-Aj-

I was on my way to Rarity's shoppe. I was surrounded by Celestia, Twilight, and a couple of my cousins. Wrapped in a blanket, they wanted to add extra cover to keep modesty intact. People looked our way like I was some criminal. The group that was with me knew I wasn't, but the way it seemed, it was like I was. My cousins wante

d to come with new to make sure everything is going to be okay.

I just kept my eyes down to the ground as we walked. When we got to Rarity's, she was already working on something. We came inside to see her at get sewing machine, working on a pair of jeans, "You're very tall, Darling," she was speaking to me, "And you've got big breasts and a wholesome ass. The perfect body that grew too tall," she scoffs then sighs as she sits back in her seat to look at us, "I've always hated making clothes for you. Always made me jealous."

"Then why make them?" I ask, "Wouldn't it be easier to give me clothes you've made already?"

"It would if you were normal sized. For you and a few members of your family, I don't mind making you clothes," I was confused. She just said she hated doing it, "I hate doing your clothes because of your body type. You have such a perfect body type. It's just bigger. Letting people know what kind of body that you have. It always made me jealous."

I blushed a little, "Well I'm sorry that I chose the wrong Genes for you. I'll get it right next time," then I smile.

"Smartass," she giggles and finishes sewing up the jeans, "There," she stands up and tosses them to me, "You know where to change. There's boxers in there for you. I'll bring you a shirt in a few minutes."

"Thanks Rarity," I smile.

"Don't mention it. I was going to do it anyways. You've grown to inches over the last couple years. It was about time I finished making it."

I just give hey a quick hug before leaving. On my way to the back, I caught whispering. It was a low voice speaking into the phone. Going into the back hallway, I saw Spike on the phone. I couldn't understand the whispers. It was in a different language. When he turned around, he froze before instantly hanging up. It was clear that he was upset, "Spike, you okay?"

"Peachy," he growled before storming passed me. As he passed, he said something that added to my already confused mind, "Should have said something sooner about your sister," I just watched as he cut around the corner.

It took me a second to trust and even comprehend what he meant. After a loss for answers, I go find Rarity's office. It had designs on paper and plans scattered in stacks all across her desk. A wide array of sections of fabrics lined the walls. With it all just being an office, it was still cool coming in here.

Her swivel chair faced me. In it, sat a folded pair of black boxers and a black sports bra. I smile at how well she knew me. I step up to the chair as I let the blanket fall off of me. My peripheral vision caught movement an I look right. Looking right revealed to me a body mirror. Thinking of what Rarity said made me feel a little self conscious.

I turn to the mirror and walks up to it to get a better look of myself. Blonde hair, big green eyes, freckles all over, physically fit, magical powers. I even have a girlfriend. A person who has it all and still feels like she has nothing. I'm pretty even, yet I've never felt it. I've just felt like me.

I look at my body. My muscles mostly. I've always assumed that my original strength came from years of farm work. Not precoded by magic to be strong. Everyone is focused on the knew me now. Not the old me that's still so scared. It made me sad and it brought me to tears.

I manage to pull away from the mirror to try and stop crying. There damage had already been done. Looking at myself, I don't know how to feel anymore. I knew my life would change, but not like this. Not feeling like I'm an outcast now. My tears flowed as I slowly and surely pulled the clothes on me.

My eyes slipped back to the mirror. Seeing the jeans fit perfectly made me even more sad. They fit perfectly and emphasized the curves of my legs and hips. I'm trying to be less attractive, yet all I kept getting was the opposite. I go to my knees to cry. I held myself and sniffles. Time felt like it slowed down. Just long enough to ensure that I felt like I didn't deserve any of this all over again.

"Aj?" I heard called out as a door opened, "You were only gone for like five minutes and you've already brought yourself to tears," Rarity comes to kneel beside me, "What happened?"

I look up to look directly at myself in the mirror, "When you look at me, what do you see?"

She looks at me in the mirror with a look of concern, "What happened?" she said with more force.

"You said that you were jealous of my body. It made me think of things. I didn't ask to be like this. So much of a perfect person. Genetically, I'm superior than most. I've been gifted such surreal powers. One would think that I would be happy."

"I'm guessing you're not?" she frowns more.

"People only see me for what I am," I look away from my reflection to lean into Rarity.

"You know what I see?" she hugs my head and rubs it with a hand, "I see a woman who's gone through so much he'll and yet is still good. You could have already taken out the Sisters of you wanted to. But you didn't. Which means that you are a good person. No matter what others see on the outside. For it's what is on the inside that counts."

"I don't even know what is on the inside anymore. I've only been feeling hate and sadness. That's what's on the inside," my mind delved deeper into depression, "I caused so many problems by just keeping the one intact. If I would have said something sooner, my sister wouldn't be dead. If I had just been paying more attention to Applebloom in the first place, none of this wouldn't happen."

That's when Rarity grabbed my face and forced me to look at her, "Now listen to me, Applejack. You've done nothing wrong aside from beating yourself up over this. Yes it hurts to lose a sister, but it's not your fault. She decided to go down that path."

I felt my anger grow at the thought. As my anger grew, I felt my energy levels grow too. Rarity could tell because my eyes started glowing again, "Rarity..." was the last thought in my head before it was filled with am electric charge.

Rarity stood and started to step back from me, "Fluttershy!" she called out as my breathing started to quicken. My heartbeat picked up in Pace. I was going to blast off again. It scared me; making my energies heighten even more, "Fluttershy!"

I began to stand. As I did, Shy skidded to a stop at the door. She looked at me with fear. Sadness tugged at my heart. She was seeing me turning into a monster. That's what stopped me. That's what suppressed my energy levels.

Shy slowly made her way up to me. She raised her hands a little in surrenderence, "It's okay, Love," she gives a weak smile. When she was an arm's length away from me, she stretches out a hand to me. I take it and that caused her to smile bigger, "See, it's okay. It's me."

Celestia and my cousins come following each other in the room, "What's going on?" Twilight asked as she entered the room.

Shy and I look at them before I shy away. My few shy steps backwards caused me to let go of Shy's hand. Shy looked back at me, then back at the Princesses, "She's just going through a little something. Aj?" she's looks back at me. All I could do was hide behind my hair and hold myself, "Aj?" she asked again. This time, I look down at the ground, "Will you come with me?"

I shake my head and takes another step back. I felt so alone and so sad. I couldn't believe to process all that I felt. It made me feel like something had stolen my voice. Shy frowns and just comes up to me to hug me tight. I gasp and blushes before hugging back, "It's okay, baby. It's okay," she leans her head into my chest, "Just try to relax."

I just look to Celestia as I hug her, "Take me from this place. Before something goes wrong."

"No," Shy shakes her head and looks up at me, "If you're going to her to train, I'm coming with you."

"You have an entire Veterinary Clinic to run. You can't manage it from where ever she sends me for training," I say it, but truly, I wouldn't mind taking her along.

"Besides Shy," Celestia smiled, "She's not going far. Only to the castle."

"How long will I be?" I sniffle and wipes tears from my eyes.

"Only until we figure out how to hone your powers," Celestia dips get chin, "However long you decide it to be."

"Then I will make it as quick as possible," I dip my chin too.

-Dash-

I sat on a cloud high above the Earth. Right above Cloudsdale. I had hugged my knees as tears flowed from my cheeks. It just hurry so much that I still couldn't win the heart I so desperately wanted. All I could do was just sit here until my sadness went away. I knew I had to curb it soon. I had been up here for almost two hours. Someone had to of started looking for me by now.

"Dashie?" And someone did. They found me, "Dashie, what's wrong?" the voice was sad and concerned as the soft flaps of wings came from behind.

"It's nothing, mom," I sniffle and wipes the tears from my face with a hand.

I feel the cloud I sat on shift a little, "You and I both know full well hell that that's a lie," I see her legs swing over there curved edge of the cloud. I look right to see the redhead looking at me with "I'm not stupid" written on her face, "You've always had a reason in why you never dated growing up. Sports, saving the world, being a Professor. What's your reason now?"

My eyes went wide at get realization. It was true, but I didn't think of it like that. Or how she figured out that what I was feeling so you're about, was love. I couldn't even give her an answer. Simply because, it wasn't so easy. I love a woman who loves someone else. I looked away from her, not knowing what to say.

"Let me guess," I close my eyes, "She," I snap my eyes open and looks back at her, "doesn't love you back. You had your chance and now you have missed it. You're mad at yourself for not taking your shot sooner. Now you must wait until the window opens back up," she smiles. I was now do confused as to how she's figured this all out.

My confusion made her continue, "I caught wind of Aj and Shy. That's when you started sulking. It wasn't hard to figure out. You didn't even go see what was going on at the Apple Orchards. Ponyville is in total panic mode. Why didn't you go down there?"

"Because I knew everything would be handled without me. I'd just be in the way."

"Or is because of Shy? Do you envy her?" the question stung my heart. I did envy her. She got the girl because I couldn't speak up, "You have something that Shy doesn't. I don't know what it is," my mom stands up, "But I'm pretty sure that Aj will find it. And love you more for it."

Then it clicked. Something similar happened to her when she was younger, "You've gone through something like this before?" I asked her.

"Your dad and I weren't always so close," the memory choked her up, "He liked me, I liked him. But we were in the wrong relationships at the time. What made it worse is that we didn't know we liked each other until much later."

"Well, Shy isn't a bad choice, or even a wrong one. I'm just sad that it wasn't me she chose."

"A word of wisdom. It's okay to be sad about this, but don't push her away because of it. Just keep being her friend and give her time."

Talking about it did make me feel better, but like she said, Aj had left already. And that brought me back to sadness, "Yet I couldn't say goodbye. I was too wrapped up in me being sad, that I wasn't there for her. Now she's gone and I don't know when she'll be back."

"I'm sure you could just fly over to Canterlot to see her. I don't think the Princesses would mind," my mom smiles.

I stand up and sighs, "It seems like there's something going on with the Princesses. I think there's something more than just training. She just wants to take the biggest threat ever out of the game. So I highly doubt that Aj will just be wandering the halls of the castle. She's already gone. Aj just doesn't know it yet."

"You're just being paranoid. Aj isn't a threat. She's a good person."

"Power can awaken dark desires. Celestia may play on that. Aj is good, but time will only tell if she'll stay that way."