Remember all characters belong to Stephanie Meyer and I'm just borrowing them for a little while. Ashley ofcourse is mine and if I decide to add some other character those will be mine too! Ehehe I totally wish I came up with Jacob tho!

Chapter 21: We Fight, We Make Up!

Ashley's POV:

We were all siting in Emily's lounge and no one was speaking to each other. The silence was becoming too much for me so I got up and walked to the kitchen. I did not want to deal with anything right now. I was tired because of my flight and I really couldn't concentrate right now. Emily came after me and we just stood there by the table, neither of us speaking. "Why can't shit like this happen at some other time? When we aren't trying to celebrate something?" asked Em. "I don't know Emily, I wish I fucking did but I don't."

"Well I would've thought that you would know why she does these things because she is YOUR sister. You must know why she does this because she is your fucking blood." She yelled at me

"Are you fucking kidding me? Me and her may share the same fucking blood but she is not MY sister and it definitely isn't my fault that she's obsessed with my boyfriend. You don't know how that feels Emily. You have no idea what it feels like to know that the girl your boyfriend was in love with was the girl who shares your fucking blood. You don't know how many times I've compared myself to her and thought I wasn't good enough which is why Jake didn't want me before the imprint. So don't you dare ever tell me she's my fucking sister. She is NOTHING to me. NOTHING!" I yelled right back.

The pack came running into the kitchen to see me and Emily spitting harsh words at one another. Sam held Emily back while Jake grabbed me. Leah stood next to me and put a comforting hand on my shoulder. Emily saw this and then continued to yell "I do know! My fiancé wanted my cousin before me! A girl I considered my fucking sister! He WANTED her! Not me! I know what it feels like" by the end of that she was leaning back against Sam, all the fight drained out of her. I looked over at Leah only to see that she wasn't looking at me, she was looking at Emily apologetically. Emily then walked into her room and slammed the door shut and I did the same with my door. I just wanted to be alone and I knew that Jake would want to talk about it and I wasn't ready for that yet. I know what had happened in the kitchen, we were frustrated and angry and scared. We were scared of what would happen to all the boys we have come to love and think of as family. Bella was destroying our family and that had both of us scared shitless.

I lay in my bed but I can't sleep. I really needed to apologize to Emily, I shouldn't have said the things I did. It was uncalled for but she did compare me to Bella and that does not sit well with me. She knows that but it still happened. After around an hour or so there was a knock on my door but I didn't reply, a couple seconds later the door opened and Jacob came in. He gently shut the door behind him, for which I was grateful. He sat on the end of my bed and gently touched my foot. "You wanna talk about what happened?" he asked. I just shook my head. "Come on Ash, you know you can't keep everything bottled up because we would get another repeat of today if you did. You and Em are so similar; she likes to keep this shit bottled up too. Talk to me Ash, I can't fix it if you don't tell me what's wrong." I looked up at him and he saw the tears that were forming in my eyes. He scooped me up and pulled me against him. "Shhh, Ash – honey it's okay. Emily won't take anything to heart, trust me."

"What I said was not right. I shouldn't have said all those things to her, it was really wrong of me." I told him

"Yeah but she also said some things didn't she? So it's even and don't even worry about it okay?" I just nodded and snuggled into him. He was so warm and I slowly drifted off into dream land.

The next day –

I woke up next to a very warm body. I covers were on the floor and my head was resting on an arm instead of a pillow. I looked over to see Jacob sprawled out next to me. One of my arms was being used as my pillow and the other was wrapped around my waist. I smiled at him. He looked so cute when he was sleeping. He looked like the little kid that I grew up with, the kid who cried when I cried and the guy who promised to always be there for me - the guy who kissed me on my fathers couch.

I got out of bed very carefully. I didn't want to wake him up because I knew he needed to sleep if he was going to start patrolling soon enough. I left my room and went to the bathroom to get cleaned up. After I had brushed my teeth and didn't look like death, I walked out and went straight to the kitchen. A girl had to eat. I froze when I saw Emily sitting at the table, alone. I knew I had to apologize to her and now was the best time because there was no one around. I walked up to her and tapped her on the shoulder. She looked over at me and I started speaking before she could say anything "Emily, I'm so sorry for everything I said yesterday, it wasn't fair of me to do that and you don't know how sorry I am. Everything I said was completely uncalled for." I looked at her and waited for her to yell at me. She got up and hugged me "I'm sorry too Ash. What I said to you yesterday was totally out of line. I know that you're nothing like your sister and I know I was wrong to compare you guys to each please forgive me" I looked at her like she was stupid

"Are you stupid Em? I am the one who should be apologizing. I'm sorry. You let me live in your house and here I am being a total bitch to you."

She smiled "Okay I'll forgive you only if you forgive me" I nodded and that was that. We sat down and were having breakfast when I voiced my fears "Em, I'm scared. I'm scared that Bella is ripping apart out family. I feel like something bad will happen and its gonna be her fault. I don't want to see anyone get hurt Em"

She put her hand over mine and said "Ash, I know what you mean because I feel the same way – I do but I know that Sam needs me to be string for him and not be weak because if I'm weak then he's weak." I was trying to understand what she was saying but I was lost. She saw the confusion on my face and continued "If I'm not strong then all Sam will focus on is that I need him. Do you really think he'll be able to go out every day knowing that I didn't WANT him to? He wouldn't and that would mean that a lot of people are unprotected because I was being selfish." I get it. I know what she's saying

"So I need to be string for Jacob?" when she nodded I continued "But what if he decides he does LOVE Bella and not me and then he fights the imprint all over again? I can't handle that."

"I know how you feel honey. I know because that exactly how I felt about Sam and Leah. He loved my bestfriend and then suddenly one day he looks me in the eye and I'm forever his? I didn't get it but you need to understand that Jacob was MEANT to be yours. Not Bella's, yours. He has loved you forever and you have loved him. You both love each other and the imprint was only a catalyst in what would have happened eventually. You have to accept that Ash and you need to forget about the past because that's not going to help you or him. Neither of you need the past hanging over your relationship. Bella is nothing to Jacob." I was nodding by the end of that. Ifinally understood. I knew now that what happened with Bella was the past I couldn't hold that over Jacob's head. He was under this pressure almost constantly. He would always keel like he had to make up for everything and I didn't want that in our relationship. We have always been able to talk to eachother and have always been very open about everythigng. We had never let anything come between us – besides Bella – and I wouldn't let his past mistakes come between us either. That was certainly not happening. Now I had to wait for him to wake up so I could talk to him.

"Thank you Emily. I know what I have to do now but I wouldn't have come to this conclusion if it weren't for you! So thank you!" I told Em.

This time she patted my hand "It's no problem Ash, I just want you and Jake to be happy." I got up to leave but then turned back around to tell her something "Hey Em?" she turned "Yeah?"

"Leah will come around ya'know? She undertsnads that Sam and she weren't meant to be and she will eventually forgive you guys. Don't give up hope, you never know when your bestfriend will walk through that door and tell you how sorry she is."

"Thank you Ashley. Thank you!" she replied. I just smiled and walked out of the kitchen. I had a wolf boy that I needed to talk to.

Hello lovelies! So here is chapter 21! I hope ya'll like it. I literally sat in university and typed this out for you guys! But yeah, so Em and Ash fight but then make up so yay! Let's see what Ash has to tell Jacob in the next chapter!

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