I passed the next two days in my room, reading books and casting spells. They said that I can't marry him. Ha. And I'll raise this baby on my own.
They're pleading me to get out of my room but I don't. I allow only Alex to come in the room so I can eat something. He keeps saying that I'm not in a good condition to stay like this. I think he's right. The last days I have sharp pains and feeling awful.
I smiled at the memory of three months ago. It was the day before I was going back to Hogwarts. I lied that I was going to meet Linsdey but I actually met him in the beach and spend a wonderful night.
"Rosalyn" Alex said and sat besides me. "Come down, you don't even know what's going on in the house" he said.
"No" I said.
"Mom's crying because she wants to see you, they are both worried that you don't feel well because of your hormones and you'll end up killing yourself" he said.
"Yeah, maybe I'll kill Nathan too so we can be together forever in Eternity" I said sarcastically.
That night, I woke up feeling something in my stomach. I sat up with my ten week bump showing a bit. My hands were covered with my own blood. The blood at the sheets made me paler.
"MOM, DAD!" I screamed crying. I hope they woke up. What am I telling, I woke up the whole neighborhood.
The door opened and they run inside.
"Rosalyn, what's going on, it's 2 AM- dad started but stopped when he saw me crying.
"Rosalyn, baby what is it?" Mom asked.
"Mom it hurts" I sobbed. And then it was when they realised the blood in the sheets
"Shh, it's alright" dad told me even though he was shaking. "Don't look." he turned my face to his. "Don't cry. Things like these happens. It's nature" he said. Another pain came and I cried in pain.
"Alex!" Mom screamed. He came inside yawning. "Call a ambulance and quickly! Come on love, let's go to the bathroom" she said gently. I tried to get up but my knees couldn't hold me. With the help of my parents, I got up. I looked at the sheets but they turned my face so I wouldn't look.
I sat in the toilet seat for ten minutes crying. How am I going to tell Nathan? He wanted this child so badly and I killed it. He'll break up with me and he'll be right.
"Rosalyn sweetie, it's not your fault" dad said and sat to his knees. "This is nature, we can't do that to avoid it. Listen, the ambulance is coming soon. They told me to sit you down because in this age, you're in danger too. Don't mind the sheets, we'll have them cleaned up in the morning" he said. I couldn't even see his face from my tears.
I don't know how many time I was laying in my bed, ten minutes, fifteen I don't know. The only I remember is the paramedics, then a white ceiling and then... Blackness.
When I woke up, I was in a hospital bed, covered with a white blanket and cards besides me. I felt like recovering from a illness. I sit up in the bed and noticed some things in my wrists. I usually see them in movies but anyway. Outside, it was night and I could see the cars and the lights of the city. I opened the first card.
Dear Rosalyn,
You're in trouble. You didn't tell me you were pregnant. I'm going to kill you *joke*. Anyway, I'm so sorry. Don't cry, you may have six or eight kids when you'll get older.
Love,
Lindsey
I smiled at the card and put it back down. Nothing could make me feel better. I'm sixteen yeah, but this doesn't mean I can't love like some people say. I heard voices and I pretended that I was sleeping.
"Now Mr. and Mrs. Dawson. Rosalyn is fine, something weird. Some women die when they are under twenty and have a bad pregancy but she managed and survived. Anyway, unfortunately she lost it. She'll stay here for two days but she'll need to take some pills after for her bleeding. I'd comfort her if I was in your shoes, her mood will not be good" Dr. Calvert said. I heard them enter my room. I didn't want to talk at anyone. I just wanted to fall asleep and never wake up.
"Mr. and Mrs. Dawson?"
I tried not to open my eyes at Nathan's voice.
"Can I sit with her for a minute?"
"Fine. But if you-
"Jack" Mom hissed and they got out. I opened my eyes and smiled at him.
"I'm sorry Nathan. It's my fault" I said.
"No it wasn't. We can't avoid these things, it's nature"
Bloody hell, I wonder if he talked with my father.
"Listen Nathan. We are young. I'm missing the whole time from home. You know what? Let's keep up dating and marry later. We have plenty of time" I said. He nodded smiling.
...
All could understand that I was not the same. I returned home. I had a week before I had to return at Hogwarts. My friends kept owling me, sending encouraging messages. But it didn't light my mood.
I was doing chores all day, studying and sleeping. That was my schedule. Study, eat, chores, sleep. They have tried to talk to me but I just found a excuse and didn't. Even Mrs. Weasley owled me. Mrs. Weasley. Weird, to call Mrs. your mother. Imagine calling my mother Mrs. Dawson or Ms. Dewitt Bukater. Well, I've grown up with these people so it doesn't seem too weird to call her Mrs. Weasley
She told me that she had a miscarriage before me too and that I can owl her anytime. She said that even though she is not my mother anymore but only by blood, doesn't mean I can't contact her for problems. I didn't tell her on my thanks letter but I trust my mother more for such problems. She knows all my sides.
So, the last day of the holidays, I said goodbye and left for Hogwarts. Trying to get back in my life. Which was a very hard part.