1864

It was nighttime and Anna and I were running.

"Where are we going?" I asked her.

"I don't know, but we need to get out of here." She explained. We found a stable and saw that there was one horse. "I think I have to go by myself."

"No, I don't want to leave you." I explained. I loved her and I didn't want her to go. "I love you."

"You'll see me again." She replied. She then bit into her wrist filled my mouth with her blood before she snapped my neck and I faded into a world of black.

Present

Damon, Maria and I were in the cell. Stefan seemed to be hallucinating because he was saying something about Katherine. Since he didn't even seem to be lucid, there really wasn't much point in talking to him.

Dear Diary

I'm not sure if we're making any progress with Stefan. He doesn't seem to be getting better. He hasn't been drinking blood, but he seems to be depressed. I'm not entirely sure if there's anything that I can do. He doesn't want to talk to me. He's hurting and I don't even know how I'm supposed to fix it.

I then got dressed in a black sweater with a red and white checkered scarf and ripped jeans with a crystal hairclip and my usual sneakers. I found that Maria and Damon were in the kitchen having breakfast.

"Where's Sarah?" I asked.

"She went to school early." Maria answered. She seemed to be avoiding this Stefan stuff, which was probably a good call on her part. Damon began to fool around with the device in his hand. "What is that?"

"Whatever it is, it doesn't work." Damon explained. He then looked at me. "Can you talk to your girlfriend about it?"

"I doubt she knows anything about it." Maria replied. "My father might know something, but I've been too busy to talk to him because I've been here most nights."

"Does that mean that you're going to be here again tonight?" Damon questioned.

"Do you have a problem with that?" I asked him.

"Yes, she is a total nuisance." Damon answered.

"Well we have to get to school." I declared before we went out to my car.

"So you're not cheating on Elena, are you?" She asked.

"What would make you think that?" She inquired. I hadn't even seen Anna in days.

"You were moaning her name in your sleep." She told me.

"That was back when I was turned me." I explained.

"I thought Katherine turned you." She declared.

"I never said that." I pointed out.

1864

I was in the quarry as I waited for Stefan to wake up. There was a ring on my finger that wasn't there before. I was feeling rather hungry.

Stefan then awoke and ripped open his shirt to find that there was no wound. He also had a ring on his finger. He didn't seem to know what was going on.

"Katherine had me make that for you weeks ago." Emily replied. Now that he was awake, Emily took a blade and cut her hand. I looked at her as the blood smelled tantalizing. "I made a promise to Anna that I would help you turn. Drink."

I began to lick her hand before I sucked on it a little. Emily then used her magic to push me away and I felt the pain of my teeth growing.

"Where are we?" Stefan asked.

"The quarry, just north of town." Emily answered as I tried to get my craving for blood under control. Everything felt different. I knew that I needed to stay hidden. "My brother and I brought you here. We found you two dead in the woods."

"What about Mikaela?" He asked. '

"Anna broke my neck." I explained. "Damon's over there."

"I will help the two of you transition like I did with her." Emily remarked.

"How?" Stefan asked.

"You had Katherine's blood in your system when you died." I explained, not wanting to get too close. "She compelled you to forget."

"What about Damon?" Stefan responded.

"No compulsion was necessary." Emily declared. "He drank willingly."

I looked at my brothers as Stefan walked over to Damon. I still didn't want to stand too close.

"So you're a vampire." Damon said to me.

"I am." I agreed. "I don't know where I'm going to go. Father will not want me. Have you two made any decisions yet?"

"I went to the church and watched them drag her inside." Damon stated. "Then they set fire to it. The whole church went up in flames. They killed her Stefan. She's gone."

"We're probably better off without her." I opined. That really wasn't very sensitive of me, but I couldn't help but be thrilled.

Present

Once I got to school, I found Anna. I really wasn't paying much attention to Elena because I didn't want to become distracted by our relationship. I needed to help my brother and everything else came second to that.

"So how is he?" She asked.

"He seems depressed and he's hallucinating from the lack of blood." I explained.

"He has not had any blood at all?" She questioned.

"Well I did get some animal blood yesterday." I declared. "I grabbed a raccoon and I put its blood in a bottle, which really wasn't as easy as you think it would be."

"You should probably keep trying." She suggested. "Don't give up on him."

"I wasn't planning to." I remarked. I knew that I couldn't. He was my brother and nothing was more important to me than family.

"So would it be alright if I came over today?" She asked.

"Sure." I responded. It seemed like I couldn't say no to her. I loved her then and I loved her now, but I also knew that I loved Elena and I had no idea what I was going to do about it. It was a bit of a dilemma.

I did decide to go see Elena for at least a few minutes. It was basically going to be exactly one thing. It was better than nothing. It was nice and satisfying. After it was over, we put our clothes back on and headed out into the hallway. She went to the linen closet, so I assumed she was going to take a shower. She closed the door and there was John. We both jumped in surprise.

"Sorry." He apologized. "I was hoping we could talk."

"I don't really have time. I was about to take a shower." She responded.

"It won't take very long." John replied.

"Sure, what's up?" Elena asked him.

"I was wondering what your mother would say if she found out that you were dating a vampire." He stated. That was my cue to leave. I raced out before she could even respond.

1864

Stefan returned with some water.

"I bet Jonathan Gilbert has told Father by now." He commented.

"I can't help but wonder how he'll learn about me." I stated. I was beginning to twitch because I was hungry, but I didn't want to leave my brothers and I didn't want to kill them either.

"As if he cares, he betrayed us." Damon reminded him.

"He thought that he was protecting us." Stefan pointed out.

"He was protecting us." I stated.

"Kaela, we don't need to hear any more about your hatred for Katherine." Damon spat. "She's dead anyway. The sun hurts my eyes."

"Emily says it's our bodies wanting to turn." Stefan declared.

"It gets better after you turn." I told them.

"That's not gonna happen." Damon replied.

"Is that your choice then?" Stefan asked.

"Isn't it yours?" Damon countered. "This was all to be with Katherine. She's gone. I want it over."

"I don't want to lose either of you. Damon, we're supposed to stick by each other always and forever. I'm not dead, so you shouldn't die either." I told them. "We can do this if we stick together."

Present

I met Maria at the house and we both went down to see Stefan together.

"How are you feeling?" She asked him. He didn't respond. I noticed that the bottle that I

"You need to drink that." I told him. "It wasn't easy to get it and you can't survive without it."

"I don't wanna survive." He muttered. It was the first thing he said in days.

"Don't say that." Maria declared.

"It's true, Maria. I don't want to do this anymore." He said. "I just want it to be over already."

"We're not giving up on you." I said.

Later, we were in the living room with Damon.

"You know he's just being dramatic." Damon stated. "He's not gonna starve himself."

"But why would he say that?" Maria asked in confusion.

"He feels guilty about hurting Tina." I explained.

"It's typical Stefan martyr stuff." Damon added. "It'll pass."

"Will it?" Maria challenged. "Because he seems to be in a lot of pain."

"That'll pass too once he eats." Damon replied with clear frustration in his voice.

"She doesn't mean physical pain." I explained.

"I know what she meant." He stated. "Are you going to be okay with Kaela because I have to go run out and do an errand with the teacher?"

"Are you two friends?" I asked in surprise. It would be nice if Damon had a friend.

"I don't have any friends." He replied. "I won't be there too long."

1864

Stefan and I stood outside of our house. The window was open, but I found myself unable to stick my hand through it.

"I can't get in." I told him. "You'll need to say goodbye to him for both of us."

Our father talked about how Stefan and Damon would be remembered as victims, not traitors.

Present

I noticed that Anna had finally arrived. I decided to take her up to my room because Maria had gone back down to the basement to talk to Stefan. On the surface, it might not seem very smart, but I knew that he wasn't going to hurt her. He didn't seem to want any blood, so he wouldn't want hers.

"So do you think that she can help him?" She asked. We were on my bed across from each other.

"I think it's worth a shot." I replied. "I think he has a better chance of opening up to her if I'm not there. "I'm running out of ideas."

"Why is he so torn up when he didn't even kill anyone?" She questioned.

"I don't even know." I replied. "He always cared for people a lot as a human, and I think as a vampire, it's only worse."

"You know I always thought that you would find me, but after 145 years, I found you." She declared. "I know that you have a girlfriend, but it's hard to fight when you so many years of feelings built up."

"What are you doing?" I questioned.

"Just tell me if you want me to stop." She told me.

"I don't want you to stop." I declared. At that point, she kissed me. We began to take each other's clothes off and I looked at her pale white skin. I looked at nipples and planted a kiss on each one of them. I had dreamed about the moment for so very long.

I kissed her all over in. I kissed her lips, her neck, belly, and her nether regions. I then buried my face inside and began to lick. She held my head down, even though I wasn't going anywhere. I wanted her cherry and I was not going to stop until I got what was mine. After a few minutes of licking, I got what I wanted and it was amazing.

Of course, we didn't stop there. She flipped me on the bottom and began to finger me. As good as Elena had been, Anna was better. It made me wonder why I had ever slept with guys at all.

1864

Stefan walked inside and I stayed hidden. I had to find someone, preferably not on vervain and feed just like Anna had showed me. Our father was being a complete dick to him. Stefan didn't even say that I had turned. He still attacked and Stefan defended himself before killing him and feeding on our father's blood.

"You killed our father." I told him when he came outside. There was definitely something different about him.

"It was accident." Stefan replied. "This feels amazing. We need to convince Damon to turn now."

Present

Anna had to leave and go back to her mom. I really hoped that Maria hadn't heard any of that. I went downstairs to see Maria was sitting on the couch doing some homework. It might have been a good idea to do some myself, but I was dealing with family issues at the moment.

At that moment, Damon returned. He was apparently back from his errand.

"Ugh, you're still here." He remarked.

"Were you expecting anything else?" I questioned.

"It was more of an observation." Damon noted.

"How did the errand go?" I asked as I took a seat.

"It was a dead end." He remarked. "Though, I think I witnessed the teacher having an existential crisis. Has Stefan eaten yet?"

"No, but I'm pretty sure that he's getting closer." Maria declared. That sounded like good news. "But he's got a lot of guilt that he's got to deal with. It doesn't help that you've spent the last 145 punishing him for getting caught."

"This is my fault now?" Damon responded in surprise.

"No, it's no one's fault, but I'm saying that you're not innocent in the matter." She responded. "You've made it your life's mission to make him miserable."

"That's not the whole story." I stated as Damon got up.

"What is?" She inquired.

1864

Stefan and I brought the girl to her. She had helped me feed already.

"Who is that?" Damon asked.

"She's a gift for you." Stefan replied.

"What have you done Stefan?" Damon questioned in shock because he had turned.

"Damon, Father attacked me and I defended myself and accidentally impaled him and then I had some of his blood and it feels wonderful, Damon." Stefan explained.

"You fed." Damon stated coldly.

"Damon, it can be the three of us always and forever." Stefan urged him.

"We were doing this for Katherine." Damon restated. I wasn't.

"You don't need her." I declared. "I'm not going to force you, but I think that you will enjoy this. We can do anything, Damon."

"There is no world without Katherine." Damon argued. His stubbornness was beginning to annoy me just a little bit.

'You're weak and you'll be dead soon. You need this." Stefan told him. "Stop fighting and drink the blood."

Stefan then forcibly fed the girl's blood into Damon's mouth. I turned my head. We had said that we wouldn't force it on him, but it seemed he had lied.

Present

"From the moment that Stefan his first taste of human blood, he was different." I finished.

"I suppose I should thank him." Damon commented. "It's been one hell of a ride."

"That's why he won't feed." Maria realized. "He feels guilty for making you turn."

"It's his choice if he's stupid enough to make it." Damon declared.

"Stop being an asshole. We're not letting him die." I argued. At that point, Maria just went downstairs.

"Damon, Mikaela, he's gone!" She shouted. "He left his ring behind. I think he wants to go somewhere to die."

"I think I know where to find him." I replied as I took Maria to me car.

1864

"How do you feel?" Stefan asked.

"You're right. It is better." Damon confirmed.

"We can explore the world together." Stefan suggested.

"You got what you wanted: the three of us for all eternity." Damon said. I couldn't help but smile. "But, I promise both of you it will be an eternity of misery."

Present

Stefan started to spin and nearly fell over, but I caught him.

"I got you." I declared as I held him in my arms. He looked at Maria. "I told her the rest of the story."

"I should have died that night."

"I should have died that night. I should have let Damon die too." Stefan remarked. I outright slapped him.

"Do you know what would happened if you died?" I asked. "Elena would have died. Dying now isn't going to change what happened."

"You don't understand the pain that I feel, Mikaela." He argued.

"Maybe I don't, but just because it hurts doesn't mean that you should stop." I declared. "Please come with us. I love you and Maria loves and even though Damon's not here, he loves you as well."

One thing I couldn't help but wonder was if he wanted to die, why didn't he just stake himself? There was plenty of wood lying around. It was almost as if he wanted us to find him. I wasn't complaining. When then went back to the house where Damon was sitting by the fireplace.

"He returns." He remarked.

"I'll give you three a minute." Maria said before she headed upstairs.

"Thank you." Stefan said.

"No, thank you." Damon responded. "You're back on Bambi blood and all is right in the world."

"We will always be there for each other." I reminded them. "It was what we promised."

"You brood too much." Damon told him. "What I do is not your fault. You don't get to feel my guilt."

"You feel guilt?" Stefan asked in surprise.

"Yes, it's there if I want to feel it." Damon replied. "I don't hate you because you made me turn. I hate you because it was supposed to just be me. "

"Good night Damon." I told him as I went to bed.

"You have some serious explaining to do." Maria said as I noticed Anna on my bed, crying.

"My mother is dead." Anna replied. I just went over to give her a hug.

So the first piece of news is that Mikaela is sired to Anna, but no Anna doesn't know it. The second thing is they slept together. What's going to happen now? Please don't forget to review.