A/N: I apologize a thousand times. I'm SO sorry it took me so long to update! I felt horrible the whole time. I've rewritten this chapter FIVE times. Yes. I'm serious. MAJOR WRITERS BLOCK~ and this is all I have to show for it:

"I don't know how to be close to you" he whispered against my hair

I placed my head on his chest – listening to his breathing even out. "This is enough" I whispered contently.

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ONE YEAR LATER

"Are you sure she's ready?" I heard Jasper ask to Carlisle

"Yes." He said without hesitating. It made me feel so much better knowing Carlisle had so much trust in me. "She showed great self-control in her first two weeks according to Edward; just imagine how it is now."

Jasper sighed, frustrated. "I can't understand this, I can't bear this" he stormed out of the room.

I didn't feel offended at all since I'd already talked to Edward about it. Jasper couldn't understand why I had such an easy time with being a vampire and controlling my needs. He was frustrated with himself- his weakness as he thought of it. He thought that maybe if he expected more of himself, he would rise to those expectations.

Jasper had pretty much voiced my thoughts out loud. I had been worried all week, wondering if I was ready for this step. All of the Cullens had taken their time adjusting to the vampire life and their vegetarian diet. I felt ready, but I couldn't help but worry. What if I lost control? Having Edward there with me the whole day made me feel better; I knew that if I lost control he'd stop me. But what would it do to the family? Surely, we'd have to move.

It felt like that first day at Forks High all over again. Well, not exactly. I had a new family with me. Even though the Cullens were everything you could ask for in a family, I still missed Renee…and Charlie, too; even though I didn't really get to know him that well.

"Are you nervous?" Edward was suddenly by my side.

I had to clear my throat twice. "Surprisingly…yes"

He took my face in his hands and I looked into his eyes – as always getting lost in them.

"I love you. You are ready for this." I opened my mouth to tell him I wasn't worried but he stopped me. "I don't have to read your mind to know you're worried."

I sighed. At times like these, I wondered if Edward could read my mind after all.

I wrapped my arms around his waist and his head rested on mine.

At least Edward would be in all my classes. It was amazing the things Carlisle could get the female workers at school to do for him.

"All right you two, break it up" Emmett came into the living room. "It's time to go, school starts in 5 minutes" I raised an eyebrow. Emmett being responsible? Huh. "And it's a 15-minute ride there." He grinned. "Race ya, Eddie?"

I chuckled. I remembered when I used to worry about Edward's driving skills – the 100 miles an hour rides, the fast turns and everything – but after a while, you get used to it. It doesn't even make sense to be scared. It's no faster than running.

"Boys" Esme said from the kitchen. "No racing"

Emmett sighed "But, mom"

"Ah – no buts"

"Fine" he pouted.

"Sorry, Em. Maybe another time" I whispered

"Don't give him any ideas, honey" Esme told me as she walked past me.

We said our goodbyes to Esme and Carlisle – both of them wishing us good luck on our first day at Denali High School.

Edward and I took his Volvo while Alice, Jasper, Em, and Rose took the M3. We definitely weren't going to fit in. I know that the M3 is a fast car, and that's why they have it, but seriously? It's red.

Edward held my hand the whole ride there while my stomach was doing frightening little flips. See, unlike the Cullens, I had only been to High School once. I hated being the center of attention, and I had no doubt that everyone was going to pay attention to us. Alice had dressed me up today, not helping at all. She even did my make up! What was this, the prom? No. This was our first day at school. And really, who cares about what they think of us? It's not as if we're trying to impress anybody or meet any cute boys!

We finally got there with only two minutes to spare. Very few people were still in the parking lot, so we could move a little faster. We went to the main office to get our schedules. Of course, Alice didn't really need it, but we had to keep up appearances.

As soon as we walked into the small warm office, two sets of eyes turned to stare at us.

Edward wrapped his arm around my waist and bent down to whisper in my ear. "Are you okay?" he asked concerned.

I knew what he meant. He didn't mean it the normal way. He asked it to make sure I was still in control of my need. The windows weren't open because of the weather outside so it was just us in the room filled with the scent of two humans.

I swallowed. "I'm fine"

"It helps if you don't breathe" Alice said so low it was impossible for the humans to hear.

I did just that.

"You'll be great, Bella" Edward whispered to me.

We had first period English. Unfortunately, in wishes of staying in this town as long as possible, Edward, Alice and I started out as freshmen. Jasper, Rose, and Emmett were sophomores.

We walked into the room holding hands of course. The story was just the same as it was last year – we were all siblings, adopted of course. I knew without a doubt that the rumors would spread like wildfire. All the eyes turned to us as we walked in. The boys looked at Edward with fury and envy just as the girls looked at me. And then they would switch- all the girls would look at Edward with dreamy eyes which made me want to do some things that aren't very nice and the boys looked at me causing Edward to almost growl.

The teacher acknowledged us, signed our papers and walked away mumbling something that sounded like "siblings in the same class is never a good thing"

We took the two empty seats in the back row – perfect. I grinned.

"Not that I object but what are you smiling about?" He too had a smile on his face.

"I'm thinking this might not be so bad after all" Of course, we were talking inhumanly fast and low.

The teacher started talking about some non-sense about English literature and how we should all be reading more – I'd already gone through freshmen year so I decided to have a little fun. I carefully ripped a piece of paper out of my notebook.

Edward, I'm bored:(

Out of the corner of my eye I saw Edward smile.

He took the piece of paper and wrote something quickly before handing it back to me.

What would you like to do? We can do anything you want

I thought about that and I saw an opportunity way too good to ignore. I tried to stop the giggles.

Hmmm…anything?

I passed it to him before I had a chance to talk myself into erasing it.

Be serious, Bella.

I giggled at that.

Fine.

I pouted. Who was I kidding though? Really? If I couldn't seduce him in our bedroom, what were my chances in a classroom full of kids?

How are you feeling?

Good.

By good, do you mean "not breathing"?

Yup

You're doing great

And then the bell rang. We gathered our stuff and headed out the door. Nothing especially interesting happened in the classes that followed. Then came lunch.

"So, Edward? You hungry?" I smiled as I reached for an apple.

"Funny" he smiled too.

"Huh." I thought for a second "You never did tell me, what happens if I eat this?"

He grimaced.

"I don't think you want to know, just don't. Trust me."

I put the apple to my mouth and opened my mouth.

"Will it hurt?"

"Bella, don't. Really, it's not very pretty."

I took a bite out of the apple but before I had a chance to chew, Edward held a napkin in front of my face.

"You have to throw it up" he blurted out.

I froze. Ew ew ew. I spit it out into the napkin.

"Really?"

He nodded.

"That is so…gross"

"What's so gross?" a small voice came from behind me.

I spun around shocked that someone was talking to us. Humans tended to avoid us, their subconscious telling them we were dangerous.

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