating, "Unless she offered them the world ANYBODY can be blackmailed or pressured to give her up. She's good but she's not that good."
She had a point. anyone Beryl hires could be pressured by the cops to start talking or it was their lives on the line for take the full heat of harm against another person. I can't see Beryl having that much power over any one person that would do something so stupid just to please her knowing she would rat them out faster than a speeding train. This wasn't going in my best interests here.
I needed to reroute this back to her staying here, "Usako I love you and just for the time being I need you to stay here after work. In fact, I'm tempted to have you not even go to the bakery." I sa the absolute livid look on her face, "Its not as secure enough as the publishing company is." I reasoned…or thought was a reason. "Are you insane?! I'm not quitting a job I enjoy just because some egotistical dick whose LOCKED UP, MIGHT get out!" she was right in my face now. Her words punctuated by a finger jabbing me in the chest.
"The publishing company has security cameras, security guards and panic buttons. The bakery doesn't." I snapped back mildly. "I know you love that place, I get it, Makoto – chan and Minako – chan are there but so is the opportunity to in harm's way." I resisted the urge to sound pleading as she huffed, "Makoto – chan, Minako – chan and I are capable women. We can protect ourselves and each other." She wasn't getting it.
"And what happens if Diamond gets out? what happens if he stops with the subtle tactics and takes a gun this time?" that stalled her but only for a moment. "You're still talking about when and if's. Give me solid proof and I will consider your way of thinking but this is ridiculous." She looked at me strangely. "Nani?" I questioned. "Your becoming obsessive over this. Mamo – chan…" she stopped the poking and instead looked up to me with more critical thinking eyes, "Hai…" I answered.
"While I love how possessive and protective you can be this is borderline…" she started to go on but all I could think about was protecting her. She was my wife and I would do whatever it took to protect and ensure her safety. If that meant to put her in a giant tower like Rapunzel then so be it. "It doesn't matter. I'd rather have you furious with me than in harm's way." I walked away signaling it was over.
"Oh no you don't." she snapped and got back in front of me. "You don't get to get your way by walking away. I'm going to go out when I please. I don't know WHEN that is but I will. And there's nothing you can do to stop me." as if to prove her point she grabbed her purse up and work out hear still on made her way to the door. I blocked her way, "I'm not letting you get hurt because of your reckless actions right now. You're just doing this to piss me off!" I reason trying to get her to understand.
"No your trying to talk me out of leaving just so you can be right. Admit it Mamo – chan your becoming obsessive with protecting me." if that's what it took… "Usako I would do anything to keep you safe." I told her, "I get that and I love you for it but you keep this up and soon enough I'll feel like a prisoner in our home. I don't want that. Now if you'll excuse me I have some steam to burn off and a good jog sounds like an idea." Thoughts of Beryl around earlier got me in her way. "Not happening." I crossed my arms over my chest.
She tried to push me out of her way, "Listen you ass! I will not be denied my basic rights to go outside whenever I deem necessary! NOW MOVE!" she ordered. But I was the one who gave the orders around here. Not her. I fought with what I had left to ensure she stayed because at this point even if Diamond wasn't a problem it wouldn't be a good idea for her to be on the streets at this time of night.
At least on our dates before we married it was a reasonable hour. Seven maybe eight but it was nearing nine now thanks to our argument and her work. "I'm going to go for a run for my workout." She tried to move me again but it was like moving a brick wall. She wasn't going to get me to move unless I wanted to. "Oh I'll give you a work out." I promised. The lust beginning in my voice.
She took a second look into my eyes and I knew I saw the same response I was looking for reflecting in there. She wanted me to. "That's not the type I was thinking of and besides…" I watched as she tried to hold her head up high. Trying to look superior and dignified when in reality her short stance compared to me only made her look like an Egyptian cat. Dignified she looked but it was hard to take her seriously when her hip was cocked out and she was wearing work-out clothes.
Despite that she had the appearance of a woman who wanted her husband. It was stubborn pride that kept her from giving in already. not to mention that she was a good foot shorter than me so her appearance was borderline comical. I've seen this little lady pissed off before, this stance wasn't pissed. "I'm still upset with out on this stupid matter. No nookie for you until you agree with me." she tried to be high and mighty on the matter.
I looked down at her haute looking form. "No nookie?" I asked, clarifying that. I crossed my arms over my chest, "Hai." She stated short and curt. "So…" I walked forward until my arms touched her chest. I felt her nipples swell up at the smallest amount of pressure. I resisted the urge to smirk. It wouldn't help me. "You don't want your tits in my mouth?" she opened her mouth but I cut her off, "You don't want my fingers slipping over your sensitive clit?" she faltered, "That's not - "
I loved this! I uncrossed my arms and gently put my arms at each side of her chest to avoid her catching on. "So you don't want to have my cock stretching your walls between those delicious pleasure pain moments that I know you love." she licked her lips, "That's not what I - " she was trying to get her bearings. I couldn't have that. I leaned down and kissed her gently on the lips before engulfing her in a heated passionate embrace that she moaned into.
I leaned down and picked her up. She naturally wrapped her legs around my waist, "So you don't want me to make hard love to you? Scream your name out as I hear mine from your lips?" I crushed our lips together once more. "You don't want to come like a river around my cock as I pumped into you with everything I have?" I pushed her up against the nearest wall and watch as her body squirms for more. It writhed for the pleasure that only I could give her. That only I would give her.
"Tell me you want it." I demanded. here she just denied me her body, my wife, thinking she could get away with it. Fuck that! She was mine as I was hers. I wouldn't care if she was sick as a dog, I'd still want sex with her. "Tell me you want me. This." I growled lowly into her ear as I buried my head into her neck. I tasted the succulent flesh there as she whimpered her need of me, "Please…" it was so needy and wonton that I said screw it and yanked her sports bra off. Yes a sports bra.
Even if it was mid-day I still wouldn't want her leaving the penthouse looking so desirable. At least not without a jacket to go over it. I didn't like it when other men could see her as I did. I understood it but I didn't like it. I sucked a breast into my mouth. The nipple hardened within seconds once inside and she clenched her legs around me even tighter. I couldn't help but notice how extra responsive she seemed to be.
Must be coming to her period. I better get in what I can before it fully hits. With that in mind I switched breasts. My right hand left to pull at the small shorts she had on until they were off her ass. Thank kami for elastic. I wrestled around with my pants for a few moments before I felt my hardened cock poke out. aimed at her I felt that along with her shorts I pulled down her panties to, "Oh fuck Mamo – chan now!" I glimpsed up at her and saw the heady look of lust and need in her eyes.
I didn't care that I was stretching out her work out shorts, I'll get her new ones. I shoved inside hard and fast. "Usako hang on." I ordered. She complied and wrapped her arms around my neck as I shifted her legs. Now up and over my shoulders I had a better advantage to fuck her madly as I felt was needed and wanted. I pushed inside once more. Her nails ran down my back with determination as I felt them leave burning trails.
I growled in need in response. I loved it when she left me in a little bit of pain, it added to the pleasure her body gave mine. I went forward, driving into her with determination as she urged me on repeatedly. My shaft plunging into her heated core with an urgency. I heard a loud thud as her head connected with the wall behind her. I looked up but found her eyes clouded over in pleasure. if there was any pain she didn't show it.
I leaned forward and trailed hot open mouthed kisses down her neck. Reaching her collar bone I nibbled on it before thrusting in at a more demanding pace. I thrust harder and heard her whimper of pleasure. She loved it when I went in deeply like this. It was when she called my name, "Mamo – chan…" like a hymn. I looked up and heard her breath the words, "I love you." I felt like I was under a spell from a siren.
I'd happily fall. So I did. I lost control of the moment and plunged in harder and faster. My hands grasped her hips tightly as she writhed like a worm on a hook in my cock. Trying to get me further in her as I was trying to get myself further inside of her as well. I couldn't help the urgency in my movements as I continued to pound into her. it was like something snapped and happened. Neither of us knew though. I felt the urge so deep to implant myself within her that I lost control.
"Fuck Usako I love you so much." I looked up and watched her facial features as she derived pleasure from me. "If I could I'd ask you to marry me again." I told her. she giggled, "Mamo – chan, you could ask me a hundred times and the answer would still be the same." The gleeful look in her face as enough to make my heart swell in adoration for her, "Why did I not find you sooner?" I asked marveling this moment.
"You were busy." She giggled. She brought me back when she clenched her muscles tightly around my cock. My head fell between her breasts as she did it again earning another growl from me and a hard thrust. I held onto her hips as I plunged in quicker and harder. My tempo became harder as she bounced around on my cock like there was nothing else in the world. I watched her breasts jump up and down from my continuous movements.
Usagi POV
I couldn't believe this. Yet again we were in a passion filled moment, it seemed these were never ending and I'd never get tired of it. I felt myself building higher and higher. Just when I thought I could get any higher he pushed me past my limits and showed me that I could. My breasts bounced with near painfulness as he slammed his girth into me at a rapid pace. It was when he started to corkscrew his hips into me that I knew this would be ending soon but pleasurably. I needed it to end though. I was at my limit with what he'd been doing.
That and the turmoil that we had gone through after we got back. He kept pushing me further into the wall. Grinding his hips into me in ways that made me see stars I clenched tightly around him and felt my orgasm crash through me. I felt him jerk within me as I bowed my back at the force of it. I felt the heat that spoke of him while I flooded him with my essence. It was mind bending and I loved it.
He retracted from me and picked me up. Shorts still around my upper hips I lazily tried to pull them up as he went upstairs. He chuckled as he threw me on the bed he had for me when we first got together, "Tomorrow after work lets go order a new bed. We can have it delivered the next day?" he suggested. I merely nodded. Somehow this seemed to quell the anger I had in me from earlier. He pulled my shorts the rest of the way off of me and I did so much as budge. Once off he did the same with my gym shoes, yes I had those on during our tryst.
I watched as he stripped himself down to nothing. His pants had already been very loose around his hips so it wasn't to hard for him to remove them. I watched my personal Adonis climb in bed next to me and pull me in, "We'll sleep for now. Coming morning time we'll eat before heading out to work." I nodded, not in the mood to argue. I was well and truly sated. "Usako…" he muttered into my hair. "Hai?" I stated dreamily. "I meant what I said before." and that broke the silence. Before I could protest he kept going.
"I just, I love you to damned much to let anything happen to you. When Malachite told me what happened I felt my heart drop into my stomach. I could have cared less about appearances to those stock holders. All I could think about was getting back to you. if anything did happen to you I'd never let myself forget it. it would forever be a moment in life where I regretted it." he said in such a sad tone that I felt a bit bad for yelling at him earlier.
"We can work on the being at home thing, I just refuse to let this matter ruin my life. Our life." I turned back to see his own eyes getting droopy. Jet lag for him again. I touched the side of his face, "I don't want to be afraid of my own shadow and I shouldn't." I explain. "I'll have more guards posted and one with you at all times – those are my conditions." He cut me off before I could cut him off.
"If that's what it takes to maintain a life still then I will work with that. As long as the guard doesn't interfere with my job." I complied as much as possible. I knew he wanted to keep me safe and protected but he can't keep me cooped up in the penthouse like that. I won't let some dick control my life like that. Not him, Diamond. "Agreed." He kissed me lightly as we fell into a light slumber.
It was around 5 am when I felt it hit me. I raced to the bathroom and heaved the contents of my stomach into the toilet. My nude form touching the cool tile floor making the heat I felt coming off of me in waves cool down slightly. It felt really nice and cool. Mamo- chan heard me as before I knew it he came in to hold my hair back, "Usako are you okay?" he asked, concern in his voice. "Hai…it must just be something I ate. Or stress, or both." I conceded. It was entirely possible considering what had happened recently.
"Usako what did you eat that was out of the ordinary?" he asked. I wracked my brain not finding anything in all honesty. I was pretty routine with my food intake. I didn't change up often due to limitations at work. I wasn't into fish and recently I couldn't help but notice that even the chicken had been smelling odd to me lately. I didn't trust it so I kept to salads during the day for lunch. I held one BIG possible thought in my mind but I didn't want to reveal it till I knew for sure that THAT was it.
I didn't want to reveal my suspicion just yet so I blamed it on a possibility elsewhere. "Its probably just due to stress of recent events." I flushed the toilet and went to the bathroom sink to brush my teeth. He looked at me strangely, "Stress?" he asked, "Its not common but if one is stressed enough they can become emotionally sick from it." he nodded his head, "And with what happened to you…" he stopped and wrapped his arms around me from behind.
"I'm so sorry I wasn't there Usako…" he kissed the back of my shoulder as I finished my teeth and gargled. I relaxed into his hold before spitting the minty substance out. "I know, but its over with now." I turned around, "Let's go back to bed." I ended the conversation as I kissed him and pulled him back to the bedroom. I thought about what I had to do tomorrow and tried to find a way to see a doctor to confirm but knew I wouldn't be able to. The moment I went to one the guard would tell Mamo – chan.
"So when am I getting this guard?" I asked as casually as possible once back in bed. "Glad you're on board with this…I'll call for one to be there around noon. That's the latest I'll give it." I nod. I just hoped I could see a doctor before then to do blood work. "Okay." I closed my eyes wondering about the inevitable. So when morning officially came I did my daily routine with Mamo – chan before heading to work as he did.
I called up Dr. Mizuno and asked for a blood test. She had a tight schedule but it pays to be friends with the doctors daughter. She fit me in around 10am. I then called into work. Explaining the doctor visit due to sickness my new boss was more than accommodating. Though I suspected he suspected what I thought it really was. So I would be starting work officially at noon. Perfect timing for the guard to show up.
I was in the waiting room when Dr. Mizuno came in, "Hello Usagi – chan." We hugged before she pulled a vial out, "So why the emergency testing?" she asked, "I need to see if I'm pregnant." I told her bluntly. She smiled, "You and Mamoru – san didn't waste time did you. I smiled, "Nope. The majority of the honeymoon was spent inside the suite we had." I admitted, she giggled as well.
"Well the test results won't be done for a few more hours, I'll call you to let you know okay?" I nodded and hopped off the metal table I sat on, "Just out of curiosity why not take an at home pregnancy test?" I sighed, "Because if I am I was to be without a doubt 100% positive. doctors and blood tests do that. at home ones…" I couldn't help but hold doubt…unless I used like three different brands but then I wanted to be able to tell Mamo – chan myself, not have him find the test results before I had the chance to.
"Let me know of his reaction." She tells me, a smile on her lips. "I will." I leave out and barely made it to work before the guard came in. with sandy blonde hair and a short frame than Mamo – chan I questioned his choice a bit. However the way he walked and carried himself was nothing short of professional and watchful. I honestly felt like I could let my guard down a bit. So when he drove behind me to go home I didn't mind it.
He stayed relatively out of my way at work. though he did garner some looks, as did I but all in all it worked out. His name was Jadeite and I somehow felt that he should meet Rei. Don't know why just had a feeling. I got home as he went to join Malachite I went to join Mamo – chan. I felt great that the work day was over but I also wondered on the blood tests. Did she forget to do them or get swamped?
I felt like biting my nails to keep from calling her to see if I was pregnant. We were sitting on the couch eating popcorn watching a movie when my phone rang. Honestly at this point I didn't think she would call so I didn't even think about it when I went to answer my phone on the coffee table next to his. "Moshi, moshi?" I answered. "Usagi – chan." I recognized her voice and shot off the couch to fast for Mamo – chan not to notice.
"Hai?" I asked her. I walked away from the couch for a moment feeling all of the sudden very anxious. "I ran the test twice just to be sure but you are indeed pregnant." My whole body felt like it went through a hot and cold flash at once. "Oh wow…okay…thank you." I uttered through suddenly dry lips. This was BIG! "Don't forget to let me know how he reacts and be sure to come by for another appointment to see how far along you are and for a prescription of prenatal vitamins." She stated in doctor mode.
I merely nodded still stunned. "Yeah right okay. Night." My sentences were all off at this point, I was going to be a mother. I turned around and saw Mamo – chan looking at me oddly and in concern, "Usako what's wrong?" I clicked the end button on the phone and told him, "That was my doctor…I went to see her today as I was curious about my throwing up." He was fully attuned to me now.
"And?" he asked. I wanted this moment to be something to be happy but I felt so damned nervous that I made him worry. His concern was in every inch of him, "I…we…I…we're…" why couldn't I get this out?! I was frustrated with myself. I felt scared suddenly as much as I was excited to be a mother what if – "Usako what's wrong?" he demanded, standing up suddenly. He took my arms in his grasp and I panicked.
"I…we…I'm – we're…" what could I say – or rather how could I tell him this? I wanted this to be a special moment to be shared between us but now I'm so nervous that I can't get the words out. I had plans on this damn it! we were supposed to share the moment and laugh and rejoice just as any other couple would finding this out, but I panicked and I couldn't talk. It was as if my courage left with my voice to a one way ticket out of here.
Did he want kids? Would he be happy about this or upset thinking it would deter our sex life? I wouldn't let the child take over our lives but I would do everything I could ensure I took care of both him and our baby. I wouldn't let one over shadow the other. I had to find the right balance and I could only do that if I had his help in the matter. However, I couldn't get that help or anything else if I didn't open my damned mouth and talk. Great now he looked at me like I received bad news.
"Usako please tell me what's wrong?" for a moment I thought about lying to him. tell him that it was a lousy case of indigestion. But I couldn't do that. I wasn't a coward I just had to speak the words so that I could get that look off his face. "Usako?!" he urged. I broke. "We're pregnant!" I blurted out. I almost snapped the last words out just to get them out. He was in complete and utter shock.
"Pregnant?" he asked, "Hai." Was my simple response. And then just like that a smile spread across my face. the words were out and spoken and in all honesty I couldn't be happier. I was going to be a mother and I couldn't express how much I was glad that despite the shit that had happened recently that this bit of good news came with it. The smile that came across my face dropped at seeing the expression on Mamo – chan's face.
I wondered now if he even wanted to have kids. Come to think of it did we ever discuss that? I looked at him as he turned around. Avoiding letting me see the expression on his face. I tried to move to see it but fear of his rejection of the child ran through me to strongly. My feet wouldn't budge for anything. "Mamo – chan?" I tried. With his back turned partially to me I saw that he was in deep thought.
My stomach dropped as I felt sick again, "Mamo – chan?" I asked. Tears were welling up in my eyes at the chance that he'd not want to have a child with me. Or maybe this was to soon. He looked back to me. He kept opening his mouth but shutting it again repeatedly. It wasn't until the third time that he said, "I've got to run I'll be back." He walked away grabbed his gym shoes and bolted out the door. The waterworks began as I fell to the floor. Completely devastated that he just left without a word to what I told him.